On repeat

she can't stand me

fr8 train

august

lyrics
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gon be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

bitch dont match my energy
she bumping all my melodies
im 17 with felonies
these drugs gon take my memory
they want something that I'll never be
wish she love me like ecstasy
used to look at me so breathlessly 
but her mind full of jealousy

all these fucking drugs that I abuse
cause I don't got nothing better to do
hope you know that I'm in love with you
I'm just scared these drugs will get you too

sendflowrs
I've been thinking about you with a cup poured
if this shit gon kill me why it feel so good for
these feelings must be what they make the mud for
ion know I promise I'm ok girl why'd you run for?
if you really being honest why you hide it?
n they say it gets better, I don't mind it
2019 I lost my heart cant find it
ion know if I'll love again I guess I'll find out soon

residential
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gonna be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

2019 w sendflowrs (nevrfall x branwen)

Dark Magic

WTF (am i doing with my life)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

living proof (that it hurts)

shotgun carousel

whys it feel my friends have died
when I know there right outside
am I the only one inside
eating at my mind

I hope they miss me being around
but I don't feel like being around
rather my face stitched to the ground
don't leave a message after the sound

when this liquor hit my veins
it just put me in my place
fuck I hope I change
fuck I hope I change

change (idly blare)

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

Hope u guys like this one. My fave song so far this year, enjoy <3

Production and collab with @prodjpjp

LYRICS:
all i seem to do is make you mad
i promise that, that wasn’t what i had in mind
give me one more chance to take it back
but you said that you’re leaving me far behind

and i did what you wanted
i cut all my hair and i changed all my ways
you lied to my face when you said you would stay
and all that i’m left with is a world that’s so grey
and i don’t react
when you say all that
just to get under my skin
and i don’t fight back
there’s no need for that
so i keep it all stored within

and i trusted you with all of my life
and you said some things to ruin my night
talking down like you’re double my height
and i could count the times that you fake cried
and i can’t hold it back no more
manipulating, liar, an excuse for a damn whore
i’ve reached rock bottom, way further than before
you’ve lit me on fire and made me your new torch

guess you got what you wanted
we were over in a flash
but i am always haunted
by the ghost of our past
i can’t believe i lost it
it went right through my hands
your sweater, i ain’t washed it
can’t let go of what we had

HAVE A GOOD DAY/NIGHT LOVE U 333+

within (jpjp)

https://soundcloud.com/b_murph

produced by nevrfall & branwen

cover art by @bitekivibes

and i thought that we were over
but you say we've just begun mm
looking for a four leaf clover
like im running out of luck mm
and im tryna read your mind
when you say that you're in love mm
start to slur all of my words
when i feel a little drunk mm

(and i know that you've been trying your hardest to get to me)
(but i promise that im not worth all your energy)

and i know that you've been trying your hardest to get to me
but i promise that im not worth any of your energy
im tryna fill the void without you next to me
and im always stressed while you're living so carefree
(so carefree)
im so done with everything
i cant keep pretending
that im okay with how things are
when i can feel myself slowly falling apart
there aint too much left for me
like whats the point of living
and i cant find a purpose here
so why do i keep pushing on when nothings clear

and i thought that we were over
but you say we've just begun mm
(yeah you say we've just begun)
looking for a four leaf clover
like im running out of luck mm
(like im running out of luck)
and im tryna read your mind
when you say that you're in love mm
(when you say that you're in love)
start to slur all of my words
when i feel a little drunk mm
(when i feel a little drunk)

(when i feel a little drunk)

B Murph - Threshold (nevrfall x branwen)

@b_murph @tnvr555

// murph 
i'm way too drunk right now
baby could you just call me tomorrow?
cross out my face, i hate that shit
make sure i'm not in the photos
i'm numb, i'm broken and i can't feel a thing
i'm fucking hollow
i hate the way you play these games with me
it brings me sorrow
goddamn I'm so stressed out right now 

i hate
when you say that you're in love
my chest, it burns
when you then say you've had enough
like make your mind up before i fuck my life up
baby, i'm so stressed out
yeah, i hate
when you say that you're in love

// geist 
darling
you make it so hard go
it’s too difficult
don’t say you’re sorry
please you know that words mean nothing now
i fall apart
and you watched me burn to ashes love
so tell me what can i say to you when i’m breaking down

tell me how you feel
we crossed eyes and i had believed it oh
to me it was all real
but for you it’ll always be cynical
and i hate when you scream
so please don’t tell me now that you’re in love
i guess you made your mind
cause it’s clear to me that i’m not enough

// murph & geist 
i hate
when you say that you're in love
my chest, it burns
when you then say you've had enough
like make your mind up before i fuck my life up
baby, i'm so stressed out
yeah, i hate
when you say that you're in love

i hate
when you say that you're in love
my chest, it burns
when you then say you've had enough
like make your mind up before i fuck my life up
baby, i'm so stressed out
yeah, i hate
when you say that you're in love

baby i'm so stressed out

spotify

baby i'm so stressed out w/ b murph [tnvr]

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

produced by: trill skeleton @trill-skeleton

cover art by: SirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

come around
while im down
breaking down
on the floor

stick around
close the door
i been feeling
fucking bored

what the fuck
did i do
when you took
out my name

from ur phone
back in june
and said were thru
said were thru

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

ft: @barrenwaste
prod: @anobodyreally x @cpt_sad

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat

getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont care im just anxious
we got some plans to be famous
i dont know if i can take this
money good, but the paper faceless
im so useless, didnt choose this
feeling clueless, send me cute pics
like you used to
got a new life
that im getting used to
drunk in my room
like im Free Throw
in the back row
with my hopes up
and my head down low
man im stressed out
getting aquainted with all of my thoughts
hoping ill turn out to be who im not
grabbing a knife just to cut out the coms
my heart in the fridge where i ice out my head
my brain is a mess, id be better off dead
cant fight up the courge to end my own life
but find out the futures got reasons to live
i cannot go, but i wanna bail
burried in woes, to sorrow i hail
i drink from the veil just to swallow my tongue
maybe ill join up the 27 club

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat
getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont know if i can take this
all my life ive been faceless

yeah i did some things
i don’t want to say
same as for you
so it goes both ways
don’t need this high horse 
you rode on in
its been too fucking long
since you sang the same old song
to try to get my sing along
but don’t you ever try again
im sick of all this patience
that I’ve been always fading
and try to get back
but its never helping that
i can’t understand the relations
between you and i
theres nothing left
but there always something else
that I’m wondering 
why do you always come back
to try to get me in
inside my own head
to try to trick myself
to think i love you again
it always works somehow
until i realize 
its nothing that i want now
its nothing that i need
but you always try to 
convince me

Follow me <3

faceless (ft. barren) [prod. ʎpoqou x yesterday]

produced by @notmorgn

@guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(guccihighwaters)

where my friends?
all i see is ghosts with drug addictions
im floating well but i will sink with this affliction

and that night they found u dead right in the kitchen the sharp needle pushed like a piston

come feel come feel

(9TAILS)

come feel the beat of my heart
is it fast and should i be scared
bitch i been falling apart

ur friend hit a rough patch
bitch i BEEN falling apart
i could teach em how to deal with that
i could show em where to start

it really isnt that hard
put the work raise the bar
i treat the game like a football
kick that shit all 53 yards

catch up to me thats a trek
far trek no picard
u aint really been thru enough
take a look at these scars

im falling
through the cracks
back breaking
under the pressure u had put up on my back

love bites purple onto my neck
with no love its boring
wish i could feel something

(guccihighwaters)

i wish i could
i wish i could
i wish i could
just a fragment of my heart
is all that u left me
how many times
cus girl i been stressin

no friends just vices around me
they only help me block out my surroundings
19 but my heart is in fragments
now every night i just sleep in the casket

(9TAILS & guccihighwaters)

im falling
through the cracks
back breaking
under the pressure u had put up on my back

love bites purple onto my neck
with no love its boring
wish i could feel something

9TAILS & guccihighwaters - scars (prod. notmorgn)

prod. @ghostrage
mix/master @93feetofsmoke

oh hey, miss ur face
life been throwing fades
shadows on the lake 
oh hey, i'm not okay
sup like hows your day?
yeah i'm doin great
x2

In the back of your thoughts
like the ghost in your hall
I’m the first one to leave
You’re the first one to call 
Hope that table is gone
The initials moved on
you keep friends for a week
Guess a month was too long 

I bite down on my tongue 
u always temperamental 
Scratchin thru my schedule 
room never presidential 
Tell myself to move on 
Stop being sentimental 
back to dabs and liquor 
whipping tracks and rentals 

say its kool 
But its not 
Not the type
to stir the pot
Leave the past 
Dead to rot 
You’ve proven that it’s not worth it 

Ok kool 
Oh wait nah 
fisticuffs 
On the block
Quick to aim
Quick to jump 
Still the same 
you’re still not

oh hey, miss ur face
life been throwing fades
shadows on the lake 
oh hey, i'm not okay
sup like hows your day?
yeah i'm doin great
x2

I bite down on my tongue 
ur always temperamental 
Scratchin thru my. schedule 
room never presidential 
Tell myself to move on 
Stop being sentimental 
back to dabs and liquor 
back to whipping tracks and rentals 
 
say its kool 
But its not 
Not the type
to stir the pot
Leave the past 
Dead to rot 
You’ve proven that it’s not worth it 

ok kool 
Oh wait nah 
fisticuffs 
On the block
Quick to aim
Quick to jump 
Still the same 
you’re still not

On repeat

amnotnow