Now it seems that I don't care, but my legs are shaking underneath the wheel when I drop you off to go meet with some other guy. Oh no, I almost let it happen again, I almost let myself think of you as more than a...

But I know that for know it seems to be better this way, and I know that we could be together some...

All those nights at Bergman and The Boat, lost inside your eyes, all those nights you hurt me, all those night I couldn't cry.

So to my heart: I promise that I will never let you be broken again. I have raised my shields or at least I pretend. Oh no, I almost let it happen again, I almost let myself believe...

Oh you don't even know how much I miss you, holding your hand, running my finger down your nose. My heart hurts the most when I remember. It's taking its toll with these feelings, I know that I pushed you away by telling you what I wanted to say.

What I said is what I thought that you wanted to hear. I think it was, I thought that I could feel complete for more than one...

itsdarkoutsidenow

Was anybody listening when I said you'd never be alone? They could not believe us, but you said, "I'll never leave you. I'll never let you go."

[Letting go]

I try to release, but instead I find that when you are away there is no peace-of-mind. All in time I'll be shallow, a sea of blue. 'Cause there's no place for me in this world without you.

My life one year ago today? Just another chapter on confusion in the pages of a book about when I tried to define a "normal life." Somethings will never change, and I won't listen to what they say.

I'll never live this life as a life spent trying to avoid a bitter end. Instead I'll throw my caution to the wind and trust my beating heart to get me through this pain. And in vain I reach my arms and try to hold you. Can you feel me in your veins? Does your body start to shiver when you hear my name?

Four months to grow and any weakness is weak. I gave my heart to her, is that so hard to believe? A reflection of you is reflected in me.

Now that I can't be there when I really should be, I'm so sorry.

Can you forgive me for this burden on your life? But I know that someday everything will end up right when your heart's close to mine and I'll sing about how wonderful life turned out to be.

Shallow. A sea of blue. 'Cause there's no place for me in this world without you.

itsdarkoutsidenow

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