Name: ellie's walk : leave it off on a bad note (jamie edit) by alisonschains
Duration: 2 min 46 s
Description: original https://soundcloud.com/ellieswalk/lol?si=3256d65914f54fdfa3f4d2725a8d51b6&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

pessimist original pitch

prod. by @coolemokid :0
mixed by @bakurwd <3

neverwin 

(lyrics)
does it matter to you like you say that it does
when i kiss you goodnight and you leach on my blood?
am i lonely enough not to say what it was
when you use me and tell me that i am enough

i’ve been sinking, my temptations drive me overboard 
he wants a wedding, but he’s only getting half my word
she says i’m overthinking everything, i'm not so sure 
fuck, i’m still shaking over all the things i overheard 

& baby i know things that you don't know that make me feel like shit
i'm so sick of losing but i know i never win

i haven't been too motivated for the past few days
and all my friends just wanna kill me cause i'm not the same
and i just sleep through all my thoughts until i wake up dazed
just thinking, fuck, i’m still 16 i think i need a break
and baby i don't wanna ask you the confusing shit
three bullets in my clip, i'm still defusing it
and i'm so shallow and my shadow loves abusing it
your boy hit follow on my insta, not refusing it

please that’s enough of that, 
i can’t escape this shell, i can’t just tell you who you’re looking at 
you said I looked the same, i'd say i've changed but no you never asked
i've disappointed everyone but still i’m never looking back 
if you were me, you'd never wonder why i'm never coming back

i’ve been sinking, my temptations drive me overboard 
he wants a wedding, but he’s only getting half my word
she says i’m overthinking everything, i’m not so sure 
fuck, i’m still shaking over all the things i overheard 

you’re always thinking bout the ways you can get ahead
you keep me stuck on all the things i know you never meant
and all the pressure made me think that it was in my head
and i was perfect till you crossed me, now you're lying dead

i know things that you don't know that make me feel like shit
i'm so sick of losing but i know i never win
always second guess my intuition, lose my grip
do i bore you out? like, baby, sorry if i did

neverwin (prod. junk)

[Note to self: don't believe the ones you trust the most]
produced by @ayyitsryo

lyrics:
it’s been two weeks since you sent those packages 
straight to my home
and i’ve thought about returns
but i think i’ll just leave you alone
and i’m hoping that i can make my escape this year
you know this more than anybody else that’s here
like oh, can you tell me? tell me what you wanna know
like i don’t wanna be the one to tell you how it goes
like it is so divine
i can leave it up to try at night
there’s only so many rainstorms that i can think
now that i think of it, you might be all of it
it’s a tragedy, i know, i wrote it bitch
you can’t stop me from doing any of this
why why you leave me to do most without a lie
nothing changed except the reason i’m alive
don’t want nothing to do with you, yeah i’m fine
yeah i’m fine, yeah i’m fine now
laying in the grass, hold on not so fast
i don’t wanna know where it began
how my brothers ran in your arms
talk to me again, i want answers man
i’ve been begging for a couple weeks
i guess i’ll check again
does it hurt that much to ask?
will it hurt that way again?
cause i wanna know if i-
it’s been two weeks since you sent those packages 
straight to my home
and i’ve thought about returns
but i think i’ll just leave you alone
and i’m hoping that i can make my escape this year
you know this more than anybody else that’s here

this year is for escape (ryo)

september twentyfifth, twentytwentyone
produced by @heavenindaclouds
featuring @tropes777

[anvii]
will we meet again?
cuz i cant tell if ill see u again
u got me fucked in the head
with all the shit that u said
but i wish i couldve said something back
i just want u right here near
why did u just disappear
i shed way too many tears for u
but im sorry yes i know
i moved way too slow
and i cant seem to accept it

[hook]
i dont know what is going on
left me with no heads up
yet u spoke with me on the phone
just know, ill always be here for u

[tropes]
yea im here im not
ion wanna waste time
ion wanna be here right
you dumbs u aint see on
i cant be that mean ya
i dont wanna see your sights
yea not at all
u wanna call me back i want
you listen to me too much
n i cant see or do much at all
but anymore sure cutout
baby im not cut out for what i thought i was
n now im down n ur so up
u cant listen to me this time, at all
only had to hear it twice to learn my lesson
ion wanna lose my life to smith n wessons
machine go
see low the way it goes away

be here for u

stream

be here for u w/ tropes (p. heavn)

produced and mixed by @blackwinterwells

the stars glow
but can’t see past your window
it doesn’t matter
when i ask you
you just say no

the blackout
blinds never leave your eyes
don’t make sense to me why
they never hit the side

i can’t help you like before
i swear i tried
i don’t know what you look for
stayin in my life
but i know better
this time

and way outside the city
where we’d go together
it would look so pretty
we didn’t make it any time

and just as i surrendered
felt it moving faster then i thought it would before
i couldn’t hold together
maybe we weren’t meant to work together
could be better

i can't help you

i can't help you ( blackwinterwells )

hey hi hello

feels like we've been here before, huh?

i love my friends so much. thank you all for being there for me. i dont know who or where id be if i hadnt met you all. and thank you! for listening.
 
thank you toba for the inspiration for the drop, thanks kmoe for those vocals. (he is in this song a lot more than you think LOL) also thank you to reserv really big inspiration i think its obvious hahahahahah

hope u enjoy :)

lyrics:

the stars align
i cant seem to make out more than what i have
to put you in a better place so that
i dont let you down

and deep inside this home
wanna go away to make myself unknown
when i feel like falling down without a reason to get back up
 
o
o
o

think i need you but i know its best if im without it
you know i like you and i hate the times when you would doubt it
and when i leave and turn nineteen i hope you know ive found it
cuz we dont ever really die we just find ways around it

think i need you but i know its best if im without it
you know i like you and i hate the times when you would doubt it
...and i hope that when you think of me it feels nostalgic
cuz i will never really die ill just find ways around it

...

one time
before all this had to start
i remember the colours
the streaks of pink on your arms
your mind
hasnt treated you so nicely
i recall all the times
when we would hang out just to sleep

...

and when its time to go
i wont leave you alone
when the stars glow
when the stars glow...

...

dear oddy,
you were always afraid of change, and you know you cant always stop it.
a lot of things have left, and very little stayed.
what mattered most was that you didnt give up.
so why stop now? theres more waiting up ahead; if youre willing to open up.
continue forward! and remember that youre never alone.
i got your back! and so do the people that you love

alignment of reason 313

prod me + @redhxrse on the strings
master @redhxrse

known as someone who lets down
when everything hurts
but no ones hands there to help now
ill say you're the worst
cause all the things that youve said bout me
i wanna talk but my thoughts wont speak 
and i said

run around
yea
just do your thing little one
enjoy when nobodies watching
cause when youre old and youre dumb
theyll always pick you for fun
theyll treat you like youre the problem
but youre just their way to solve them 
and that is not okay

run around

original https://soundcloud.com/ellieswalk/lol?si=3256d65914f54fdfa3f4d2725a8d51b6&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

ellie's walk : leave it off on a bad note (jamie edit)

everything by me

ima come back better than before
i try my best to restore
you wanted less but i wanted more
i sided with the bitch who hurt my core
fuck it i don't want her anymore
got me feeling things i cant describe 
in my head; i keep inside
now i just want you to die
got me feeling like im insane
plant evil thoughts inside my brain
you dragged me through the rain
i'll put the pain inside your head
i don't want your love anymore
throw out my heart onto the floor
dagger blade cutting out my sores
i don't love you anymore

i bleed blue but my blood red i'll stay that way 
faith fades along with the passing days
they try to stop me they always hate
i walk the path inside a broken brain

far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust

restore

today it is the way it is
my skin feels like silk thats about to rip
replay ur kiss all against my wish
u display and dismiss while i cant resist

if i lash out nothings personal, u dont need to know
if i come off too emotional, u can always say so

the bruise left on my neck, the scratch left on my chest
open the door and check, no ones home

abandoned my mirror, im 2 weeks in
and i cant be near her, im getting too thin
and ive been so bitter since that kick in my chin
u cant find a place that ur always safe in
ill cough up my lung while i feel it cave in
im not gonna do this again

if i lash out nothings personal, u dont need to know
if i come off too emotional, u can always say so
ever since i got a taste of that ethanol, ive been stuck in a lull
and i got so used to following ur protocol and now im too dull

Pivot

cool video
https://youtu.be/2eD8q28Kmrg

i did not write thsi song

https://limeboiler.bandcamp.com/album/covered-up

ellie's walk : leave it off on a bad note (jamie edit)

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