this makes me cry everytime i listen to it. thank you. i put it on evertime i need to cry. it's cathartic as hell.

greeat thanks a lot i want to fucking kill myself right now

Elixir-of-the-Mongoose

it's a vicious cycle

9 of 10

cowritten by & featuring @cmten
mastered by Ryan Schwabe
art designed + edited by @daywaiter
original photo + concept by mars whitlock & me

~~lyrics~~

(sd)
Acting out of malice
Circle pain on the diagram
Keep it steady, cut precision from my shaky hands
I'm so caught up between what I want and who I am
You only reach out at your weakest

And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed
And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed

I think I found what you were looking for
I won't give it back until you learn to use the magic word
If you're fucking with me then I just gotta be sure
And if it's really honesty then stop faking concern
Water down the drain until I'm clean
I create the image of myself I let you see
The things that make you pretty never look as good on me
Me my eyes and eyelids are all different shades of green

And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed

And I do it right back
And I do it right back
Let it circle in my head (Let it circle in my, and it circles in my head)
Burn a hole into my bed (And it circles in my head head head head head yeah)

(cmten)
Downing the drink that you made for me
Carve a space in the walls so that I can see
I can barely breathe, I can barely breathe
When you’re not with me, when you’re not with me
Sometimes takes a little more to come apart
Waiting for you to come back in the dark now
Sometimes waiting all alone at the bus stop
I don’t really give a fuck about what you want now
Bout what you want now
Bout what you need now
Bout what we had, 2am and I’m homebound
Kissing your neck, I forget all the past
Til I stand up too fast and I do it right back

(sd)
And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed
And I do it right

star★☆

doitrightback

laura les - what do i know 20190208

from the story of s*nny (premiered at Camp Boneyard 2022).
https://soundcloud.com/underscores/snny

The Story of S*nny

underscores - New world 2007 (You don’t even know who I am)

in my heart there's like a thousand holes to fill

sanctuary

penetanguishene

10,000 gecs

Dumbest Girl Alive

a song about the things i wish i could have done

produced, mixed, mastered by phixel
verse by saoirse dream
backing vocals by jackalsclaw

/

[NOTE: english translations will appear in brackets next to catalan lyrics. im still learning the language so im really really sorry for my bad pronunciation and grammar]

(phixel)
em fa mal  [it hurts]
tan malament  [so badly]
com puc escoltar  [how do i hear]
digue'm per què  [tell me why]

no et puc veure  [i cant see you]
a través de l'aire negre  [through this smog]
caurà neu ardent  [fiery snow will fall]
t'enterraré, a la cendra  [i will bury you, in ashes]

et llegiré la ment com un llibre  [i will read your mind like a notebook]
però no ho vull escoltar  [though i dont want to hear it]
encara no ho sé, per què estimes  [i still dont know why you love me]
em desgastaré, afectat  [i will wither away, afflicted]

(saoirse dream)
I still fall asleep in your clothes
Try to struggle out of your rope
Buy into release I’ve imagined
Cling tight to the arms of your ghost
I light matches that I can’t put out
So I burn down bushes outside of your house
And you just watch me
You laugh
Like “what the fuck is wrong with cat?”
You know that I can’t answer that

(phixel)
et llegiré la ment com un llibre  [i will read your mind like a notebook]
però no ho vull escoltar  [though i dont want to hear it]
encara no ho sé, per què estimes  [i still dont know why you love me]
em desgastaré, afectat  [i will wither away, afflicted]

a la cendra, a la cendra, a la cendra  [in ashes, in ashes, in ashes]

[jackalsclaw:]
(i went, i cast you in the fire, i watched you burn, i didnt cry)
(ill tell you everything alright, to get your memory out my mind)

notebook

ALL PLATFORMS!!!

notebook w/ saoirse dream

SUSIE'S REVENGE

I want ur loaded eyes
Looking at me tonight
Baby can you tell what this rlly is

Fuck baby I need ur touch
Baby this is too much
Fuck

Flesh without blood

U n Me

prod. swazy* 
vocals and beat edits by button

oh, how i wish you would call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories that we’ve seen

you talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate
talk to me lately, you notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can-

call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories that we’ve seen

you talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate
talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate

(//tbh i know it's not best for me\\)
maybe it's for the best that it's not best for me-

call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories that we’ve seen

you talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate
talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can-

call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories that we’ve seen

you talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate
talk to me lately, notice that i’ve changed
I'll talk to you sometimes, somewhere in this we can relate

\//I //L//O//V//E//Y//O//U\\/

(call me, call me, on the phone, on the weekend
you noticed, know i’m free,
we could do anything that you really wanted, haunted by all the memories)

penetanguishene

ana kennedy

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