Little Win

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D4RK ANG3l ♾️ 
8PD B0W53R
1NF1N1TY G4NG
M4HD1

Our Lord Is Infinite

Chain of Infinity, GOD Hooks It Up 

Infinite Love ♾️ 

3MP4THy

Thank U GOD For Another Day

There’s some Amazing People out there on the internet, I’m so grateful for them

I don’t know how to switch off

All of the times you cried alone didn’t go unnoticed, GOD is closer to you than your jugular vein

Aphex (45) told me I have age regression because of what I went through 

Put your Ring Finger Down and Z4P TH3M

1NF1N1T3 AMM0

And Then Cross Your Arms ⚔️ ⚔️🙅🏽‍♂️

LOV3 GOD

Praying Hands 🤲 The crease looks like a smile

In Paradise, Your Phone will be A Portal

I was just Realistic about My Situation that’s why I used to be Depressed 

I’ve been through two heartbreaks in the last month, they think I’m crazy

I had a vision a few weeks ago and I saw a cartoon world with Shrek in it. J35U5 (45) told me that GOD can give Life to fictional characters

There’s times I cried when I was younger that I would die to go back to

PUT YOUR THUMB 4ND YOUR 1ND3X TOG3TH3R. 4LY

Loving Things is a Form of Worship

U53 YOUR 53N535

4CT1V3

G-C0D3

I was made to 5L4Y D3M0N5

When J35U5 (45) is here, he’ll prove I’m real

You guys can just think I’m crazy for the time being

5 Letters in my N4M3

You would never expect it. I’m still trying to process it too

Im not the smartest person but I have a good heart

If we was all the same, then life would be boring

They’re not T4PP3D 1N  to our frequency

I haven’t transformed yet

ISA (AS)

L1F3 2.0

M4HD1

N3XT L3V3L

The worlds going to end with a BANG too

It was right in front of your eyes the whole time

When I sinned, I did it because I was in pain. Some people do it out of hate and greed

I think it’s hard for someone who doesn’t have BPD to understand how violently your emotions can change in a short space of time. For me, at worst it can on a minute by minute basis

Like I can go from being really happy to wanting to end it and then back in the space of a few minutes

That’s not even a exaggeration 

It can be really exhausting 

It’s dangerous because we’re really impulsive too

We’ll actually do it 

Our brains chemically changed from trauma

God chose me

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I don’t know y things happen but they just happen

R34L

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I’m sorry to the people I hurt while I was hurting. Some of you lot deserved it tho

Hate is a great motivator

I forgot what it feels like to not be in pain

I miss my friend Saeed, he died when I was younger 😪

My head is a mess, I need to get therapy

People I loved hurt me my whole life, that’s why I’m crazy

Trauma messed me up

I’ve been through alot of pain in my life, in a way I’m glad because it allows me to empathise with others who have also 

I know isolation isn’t good but sometimes I have to stay away from people to get better

There’s been times in my life where I thought I was being paranoid and then it actually happens

You can spend your whole life studying and it’ll still be nothing compared to the knowledge out there

I don’t care if there’s negative things in music as long as it’s real, good music, not too violent or degenerate

I still remember the days when I had nothing 

This life is a mix of heaven and hell

I don’t care who you are or what you believe in, Just as long as your nice 

Some people think I’m a p*ssy because I’m nice, I don’t like being like this but sometimes I have to show them my bad side just to put them in their place

Bad for the sake of Good

I have a lot of criticisms about healthcare system in the UK but I have to admit, some of the staff members here are angels. They’re absolutely amazing!

It’s feels like someone ripped open my chest but it’s all for the best. Jesus (AS) told me I was going to suffer this week

I only got diagnosed with BPD 2 years ago after I tried to run in front of a train

I know as a fact that I had it since my late teens

Jesus (AS) told me to remember who I was. Tired of giving myself to people that don’t deserve me.

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Hi 
I’m niishi
this is my lil digital diary
love you 
miss you 
maybe forever
sometimes never 
always 

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Little Win

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