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Artwork by Vladimir Kush

Written 18 years ago.... is what I'll say in ten years.

I’ve been an addict all my life long
to games I can’t win and puzzles I can’t solve
It’s been some kind of sick fascination
to find myself in impossible situations 
-
and this one is one of those
I’m a deep sea fish reaching for a desert rose
I’m a parking lot, hoping that a garden grows
I’m me and you’re you and my only way through is to divide by zero

you don’t like me much but I promise you this
if you knew me better you’d like me even less
If you could see what goes on in my thoughts
I think you’d personally lead the firing squad

but even though I wouldn’t agree
I’m so flawed, I’d assume I deserve it for something
this song just needs to be worthy of suffering 
I just want you to want something you can’t get anywhere except from me

It puts me out of sorts, but I think you’re my twin
and I ought to sue you for copyright infringement
but i’m sure at the court you’d have this winning defense:
my best is your ground floor, you do all I do and more, you’re improved at the core, so I’d best be out the door, with my obsolescence 
-
but you don’t know the thing you’ve offered
for a minute my sadness has an object
before this it hung shapeless as fog upon me
Now it’s fenced in a daydream that I can keep and smother by slow degrees
(And I guess you'd call that "sorrow laundering")

so even if it’s been in your mind
and even if there were enough time
and even if it’s true, what I swear I have seen
what you’d have to do would split you at the seams
-
it’d never be worth the risk
a dream gambled for so much less
just come clean, a daydream is all this is
some scene, from a movie we probably all saw as stupid kids

I’m sure you can tell most of this is an act
It can all go to hell, as a matter of fact
If I even thought this one could be solved
If I even thought the words could be carved
If I even thought I had something you want 
I’d ruin my life for those lottery odds.

Sorrow Laundering (Acoustic Demo)

Irrepressible pangs of despair and ennui (1) (1)

That Mood

PRENDS TON ÂME ET PARS
Les paroles sont de FG

Prends ton âme et pars
Loin, loin
Va, va, prends ton chemin
Mon amour

Prends ton âme et pars
Il y a longtemps
Prends ton âme et pars
Mon amour

Prends ton âme et pars très loin
Le plus loin possible, sur une étoile
Va loin, mon Ange de l'Étrange
Et reste, s'il te plaît, reste sur ton étoile

Prends ton âme et pars
Encore et encore
Ne pense pas à ma douleur
Mon amour

Prends ton âme et pars
Au-delà
Ne pense pas à notre amour
Mon amour

Prends ton âme et pars très loin
Le plus loin possible, sur une étoile
Va loin, mon Ange de l'Étrange
Et reste, s'il te plaît, reste sur ton étoile

Prends ton âme et pars pour toujours
Le plus haut possible, au Paradis
Va haut, mon Ange de la Fièvre
Et reste, reste dans ton Paradis

Prends ton âme et pars
Encore et encore
Va, oh va
Mon amour

Prends Ton âme et pars
Encore et encore
Et pars pour toujours
Mon amour

Prends ton âme et pars très loin
Le plus loin possible, sur une étoile
Va loin, mon Ange de l'Étrange
Et reste, s'il te plaît, reste sur ton étoile

Prends ton âme et pars pour toujours
Le plus haut possible, au Paradis
Va très haut, mon Ange de la Fièvre
Et reste, reste dans ton Paradis

Prends ton âme et pars
Encore et encore
Ne pense pas à ma douleur
Mon amour

Prends ton âme et pars
Au-delà
Ne pense pas à notre amour
Mon amour

Prends ton âme et pars très loin
Le plus loin possible, sur une étoile
Va loin, mon Ange de l'Étrange
Et reste, s'il te plaît, reste sur ton étoile

Prends ton âme et pars pour toujours
Le plus haut possible, au Paradis
Va très haut, mon Ange de la Fièvre
Et reste, reste dans ton Paradis

Mais maintenant tu pleures
Tu pleures, tu pleures
Mais maintenant tu pleures
Tu pleures, tu pleures...



Take Your Soul And Go

Your turn on the line

This song is about another ex from about 20 years ago. The original will be posted if this does well.

All on my back

When fear has its hold on you
You’ll feel it’s chill before the warmth
(Before the warmth you’ll feel the chill…)
But if you let it take hold
Hold you it will
For as long as you get comfort from its embrace
It will hold you close (hold yiu close)
And steal your will
Your will. (Your will)

Hold on
Hold on
Emergency crews reported on the scene
Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
To the you, you used to know

Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
(To the you, you used to know)

The stress kills
Calm down they say
But the pills they gave me
Take my confidence away
I want them to comfort me
And perhaps they do
But the numbness invades my every move

Hold on
Hold on
Emergency crews reported on the scene
Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
To the you, you used to know
When fear has its hold on you
You’ll feel it’s chill before the warmth
But if you let it take hold
Hold you it will
For as long as you get comfort from its embrace
It will hold you close
And steal your will
Steal your will
Your will
(Your will) 
(Steals you)
[fade out]

numb

Warm and radiant. This track celebrates the joy and courage of stepping into a new day, with uplifting textures and soft rhythm.
Energy without rush. Presence without noise.

Rising Sun

Victor Frankenstein

A song I made in my native language, Dutch. The title means The Spring Night.

Some people who understand Dutch might wonder what supernovas have to do with anything 🤔...They produce the heavy elements that are crucial to life.⭐

Lyrics (Dutch) © Señor Barends

Je ogen die glanzen
In het licht van de maan 
Jij kijkt naar de sterren
En dan kijk ik jou aan 

“We zijn sterrenstof” 
Hoor ik je nog zeggen
Ik begrijp wat je bedoelt
Je hoeft ‘t niet uit te leggen

Alles heeft een begin
Aan alles komt een eind
Je bent er maar heel even 
Voordat je zelf ook verdwijnt

Gesmeed in een supernova
Misschien wel een heleboel
Het zet je aan het denken
Wat is de zin? Wat is het doel?

Je bent nu hier met mij
Samen in de lentenacht
“Ik hou van jou”
Fluister ik heel zacht

Je zegt “Ik ook van jou”
Je hebt me toch gehoord
Ja, wat is het doel?
Ik weet het antwoord

Hier met jou aan mijn zij
Een moment van geluk
Het is misschien zo voorbij
Zoals de dag die ik pluk

Alles heeft een begin
Aan alles komt een eind
Je bent er maar heel even 
Voordat je zelf ook verdwijnt

De Lentenacht (The Spring Night)

Sing from your heart even when you feel caged in by life.  Written after visiting La Orotava a town and a municipality in the northern part of Tenerife.

The Canaries Song (Orotava)

singersongwriter from Toronto 


www.alexmcculloch.com

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