The Bullet

Lyrics: 

We lost ourselves in the melody 
Where's the navigator? 
We don't understand the enemy 
It isn't destiny if we can't see 
The map that's placed in front of us
Are we in danger? 
Maybe we'll find a place to hide
It isn't meant to be if they don't believe 

All the things that people don't see 
We share our hopes and dreams
Maybe one day you'll believe 
In the things that people can't see
We share our hopes and dreams 
Maybe one day you'll believe 
In the things that people don't see  

All we want is life
A chance to be someone 
I can't stop thinking something is testing us 
It's in for us, try's to catch us while we're lost 
Searching for more people we can trust 

We lost ourselves in the melody 
Where's the navigator 
They don't understand the agony 
It isn't crystal clear the words you speak 
The map that's placed in front of us 
Is too much labor 
Maybe we'll hide where it's safer inside 
It isn't meant to be if they don't believe 

All Music and Lyrics: Alec Patrick Townsend

Understanding the Enemy

Lyrics:

I never know what to say, in the moment 
It gets to hard to explain, how I'm feeling
Sometimes I want to be more like you 
I need more room to express, what I'm seeing, how I'm feeling 
I never know how to act, in the moment 

And that's ok, there's always another way
Lots of people feel the same way
They seem to be doing ok 
They don't seem to be afraid 

I don't care how long this takes 
Gotta stop if I want to relate 
Break away from my barricade 
Afraid to lose what I don't want to change

And that's ok, there's always another way
Lots of people feel the same way 
They seem to be doing ok
I want to feel the same way
At least for one day

I always seem to refrain, in the moment 
Am I broken?
It gets so hard to explain, my emotions 
Sometimes I'm not good at speaking the truth 
I don't know how to arrange, what I'm thinking, or these feelings 
I never seem to react, in the moment

And that's ok, there's always another way
Lots of people feel the same way 
They seem to be doing ok
I want to feel the same way
At least for one day
I promise to behave
I'll break away my barricade
Try not to be afraid
I know I'll get there some day 

All Music and Lyrics: Alec Patrick Townsend

In The Moment

No. Five (Instrumental)

Lyrics:

This forest is so green during the day
The trees are so tall
They look like they reach you god
If this beauty’s imaginary..
This feels make believe 

Why is everything in life so temporary? 
Maybe it’s just me 

I always ask the same questions?
It’s almost like you never listen 
God damn you GOD!! You break my heart.. 
The truth is so hard. 
Give me something.. please.. god
just give me something.. please.. god 

All Music and Lyrics By: Alec Patrick Townsend

Talking To Trees (Reimagined Loop Ver.4)

Lyrics:

I fell in love with the sound of your voice 
All your words feel so profound 
I need you around 
I could listen to you speak for days 
You keep me in a better place 

I love the way you say 
You’re gonna be ok 

Maybe in my next life 
I’ll have the courage to try 

I fell in love with the sound of your voice
Nothing seems to hold me down 
When you’re around 
My life is spiraling down
I want it all to work out 

All Music and Lyrics By: Alec Patrick Townsend

The Sound Of Your Voice

Lyrics:

Everything in my world feels so surreal 
Who ever thought about how
This all would go down?
I never thought it would ever feel so real 
Do we go underground? 
The world could fall down...
I never thought it could ever feel so real

Pull yourself together man
It always works out in the end 
You can always lend a helping hand
You can always be a better friend

Everything in my world feels so surreal 
Who ever thought that we could lose everything?
I never thought it would ever feel so real
Do we build a new town if it all burns down? 
I never thought it could ever feel so real

All Music and Lyrics By: Alec Patrick Townsend

Surreal

Lyrics:

Is the feeling gone 
because I did something wrong? 
Did I break the rules before I even 
knew what was going on? 
You hard pass.. I take one of everything 
And float away into some pleasureful dream 

It won’t last when I look at everything 
Chemically dependent 
slowly taking away all my dreams

When I woke I smoked
I noticed that you were gone..
Was it because I did something wrong?
Did you not know these things about me?
You mentioned doing the exact same things 

My life is passing me by
I get so caught up.. I never understand why? 
I do these things religiously 
Chemical dependencies 
Destroying everything close to me 

Maybe one day things will happen for you
Until then.. 
They say you won’t ever fit in
I don’t want to 

All Music and Lyrics By: Alec Patrick Townsend

Chemical Dependency (Ver. 3)

Lyrics:

I guess you picked a good time to come see me 
I was thinking of things that you wouldn’t believe
The good and bad parts of me never stop arguing 
I feel like Ill never get to see what I want for me 
Thanks for listening

You picked the wrong time 
To get to know me 
My head is filled with 
Things that I would never speak 
I’d like to introduce you to the bad part of me 
It’s depressing but at least I am functioning 
Maybe you can help to bring out the best of me 
I guess I’ll have to wait and see

Load me up and leave me be 
Just leave me be 
It’s better than dealing with everybody

I’m so fucked up..

I hate everything I said to you 
the moment you leave

You picked the wrong time to come and visit me
(I need some more time) 
I’ve been so angry
there is no talking to me 
I’d like to say thank you for everything 
(Why do you keep helping me?)
But I think I’m ready to give the earth my body
Thanks for trying to understand me

All Music And Lyrics By: Alec Patrick Townsend

The Good And Bad Parts Of Me (Extended Ver.2)

Lyrics:

Nothing ever stays the same 
I watch myself slip away 
I always try to find a better way 
To keep my head in a better place 

I always feel like I’m fighting for my own life 
Everyday I struggle, I keep it buried inside 
Until both worlds collide 

There’s got to be a better way 
To fix what’s happening today 

There has to be a healthier way 
To fix what’s happening today 

I need to fix what’s happening, today 

All Music and Lyrics By: Alec Patrick Townsend

When Worlds Collide

Lyrics:

Feeling inadequate again
I’m hyper-vigilant and socially inhibited 
How did this all begin?
These walls are caving in
I’m completely consumed with it 
I’ll hide deep within...

Why do I bury it inside? 
My mind likes to forget it
Maybe I’m trying to protect 
myself from myself
I’m always all alone 
From fear of the unknown 

Why do I even try?
I give up when I can’t find a reason why 
I find myself alone wasting time 
I’ve had my whole life to figure out why
Stop counting down the days it takes to die 
You’ve had your whole life
You have what’s left of your life 
Another reason to try 

It’s hard to get where you want 
When you have no one in your life 
I’m so sick of trying 
And even more sick of saying goodbye 

All Music and Lyrics By: Alec Patrick Townsend

Tracks by APT Music