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new song out now!
hope you guys enjoy

lyrics:

There's so much that I wanna do but there's so little time 
Falling sand, the hourglass and all thats left behind 
It's all too much trying to find the reasons why
I fall out of touch with this feelings on my mind 

Take me back to when i was younger, when the world was filled with hope and wonder oh I can see it all so clear 
With the sunrise in early september, petal bikes and some worn out leather we would go anywhere
Anywhere but here

Did you think we'd grow up like we did?
We once were little kids then everything changed, it don't feel the same
Guess i'm feeling a little paralyzed being half past 25 and everything's changed
Everything's changed

How many times can i try to take it slow?
How many friends did i have to let go of?
It's been a minute and i'm itching for my phone
Keeping my composure that's unheard of
I can feel the pressure growing on me and i can't help my anxiety
There's no other way, i fall from grace all of the time

So take me back to when i was younger, when the world was filled with hope and wonder oh I can see it all so clear 
With the sunrise in early september, petal bikes and some worn out leather we would go anywhere
Anywhere but here

Did you think we'd grow up like we did?
We once were little kids then everything changed, it don't feel the same
Guess i'm feeling a little paralyzed being half past 25 and everything's changed
Everything's changed

everything's changed

Remix of Clara La San - In This Darkness
shonci: https://beacons.ai/shonci
abnormal: linktr.ee/prodbyabnormal

In This Darkness (Jersey Club + Brazilian Funk)

Be Alone Cover

this one is super special for me, thank u guys for everything
produced by me and cricket of 31sentinel
lyrics: 
fucked around and told u all the things that i loved 
don't u know me better than the person i was 
won't u go around and tell ur friends that i suck
 trying to write it over but u know me better 
and i called, u showed no effort 
swear to god u were in my bedroom
 that night must've been a mirage
 a movie in my head that i stumbled on

but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart 
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around
 but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart 
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around

around me, baby put it around me
 i could be a billionaire just put up a bounty
 trip to the midwest and california surroundings
 don't want all that shit that come with being a crowned king
 i left all my family and my feelings at home 
staring at a screen pretending i'm in control 
told all of my friends i'm back to being alone 
showing off my endgame it don't got any holes in it

but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart  
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around
 but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart
 there'd be a little more of me and less of u around

been down, i been a little bit down 
 i eat all my feelings so they don't hit the ground 
picture this i'm working on a energy cloud 
shield myself from everything that ur putting out 
all the other kids they don't look just like me 
rounding up my efforts, set it up times three
 counting down the minutes every time i breathe 
wishfully hoping, i don't wanna think about it now

i know that i could do it all better
 i'm burning up a hole in my sweater 
i'm growing up and i been so anxious
 cus what if i can't keep it to(gether)

but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart 
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around
 but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart 
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around

bounty (me + 31sentinel)

Let Me Go [Daniel Caesar cover by Charlene Alyssa Herrella ft. Mom washing dishes]

Let Me Go (Daniel Caesar) by Charlene Alyssa Herrella

a vm of a song i wrote months ago about pivotal events in a relationship always happening to take place on wednesdays ... and u didn't realize it until way after ... 

i guess this is kind of a continuation of the narrative of wallet picture song, because this one takes you through how i was feeling specifically a month or so after the events of that song

on that note ... happy wednesday!

lyrics:

skeletons in my closet
i’ve got quite the roster
of people that i’ve lost
limbs i’ve had to cut off 

used to need you like breathing 
i hate how i still react
turn my head back at the sound
my training’s still intact

and my body won’t reject you
and i can’t erase my mind
every now and then i’ll forget you 
and then remember the passage of time

it was a wednesday that i left you 
wednesday when we fell in love
it was a wednesday when i realized 
that when push comes to shove
there were risks you wouldn’t take
i think you loved me but not enough 
it was a wednesday i walked away 
and a wednesday when we begun 

i add injury to insult 
i can feel myself reaching out
but i don’t actually do it
i don’t know what that’s about 

i miss you for good reasons
my heart still feels linked to yours
i miss how it was easy
when the signs were left ignored 

my body won’t reject you
and i try tune you out
every now and then I’ll forget to
and how your voice is still my favorite sound

it was a wednesday that i left you
Wednesday when we fell in love
it was a wednesday that i noticed
when i started thinking of 
all the lines i didn’t think 
that you were brave enough to cross
it was a wednesday when you won me over 
and a wednesday when you lost

Be Alone Cover

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