Trapped in a cocoon without any transformation,
Tripping over myself like I had untied laces,
Want to wake up but the sheets are contagious
Want to rest easy but my minds too dangerous.

Forged a couple scars I'll never show,
Its not a metaphor I keep it on the low,
Wanna break free but I'm tethered by my soul,
Quit on praying for release and finally let it go. 

Trapped by myself on this conquest, 
There used to be one here but feels like she left.

It's not her fault and when she hears this she'll probably feel sick,
Cuz my mind is the only one to blame.

Kept getting told I needa be on medication,
That it's the only way to break from this situation,
But it broke me and I'm left trying to stitch up impossible desperation.

Who am I to like when my sleeves painted red,
I'm not the only one affected by my decisions I need to get that thru my sick head.

*You let me fall*
*You let me fall*
*You left me...*

Sanity trapped inside of conflict,
Mood keeps changing like a coin flip,
Try to reach out but my hand slips.
Follows with my head on the ground,
Lost in space begging for sound,
But at the same time, it's all too loud.

Sleep thru the day to escape my thoughts,
Always a rainy parade the downpour never stops. 
No
Matter what people say,
I'm a little more lost
So I stopped having conversations.
Now I'm the only one that talks bearing no relations,
So I'm left alone to bear self inflicted situations.

In a blizzard with only my skin,
I freeze when I take a step to the wind,
Impossible to be who I am for how long it's been,
With every cold breath I pray that this is the end.

The Meridian - Closed

1-800-273-8255

Please, leave me alone
I'm putting, on don't disturb
Not like I'd hear any word
Just waiting for eternal silence,
I am, not doin okay
Not like I'm bein checked on anyway.
Barely getting thru, another day
Just let me drown in September's rain.

I’m just tryna keep these thoughts away,
But it seems like some scars will never fade.

Consuming emotions trapped in pointless conversations.
Been so long I became complacent,
With waking up and not knowing what my name is.
I’m coming apart,
I’m falling to pieces,
But I never say a word cuz I’m scared of people leaving.

No one knows,
How to deal with mental health.
So I fumble with it, in tiring stealth,
Screaming I’m inadequate in a deafened yell
Till my throats bleeding and beginning to swell.
Trapped in the shadows of nothing
Tethering me down so I can’t do a-thing.
Then spitting me out, it’s concussing
Leaving me with thoughts not worth trusting.

Please, leave me alone
I'm putting, on don't disturb
Not like I'd hear any word
Just waiting for eternal silence,
I am, not doin okay
Not like I'm bein checked on anyway.
Barely getting thru, another day
Just let me drown in September's rain.

I hate me, but scared of sedating.
So I sit here sober and waiting.

Put on a mask
And hide in my shell,
Not cuz I don’t want to tell
But I don’t wanna submit someone else to my hell.
I’ve been trapped, in it for years
I don’t want you to endure the same thing I feel in here.
It gets real damn cold, living in fear.

Say I’ll work to start feelin better,
But I come short and Fall to September.
With days getting shorter the nights feel like days,
Want to talk to someone but I’m feelin too ashamed.
Pushing thru another day just to walk back a couple paces,
It feels like the only option is to fade from existence,
With a question on the mind, will they ever even miss this?

Please, leave me alone
I'm putting, on don't disturb
Not like I'd hear any word
Just waiting for eternal silence,
I am, not doin okay
Not like I'm bein checked on anyway.
Barely getting thru, another day
Just let me drown in September's rain.

September, Suicide Awareness.

All Alone(Bonus)

Lost(Bonus)

TOL 3 FLOOD

If I Die Intro

Helplessly Hopeless(Piano Intermission)

Number

Mannequin(let go)

Love is A Gun(cant lie)

Running Outro

Mind of A Broken Man

Mercy

Painful Interlude

Look I'm trying, I'm trying

About a hundred Dms for being a broken man
I don't know how to settle it I don't know how to let it sink in
Agoraphobic
Lack of motive
I can't do it right
If I think too heavily there'll be no sleep for me tonight
Affectin my sleep
Affectin how I eat
Ruin my studies and ROTC
I'm sinking too deep got no life preserver
How do you float when your minds a murder
There's nothing further or father from the truth
But the thoughts captivated and captive in my booth
and I choose to move wrong like I threw away my youth

I know you so well, so well
(I'm fallin t'wards the ground)
I'm stuck in my mind loosely holding on

My minds so vast and deep like an ocean
All of my hope and concentration is broken
Helplessly Hopeless, the title I use to cope with
Everything I pain myself with, I'm a burden
I could say I know myself well, well
That would be a lie as far as I can tell
As far as I can see I need some help from me
I need to be set free from my own negativity

I know you so well, so well
(I'm not okay, I'm not okay, I'm not okay)
(I need some help)
I'm stuck in my mind loosely holding on
(But I'm afraid, Ya I'm afraid, I'm afraid)
(I'm fallin t'wards the ground)

I know you so well, so well
(I'm not okay, I'm not okay, I'm not okay)
(I need some help)
(I'm fallin t'wards the ground)
I'm stuck in my mind loosely holding on
(But I'm afraid, Ya I'm afraid, I'm afraid)
(I'm fallin t'wards the ground)

Not Okay

Yeah Right...
It Is What It Is
That's Life

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