afraid (demo)

written, produced & performed by alex kehm

the other side

call me

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giving me nothing.wav

There’s a photo on your dresser 
With a plaque that says martyr 
Cheek to cheek lays a smile 
With eyes that hold a story 

You looked away and I couldn’t read the pages 
You were intentional 
And I’ll stay patient 

When I peer right through your roses 
I’m laying in your thorns 
Painted red 
My white shirt lays akin to the weight of all I said 
Am I easier when I stay quiet?
I’m all yours to bend 

You could shoot me dead if you wanted to 
And my ghost would do the burying 
You could cut off all my limbs 
And I’d still find a way to carry you 

Your mother and your father 
They aren’t together 
You’re taking your sister to the doctors 
Do you have room for one more? 
I won’t be a bore 
Won’t you give me something to hold? 

And I saw your silhouette 
Right on my doorstep 
Too far to touch 
Close enough to pretend 
That your love was never fleeting 
That I would see you again 

You could shoot me dead if you wanted to 
And my ghost would do the burying 
You could cut off all my limbs 
And I’d still find a way to carry you 

Is there something wrong with me? 
There must be 

You never said I’m right 
So I must be wrong 
It’s so covert 
It must be over 

Tell me it’s over 
Tell me it’s over 

You could shoot me dead if you wanted to 
And my ghost would do the burying 
You could cut off all my limbs 
And I’d still find a way to carry you 

I would’ve loved you in the dark 
You said I wouldn’t understand 
But you never let me try 

I would have loved you in the dark

It’s not your fault 
You were in the dark 
It’s not my fault 
I don’t know you at all
It’s not your fault 
You were in the dark 
It’s not my fault 
I don’t know you at all

“cowboy’s gonna do it", written, produced and performed by 21 year old singer/songwriter and producer Alex Kehm, is an indie-pop/folk project to which is described by Kehm as 'not a project of undying love & romance; rather, an anti-hero to what I have experienced love to be — the perpetual state of nuance in which my refusal to sit in has beckoned me into states of immaturity, which is documented within these songs.' 

Throughout their musicianship, Kehm has explored recurring themes in their songwriting and production, including the exploration of self-identity, the complexities of companionship within unrequited love, and heartbreak. Influenced by musicians such as Billie Eilish, Joni Mitchell, and Bon Iver, Alex Kehm's storytelling through their lyrical pieces follows well beyond their years.

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martyr

Time alone overdue 
I would wear a shirt in your favorite color 
Just for you 
To take it off of me 

You’d kiss my body so tenderly 
I’d feel nauseous, so to speak 
You’d ask me questions 
And I’d let you touch me 
In a way I’ve never been before 

You wouldn’t tell me when you’ve made it home
Or when you’re waking up and doing your laundry 
You wouldn’t let me in 
So I’d let you inside me

Thank God you never touched me 
You can say the same 
But thank God I let you in 
You can’t say the same 

You took a part of me when you said you loved me 
While walking the other way 
You can say I’m wrong 
But you can’t say I don’t blame myself 
Did you love me ‘cause you loved me 
Or just to say you loved somebody?

“cowboy’s gonna do it", written, produced and performed by 21 year old singer/songwriter and producer Alex Kehm, is an indie-pop/folk project to which is described by Kehm as 'not a project of undying love & romance; rather, an anti-hero to what I have experienced love to be — the perpetual state of nuance in which my refusal to sit in has beckoned me into states of immaturity, which is documented within these songs.' 

Throughout their musicianship, Kehm has explored recurring themes in their songwriting and production, including the exploration of self-identity, the complexities of companionship within unrequited love, and heartbreak. Influenced by musicians such as Billie Eilish, Joni Mitchell, and Bon Iver, Alex Kehm's storytelling through their lyrical pieces follows well beyond their years.

virgin

Let the candle burn out 
I’ll fill the jar with pretty things I find 
Can I show you sometime?

Never mind, I’ll be fine 
I should really keep some things to myself 
When you were younger did you like show and tell 
Or did you hate it? 

My honey, she’ll tell me sweet things 
I’d say that I’m cold and she’ll knit me a sweater 
She’ll cut off the loose threads that I wouldn’t even notice at all 

She’ll love me 
It scares me 
I’m craving the cold again 
The fire’s too warm

She’ll love me 
It scares me 
I’m craving your cold again 
The fire’s too warm

I’d find a feather 
Right outside my door 
I’d dip it in ink 
I wonder what you’re thinking 
I’d write out the things 
I wish you’d say to me 
You’d hate it more than anything 
Even needing me 

She’ll speak them like a language 
She learned just for me
She’d kiss me on my forehead 
Down to my cheeks 
Her mother’s out the picture 
She fights with her father 
He taught her how to shoot a gun 
Down by the water 
Freckle on her shoulder 
Family out in Boulder 

And when you’re home for the summer 
You’re stuck with your mother 
Your sister’s at your father’s 
Your polar opposites
But when you’re fighting you still love her anyway and

You loved me 
Did it scare you? 
I’m craving the cold again 
The fire’s too warm 

You loved me 
At least I think you did 
At least you think you did 
At least you think you did 

At least you think you did 

At least you think you did 

“cowboy’s gonna do it", written, produced and performed by 21 year old singer/songwriter and producer Alex Kehm, is an indie-pop/folk project to which is described by Kehm as 'not a project of undying love & romance; rather, an anti-hero to what I have experienced love to be — the perpetual state of nuance in which my refusal to sit in has beckoned me into states of immaturity, which is documented within these songs.' 

Throughout their musicianship, Kehm has explored recurring themes in their songwriting and production, including the exploration of self-identity, the complexities of companionship within unrequited love, and heartbreak. Influenced by musicians such as Billie Eilish, Joni Mitchell, and Bon Iver, Alex Kehm's storytelling through their lyrical pieces follows well beyond their years.

hypotheticals

I’m a fool for you 
Ten years later you could ask me to kneel and I would 

I could go to a meeting 
And when they ask me my addiction 
I’d say 

I’d say your name 

I’d throw out my prescription knowing 
It wouldn’t make me feel 
The way you did 

I’d stop eating 
Couldn’t bare to taste a thing 
Except your lips 

I’m a fool for you 
I’m a fool for you 

I can’t look at the sun without 
Thinking of your neckalce 
Laying on your neckline 
The way I wish I did 
The way I wish I did 
The way I wish I did 
The way I wish I did 

“cowboy’s gonna do it", written, produced and performed by 21 year old singer/songwriter and producer Alex Kehm, is an indie-pop/folk project to which is described by Kehm as 'not a project of undying love & romance; rather, an anti-hero to what I have experienced love to be — the perpetual state of nuance in which my refusal to sit in has beckoned me into states of immaturity, which is documented within these songs.' 

Throughout their musicianship, Kehm has explored recurring themes in their songwriting and production, including the exploration of self-identity, the complexities of companionship within unrequited love, and heartbreak. Influenced by musicians such as Billie Eilish, Joni Mitchell, and Bon Iver, Alex Kehm's storytelling through their lyrical pieces follows well beyond their years.

say your name

You would rather die than say what’s on your mind 
Burn a cigarette on your skin 
God forbid you take my hand 
But when you did 
It was special 
Like the cadence of your speech 
And when I said that 
You were filled with nothing
But disbelief 
Who am I 
Without your mercy as the pill I swallow daily? 
Made it seem like it was everything I needed
You’re all talk 
And I’m addicted to the thrill of the maybe 
That you never kept up with 

If cowboy’s gonna do one thing 
Cowboy’s gonna love you ’til his heart stops beating 
If cowboy’s gonna do one thing 
Cowboy’s gonna love you ’til it gets him bleeding

My integrity’s a dagger to your throat 
What a nuisance to everything you know 
Who knew ‘I love you’ could feel like a bullet 
To the chest 
Oh I guess 
You learn something new

If cowboy’s gonna do one thing 
Cowboy’s gonna love you ’til his heart stops beating 
If cowboy’s gonna do one thing 
Cowboy’s gonna love you ’til it gets him bleeding

(Cowboy’s gonna love you)
(Cowboy’s gonna love you)
(Cowboy’s gonna love you)
(Cowboy’s gonna love you)

You hated being wrong 
More than you could ever dare to love me right
I should hate you 
I could hate you
But

If cowboy’s gonna do one thing 
Cowboy’s gonna love you ’til his heart stops beating 
If cowboy’s gonna do one thing 
Cowboy’s gonna love you ’til it gets him bleeding

If cowboy’s gonna do one thing 
Cowboy’s gonna love you ’til his heart stops beating 
If cowboy’s gonna do one thing 
Cowboy’s gonna love you ’til it gets him bleeding


“cowboy’s gonna do it", written, produced and performed by 21 year old singer/songwriter and producer Alex Kehm, is an indie-pop/folk project to which is described by Kehm as 'not a project of undying love & romance; rather, an anti-hero to what I have experienced love to be — the perpetual state of nuance in which my refusal to sit in has beckoned me into states of immaturity, which is documented within these songs.' 

Throughout their musicianship, Kehm has explored recurring themes in their songwriting and production, including the exploration of self-identity, the complexities of companionship within unrequited love, and heartbreak. Influenced by musicians such as Billie Eilish, Joni Mitchell, and Bon Iver, Alex Kehm's storytelling through their lyrical pieces follows well beyond their years.

cowboy

No need to pin me down 
You know I’d stay 
Wherever you leave me 
I’d do anything to be a dog 
Tugging on your leash 
I’ll be good for you 
Good for you
I’ll be good for you 
Good for you

Tell me how
Tell me how 
Tell me how 
So help me God 
Heaven shouldn’t know all the things I’d do to get to you 

Tell me how
Tell me how 
Tell me how 
So help me God 
Heaven shouldn’t know all the things I’d do to get to you 

Oooh
Oooh 
Oooh
Oooh

“cowboy’s gonna do it", written, produced and performed by 21 year old singer/songwriter and producer Alex Kehm, is an indie-pop/folk project to which is described by Kehm as 'not a project of undying love & romance; rather, an anti-hero to what I have experienced love to be — the perpetual state of nuance in which my refusal to sit in has beckoned me into states of immaturity, which is documented within these songs.' 

Throughout their musicianship, Kehm has explored recurring themes in their songwriting and production, including the exploration of self-identity, the complexities of companionship within unrequited love, and heartbreak. Influenced by musicians such as Billie Eilish, Joni Mitchell, and Bon Iver, Alex Kehm's storytelling through their lyrical pieces follows well beyond their years.

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