won't call

In an attempt to overcome my fear of sharing things I create that aren't completely polished and "perfect", I promised myself that I would post more of my music this year. This song is not studio recorded or produced but I hope you enjoy the honesty amidst its imperfection nonetheless. Thank you for listening x

Empty - Allie Kelly

here is a reminiscent(demo)song for you. i hope you enjoy!! 
Dedicated to Zoë, for believing in this song before it was even written.

Kids

listen while you can, my friends, this is a temporary posting. nonetheless, this song - voice memo quality and all - means more to me than i can say. it has helped me, continues to do so, and i sincerely hope it can serve a similar purpose for you. all my love, always, for your time and support <3

silence is sound

in the meanwhile

midnight on a broken, rickety piano. far from perfect (as goes for all the garbage i create and seemingly share with reckless abandon these days) but if it's meaningful to me and possibly others, then my 2 bit audio diary has served its purpose. idk. a lot of heart here. im operating on the hope that others read the descriptions on songs like i do...(they don't).

prelude

this song wrote itself this afternoon, don't know how long i'll leave it up but wanted to share anyway

spider in the sink

haven't you ever wished there was a sadgirl basketball song? it's like... chill space jams to cry to 24/7

photo by Link! Gjansen

triple-double

still for you

little memo demo for you in this quarantine time... <3 

lyrics:
that was nice / while it lasted
guess i sufficed / for the night 
that was fun / while i had you
and i'll survive / if i laugh at it

i must be made of sand / cause i'm a pillar behind a man
i must be made of sand / cause everyone just falls through my hands
have i done it again 

while it lasted / i was kind 
you were backhanded 
then i tried / posing questions 
and you provide / endless space again

i must not understand / why there's a message you never send
i must not understand / how every word gets lost in the wind
have i done it again

tell me how to fix my problems / where do i keep going wrong
everyone says it's not me / it's not my fault
after all this time it must be / feels like nobody could want me
and i really don't blame them at all
have i done it again

that was nice / while it lasted 
good to feel / like i'm worth something 
that was nice / i almost had it
one more time / and i'll keep it then

i must be one great friend / cause every time that's just where it ends
i must be made of sand / cause everyone just falls through my hands

have i done it again

while it lasted

an ongoing collection of quaranthings i created to keep me sane; vocal doodles of sorts xx

magic

freehand4

don't hide ur mind

everything that matters

lyrics:
every touch that's stayed on my skin
might live there forever
for worse or for better
and all the love i've given away
might never return
i guess that's okay

as long as they're somewhere
safe and warm
i won't look for answers anymore

even when you push my away 
i will be right here
loving you the same
though you act in curious ways
i know that you care
more than you can say

as long as you're somewhere
safe and warm
i won't look for answers anymore

safe and warm

lyrics:
this is how it goes
live my life alone and no one knows
if i even made it home
am i crying or just bleeding out my nose

what is it you like me for?
i just wanna make sure
i am such a saboteur
and i wanna wreck more
sorry i'm so insecure
how do you not see what for?

saboteur

lavender fields in the hum of the morning
that’s what you look like to me 
never can tell you the way that i’m feeling
hoping it’s easy to see 
that you’re so beautiful 
that i can hardly take it, take it 
you’re have the kindest heart i hope that i can stay in, stay in
moon behind the clouds 
stars are shooting down
you’re an angel i’m sure of it now

i always dream of a sense of belonging 
and maybe your arms are the place
since i have met you, new worlds are dawning
and we’ve become stars up in space

lavender

i can go alone
freezing to the bone
tower for the radio
in the field i use the phone 

i won't leave a message
i'll just send it through the air
the last time that you saw me
you put your hands in my hair
but i won't even say hello
if you happen to be there
i'll have a dream about you
and that's where i can stare

i'll always see you there
i'll always see you there
i'll always see you there
we can talk about it there

Allie Kelly

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