happy birthday to me ig :/

so many days that my life turned out bad

so many nights that u been up in my head

its hard to not think about what u said

i cant forget that i used to take them meds

i hated waking up at 6am

when i could of been sleeping in

i didnt wanna go to school

but i went to see my friends

its my birthday in 9 days

but i dont really feel like my age

as a kid i didnt feel pain

like i do now


some people say when u get older

that your problems will fade away

its another birthday where i feel nothing

i know that it wont change into something

my birthday

baby please don't, fight!!!
run away, hide
don't face it today, run
go be yourself!!!(yourself)
(fuck, shit!)
just live your life don't think twice
it will all be all right
throw me in the water
don't let me drown
I need you right here
I need you now

cut me into pieces 
let my body go 
let it turn cold 
I cant decide what is right 
for my life!!!(for my life)
I really miss your touch 
hadn't really had enough 
just wanna see you blush
I really miss your touch 
hadn't really had enough 

baby please don't, fight!!!
run away, hide
don't face it today, run
go be yourself!!!(yourself)
(fuck, shit!)
just live your life don't think twice
it will all be all right
throw me in the water
don't let me drown
I need you right here
I need you now 
just live your life don't think twice
it will all be all right
throw me in the water
don't let me drown
I need you right here
I need you now

fight

i try to move on it dont work 
you said its okay but it got worse
you said some bad things but i did to
i think the problem might be me

so i remove my self
i hope it solves the issue
you dont care abt my health
you only care about urself
its it in my mind i try to escape
i say its fine im just stuck in my ways
im so stuck
im so stuck
im so stuck in my ways

i try to move on it dont work 
you said its okay but it got worse
you said some bad things but i did to
i think the problem might be me

it might be me

fuck it might be me

im the problem

prod ~ neverforever

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5LonluBRYFQvFwqmgJq9OO?si=bf5e4cd4d9f945e8

apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/song/war/1823793281

our war, between us you tore us apart
and i’m still here begging for more
you’re negligent left me ignored
just walked out the door

tell me your wanting me
know that’s a lie
uncomfortable holding me
you don’t want to comply
say i’m delusional
for the last time
just use me im good you know?
so i’ll stay in line

give me sweet surrender
girl stop playing pretender
heeding relief
wore my heart on my sleeve
for, way too long

au revoir

https://youtu.be/HaknuK4t4ro?si=kCb1XyBMg5l6lLrH

arnaiz
piano solos done by me :)

and im so done
you took all my pieces and made them to one
and now your gone
somewhere out there
on the other side of the sun

when i saw u i was choked up
yeah i couldnt believe my eyes
i would go back one more time
but that would draw the line to you
thats something you cant do 

fuck

on the other side of the sun (MV OUT NOW)

Scriptures

Carved your sigil,
Just a little too deep,
Just a little,
To the point I can't leave.
Girl, the words you cast are spells,
They just trap me in this hell.
I'm so in love I can't rebel against you,
Against you — no, no.

All the memories don't outweigh bad,
All your melodies just make me sad.

It's only you
That leaves me screwed.
You treat me cruel,
Texting these dudes.
What does he have I don't?
You make me sick, but with no antidote.
Trapped in this slumber, and I can't be awoke.

spell

rott cover

toothless

it wasnt even enough

**Verse**
And if you’re telling me to stay
i know that things won’t ever change
And if I’m locked out that’s okay
I won’t complain 

**Chorus**
i cant tell you what youre needing baby  
i cant tell you what youre feeling
and i know we cant get out right now
just sit down baby lets talk it out
cause i cant
yeah i cant

**Verse 2**
I wanna help you oh I really do
And when you’re struggling I’ll be there for you 
But you’re so cryptic and I wish you knew

**Prechorus**
That I can’t figure it out
If you, don’t tell me right now

**Chorus**
i cant tell you what youre needing baby  
i cant tell you what youre feeling
and i know we cant get out right now
just sit down baby lets talk it out
cause i cant
yeah i cant

i can't (prod. byCian + ay0ley)

alixxity

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myza!!

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