bitter-forever

nuulls [1shield2wings]

i go through this all the time

wind

[track2]
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lyrics:

you talk way too much
and i think that's embarrassing 
but i don't give a fuck
no, i don't even hear a thing

can we take it back to the start
broken glass inside a broken arm
can you show me how to fix a heart?
cause i know that you won't 

(i think)
you talk way too much
i think that's embarrassing 
but i don't give a fuck
no, i don't even hear a thing
(i think)
,,
did i say something wrong?
did i say something wrong?
tell me if i did
and i'll take it right back. 
(i think)

[+50/1]

i think

[track3]
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lyrics:

tell me that you love me
i tell my friends that i love them more
tell me that my life will change
destroy me to the core
(just make me feel)
-
upside down 
right side up
cant feel shit 
its been so long
its not enough
not enough
not enough to fix me

[-1]

outline(practice)

[track4]
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lyrics:

distract me 
this time
red stripes (on my face) 
outline
my hands 
my spine
i shouldve guessed that its 
different than the picture

flash on, stare at the light flicker
giving it time, can it go any quicker?
flash on, stare at the light flicker
should've guessed it was different than the picture

@lyn_u
i can't feel it anymore
i broke down, hurt me to my core
you wanna leave, something i can't afford
talk to me, tired of being ignored
clear my mind, i can't even think straight
things take time, but i don't really wanna wait
and i'm not fine, but i won't say
now all i gotta do is wait

flash on, stare at the light flicker
giving it time, can it go any quicker?
flash on, stare at the light flicker
should've guessed it was different than the picture

[+50]

distract

[track5]
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lyrics:

photographs on my doorstep
i don't know, did i misstep?
ima ask do you love me?
it's a trick question
but i couldn't ever tell you
not now
not now
not now, ever
-
(the answer)
you said make a move, this a tryout
so tell me why the fuck i'm out here dried out 
so tell me what the fuck it is you missed out
cuz it seems like an excuse for you to leave now
-
ima fucking break down i'll reset
you don't even know how much i'm upset
i hope that you know that i miss that 
god i hope you fucking know that i miss that.

[+20]

reset

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i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

that's enough to kill the bitch
stuck inside my room
i don't give a shit
more time to myself
ima make a hit
yea my mom said i'll make it
IMA MAKE THIS SHIT

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

-tacular
ask me how i feel
i feel spectacular 
-tacular 
-tacular
spectacular 

i'm tryna do this shit for too long
it better work out
i've tried to hit the ball too far
now there's no sound
they tryna take me down i said 
FUCK YOU
HOPE IT WORKS OUT
i've got the best feeling 
it's somebody i know 
i hope you get well

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

spectacular

(plays are botted)

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cover of Bagsy Not In Net by the 1975

lyrics:
this feeling, it's something when you call me
i'm dealing in death and being lonely
try it, don't like it
and leaving you here is the thing that I fear, so I fight it
do you wanna leave at the same time?
do you wanna leave at the same time?
do you wanna leave at the same time?
do you wanna leave at the same time?
i'm reeling, I know that I'm appalling
but this feeling, it could be our calling
not dying, no, just lying
seeing you here is the moment it's clear 'cause I'm crying
do you wanna leave at the same time?
do you wanna leave at the same time?
do you wanna leave at the same time?
do you wanna leave at the same time?

bagsy not in net [cover]

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dont expect me to change
only change that i see
is my mind and my heart
only time's what i please

so, dont expect me to change
only change that i see
i please everyone
and nobody please me

nobody please me 

dont expect me to stay
the time gon pass and please
i remember the days
that i felt that you like me

cuz youre everything i like

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i move, i move flawless
talk down to my brothers 
we gon' pop shit
telling me to shut up
i ain't toxic 
yea, find the key to shit
but i ain't lock it 
up ...
i don't move back
they know that i'm done
why you so mad? 
why you so sad? 
did you think i'm dumb?
if you doubt yourself ...
guess i already won 

i could NEVER fail
do this shit twice
i don't need help
yea, you see me goin up 
don't know how to feel
yea the message still stands
HOPE YOU GET WELL

cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
i move. 

[-50]

flawless

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i know
a place to run and hide
against the wall, remind
against the wall, remind
me of
everything
you've done to me
i've been ripping at the seams
ripping at the seams
i know
a place that's far away
crying everyday
i've been crying everyday
cuz you're
not here
and you'll never be
i've been trying to close the seams
i've been trying to close the seams

- original title, endings(seams intro)

[ily4ever]

everything-you've-done-to-me

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cry, that's your best sound
cry, that's your best sound 
cry, that's your best sound
talk, that's your best sound

where's the fun in living it?
i don't find this way of living fit
no more 
why's it hard to feel remorse?
it's so hard to feel
no, more
no, more
no, more
no, more

- original title, field(yourbestsound)

your best sound

DANCE MOAR!!!!!!!!!!!
- ily

(https://soundcloud.com/2ruu/fccs)

FCCS#truu24

art: @xaev 
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she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes
she says that i'm fine
it's all in my mind
i don't wanna die
i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes 

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

JUST TAKE WHAT YOU WANT
I HATE GAIN AND LOSS 
I'VE LOST THE WHOLE PLOT!!!!!!!!!!

close my eyes and i'll see.

gain & loss

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@alyxtrick
i write it, then i fucking trash it
i can't stand it, i keep doing damage
to myself and, all those all around me
you don't like me, tell me if you like-

am i a nuisance?
tear my fucking walls down
i can't do this

"you're a problem"
that's all that i hear now
i can't do this

@lynyou
i think i got a problem 
i keep spiraling
i'm losing track of the time
feels like i'm blind to it
burn it up watch it fall
i'll just tear it down
but i don't feel a thing
i just like the sound

wish i could start from scratch
i cant do this
i watched it fall down
but i'm still moving
i got nothing left to love
i wish u knew this
i watched it fall down
but i'm still moving

@alyxtrick
i put my feelings in the backseat
that's where i sleep, that's where i sleep
do you think of me? i don't think you do
it's poison in my dreams and all i see is you
do you still think that i'm pretty? 
can you tell me before i sleep?
i feel bad in the morning, in the night
and in between
i thought i had a life
but i got no memories
and i think i wanna die
i don't know 
i'm just run down
i'm just run down
i'm just run down
i'm just run down
i'm just run down
i'm just run down
i'm just run down
i'm just run down
i'm just-

last week
i'ma pass out in the backseat
i'ma laugh when i'm passing
i'm not healthy for your safety
you don't know me
you just knew me last week

i got no friends, no car
i don't wish on no star
i got no friends, no car
i don't wish on no star

blinded

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@alyxtrick
i'm feeling bitter
feel just like a zombie
one look in the mirror
see my body, yeah that's not me
you say you're my friend, then
bro don't try to stop me
its my fucking party
i can cry until the next week

i just saw the-
i just saw the real you
bro don't try to press me
all the petty shit and them beats
don't impress me
VIP, shit
glasses, cannot see shit

make me disappear just like magic
bruises on my body, yeah i've had it
magic, magic
make me disappear just like-
bruises on my body, yeah i've had it
magic, magic

@72crash
yeah i
knew better
you thought that u knew better
i think that's just too bad
i already been through that
i don't want to go back no way
i saw something in u that was in ur eyes
i was tryna get back to you
can you let me know??
let me know, i can't lose my hopeee

yea we run him down
go pick him up
don't play around
i could make him gone
i know that you fucked up don't say that i'm wrong

you say you want me
do you need me?
bitch you thought that we were friends well i don't know you
at all
no
i don't know you at all

@alyxtrick
make me disappear just like magic
bruises on my body, yeah i've had it
magic, magic
make me disappear just like-
bruises on my body, yeah i've had it
magic, magic

actor, actor i'm not acting
actor, actor i'm not acting
when i, when i, said i need you
when i, when i, said i need you
actor, actor i'm not acting
actor, actor i'm not acting
when i, when i, said i need you
when i, when i, said i need you

magic

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@alyxtrick
i cant let my mom down 
she knows that i'll make it
making money off a pastime
how i made it
i hope that it works out 
i know i'll be famous
i don't want the long route though
i'm not patient

19, i need it now 
can i have my turn yet?
i just wanna make it out
sorry that i'm upset

IT'S JUST WHEN IM PLAYING SHOWS
I WON'T EVEN GIVE A SHIT
WHEN SHE HAS HER OWN HOUSE
I'LL TELL HER THAT SHE EARNED-
GOD, SHE EARNED IT
MOM I EARNED IT

i can't let my-
cuz i can't let my mom down
i know that i'll make it
cuz i make money off a pastime
how i made it
i know it will work out
i know i'll be famous
i don't want the long route though
cuz i'm not patient 

@hassanfilename
baby don't fool me now yuh just do it right
you can call my phone even in the night
now i'm trippin in my room look through my eyes 
she asked for a ring, yea i just might

i might do it now 
no questions asked yea
MAKE YOUR BEST SOUND
i might do it now 
no questions asked yea
MAKE YOUR BEST SOUND

5 more minutes till i can't 
5 more things till i cant do it no more
this bitch think she can get at me 
don't even try i'm through the floor

i might do it now 
no questions asked yea
MAKE YOUR BEST SOUND
i might do it now 
no questions asked yea
MAKE YOUR BEST SOUND

@alyxtrick
BITCH I FEEL MY BODY CRUSHED UP
crushed up, crushed up 
pressure make me crush up
crush me,  burn me
bitch i'm fucking burnt out
so crush me, crush me
BITCH THERE IS NO PLAN B

CRUSH
this is all i want
one life i spend it
spend it how i want
i just wanna have fun

when i rule the world
TURN THE BASS UP
where's the fucking party??
tryna turn upppppppppppppppp

WHEN IM AT THE PARTY I'M NOT DRUNK
CRUSH
WHEN I'M WITH MY FRIENDS I HAVE FUN
CRUSH
AND BITCH I FEEL THE MUSIC I AIN'T NUMB 
CRUSH

crushed up, bitch i feel my body crushed up
crushed up, bitch i feel my body crush up
crush me, burn me, bitch i'm fucking burnt out
so crush me, burn me
crush me

crushed

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

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dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing

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i'm crying
i think therefore i am
i watched them playing live
first i think i'm young
then i've overstayed my time
we're just so different
i think it's circumstance
you're just not like me
but when i think, i am

patience
i keep my
patience
i keep my
patience
oh, yeah

i'll take all i want
cuz i know you'd forgive
love can outlive art
i know thievery is sin
the night my life will change
and i just want my move
it's hard to wait my turn
but you know i learned to

patience
i keep my
patience
i keep my
patience
oh, yeah

patience

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@alyxtrick
bass, bass
bitch i blow up the speaker
who else doing that but me yeah
tryna turn shit up for the people
what's that
bass, bass
that shit so loud get lethal
shut down the club, illegal
pierce your ears like needles

bass, bass
feelings gone, magic trick
feel it kick, hit that shit
heavy bracelet hold my wrist down
bass, bass
fuck your status you aint shit
live and die inside your clique
i only care about my kin, bitch

@scorpiioh
hunnids i done fuckin stacked em up
i remember when they count me out
i got too high, I saw the sun
i think i'm bound to this shit, i feel like I'm someone
bound to this shit, we dumpin rounds in this bitch
she thought she could shoot in my circle, this ain't fifa, you can't run
i'm moving on, i think i need her gone
lil shawty in a crop top, whats she on?

@alyxtrick
hold your ego down
and i wont say your name
hold your ego down
and i wont say your name
hold your ego down
and i wont say your name
hold your ego down
and i wont say your name

bass, bass
bitch i blow up the speaker
who else doing that but me yeah
tryna turn shit up for the people
what's that
bass, bass
that shit so loud get lethal
shut down the club, illegal
pierce your ears like needles

needles

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do you think i'm pretty
tell me before i sleep
we deserve forever
in that time i think ill weep
i kill myself in my dreams 
like every single week
i got shooters here in cali 
i got shooters from the east

please just talk to me
please just talk to me
i spend all the wishes that i get 
on love and inner peace 
please just talk to me
please just talk to me
i don't think i wanna die
i just got some memories 

don't you, see me?
i thought you'd notice all the times that i was hurting
baby, please don't hurt me
i thought you'd notice all the times that i was hurting
don't you, see me?
thought you'd notice all the days that i've been crying 
baby, please don't hurt me
i thought you'd notice all the times that i was hurting

in my bed, rotting in my bed
dreams of your hands
and they wrap around my neck 
when my tears hit the lips
and the lips hit a taste
all i want, you is here
all i want, you to stay 
i got magic in my voice
magic in my eyes
i can see it all the time 
when my magic hits your mind 
i got magic in my voice
magic in my eyes
i can see it all the time 
when my magic hits your mind 

don't you, see me?
i thought you'd notice all the times that i was hurting
baby, please don't hurt me
i thought you'd notice all the times that i was hurting
don't you, see me?
thought you'd notice all the days that i've been crying 
baby, please don't hurt me
i thought you'd notice all the times that i was hurting

hhandss

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the birds outside my old house
wonder if they miss me
the people at my new house
they don't seem to like me

you asked if i'd come over
i said it's not likely
you said that i should talk more
you know that's not like me

can i get a taste of the moment?
i bet that it's sweet
can i just see the life i want?
wait, i don't wanna see

what if friends leave?
what would life be?
what would i be?
i'd be nothing
i'll be nothing

then i see my old house
wonder if it miss me
but i think i like this house
i think that i like me

you asked if i'd come over
i'd stay for the week
you said that i should talk more
you know that i'm trying

can i get a taste of the moment?
i know that it's sweet
i just wanna see the life i want
then i wake up from my sleep

reflection, interlude

prod.@72crash + me

bitches want my swag
well, i don't want it back 
i don't wanna make this shit
i don't wanna sound like that
i don't mean to make you mad
it's just all y'all sound the same 
i got so much more to say
tell me why i'd never change

spending days inside
yeah i'm stuck inside my brain
i don't have a pretty face
i don't got a word to say
there's no point in talking pain
if there's no one listening
i know someone's gives a shit
when they tell me bout their day, yeah

just treat me like someone
big heart but it broke so much
gotta keep going gotta give no fuck
brand new shit gotta test my luck
spin back-
jk i ain't hard so what
talk yo shit just try to keep up

i'd sell out for my love
you sell out for some drugs 
then die by 21
star life yeah ain't it fun
star life yeah, so what
movie star like, so what
movie star like, so what

bitches want my swag
well, i don't want it back 
i don't wanna make this shit
i don't wanna sound like that
i don't mean to make you mad
it's just all y'all sound the same 
i got so much more to say
tell me why i'd never change

spending days inside
yeah i'm stuck inside my brain
i don't have a pretty face
i don't got a word to say
there's no point in talking pain
if there's no one listening

star life yeah, so what
movie star like, so what
star life yeah, so what
movie star like, so
star life yeah, so what
movie star like, so what
star life yeah, so what
movie star like, so what

Alyx Trick

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