Check out @goldenxcalf and his innovative witch house music. He also did a hell of a job remixing my song Angel Wings. Coming soon from the two of us is "Hummigbird"; a song I wrote a couple of years ago that he is taking through a similar production process as Got Your Hero. GYH was really just a sort of digital metal or post hardcore song I produced for fun. Golden Calf and @underscorenorm, who also remixed Angel Wings, encouraged me to develop the song more and add vocals. So I did and got excited about it despite it still being barely listenable at best. GC took my project file and created something from it that still blows my mind after many listens and may still be my best sounding song so far despite being one of my oldest! These lyrics were mainly inspired by the girl I write almost all of my songs about but was also inspired by a couple others and other experiences in life and how I came to feel as a result. So really I would describe these lyrics as written about a fictional character who is the sum of women I have had, or really not had, throughout my life. It is also not without a healthy dose of romanticizing as I am an artist afterall! Enjoy and thanks for listening.
Lyrics:
I know you feel alone
It might be hard to believe
When we’re together I’m home
Where ever that happens to be
The air tonight holds magic
Dark sorcery
But don’t you worry girl
Just stay close to me
We’ll welcome the uncomfortable
Warm and gentle peace
Both nervous but glowing
Could it be all along
Right under your nose
And your the backyard
No more rubbing red eyes
You won’t be crying anymore
Oh I Got my cape on
Girl you got your hero next door
I’m not in the market
For what the world’s been selling me
And I don’t wanna trade
Any of the secrets
The ones you felt safe telling me
I’ll take them to the grave
You crave the chase so run
How’s second place
No fun
I’ll stay as long as you want
We’ll watch the sun coming up
The love you talk about was never there
You weren’t robbed of it
Anyone would be bitter
And you're deserving of better
But don’t tell me you’re the opposite
Maybe you’re not worth the pressure
We’ll welcome the uncomfortable
Warm and gentle peace
Both nervous but glowing
Could it be all along
Right under your nose
And in your backyard
No more rubbing red eyes
You won’t be crying anymore
Oh I got my cape on
Girl you got your hero next door
I’m not in the market
For what the world’s been selling me
And I don’t wanna trade
Any of the secrets
The ones you felt safe telling me
I’ll take them to the grave
I don’t speak their language
Not a single word
Makes any sense to me
What’s so hard about it
Come on it’s easy
Well not necessarily
Don't expect any different
Looking in the same place
Lies given me
Are just too many
For me to believe
A word they say
Get outside zip your coat up
Only just closed the door
But hear them whispering
Some love gossiping
As soon as you leave
It's jealousy
You're my inspiration
I find that I can fly
If you're there to see
What you do to me
Must get through to me
Improving me
Babe we'll look back laughing
To the rescue
I'm gonna sweep you off of your feet
Every single thing
You do is signaling
Heroic feats
I’m not in the market
For what the world’s been selling me
And I don’t wanna trade
Any of the secrets
The ones you felt safe telling me
I’ll take them to the grave
I don’t speak their language
Not a single word
Makes any sense to me
What’s so hard about it
Come on it’s easy
Well not necessarily

Got Your Hero

Got Your Hero (feat.Golden Calf)

If you look close enough
It shows
We only look like
Couple goals

Fun in the sun
Why'd you have to remind me
That's why we only smile so much
We get along just fine
When you're so drunk
But you can't stand to be sober
The day had been fun
Right up until it wasn't
Guess I had been expecting something
Forgot all the dozens of times
That you had given me nothing
Though they have fallen from the trees
There may still be some warmth left
In autumn's leaves
They hold on to it like memories
But eventually they'll die
To be replaced with snow and frost and ice
They're buried by the springtime

Is there something you love more
Than to test my patience
We used to look like couple goals
No but we're not dating no
You don't want anyone to know
Cause they won't believe
All the shit you're making up about me
Can be clearly seen
In the way you chose to leave
What you really think of me
It wasn't hard to build you up
Because you're so amazing
We used to look like couple goals
Until you felt like upgrading
In no time I had no doubt at all
That you were easily
The greatest thing
That's ever happened to me
But if you look close enough it shows
We only look like couple goals

I wondered how could it be
The truth had slidden underneath
Hidden behind
Now it's rarely seen
Buried alive
It can barely breathe
We'll smash through the ice
And together we'll sink
I'll free up your hands to claw
Help you to dig
I'm forever reminded
I've got it better than i think
I'm forever reminded
Yeah

And I choose to believe
That the abuse and deceit
Was just the way that you grieve
I know you never really wanted to hurt me
And I choose to believe
That the abuse and deceit
Was just the way that you grieve
I know you never really wanted to hurt me

Though they have fallen from the trees
There may still be some
Warmth left
In autumn's leaves
Never really
Meant to hurt me
I know you didn't mean it babe
They hold on to it like memories
But eventually they'll die
To be replaced with snow and frost and ice
They're buried by the springtime
I know you never
Really wanted to hurt me

Is there something you love more
Than to test my patience
We used to look like couple goals
No but we're not dating no
You don't want anyone to know
Because they won't believe
All the shit you're making up about me
Can be clearly seen
In the way you chose to leave
What you really think of me
Wasn't hard to build you up
Because you're so amazing
We used to look like couple goals
Until you felt like upgrading
In no time I had no doubt at all
That you were easily
The greatest thing
That's ever happened to me
But if you look close enough it shows
We only look like couple goals

I know you never
Really wanted
To hurt me
I know you never
Really wanted
To hurt me

Couple Goals

Still glad it happened to me
Grinning and tapping her feet
Flipping between trap and country
Shocked and unable to speak
Moved by her mood
And made weak 
She’s only gotten more lovely
Summoned my faith but the leap
Soon met up with stunning defeat
I’m sure part of me saw it coming
She could be made of desert heat
A warmth leant to me but too brief
Cut off out of reach
Of all I fell in love with

No one thing under the sea
Not the Great Barrier reef
Not twenty-nine thousand feet
Or even the view from the peak
As far as the eye can see
Never one more heavenly
You’re the only wonder i see
You’re the only wonder for me

Starlight darting in between
Leaves hung from suspended trees
Drift off to soft sound and safety
Fountains of healing really
Found to be myth fantasy
But one splash of 
Her laugh could save me

Summoned my faith but the leap
Met up with overwhelming grief
Deep down I feared it was coming
She could be made of desert heat
A warmth leant to me but too brief
Cut off out of reach 
Of all I fell in love with

Above white descending sheets
Bored of Olympus at Greece
Couldn’t be bothered with Sphinx
Cause how great could Giza be
Polar lights sound cold we’d freeze
Interest in Everest I’d need
To have my lover with me
You’re the only wonder for me

Still glad it happened to me
Though I’m heartbroken and empty
Heart just won't have it can’t be
Don’t want no part of forgetting
Gave up if she ever believed
Kept safe I’ll hold our memories
Don’t care what happened
I still love you
I’m sorry
Don’t say goodbye
Can’t watch you leave
Take back that
We’re not meant to be
Beautiful as water falling
You’re the only wonder for me

Wonder

Wonder feat.Alyn Ford

Wonder Denixson & Alyn Ford

Angel Wings

Angel Wings - Critizen Remix

We’ll freeze
Any colder
You’ll shiver and sneeze
Loyal things
You’ve gotten used to using these
The more you talk the more I see your breath
You’re below zero degrees
Hey who needs friends
Yours must be
Deciduous trees

Haven’t learned from the flock
That fled you
That fled you like geese
But lucky for you
You’ve still got someone like me
And lucky for me
I’ve learned to live off of what might be
I’ve been blessed by less likely
Than a second strike
Of lightning
I’m conditioned to the cold
Hail in my heart and sleet in my soul.  
Why in the world would you say those things
When I look up I follow the strings
By which you control me
Ever since I first saw you
My watch reads angel wings
Oh angel wings
Don’t ask just go ahead
Take one more piece of me
I’m made up of so many
What’s one
What’s one more
How could it hurt
It’ll hold up
It’s held up this far
Don’t worry

Between you and I
There’s many unsaid things
Only one of what spring
Returns to you in time
What are you doing tonight
Pretty girl pretty upsetting
Look in the mirror before you start getting
Ready you’re just fine

I’ve been losing track of time
Please don’t let go of me
Not now I’m not ready
Give me one more dive into those eyes
What comes between you and I
Ya I know but I don’t know why
Got caught to be thrown aside
Not fit for a golden life baby
Been growing apart lately
Became a secret maybe 
Just your place to run and hide
Sure you could
But you won’t save me
Just a box
With a lock
And a heart inside
It’s alright don’t apologize 
Even angels will fall sometimes
Sun will break through the stormy sky
Hardest thing in this life is goodbye

Cool breeze
Is the most I've come to hope for
When someone leaves
And ironically
Well isn’t that nice
You’re not even listening
But you can talk about the things
That he lacked
Find it hard to believe
You still don’t see
Want all you’ve listed
Let your heart do the listening

They were never your flock
We might be birds
We’re not geese
You said we’re the same
We keep fighting babe
Baby the truth is
Your chance of finding
Another me is about as likely
As a second strike of lightning

I’m conditioned to the cold
Fate frozen
Hope buried in the snow
Stare at the light in this world
Look longer when it stings
Ever since I first saw you
My watch reads angel wings
Oh angel wings

Erasing doubt if there was ever any
 You’re all I'd ever need
When I first laid eyes on you
Time stopped moving
Angel wings
Oh angel wings

Don’t ask just go ahead
Take one more piece of me
I’m made up of so many
What’s one
What’s one more
How could it hurt
It’ll hold up
It’s held up this far
Don’t worry
Hardest thing in this life's goodbye

Angel Wings Remix Ep

Angel Wings Remix EP

Take one second to look
Be afraid of what we retook
See the light inside hurry yourself confide
A life worth living
Hold on
Our spirit has endured this pain for far too long
These limitations
On our minds are merely calculated lies
Stay thoughts echoing rationality
Bring beliefs to life
Hold on to your hope
Holding stories away with arms that we can make free
Together in harmony
That's how it was when we were meant to be
Persistent thoughts that tribute to passion from you

Outliers (Aviations Cover)

Link to the original version is in the caption; it is a lyric video. I also made a lyric video as I changed the odd word here and there. Here's the link to mine > https://youtu.be/leH4Et5RLk4

Lyrics to new rendition of Autumn Season:

Hey bestie, tell me are you ok
You don't call me the whole day
You don't text me the same way
Hey bestie, tell me are we alright
Haven't seen you smile for sometime
It's not like you to not say goodnight

And I understand if you're sad
And I understand if you're mad
And we are just friends
I just thought we'd be more than friends by now

I keep falling for you
I keep falling for you
Like leaves in the autumn season
Like leaves in the autumn season

original lyrics by Inno$cent

Autumn Season

Autumn Season - Alyn Ford Rendition

Why is it always and only
Me trying?
Hope for rain so you won’t 
See me crying
Quick to trip and slip up
Stumble, sliding
Just gave up, quit you
Should’ve stuck by me
Better behind me

Was scared of what
you might think
so I tried to hide
said “to be honest”
And may not have lied
But you sensed
something suspect
And spoke nervously
Guess I was deserving
Threw salt in my own wounds
Then blamed you for hurting me
Surprised you didn’t want
Who I was
Pretending to be
Desperately disappointing
Never a knock off
Found around you
You’re real as it gets
Nothing artificial
You’re as real as
They come
But no one believes you
In the town
Where you’re from

Why is it always and only
Me trying?
Hope for rain so you won’t 
See me crying
Quick to trip and slip up
Stumble, sliding
Just gave up, quit you
Should’ve stuck by me
Better behind me

I don’t think she’d say
she got bored of me
Hang on weekdays
We had nowhere more important to be
Could be forty degrees
Only us on the beach
Said spend forever with me

Didn’t all add up
Couldn’t shake the feeling
Trusted above all yet
Heart still whispered
There’s something missing
Why’s he calculating
Sure I guess it makes sense
But just doesn’t feel right
Was naive to think I could
Shield you
From what I hoped no one Could see
Sad and plain dumb
To think I that I said
“hold me down”
To one with nothing to hide
But misfortune
on her sleeves
For the first time I find with you I feel alive

Do I give off a sense of mortality
Used to get mad
and I would
wonder why
You’d say I don’t know
how to be
Why is it always and only
Me trying?
Hope for rain so you won’t 
See me crying
Quick to trip and slip up
Stumble, sliding
Just gave up, quit you
Should’ve stuck by me
Better behind me

untitled

WIP. titleTBD prod.Hypha (THICC contest entry)

VERSE1:
it's been a month,
but i'm still stuck in total disbelief.
only took about a half a minute
to get over me
her names trouble,
such a siren, flyin from police                                         
was probably bored to tears of me,
was brief but we had fun at least.

reminds me life is short
i watched her model living free
best version of myself 
was drawn out by her energy
she's twice the woman than who 
i had pictured in my dreams
And wasn't until I met you
that I knew what it felt like to breathe

weighed down, head heavy now
you were moving me
i can't forgive myself
(still stings)
she didn't even flinch at losing me
i built her up
I saw the good inside her
others didn't see
but i was so naive
to think she'd fall in love with me

CHORUS:
I hope the truth’s not what it feels like
my whole life has been building up to this point
Heart don’t want to hear
There’s always next year
And my soul knows better now
Than to buy lines
Like better luck next time
(CC SAMPLE: FORGOT THE WORDS))

VERSE 2:
All wrong now
What is this?
None since piqued my interest 
No use what’s the difference?
One remaining consistence
You’re still what’s missing
But the radio said
It wouldn’t be raining
Ya that cloud’s always followin’
Spare me, save your breath explainin’
Why am I even botherin’? 
Hey, I could teach a class on lonely
I could write the book on grief
Found someone I could love forever
God why’d you take her from me?
I’d walk a thousand miles
I’d swim the seven fuckin seas,
raise the deepest hell on the earth
id bring the heavens to its knees,
see your reflection in the water
hear your voice amongst the trees,
The smallest whisper on the breeze
tellin me we'll never be.
You bring my world to life
And what you touch begins to sing,
My soul knew nothing of sun
And heart had never heard of spring.
Let’s see snow melt together 
Watching as winter waters freeze,
and like a stream
my soul runs towards you 
like the river that it feeds.

CHORUS:
I hope the truth’s not what it feels like
my whole life has been building up to this point
Heart don’t want to hear
There’s always next year
And my soul knows better now
Than to buy lines
Like better luck next time
(CC SAMPLE: FORGOT THE WORDS)

Next Time prod.Dswove&Yenga mix. Toro

I SPEND MY DAYS
WASTING AWAY 
WAS JUST A FAZE
BUT IT BECAME
A CONSTANT STATE
A PERMANENT TRAIT
PART OF MY NAME 
I CANNOT ERASE

AND I'VE BEEN HIDING ALL OF
MY OWN LIGHT
USE TO SHINE BUT NOW I'M
NOT SO BRIGHT
NOTHING I CAN USE LEFT
ON THE INSIDE
IT WON'T GO AWAY 
THROUGH EACH FASE WHETHER
SLIVER OR SO WIDE
MOONS PULLING HEARTS REMAINING
AT A LOW TIDE
WITH STARBOARD EMPTY
NO CREW ON THE PORT SIDE
AND THERE'S NO FIRST MATE

MUTINY MYSELF
I HIDE FROM EVERYONE ELSE 
STOWING MY HEART UP ON A SHELF
NO SAILS ON THE HORIZON 
NO POINT IN CRYING OUT FOR HELP

WHAT HAVE I GOT TO LOSE
I CAN BARELY TIE MY OWN SHOES
TIE MY OWN SHOES
IT'S SCARY
PUNISH MYSELF I NEVER IMPROVE
AND RARELY
WIN WHEN I CHOOSE
MY LIFE IS A ZOO

COME ONE COME ALL COME CLOSE TO ME
YOURE ALL INVITED TO SEE ME
WORN OUT NO MORE TRYING TO FLEE
BACK TO THE WAVES AND THE REEF

DON'T BUILD ME UP
I'M TOO FAR DOWN
HOLD MYSELF UNDER
BUT I JUST WON'T DROWN
HIDE AWAY
DON'T MAKE A SOUND
SOMEHOW KEEP
FINDING LOWER GROUND

ALL SET UP TO LOSE
ALL I'M CLINGING TO
NOTHING NEW
SHUT OUT PAINFUL TRUTHS 
CAUSE I PICK AND CHOOSE
SO VERY SOON
WONT BE IMPROVED
I'VE GOT NO EXCUSE 
BUT ALWAYS CHOOSE 
WHATEVERS EASIEST FOR ME
WILL TURN OUT TO BE
HARD ON YOU

The Zoo version 2 af mix prod. garfield

I don't think I'm exaggerating
I know I must sound so dramatic
If I met myself I'm not sure
We'd get along
Cause there's barely room for one of me
If even that
It never ceases to amaze me
Everything is black and white
May not be for the best but
My mind
It keeps me entertained
All night

Undiagnosed
I don’t wanna know
Whatever it is
It stole my hope
Whatever it is
It won't let go
Left you on your own
Never, it can’t be,
I couldn’t cope
Curled up in a ball alone
Scream at the screen
Crying on the phone
That’s the way it goes 
In truth that’s the road I chose
Solitaire it loves me so
Solitaire it loves me so

How far down does it go?
Nobody knows
Submarines only go so low
Its lonely on the ocean floor

I should get a diagnosis, maybe
But I won't cause I'm scared
Of what they might
They might tell me
First to admit that I'm self centered
I over do it
If I'm thinking about
Anything at all there's two sides to it
There's a reason that I'm alone
When I was a kid I struggled
To fit in back home
You know I wouldn't have it any other way
Sure some days I feel way too lonely
Shut out the closest to me
Now they barely know me
Either way I'll be ok
But I hope I'm not always alone

No air to breathe
Where they don’t explore
Heart couldn’t beat on the ocean floor
Years spent at sea,
Feet forgot the shore
Like coral reefs,
I’ll be gone tomorrow

Undiagnosed
I don’t wanna know
Whatever it is
It stole my hope
Whatever it is
It won't let go
Left you on your own
Never, it can’t be,
Couldn’t cope
Curled up in a ball alone
Scream at the screen
Crying on the phone
That’s the way it goes 
In truth that’s the road I chose
Solitaire it loves me so
Solitaire it loves me so
How far down does it go?
Nobody knows
Submarines only go so low
Its lonely on the ocean floor

Solitaire Version 3 work in progress

Still glad it happened to me
Grinning and tapping her feet
Flipping between trap and country
Shocked and unable to speak
Moved by her mood
And made weak
She's only gotten more lovely
Summoned my faith but the leap
Soon met up with stunning defeat
I'm sure part of me saw it coming
She could be made of desert heat
A warmth leant to me but too brief
Cut off out of reach
Of all I fell in love with
No one thing under the sea
Not the great barrier reef
Not twenty-nine thousand feet
Or even the view from the peak
As far as the eye can see
Never one more heavenly
You're the only wonder I see
You're the only wonder for me
You're the only wonder for me
You're the only wonder for me
Starlight darting in between
Leaves hung from suspended trees
Drift off to soft sound and safety
Fountains of healing really
Found to be myth fantasy
But one splash of her laugh
Could save me
Summoned my faith but the leap
Met up with overwhelming grief
Deep down I feared it was coming
She could be made of desert heat
A warmth leant to me but too brief
Cut off out of reach
Of all I fell in love with
Above white descending sheets
Bored of Olympus at Greece
Couldn't be bothered with Sphinx
Cause how great could Giza be
Polar lights sound cold we'd freeze
Interest in Everest I'd need
To have my lover with me
You're the only wonder for me
You're the only wonder for me
You're the only wonder for me
Still glad it happened to me
Though I'm heartbroken and empty
Heart just won't have it can't be
Don't want no part of forgetting
Gave up if she ever believed
Kept safe I'll hold our memories
Don't care what happened
I still love you I'm sorry
Don't say goodbye
Can't watch you leave
Take back that we're not meant to be (beautiful as water falling)
You're the only wonder for me
You're the only wonder for me
(Beautiful as water falling)
You're the only wonder for me

She's beautiful as can
Grinning and tapping her feet
Flipping between trap and country

Wonder Acoustic

Wonder (Acoustic)

Wonder (Acoustic)feat.Denixson

I don't know if I'll continue
To write you songs
Will you ever get to hear this one
It might be the last
Its all I've got left of you
But because you can't both
Listen and appear
The way you hate to but seem
To need a part of you
I haven't been enough to be shown
Or is itself too of this world
To show me
You told me its artificial
But that simply cant be
You glow 

Clear to me now that we don't know
Sky's become only separation
And pain stays within a stone's throw away
A way back to love and hope and life
A way to turn the clock back
Even rocks crack with time
I hope that you find a way
And I can't bring myself
To say don't look back
But don't look back cause
I’ll know that you're alright
I hope you still see
Angel numbers at night

Each night you sleep
I can keep alive inside of me
You're the strongest person that i know
You've shown me I can heal
Angels fall sometimes
Angels fall sometimes
I know it’s true
And if you do
I pray that I catch you
So real and ethereal only
Only heaven could have sent you
Angels fall sometimes it’s true
But if you do
I pray that I catch you
Angels fall sometimes it’s true
But if you do
I pray that I catch you

Clear to me now that we don't know
Sky's become only separation
And pain stays within a stone's throw away
A way back to love and hope and life
A way to turn the clock back
Even rocks crack with time
I hope that you find a way
And I can't bring myself
To say don't look back
But don't look back cause
I’ll know that you're alright
I hope you still see
Angel numbers at night

Catch You

Lyrics:
I don’t delight in it,
I hate the way I pack,
I’m not looking forward to it,
Spell my name wrong,
Unworthy, unequipped
Should really cut myself
Some slack but
Slacking’s lead to losing what I
Thought would just fall into my lap
Fate caught up

No use, why leave
I’d still grieve on the jet
Flight won’t lift me up
Take off won’t take away my pain
It’s my carry on
I’d tear up on the tarmac
Whisper goodbye
You won’t wave back
Turn away and watch the time go by

Oh baby
I swear I’ll be right here
To have and hold you for life, dear
Less than forever's not enough
Don't tell me no
And if you need me
I'll rush to you I swear
Hold onto you through the nightmare
Don’t think I’ll ever be
Ready to let you go

Now Boarding demo prod.toro

Thank you DC Mixing for a great job on this track as well as to my friends in the Bee Hive for your ongoing friendship, support and contributions to my music. Special thanks to “him” for the master. 
Lyric Video >>>> https://youtu.be/d6S_D5TUSXI

Killing me with all the distance lately
Like many times before
If I could then I would
If I could I’d take back
Every word let slip
In the past week maybe
All true but I overstepped
I hurt when I see you hurting
Never stray too far from tears
Tell me the change in you is for the best
What did I expect
At most I held you
While you helped yourself

Can only hold on
To love that’s it
I hope we meet
Hope we meet again
Sometime somewhere
The worst thing
Know my heart
It heard me
But it won’t give up searching

Can only hold on
To love that’s it
I hope we meet
Hope we meet again
Someday somehow
But for now
It’s pain grey
And more clouds
Down pours
I’m worn out

Killing me with all the distance lately
Like many times before
If I could then I would
If I could I’d take back
Every word let slip
In the past week maybe
All true but I overstepped
I hurt when I see you hurting
Never stray too far from tears
Tell me the change in you is for the best
What did I expect
At most I held you
While you helped yourself


Can only hold on
So long that’s it
Doesn’t mean you’re weak
We all need a friend
Somebody sometimes
To stay with you til sunrise
Always seems to find its 
Way back up again

Was only there for
Those times
Face buried
Wiped her tears off on my shoulder
Even closed eyes
Can overflow
Leak water from the corners
Even time tried
But it’s hands haven’t healed me

Killing me with all the distance lately
Like many times before
If I could then I would
If I could I’d take back
Every word let slip
In the past week maybe
All true but I overstepped
I hurt when I see you hurting
Never stray too far from tears
Tell me the change in you is for the best
What did I expect
At most I held you
While you helped yourself

Distance

For CC

Lyrics:
The pain doesn't fade
It's there every single day
She feels like it happened the night before
Like it was just yesterday
And it never goes away
Hasn't happened to me yet but I'm still lying on the floor
Every day I tell the air
I can't take anymore
But it gets so much worse
Not just lonely walks on the shore
More than poor old souls should have to bear
I can't take anymore
Things were tough already
Got so heavy it all fell apart
Don't make me walk this world without you
The only one who shared my pain
Held each other in the rain
On the rocks at your favorite spot

How far must I go
The more truth that I show the less they believe
Everyone's still here so why do I grieve
Hate what we don't know
We only see what we want to see
One by one I'm forced to watch everyone leave

Everyday I tell the air
I can't take anymore
I want memories worth clinging to
As desperately as the ones that you do
Retracing pictures in your head
Endlessly in a panic that they might
Fade and this could be the last
Accurate glimpse you'll ever get into
Those precious moments
I know all about the pain in those eyes
And I'm frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you

How far must I go
The more truth that I show the less they believe
I know all about the pain in those eyes those eyes
Everyone's still here so why do I grieve
I'm frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
Hate what we don't know
We only see what we want to see
I know all about the pain in those eyes those eyes
One by one I'm forced to watch everyone leave
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
One by one I'm forced to watch everyone leave
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
Frantic for you
One by one I'm forced to watch everyone leave

Frantic

Forgery Lyric Video here > https://youtu.be/xMysCIcwjPg

Lyrics:
I was busy having oh so much for me
I failed to see your sympathy
My reactions made you move hesitantly
Cut now I see how I was clueless it’s embarrassing 
Thought no one was as smart as me
Pollute the air with smug
Safe from smog though escape
In my smart car drove away
What I love I left myself empty
Souls broken down
My hearts been towed away

The more you show me
The more I know
There’s nothing I could see
That would make me wanna leave you
Keep up the you’ve got me wrong
Stay quiet so you don’t hurt me
Too late to start over new

Something synthetic in the paint
Most would have thought we were the same
Beloved you belong on display
I’ll miss hanging with a masterpiece
You wont fall for a forgery

Should have known there are worst things
You’ve seen it all
I get so fed up with myself but find it easier to say
It’s so unfair
And it’s not my fault
At least as lost
But showing off
As if I knew a better way

Just a glance at you is all I’d need
I’ve got half the world half fooled
Beauty’s imperfection
Longer you look
The more you’ll see
Or as much as I need
Them to be
But when it matters most
It’s far easier to see
Direct comparison
Beside you
In a gallery
A breath-taking
original piece
I’m exposed as a forgery

Been dark since taken down
And forgotten about
I'm not around

The more you show me
The more I know
There’s nothing I could see
That would make me wanna leave you
Keep up the you’ve got me wrong
Stay quiet so you don’t hurt me
Too late to start over new

Something synthetic in the paint
Most would have thought we were the same
Beloved you belong on display
I’ll miss hanging with a masterpiece
You wont fall for a forgery

Forgery

Horseshoes, shooting stars
Four-leaf clovers

Now when you sing I turn away
Strange it was once
One of my favorite sounds
Could be but don’t think
Your voice has changed
Guess mine turned you off
Fine I’ll tune you out
Where ever I go
I'm followed by the pain
Keep getting reminded
You’re all around
Worse than ringing in my ears
Stop its too loud
Don’t tell me the more I hear
The harder it is on my heart
You only make my headache
I’ve heard too much already
Can barely keep it down

So fine then, Go ahead
Whatever, I’m done
You’ll see the mistake you’ve made
Try to turn back but the path will have changed

Even when healed up
Whole and yourself again
Some sign will appear and you’ll make a wish
But you’ll be too late for the fate you missed

Would I be writing this song if I didn’t care?
What else can I do now that you’re not there?
What else can I do now?

I wonder if I ever knew you
We haven’t grown apart
Overnight erased
I wonder if I ever knew you
We’ve been torn apart

So fine then, 
Go ahead
Whatever, I’m done
You’ll see the mistake you’ve made
Try to turn back but the path will have changed
Even when healed up,
Whole and yourself again
Some sign will appear and you’ll make a wish
But you’ll be too late for the fate you missed

Make A Wish prod.Dswove @d-wove

Catwalking - Alyn Ford & .luproductions

Verse 1

You don’t need more
Than a single trip
Down the runway
To knock them dead
Need to be seen
Seem to be sick
Unchecked but by
What they might think of it
Behind the curtains
Changing quick
Need a new look
Shift effortlessly 
Couldn’t care less so
You let us drift apart
You’d think you’d start
To miss the one
Who knew your heart
But vanity and selfishness is an art
You practice staying mad at me
Don’t need valid cause to
Real sad, embarrassing
Laugh like it’s not your loss too
You’re a cat
Can’t  remember
Who waited for you
Brought you back
Hone from Long Saulte?

Chorus
Can’t trust your lips
Those hips like to lie
Are we only who we are in their eyes?
Careful cautious
Are they talking about me?
Cool confident
Cocky cat walking

Verse 2

Theatrical so dramatic
I’m over lookin at it
Most have heard now
Of the shit disturber
With all the nerve in the
World so sure of herself
As a third of her is syrup
Liquid courage
Act a third of her age
Throw fits and slam doors
Scratch claw and call names
Its strange usually so mature
When you were hurt in the worst ways
I put you first through your worst days
Didn’t even have to pick up the phone
But you hate a sure thing
Still got scooped up
Wouldn’t take me home
Did you forget already running and jumping into my arms
Is what you mean by
"always land on my feet”

Chorus
Can’t trust your lip
Those hips like to lie
Are we only who we are in their eyes?
Careful cautious
Are they talking about me?
Cool confident
Cocky cat walking

Catwalk prod.lu alynford mix

Even though it might
Not make any sense at all
When you look at me
My mind goes blank
And I stutter when we call
I think and I hope that you get it
Where I’m coming from
And what's left unsaid
Always find a way
To make me feel better
Despite awkward discomfort
I’m sure it’s all in my head

I still look at you the same way
That I did the day we met
Just as surprised
When I look in your eyes
I’ve been trying to tell you
You’re amazing
But keep hesitating
But keep hesitating

Even after all this time
I still get tongue tied
Still get shy
And I still wonder why
You keep telling me its fine
You reassure me
I’ve got nothing to worry about
And I believe you
So why can’t I get the words
To come out?

Even after all the nights
I’d rehearse it recite
Repeat memorize
Whatever words seemed right
In my sleep knew the line
In my dreams sounded fine
But when it would come time
My tongue tied

I keep hesitating

Keep Hesitating

Keep Hesitating with Darkeye 129

so I guess i've just lost interest
shake my head at life
given up cold
my warmth stolen
split splintered cracked
broken smeared and faded
hopeless I’m undone
still unchosen
shattered but yet to fall staring
forever
through pieces of me held up for a moment
by tension
to be mocked by my own mind
within hosts procession
of all i believed in on their
way by the main gate to
heaven a last
glimpse of love missed
snatched up by
or given to someone else
whose name i can't and don't care to mention
look down

Main Gate To Heaven by DPG! Music

Could I be your hero for a night
Could you look at me like you look at him
I’d stay awake with you till sunrise
And if it stayed in the west
Then that would be just fine

Whatever happens that was one sunset
I won’t forget anytime soon
Where are you
Where are you now
And do you think of me
While you watch the sky
Another day dropped behind the tree line

Won’t be’s 
Life’s losses
Let downs
Goodbyes
Should be’s
Could haves
Cut offs
Cut ties
Could I be your hero for a night
Could you look at me like you look at him
I’d stay awake with you till sunrise
And if it stayed in the west
Then that would be just fine

Burn oils up late
Too much to be
Help to you tomorrow
Turmoil is ugly
But loves me
With a feeling that must be
A deep one baby just think
Of what you did to me
Ruined what we could have been
Now you drift away
I’m worn out from towing you back in
That look in your eyes
You give to me
What I wouldn’t trade to change
The fact it’s meant for someone
Swimming in your head
But you’re laying in my bed

Won’t be’s 
Life’s losses
Let downs
Goodbyes
Should be’s
Could haves
Cut offs
Cut ties
Could I be your hero for a night
Could you look at me like you look at him
I’d stay awake with you till sunrise
And if it stayed in the west
Then that would be just fine

In The West with insidematrixbeats

Every time you’re dropped 
They didn’t choose you
I never ask what happened
Make sure I'm not there
For the good times
Barely ever see
You laughing anymore
When you do it’s at my expense
Of course they wanna buy in
To the shit that you’re telling them
I’ve reacted wrong again
All good I’ll shove it way down
Somehow still fell for your lying

I've reacted wrong
Told myself deep down
She knows how valuable
I am in her life and despite
My disappointment every time 
I cling to a hope
That she may still
Change her heart and her mind
Hope that I’m wrong
But you’ll stay the same
Brag about how much you’ve changed
Oh you’re not fooling me
I know you’re so strange

I think its cute you want to date me
But just know I’m crazy
I've got three answers
To each question
Hard no, fuck yes, maybe
I don't know why
But I've always been like this
Its lots of fun
But sad to think
Of all the things I've missed

At best you'd irritate me
While I plain drive you crazy
Annoyed and smothered
Every lover that I ever dated
My minds been wound so tight
By now girl just think
Of all the others driven off
If they weren’t drove to drink

How do you do it
Disengage
From the kind of love
You feel you’re owed
And you wish they’d show
Don’t want it to come from me
It’d be way  too easy
Hate laughing off
Life’s little worries
Yep we’re all about it
If we don’t hurry up
The world will catch up with us
So strange

Guess now it doesn’t matter anyway
And maybe you were right
And I’m the one who’s strange
So strange felt warmer
Underneath the shade
Shiver shaking your glass of lemonade

How do you do it
Disengage
From the kind of love
You feel you’re owed
And you wish they’d show
Don’t want it to come from me
It’d be way  too easy
Hate laughing off
Life’s little worries
Yep we’re all about it
If we don’t hurry up
The world will catch up with us
So strange
I know you're so strange

So Strange

I been feeling hurt.
Been searching for the remedy. 
Filled with heartache.
It’s gon be the death of me.
Can’t take the pain.
This is the end of me.
Who knew love was in fact killing me

Who knew
Who knew love was killing me
Oh
Girl this love is killing me
Swear your love is deadly
Why didn’t y’all warn me
No, why
I ain’t get no warning
Love is lethal
Swear that shit is rough
I don’t love no more
Only love my drugs
Tell me
How can you do this to me
Why’d you say you love me if
You ain’t really love me

I been feeling hurt
Been searching for the remedy
Filled with heartache
It’s gon be the death of me
Can’t take the pain
This is the end of he
Who knew love was in fact killing me

Can’t blame it all on her
Though it’s tempting
If it was all bad
Then we wouldn’t be here
Would we?
It’s the saddest thing
The girl that Maddox sings about
Pretty girl
I bet you’re pretty similar
And every bit as skilled as her
At getting what you want
Always
Swear a part of me died
When you left for good
Didn’t say goodbye
Looked too long in those hazel eyes
Left town
My heart shut down and the rest quit
When you dipped
I still can’t figure out
How you did it

Love is Deadly feat.Alyn Ford - MaddoxtheMartian

I don’t know about you but I’m all messed
Have we been running all this time
I don’t know about you but I’m all messed
Been reaching out to you across the line
I don’t know about you but I feel like we
Are running out of time
I don’t know about you but I’m uneasy
It’s weakness
Tell me it’ll be alright

Take a look around you
Haven’t got a perfect plan
And what if I never
found you
Could I live another life?

I’ve been driving for days
Still can’t escape 
Forced to erase
A love I’ve known
God knows I tried
Hate to leave your side
I’ve spent this whole damn ride
With you on my mind
And now I’ve come face to faith
With my God
But there’s no one home
Glance at the phone
But don’t pick up
For caller unknown

We’re not gonna make it
Not a fan of letting go
Saw a chance and had to take it
If you change your mind
Then let me know

As it hits me in waves
Last thing that you said Ends the ebb
A regret
That calls in the flow
And now I’m running Out of places in my mind where I can 

Go to escape
I’m just trying to go a Whole day
Under control
And no matter
What you say
You’ll stay wonderful

Learned a bit about you
We were both messed up
Where we staying,
Your place or mine?
If you spend some time around me
I can be too much
Think too much
Speak too much
Hurting here without you
Gonna be two months
you claim we
Were a waste of time
Tank of memories
But now I need new ones
Day dreaming
Til the tank is dry
About you on the drive
About you one last time

I’ve been driving for days
Still can’t escape 
Forced to erase
A love I’ve known
God knows I tried
Hate to leave your side
I’ve spent this whole damn ride
With you on my mind
And now I’ve come face to faith
With my God
But there’s no one home
Glance at the phone
But don’t pick up
For caller unknown

Face To Faith

Face To Faith prod.LSG

Where did all the time go
If I could find some more to buy
Would you spend it with me
One hundred million mile long road
Say you must really like concrete
But it’s the ride with you for me
Watchin for eternity street

How’d it all end in tragedy
Daydreaming drives
I can’t repeat
Tank like my heart
Always on E
Gas ahead
No I'm not exiting
Cause I’d still be
Empty as the passenger seat
I’d go slower
If I could again
Holding my friends hand
When I fall asleep
Beside you
On some crown land

Where did all the time go
If I could find some more to buy
Would you spend it with me
One hundred million mile long road
Say you must really like concrete
But it’s the ride with you for me
Watchin for eternity street

Trust you
Stay with me
You know the way
You’re navigating
Trust you
You could maneuver us
To a detour just
Don’t leave me in the dust
We'd go slower if I could again
Holding my friend's hand
When I fall asleep
I'd go further
Just to be with you
Stay with you till the end
You know the way
You’re navigating
Trust you
You could maneuver us
To a detour just
Don’t leave me in the dust

Where did all the time go
If I could find some more to buy
Would you spend it with me
One hundred million mile long road
Say you must really like concrete
But it’s the ride with you for me
Watchin for eternity street

Eternity Street prod. Robocat

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Canadian Alternative Pop singer and songwriter. I write from the heart and always bring a new blend of my wide array of musical influence. I am a self taught producer, digital artist, piano player, drummer and singer and always happy to meet new musical friends and work with other talented artists. You can hear all of my singles on most platforms but I do keep some treats reserved for my Soundcloud following you won't find anywhere else!

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