I wondered how the world could turn
Spinning 'round with no concern
While people on it tear themselves apart
I thought my heart was left for dead
Beating poisoned thoughts instead
Of beating for a purpose

Have you ever wished that you could die
Just to see the other side
And find out if it's all it's said to be?
I've said at least a thousand times
I'd rather live than just survive
If that's too much then there's no room for me

When I could hear those death bells toll
I nearly quit and gave my soul
To the hands of a fate uncertain
But as I clenched that steering wheel
Something about it made me feel
Like if I could hold on, things would get better

But I've always wished that I could die
Just to see the other side
And find out if it's all it's said to be
If just for once I could find the strength
To clear my mind and start to think
Of just one thing to put my mind at ease

And I found you
Staring back at me
In the airport in July
I never saw the good in me
'Til you came and pointed it out
You saved my life

So do you ever wish that you and I
Could live forever, never die
And keep our open hearts out on our sleeves?
I'll give this world another try
As long as I have you by my side
Cuz you gave me a reason to breath

When I found you
Staring back at me
In the airport in July

July

Clear the foggy haze that blurs my mind
Melt away the shackles on my spine
I'm afraid to move
Afraid of the truth
Rinse out all the salt poured in my wounds
Rake away the foolishness of youth
Oh I'm afraid to die
Afraid I'll survive

And all I want to do is understand
That shadows on the pavement are a thing of the past
But underneath the dust held on my breath
I'm afraid of losing myself

Separate the comfort from the change
Cut the ties that bind me to my name
Oh I'm afraid to dream
Afraid to fall asleep

And all I want to do is fill the void
With something of more substance than the daydreams of a boy
But as these bloodshot nights will surely tell
I'm afraid of losing myself

Oh

Lies instilled in my core
I'm not scared anymore
Lies instilled in my core
I'm not scared anymore

And all I want to do is clear my mind
Of memories that corroded the innocence of time
And though this twisted, empty grin can sell
I'm afraid of losing myself
I'm afraid of losing myself
I'm afraid of losing

Afraid (feat. Tatiana Krzesicki)

Lately I've been finding it harder to breathe
With the weight of the world crushing down on me
This built-up tension has no release
I can't remember the last time I felt in control
This pressure consumes me, devours my soul
I've got to find a way to let it go

One more push could send me over the edge
Into insanity
I though my heart could be my guide
Instead it stranded me

I've had enough of this now
So I'm not perfect
I've got to break away somehow
Cuz it's not worth it
To lie and hide who I am inside
My voice won't be shut out

My heart's bursting with the passion I've suppressed
Empty pages while the lyrics fill my head
Is all my potential gone?
Has all of my effort been wasted?
I've been losing my mind
Trying to find a dream that's worth chasing...

And I'm done, I'm done
Trying to be what they want
I swear to God one day they'll remember my name

And I don't know when I
Became so caught up in the crowd
This is not the life I was created to live
I know that I was made to be
So much more than I am right now
They have no idea what I'm capable of

I know
There's more to life than just trying to survive
I know
There's more to life than just trying to survive

Passion

This album is about honesty, imperfection, and hope. Its mission is to connect with every single person who has ever felt completely alone in what they're going through. It's a departure from the vast ornamentation and general vagueness of modern music. When we recorded Speechless, we tried to capture the live feel as much as possible. Each song was recorded in a single take, and absolutely no artificial editing was done to "improve" the tracks. There are cracks, there are screw ups, there are notes that just don't quite get hit, but this only contributes to the raw honesty of the album. This is a voice for all those who feel outspoken. This is an answer to every silent cry for help. This is Speechless.

Speechless

Distinctly I remember
Each separate dying ember
Filled me with fantastic terror never felt before

Vainly I tried to borrow
A soul unladen with sorrow
Grimly I wished the morrow for this and nothing more

Let my heart be still a moment
This mystery explore
Darkness there and nothing more
My soul within me burning
Wrought it's ghost upon the floor
Truly your forgiveness I implore

Nevermore

Deep into darkness peering
I stood there wondering, fearing
My heart now beating louder than before
Weak and weary, I pondered
For God we adored no longer
As bird or devil grew stronger, his shadow on the floor

Heaven bends above us
But the silence lies unbroken
Heaven bends above us
o'er the lie thy soul hath spoken

Let my heart be still a moment
This mystery explore
Darkness there and nothing more
My soul within me burning
wrought its ghost upon the floor
Truly your forgiveness I implore

Nevermore

With the stillness broken
The Devil hath spoken
Through the raven croaking nevermore

Nevermore

Nevermore

If I had then
The strength I have now
I would bite back my words
I would plant my
Foot in the ground
And brace for the worst

But I know I don't deserve
Your forgiveness and it hurts
Knowing that the things I did to you
I can't undo

If I could go back and do it again
I would take back every word that I said
And I know that it's too late, you've already been mislead
But i need you to know I can't get you out of my head

I remember
The promise we made
And the trust that I broke
When I told you
That I'd never change
I guess I misspoke

Cuz there were cracks in the road
And doubt in my soul
I blamed it all on you

If I could go back and do it again
I would take back every word that I said
And I know that it's too late, you've already been mislead
But i need you to know I can't get you out of my head

If I could go back and do it again
I would take back every word that I said
And I know that it's too late, you've already been mislead
But I need you to know, I can't get you out of my head

Again

Let me sleep

Eyes wide open, staring at the wall
Locked in silence, my mind begins to crawl
Over all the regret that weighs me down
What I'd give to forget and move on somehow

I'm exhausted but still I'm...

Wide awake, about to break
Under the guilt that haunts me
Paralyzed, can't close my eyes
Frozen by what's inside me

Crying and screaming won't stop the bleeding
My mind has been locked in perpetual seething
My breath becomes shorter as I near the border
Of pushing my thoughts into total disorder

I can't see myself in the mirror
Blinded by the lies I told to make things clearer
My concentration breaks, my strength fades away
What will it take to keep me from being...

Wide awake, about to break
Under the guilt that haunts me
Paralyzed, can't close my eyes
Frozen by what's inside me

Crying and screaming won't stop the bleeding
My mind has been locked in perpetual seething
My breath becomes shorter as I near the border
Of pushing my thoughts into total disorder

I can't stop myself
From thinking that I could end it all
If only I could rest my eyes
And let the darkness fall

I'd spend forever blind
A body void of light
No more sleepless nights
But for the moment I'm...

Wide awake, about to break
Under the guilt that haunts me
Paralyzed, can't close my eyes
Frozen by what's inside me

Crying and screaming won't stop the bleeding
My mind has been locked in perpetual seething
My breath becomes shorter as I near the border
Of pushing my thoughts into total disorder

Insomnia

Take another breath
And spout the words you want to hear
That I am innocent
Sheltered from the world you fear
But on the inside, I'm frozen
Cold enough to hurt the ones I love
My anger's suppression
Lurks below, I'm losing self control

Don't worry, I'm okay
I promise that I will be just fine
I'm trying to hide from you
That I'm...

I'm tired, cold, lonely, and broken
I'm scared to face what I've become
My wounds, they never cease to be open
It's hard to think it's only just begun

For all I am, for the life of me
I cannot explain what made me this way
For all I know, my poor judgment
Is what left me afraid, dead, and betrayed

You ripped my heart out
And left it beating on the floor
You're in my head now
You have me rotting to the core

The painful memories I can't share
And all the times that you weren't there
Each one now a scar on my wrist
Don't tell me you love me
Don't tell me you're sorry
What's done is done, I've got to move on

What have I gotten myself into
This impenetrable fortress of my shattered dreams
Take this life, empty and haunted
Find a way to bring me back from the dead

I'm tired, cold, lonely, and broken
I'm scared to face what I've become
My hopes, once bright, now seem to be cloaked in
The shadow of my fear of what's to come

My anger bursts through as I fall to pieces
Words just can't express how I feel tonight
Maybe if they knew the extent of their words
They'd hold me back as I reach for the knife

Faggot

Take this breath and hold it
Knowing it will be your last
Prevent your foreseen future
Obstructed by your broken past
Silent cries of regret
Among the shards of broken glass
Your cold has finally ended
With the warmth of that final blast

It's far too late now, but..

Can't you see that a story remained to be told
I can't imagine
What would become of you
Had you lived to grow old

oh

Filled with pain and self-loathing
She walks away alone
Followed by her feelings
Of hate to us unknown
Hesitant to open the door
To a house she can't call home
She grabs a blade and rips her skin
Just to let the blood flow

This can't be all there is
No
But no one ever told her
She's not alone

This is my desperate plea for peace
The one thing I truly believe in
That when we rise out of the dark
We'll be a million voices singing

Whoaaaa

For so long I tried to hide
But there's nowhere left to go
So as I stare death in the eyes
I'm taking back my soul

Alec Lambert

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