LYRICS
I've been treading water for as long as I can remember
and the currents keep on tugging
and my legs are getting heavy
and I fear what awaits me when I finally get pulled under
the waves crashing at the shore sound like distant thunder
I keep thinking about sinking about swimming and what that means
and I swear Fiona I too am busting at the seams
but I'm not growing I'm just showing up and trying to do my best
but I'm afraid I won't know what my limits are until I'm dead
and I've been scratching at the surface
and I've been feeling fucking worthless
and I've been craving a break from the madness like no one else's fucking business
like do you think I chose to be born this way
or even born at all
sometimes I wonder what it's like to be 50 stories up and fall
or wrap my car around a tree
I pray that no one is around
'cause if no one's there to witness it my screams won't make a sound
and I've been screaming for eternity 
and mostly into the void
but it all falls on deaf ears anyways 
as if I didn't make a noise

Cover art by DALL-E A.I. art generator
Written, recorded, performed, and produced by alayna ill

Treading Water

Found items circus beat
Written, mixed, and mastered by Alayna WIll

Contraption

Written, mixed and mastered by Alayna Will

Box Composition

Written, mixed, and mastered by Alayna Will

Tense Loop

After School DigiPop Instrumental

Body (Jordan Suaste Live Cover circa 2020)

my love is like the ocean
by that I mean I'm drowning in you
but my love is just a cliche
by that I mean I can't say anything new
someone else hasn't said better
who knows whether
they're gonna stay in the end
I can't say whether
I stay in the end

my love is like the weather
my love is a downpour
my love shines hot and I don't even know what for
my love is like the clouds in the sky
it comes and it goes
my love is like the raging winds
never know which way it blows
never know which way it blows
never know which way it blows

missalaynius