Aleese

Lyrics:

I wanna kill what this place is, I'm feeling complacent
Walking with strangers that have familiar faces
Wasted ten years on a rock that's so vacant
Placed in a box, I'm feeling lost and I'm breaking
I want to pray down on my knees, 
But it's hard to listen when you hear the sound of disease
demons following me, bottling anger inside
Breaking in pride, I realized that faith is a lie
Wasting my time, picking up the pieces of glass
To put the picture back together til I bleed from my hands
Deep in a land, of horror, and tortorous lies and slander
With morbid thoughts, torching my brain as you die with laugher
I want to scream, but what's the point if no one hears me?
I've walked through the valley of death until I'm weary
But I can't die, and I've tried with a razor blade
Vertically down my wrist, I really want to fade away
But you make me stay, just to run away in the darkness
You brought my heart back, now you're trying to make me heartless
This once pure body of love turned to a carcass
Your pictures on my walls, I want to burn my apartment
I lost everything, numb as a void
You swallowed all my suffering and stomached my joy
Helen of troy, beautiful but destined to die
Your wrapped my body in my mind and you left me inside
Slice and the scars sting
and it's funny you were the puppeteer to my very brittle heart strings
I want to cry, but I'm scared of the acid
I took all your letters and I tared them to fragments
Embarrassed I had this, love that didn't matter
I walked in the line of your hate, my legs shattered
I honestly think I'll never see my next chapter
When you hear this, you're listening to a dead rapper
I put my life on the paper's line
but I think it's time that I fade away and let my fate resign
There's nothing real when it's all fake
There's never happiness, when you're as sad as this and you have lost weight
From not eating 'cause paranoia effects you
And even if you wanted to eat, it wouldn't let you
They say to write it out, they say the therapy helps you
They say it's a choice, they say it but they've never gone through
the peril and stress, anger that tares through my chest
all the gashes on my wrist just to bury the stress
All the wasted years, all the dead dreams and memories
How following you, I'm gonna make a better me?
Please, don't cry when I'm gone
'Cause it's something that all of you have wanted all along
It's a suicide note, and I'm tired of living, bye
Tired of giving my entirety to a lie
Why am I gonna die when I'm trying to stay alive?
'Cause the life that was so designed for my living just wasn't mine
Tired of throwing darts, tired of rolling dice
Tired of fucking living on top of a globe of ice
Tired of broken lives, tired of frozen tears
Tired of swollen fears, voices in open ears
Tired of no one here to hold me when I'm so scared
from the demons that fucking haunt me and get inside my nightmares
I want to cry and it's not fair
That I Scream on this mic 'cause your face isn't right there
Nothing matters anymore, and I when the song's done
you can guess the outcome.

Suicide Letter

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Aleese

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