i.dont.wanna.explain

cry me a river (prod. w00ds & Roiael)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

Produced by: Gio
Engineered by: Gio
Written and performed by: Gio & Cavasoul

Lyrics: 

Verse 1 [Giovanni]

Little my, betty by, sleep until the sun'll rise
Hopefully you're up in time, wait oh shit (uh)
Workin' with a feeble mind, but he got the reddest eyes
Angry muhfucka rollin' with his clique 
Why he so upset? G- Got 'em workin' overtime
Thinkin' every single night: "I'm up next" (uh)
Now he got a better mind, and he got the reddest eyes
Angry muhfucka thinkin' "Get my check"

That's what's up

Every single day I see people tryna play me
I've been rollin' through it; flow switch on a daily
I've been makin' money moves, yeah I'm goin crazy
If you try to talk talk 'bout Gio, better save it
With the way I walk walk, you would think I'm famous
Yeah I'm in a drop-top; black lines painted
Pops always told me that I shouldn't try to aim it yeah
So I shoot my shot shot, look at how I made it

Interlude [Giovanni]

Look at how I made it
Look at how I-

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And still it was [ft. cavasoul]

written by Lxst Boy & A Distant Voice
produced by mrmcchickino
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by Cavasoul

-lyrics-
(Chorus: Lxst Boy)
does she remember
the way she made me laugh?
i wanna text her
but i will get nothing back
it's harder than i anticipated
feel my chest collapse
i think i need a break
but i cant relax

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
save me
take control, don't
break me
turn the pencil upside down
erase me
what did i do wrong cause now
she hates me
oh she hates me

(Chorus)

(Verse 2: A Distant Voice)
every note that i would send
was a list of the dreams that i had in my head
but i missed all my chances, i’m feeling regret
now 
i’m 
thinking of how you would smile
you lit up my world
and it would took me a while
to stop feeling red
got my heart rate a hundred and ten
and you’re making it clear
i got nothing to fear
cuz now my end is here
all these letters i wrote to myself
were they meant for me or someone else
did i do something wrong to you 
making me seem like a demon from hell

(Chorus 2x)

letters2myself w/ A Distant Voice (mrmcchickino)

i don't wanna be me anymore

i don't wanna be me anymore (feat. Julia Alexa & Zaini)

You Might Not Like Her

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

Rxseboy - Not Alright

mine [prod. dustin] *OUT NOW ON ALL PLATS*

SadBoyProlific - SLIDE [slowed & Reverbed] (Prod. QUASHIRED)

@sorrow - upside down (prod. boyfifty)

i know a few of ya can relate heavy on this. ima read all the comments too 
Prod. Boyfifty

Lyrics

Verse 1:
Didn’t think
Id make it back in time
But its halftime now
And
Hit my first three
I can hear the crowd shouting
All that I be thinking hope u seeing this shit
Brush it off trying not to look where u sitting
After the game
Pink skies realizations
U the match in heaven I been waiting for
Our parents been friends since like we were grade four
I dont play the same if u aint at the court

 Verse 2:
Finally we in our final year
We both seniors
If I go to uni imma need a cheerleader
Looks like I might get a ticket
To chicago
Darling tell me if I leave
U gon follow
I know we aint married 
But I know we will be
If your parents knew what I was thinking 
they would kill me
Girl ill be at home if your plans get cancelled
Little did u know I setup roses and candles

Please just promise me first 
We can leave here together 
Enter a new universe
We can share all memories
With all the couples we meet
Ill get u an apartment 
With whatever animal you please

Verse 3

U know im out of breath
But im running still
With Every shot that hits
U who I look to still
Dont let your eyes off of me girl
Dont let your eyes off of me

Now we down by two
And got two minutes left
They trynna run the clock 
we on a full court press

Dont let your eyes off of me girl
Dont let your eyes off of me

Highschool Baskets (boyfifty)

Churchill Downs REMIX

STREAM

Ocean Eyes

<3 it on Hype Machine: http://bit.ly/BEbored

13 Reasons Why

Bored

dont smile at me

idontwannabeyouanymore

Song title - Skin & Bones
Production & Vocals by Lund.

Lyrics:

You don’t know the pain that I feel
Wasting time on love that wasn’t real
leave me alone 
I’m just skin and bones now 
I think I’m 
turning into ash 
You call my phone 
But I’m never home now 
you couldn’t save me 
from myself 

Lies they left me with 
A broken heart 
Wounds leave scars
When their always 
Torn apart
write me a eulogy
all you can do for me 
This is the 
story of my life 
So let me lay here 
There’s nothing to save here
Cause I’m already dead

Baby I just think that you
Need someone to be 
true to you
I know how to heal your heart 
Let me spend some time with you 
And maybe change your point of view
You could have a brand new start 

I know that you 
feel so damn alone 
But some things
you can’t heal
on your own
When scared to try
You miss out on life 
But darlin now 
I’ll show you the way
Its not your fault
So baby don’t cry 
Do be afraid 
Cause I’m not him

You so beautiful 
It brings me to my knees 
Your eyes are hazel green
shade of autumn leaves 
I don’t look at you 
I look into you 
I’m Lost in a moment
when your with me
I’ll give you trust to
Build up this love 
Cause honey
I know what 
we could be 

Baby I just think that you
Need someone to be 
true to you
I know how to heal your heart 
Let me spend some time with you 
And maybe change your point of view
You could have a brand new start

Skin & Bones

hope you guys like it :) 

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