I made this song after going through 3 hospitalizations; from blood transfusions to being AFib… and literally felt like I was drowning and couldn’t get a grip… I was tired and drained and my heart was heavy

Lyrics:

For weeks I’ve been slipping
Who do I trust when I fall
I feel like my back’s on the wall
Instead I am sinking
Clouded with thinking
Life is uncertain
These chains are a burden 
Pull back the curtain 
I used to be cocky
Minus the CK
Look at me now
I’m in pain when I bow
Anemia ow
Sick in my cells
Living is hell
This is my battle
Like snakes and their rattles
I’m warning you now
I’m warning you now

Someone please take my hand
It’s like I’m drowning in quicksand
Holding my head above water
While the storm roars in my head
I feel like I'm stranded
I’ve been abandoned
Like when the walls come tumbling down
And you can not make a sound
You can not make a sound

La la
La la
I’m drowning
I’m drowning
La la
La la
I’m drowning
I’m drowning

For weeks I’ve been slipping
Who do I trust when I fall
I feel like my back’s on the wall
Instead I am sinking
Clouded with thinking
Life is uncertain
These chains are a burden 
Pull back the curtain 
I used to be cocky
Minus the CK
Look at me now
I’m in pain when I bow
Anemia ow
Sick in my cells
Living is hell
This is my battle
Like snakes and their rattles
I’m warning you now
I’m warning you now

Someone please take my hand
It’s like I’m drowning in quicksand
Holding my head above water
While the storm roars in my head
I feel like I'm stranded
I’ve been abandoned
Like when the walls come tumbling down
And you can not make a sound
You can not make a sound

Quicksand

Lyrics:
Dear you
Leave your skin alone
It hurts more than the soul ache you carry
Marks on your body
I know
You don’t need a tattoo home
But I will understand
Why blood is on your hands
You want this life to end
Like a vapor in the wind
Don’t know how it began
But it’s all a part of the plan
Ohh
It’s all part of the plan
Ahh

So many faded things
Make up the memories
It’s hard for you to forget
The pain and the regret
Left behind like remnants
I know how hard it gets
But it’s all part of the plan
Ohh
It’s all part of the plan
Ahh

ADCN

Part Of The Plan

Lyrics:
In my lostness I found a friend
I was hanging around
Close my eyes and it’s all pretend
Where is my friend
Where is my friend
I grew fond of the mystic hand
Pulling my strings
I was yielded at His command
Where is my friend
Where is my friend
Oh it’s tough
I keep fighting to make it work
I’m done walking blurry lines
I say where is my friend
Oh where is my friend
Where is my friend

Someone to pick my head up
And with me when I fall down
In the midst of the deafening silence
A gentle whisper
A whisper from my friend

A whisper from my friend
A whisper from my friend
Lights me up inside
And gives new life
Saying shine bright
And that I will be alright

Oh, oh it’s tough
I keep fighting to make it work
I’m done walking blurry lines
I say where is my friend
Oh where is my friend
Where is my friend
Where is my friend

Where is my friend
Where is my friend
I’ve been searching
Searching for you
Searching for you

(I said wade in the water)
I found a friend that never leaves
(I will remain in You)
He makes his home inside of me
(I said wade)
This is my guarantee
That I have a friend
(Where is my friend)
I have a friend
I have a friend
(Where is my friend)

Where Is My Friend

Lyrics:

Ah, ah ah
Step on the noose uh
Call it a goose
Duck duck goose
Found that golden egg
Hatch a plan to stay
Here to stay in the game?
Got them running legs
Can’t tame the beast inside of me
No
I wanna get loose ooh ooh
Loose like a car that’s in use
When you give a good push
And you look what it do
A stupid little boom
A slimy little goo
Like the purple gooey monster

Like the purple gooey monster mastered time again
All the pressure turned to grapes up on the vine again
Let me tell you I got no more time to hide again
Who goin hide again
I won’t hide again
You go hide and I will tell you when it’s time again
Yeah
Disobey 
How I’m gonna lie again
I’m done lying when it’s black and white
There’s goes the siren
I’m tryin crash
Tryin reach mountain high 
Can’t hold no-nothin back
Oh, dang, yeah

The foolishness inside of me
The foolishness inside of me
The monster up inside of me
The monster up inside of me
Nah nah nah nah nah
The monster up inside of me

Monster Inc called me last night
Asked if there’s something they want me to say
Told them I’m happy to come in, be tested
I don’t know why they act afraid
Maybe I lied a bit
I told them I’m positive
There’s nothing to worry ‘bout
I told them I’m out of it
Appointment I’m ‘bout to miss
Umm
Monster Inc called me last night
Asked if there’s something they want me to say
Told them I’m happy to come in, be tested
I don’t know why they act afraid
Maybe I lied a bit
I told them I’m positive
There’s nothing to worry ‘bout
I told them I’m out of it
Appointment I’m ‘bout to miss
Umm umm umm

All I see is red
I leave my house a wreck
And leave my text on read
All the pent up rage and
All the pent up anger
Uh yeah
Double or nothing
I’m giving it all that I got
Now tell me if I’m wrong or if I’m right
But not forgotten
I put my picture behind glass
So you remember what I look like
When I’m gone and turnt around
And you just stab me with a knife

Eh
Let it go 
Uh
Let me go
Nah
Let me go
Nah
The monster up inside of me
The monster up inside of me

The Monster Inside

Lyrics:

4 Oppositions
1 with the stick 
2 says to quit
3 throws a fit 
4 wants the grit
Nothing comes to those who wait 
Screw entitlement
That’s for those who merely look and bark in place

Here’s a stick
I goin use it like a switch
Aren’t you happy
What more did you want from me to depict
I could beat you over the head
But that don't solve what was said
You're better off on the med
Cuz I don't quite understand 
Sure I did the bare minimum
Like a middle ball in a pendulum
But I should flex cuz I'm one of them
Liking and liking and liking and liking 
Supposedly my biggest fan
Remember that line I wrote about
No you don't
So it's funny how you like to take a bow

4 Oppositions
1 with a stick 
2 says to quit
3 throws a fit 
4 wants the grit
Nothing comes to those who wait 
Screw entitlement
That’s for those who merely look and bark in place

You’re straight up trash
Can’t you understand
Unbothered
You’re back again
I see the side of two
Where are my manners?
I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that
It’s unrealistic to think that you can make it in rap
You sound so stupid
Umm umm umm
Who is that?
You wanna be different so bad
Are you dumb, stop putting an act
You’ll never make it like that
Ahh
But they don't mean it though
Said they don't mean it though 
But you goin wanna see that door

I'm number three
How does this involve me
I just wanna go home 
Like all your music is unknown
Being left alone
I mean I dont really have any constructive criticism
I guess you're doing your thing

4 Oppositions
1 with a stick 
2 says to quit
3 throws a fit 
4 wants the grit
Nothing comes to those who wait 
Screw entitlement
That’s for those who merely look and bark in place

Where is the dog in ya
I believe in ya sis
Don’t let the animals tell you how to quit
Just because you fall seven times, don’t mean you get to dip
Where is the hunger?
Where is the thirst?
Where is the confidence?

4 Oppositions
Screw 1 with the stick 
Screw 2 with the quit
Screw 3 with the fit 
Screw 4 but not really
I stunt like a Steph shimmy and smile
Look at the state of me
Yeah look at the state of me

4 Oppositions
1 with a stick 
2 says to quit
3 throws a fit 
4 wants the grit
Where’s the —
Ahh

4 Oppositions (prod. Lonely Boy)

Lyrics:

I need a bit of sunshine
The one I'm missing 
Taking vitamin D from not walking
Someday turn on the lights 
Rise and shine 
Get up or the inner voice keeps talking
Ahh ooo
Ooo
It's a drag to get me out of the house
Ooo
Feel so much better outside 
Light as a feather 
Relieving the pressure
With no care in the world
Open my eyes
What do I see
Life goes on without me
Look at the birds and the bees
They be telling a story that's all around me
They been telling a story that's all around me
Money in the bank but the hot is cold
Life gave me lemons but they rot with mold
What you gonna do you gonna write a note
No no no 
Doesn't matter if you look like your composed
Hiding all the pain but the Father knows
Holding out a hand so come and rest your soul
A worry can not add a single day to your life
The lillies of the field
They just grow and they die
Take a page from their book and free your mind
Life goes on and on and on and on
Life goes on and on and on and on
Life goes on and on and on and on again
It goes on again 
There's a story that's all around me
There's a story that's all around me

Story All Around Me (Prod. Platon)

Lyrics:
How many watches do I need now? 
I got a couple that’s a fee now 
They come up to me cause I’m me now 
But let me take you back to Monday night

Eyes kept twitching I know that’s not by design 
Watched my PM become AM overnight
Sickle-celling, had the worst day of my life
One more problem, got another on my mind 
Had a convo with my shadow I’m alright
Back and forward scorched with fire and the ice
Tough for the one in charge of being my scribe
Convulsing with no foam make sure you add that one line

Ahh 
Nobody knows what your going through
If you feeling blue
I was tired in the guessing game of playing clue
Open up the zoo
It ain’t pretty but I

I got the mullah let me plant myself a lemon tree
Punching like a giant and it started from a lemon seed
(Seed seed seed)
I can hear the voices echoing
Hear I am, Lord I’m listening 

Had a convo with my shadow I’m alright
Back and forward scorched with fire and the ice
Tough for the one in charge of being my scribe
Convulsing with no foam make sure you add that one line

My God did it better
Changed up like the weather
Ha ha
Gummy bears make me lighter 
Usher depression away like the Piper
Lidocaine
Light a candle
Thaw it off
Warm up my soul

(Umm the melody)

In front of me I got three plasma TVs
If I missed it in real life I got the big screens
Flying high cuz I told Eman don’t you leave me
Don’t worry He said you’re coming to see me


Produced by Ophir (Prod. by Ophir)

PM to AM (Prod. by Ophir)

Produced by Reda404 (https://soundcloud.com/reda404music)

Lyrics:
I've been acting on the safe route
Hiding out behind my eyebrows
And all the places I can go now
Umm send Chi-chi right over
Red rover, red rover, red rover
Send Chi-chi right over
My savior's the chauffeur 
Lukewarm I was freezing 
Came closer, no playing around so
Send Chi-chi right over

Tossing in the waves just like I'm in Atlantic uh
Mundane and it was feeling automatic yeah
I got fed up in the water going nowhere
Nowhere
(Fast)
It's like I'm wrestling the darkness
Blackout curtains to black out the thought of running over
Dang my heart is racing like I took some peach rings
Feeling uneasy
Balance unsteady 
Bound by a longing for something more
Something more, something more
Can someone tell me why I do the things I don't wanna do
(What's the word, why don't I know)
And what about the things I wanna do they just fall through 
Red rover be calling
My old nature holding me down
No I can't fault you

I've been acting on the safe route
Hiding out behind my eyebrows
And all the places I can go now
Umm send Chi-chi right over
Red rover, red rover, red rover
Send Chi-chi right over
My savior's the chauffeur 
Lukewarm I was freezing 
Came closer, no playing around so
Send Chi-chi right over

Uplift these roots I've been grounded in
Grounded in, grounded in
All this quicksand
All this quicksand be holding me down
Be holding me down like dead roots in the ground
(Gotta move them feet up left right and back down yeah)

I've been acting on the safe route
Hiding out behind my eyebrows
And all the places I can go now
Umm send Chi-chi right over yeah
Red rover, red rover, red rover
Send Chi-chi right over
My savior's the chauffeur 
Lukewarm I was freezing 
Came closer
(Closer) 
No playing around so send Chi-chi right over

Red Rover (Prod. Reda404)

LYRICS:

I don’t beat around the (bush)
Seems like you’re peddling
Okay, let’s talk about it
Umm leave it in the wind

¿Por qué eres grosero?
La animosidad
Para el prado

Stuck in G. Co
That's Gwinnett though
It's okay bro
Some may call it ghetto
Ahh
I'm stoneface when they try to laugh it off
Hit em with a blank stare they go mute while I just scoff

Ain't got ricos
Well I got gemstones
Familia ethos
Home of the Migos
Next to the meadow
Ahh
The creek was like a birthing ground for dreams
Hand in hand in hand grown folks gave us agency

I was in Chamblee
Learning but barely 
I leveled up when my old neighbors betrayed me
Don’t get ahead of me
All things work together
All things work together 
All for my hood

Where are the trenches
I don’t see them
Strangers acting like a fool
Where are the gangsters
I don’t hear them
I wish blind folks understood that
All things work together
All things work together 
All for my hood

Chatara se recoge un lunes
Vendido por ganancias un martes
Trabajadores (Duros) (Solo)
Son todo lo que veo
¿Por qué nos llaman gueto?

En boca cerrada no entran moscas
El Simón dice cállate la boca
Si no tienes nada bueno que decir
Toma una siesta
Noche Noche pow pow

I don’t beat around the (bush)
Seems like you’re peddling
Okay, let’s talk about it
Umm leave it in the wind
¿Por qué eres grosero?
La animosidad
Para el prado

Stuck in G. Co
That's Gwinnett though
It's okay bro
Some may call it ghetto
Ahh
I'm stoneface when they try to laugh it off
Hit em with a blank stare they go mute while I just scoff

Ain't got ricos
Well I got gemstones
Familia ethos
Home of the Migos
Next to the meadow
Ahh
The creek was like a birthing ground for dreams
Hand in hand in hand grown folks gave us agency

I was in Chamblee
Learning but barely 
I leveled up when my old neighbors betrayed me
Don’t get ahead of me
All things work together
All things work together 
All for my hood

Where are the trenches
I don’t see them
Strangers acting like a fool
Where are the gangsters
I don’t hear them
I wish blind folks understood that
All things work together
All things work together 
All for my hood

Stuck in G. Co
That's Gwinnett though
It's okay bro
Some may call it ghetto
Ahh
I'm stoneface when they try to laugh it off
Hit em with a blank stare they go mute while I just scoff

Ain't got ricos
Well I got gemstones
Familia ethos
Home of the Migos
Next to the meadow
Ahh
The creek was like a birthing ground for dreams
Hand in hand in hand grown folks gave us agency

Produced by Prod The Cat

All For My Hood (Prod The Cat)

LYRICS:

Went to the old me
Tried to find comfort
I couldn’t find none
But I saw vultures
All the vultures picking at my dead skin
Couldn’t recognize who I might’ve been
I’m so disfigured
In this dimension

Porcelain, porcelain in my soul
I don’t know what I’m living for
I think I’m dying 
Circled by vultures

So long for taxidermy
What remains in the morning
Dry bones, I’m kind of starving
Dry bones can live again
Can live again
Can live again
Okay
I’m okay
I’m okay

Cuz I went to the old me
Tried to find comfort
I couldn’t find none
But I saw vultures
All the vultures picking at my dead skin
Couldn’t recognize who I might’ve been
I’m so disfigured
In this dimension

Porcelain, porcelain in my soul
I don’t know what I’m living for
I think I’m dying 
In this dimension

Produced by MALI.

Vultures

LYRICS:

In my room
M.I.A

In my room behind the summer
Hoping that I see the winter
I barely leave my comfort zone
Waiting for the perfect weather
How long will I spend on the sidelines
Often I’m told there’s a frontline
Waiting for me
Waiting for me

Had a conversation with my father
He told me don’t just talk and be about it
He told me you gotta be living smarter
He told me use your God given abilities
To the least of these, who are my sisters?
To the least of these, who are my brothers?
Waiting for me
Waiting for me

Destined
I was destined from the start
Chosen
I was chosen to do my part
Can’t just sit on my hands
And leave it up to chance
Stop breathing to death
Gotta be intentional

Cuz I’m salty
Heck, I’m thirsty
Tryna find me a pulse
And keep on acting 
Yeah I’m shining
No more hiding
Be a light of the world
Rich and full
Beyond survivor mode
Throw off passivity
Making the most of opportunities

In my room behind the summer
Hoping that I see the winter
I barely leave my comfort zone
Waiting for the perfect weather
How long will I spend on the sidelines
Often I’m told there’s a frontline
Waiting for me
Waiting for me

Had a conversation with my father
He told me don’t just talk and be about it
He told me you gotta be living smarter
He told me use your God given abilities
Cuz they waiting for me
Waiting for me
Waiting for me
Waiting for me

Produced by Yogic Beats

Waiting For Me

👆God first, God leads the way
🎵’Vultures’ OUT NOW
🎵’Transformer (rom 12 and 7)’ OUT NOW
💿 ‘Phases’ EP… OUT NOW
🎧 Producer-wise, I go by Raccoon Peanut

All For My Hood (Prod The Cat)

Amarachi Desi

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