new era same old moirai
video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YctqEqrLJho
on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6h7s7QHTBQ1os43UTEI4bY?si=69065b0ba82c476e
@billsburyjoeboi
@ria_chuelo
lyrics//
[hook]
everybody looking at me from the sidelines
everyday i have this feeling that i might die 
everyday i have this feeling that you might lie 
and everyday they make me wonder why do i try
now everybody looking at me for a reason
and everyday i fucking wonder how im breathing
and everyday i fucking wonder why you need him 
and everybody says they care i don't believe them

[verse]
i can't change my past
optimistic lover with a half full glass, but
but i can't go back 
tried my best but i lost my track again 
and i don't need new friends
tried to cut you off but i woke up in your bed again
and all those texts i sent
masochistic loving that i can't forget

im so sick, i wake up, i hate it
i call her up, like no shit, im wasted
she told me "im so sick of everything you're saying"
and i ain't been to church in years but now im praying
that i don't fuck this up 
im in the bathroom of a party and im throwing up
and i just don't want you to think that im a lost cause
lost cause 
lost cause
im so sick and fucking tired of the love songs

sidelines (billsburyjoeboi + ria)

i just want to say goodbye...

Music: anakin
Lyrics: anakin
Mix/Mastering: anakin

Listen on streaming platforms:
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Instagram:
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(soon)

Lyrics:
Now I think that I have suffered too much from my own mistakes
Whole this time tried to be sorry
But I'm not sure if I am
I am afraid all the time
I am afraid every day
Always tried to make people happy
But I fail, but I failed
And I'm the only person, the only one that already feels sad
After every conversation, I regret them rest of the day
And I really want to be the person you would like, you would like
If my life was still the same then
I would die, I would die

And all those problems that I've had
Regret those things that I have said
I just cannot be that person
I just want to say goodbye
And all those problems that you've had
Just give me a hug, you'll be okay
Oh, why I can't be fine
Why I can't be fine
Why I can't be fine

Oh, why I can't just lie
And forget about 
And forget about this day
I cared about you whole this time, don't want to lose you now
I had problems with my life
I have problems, I'm not fine
With anxieties I try to defeat, but I think I lost that fight
Everybody hates me now
I try not to lose my mind
Making friendship with the wrong people wasted my entire life
I really want to have someone I could rely on when I'm down
Now I want you to be happy
If I die
If I die!

And all those problems that I've had
Regret those things that I have said
I just cannot be that person
I just want to say goodbye
And all those problems that you've had
Just give me a hug, you'll be okay
All my friends were getting toxic
But now I'm fine
Now I'm fine!

Now I'm fine, now I'm fine
Now I'm fine, now I'm fine
Now I'm fine
Now I'm fine, now I'm fine
Now I'm fine, now I'm fine
Now I'm fine
Am I?

rigor mortis

is it time to say goodbye?

Its Golden Hour Somewhere / Lovejoy Cover

rigor mortis

Music: anakin
Lyrics: anakin
Mix/Mastering: anakin

Listen on streaming platforms:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/anakin71/i-just-realized-that-you-never-cared-16
Instagram:
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(soon)

Lyrics:
You should be sorry
Forever and ever so lonely
I want medication for feelings I kept in myself
Because I was so scared that someday you'll ignore me
Believed in your story
But only one time, one and only
I looked for someone I can trust, but I never got to it
And instead of dishing on me, you should just call me

You say it was the past
But I can't believe in that
You said that many times
And now I understand why
You wanna hurt me, right?
You actually did that
But now

I think I might lose myself
Don't know what to think about
'Cause you actually made me sad and angry, like, too many times
I should stop to care so much
My brain just falls apart
I wanted to be with you all the time
I never told you why
I never told you the truth
I swore so many times but never broke the oath too
Maybe I cared too much
Maybe I lied too much
I just want to be with you, always

Oh, what's wrong with me
Maybe I'm losing control over myself
Hated you so much, but now I don't care
Hated you so much, but now I don't care at all
Making me strong
Those moments I've got
You wanted to stay, I wanted home
Fucked it up, wanted you to die
But now it's fine
I guess

I think I might lose myself
Don't know what to think about
'Cause you actually made me sad and angry, like, too many times
I should stop to care so much
My brain just falls apart
I wanted to be with you all the time
I never told you why
I never told you the truth
I swore so many times but never broke the oath too
Maybe I cared too much
Maybe I lied too much
I just want to be with you, always

Oh, broken hearts
Bought new clothes
Sixteen years
And wasted time
Fucked it up
More than a few times
Just realized
You never cared at all

I told you why
I told you truth
So many times I broke oath too
And cared too much
And lied too much
I know I can be better, oh?
I know I can be better one
I know I should tell you that
I hate you!

i just realized that you never cared (16)

This is the first full-length album that I've been making from September 2021 to May 2023. It contains 13 songs that I wrote as my stress relief and as a help to sort things out in my head. After almost 2 years I almost completely disagree with stuff that I've sung about, but this album is a part of myself, so I published it to see in the future how I've changed my perspectives. You can listen to it on Spotify, Apple Music, and other major streaming services. Thanks to everyone that helped me in some way to finish this "thing". rigor mortis!

LISTEN TO MY FIRST ALBUM "rigor mortis":
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/anakin71/rigor-mortis-2
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"rigor mortis (outro)"
Music: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Lyrics: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Mix/Mastering: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Cover Art: Stanisław Sobolewski
Testers: Igor Bielenny,  niko, Piotr Szewczyk

Lyrics:
Things has changed so much
But we're still the same
We have eyes full of tears
We have a body full of pain
Why did people disappoint me so much
When I needed them
Why they didn't give me help?
I really tried to act like I don't care
I don't know who I can trust, who not
I know who left me many times
It seems that one person I know
Want to revenge but I don't know for what
And I meet bad people many times
At first I don't know who they are
Last time I realized that
Too many people made me hurt
They left me with a bullet in my heart
Left me with their bloody run
I was alone for too much time
I was alone for but only once

You know what is here
I see your face full of tears
You're interrupting my lonely
All my anxieties
You cared about me
And I'm so thankful for this
I try to repair my mental health
All that exhausts me
We're trapped in here
Why you don't wanna just leave?
We can't escape this sociality
But we can avoid it
People made me sick
I want to get rid of my tears
I want a country with peace
I want a country with me

Things has changed so much
But not in our lives
They will kill us one more time
They want us to give up and fly
How is that possible
That some people still live here
And I don't care so much I just want some peace
In a place that can't be memorized
In a place where everybody wants to die
With people that either would steal your money or still your time
They left me with a bullet in my heart
Left me with their bloody run
I was alone for too much time
I was alone for but only once

Uh, Uh
Uhh
Uh, Uh
Uhh

You know what is here
I see your face full of tears
You're interrupting my lonely
All my anxieties
You cared about me
And I'm so thankful for this
I try to repair my mental health
All that exhausts me
We're trapped in here
Why you don't wanna just leave?
We can't escape this sociality
But we can avoid it
People made me sick
I want to get rid of my tears
I want a country with peace
I want a country with me

rigor mortis (outro)

Last single before my first album "rigor mortis". Coming out on August 6th, 2023 (3 PM CEST).

PRE-SAVE MY FIRST ALBUM "rigor mortis":
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/anakin71/rigor-mortis-2

Listen "we're all gonna die tonight" on streaming platforms:
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Instagram:
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Music: anakin
Lyrics: anakin
Mix/Mastering: anakin

Lyrics:
Oh-Oh-Oh
Oh-Oh-Oh

I think that I lost myself
Then I felt I lost you as well
Constantly changing my mind 'cause I don't know what else to do
Only time can stop me, deal with that (deal with that)
I was risking, but at least I know why

Why I was trying it all 
All of those struggles are gone
You should just tell me that I
That I'm just wasting my time
And yeah, you hurt me a lot
Even you told me you not
I know you hate me, I know
But can you stay?
Fuck
 
Oh-Oh-Oh, Oh-Oh-Oh
Ah-Ah-Ah, Ah-Ah-Ah

Oh, now I hate myself more
Because I never realized that I'm a bad person
And I know I should start to be someone better, but how (but how?)
Someday we'll die

Why I was trying it all?
All of those struggles are gone
You should just tell me that I
That I'm just wasting my time
And yeah, you hurt me a lot
Even you told me you not
I know you hate me, I know
But can you stay?

Oh, you missed me again
I don't even try
I told you I'm done
Stop wasting my time
I told you that I'm not the person you can trust
Now I don't give a fuck
'Cause today we're gonna die

Oh god, just why did I say that?
Maybe I should tell you I'm giving up
My mind unconscious, unstable
But I least now I know the reason why
Fucked it up, but now I am stronger
Made up lie, I know I can't longer stay
Just tell me how can I feel the same
If I know we're all gonna-

Oh, I failed you again
And wasted my time
I told you I'm done
Stop wasting my time
I told you that I'm not the person you can trust
Now I don't give a fuck
'Cause today we're gonna die

Oh, god, Just why did I say that?
Maybe I should tell you I'm giving up
My mind unconscious, unstable
But I least now I know the reason why
Fucked it up, but now I am stronger
Made up lie, I know I can't longer stay
Just tell me how can I feel the same
If I know we're all gonna die today!

Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh
Not a person you can trust
Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh
'Cause we're all gonna die tonight
Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh
Not a person you can trust
Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh
'Cause we're all gonna die to-

we're all gonna die tonight

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

it is my new beggining.

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"CEL"
Music: GAXILLIC, Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Lyrics: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Mix/Mastering: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)

Lyrics:
Musiałem przymknąć się, nie chcę już ciebie znać
Wszystkie demony uciekły, lecz patrzą, tak
I kiedy będę przed tobą, powiem to w twarz
Chyba już wiem jaki cel przed sobą mam

Nie mogę patrzeć na siebie w lustrze, nie, w lustrze
Nie mogę patrzeć na siebie kiedy jestem sam
Ale wiem, że znów będzie dobrze
Było dobrze zawsze gdy minął czas
Miałem nadzieję, że spoczniesz
Lecz w co ja w sumie wierzyłem i tak
I znowu tak samo
Już drugi raz, nie wiem co oczekiwałem
Podjąłem decyzję
Lecz wciąż było za mało
Dlaczego ciągle mi mało
Dlaczego tak mało było szansy na szczęście
To co mogło być przeminęło, nie będzie
Nie będę stał i ruszę się wreszcie
Chociaż wiem, że lekko nie będzie

Musiałem przymknąć się, nie chcę już ciebie znać
Wszystkie demony uciekły, lecz patrzą, tak
I kiedy będę przed tobą, powiem to w twarz
Chyba już wiem jaki cel przed sobą mam

To co zrobiłem było okropne
Lecz no tak, wszystko będzie dobrze
Tyle ludzi ranię na mej drodze
Znowu cel kolejny wybiorę
Priorytety zmienię, lecz będzie tak samo
Ludzie odejdą, lecz winy mej mało
Obwiniać innych jest przecież tak łatwo
Tak łatwo (raz, dwa)
Tak łatwo!

Musiałem przymknąć się, nie chcę już ciebie znać
Wszystkie demony uciekły, lecz patrzą, tak
I kiedy będę przed tobą, powiem to w twarz
Chyba już wiem jaki cel przed sobą mam

(I znowu tak samo)
(Już drugi raz, nie wiem co oczekiwałem)
(Podjąłem decyzję)
(Lecz wciąż było za mało)
Dlaczego ciągle mi mało
(Dlaczego tak mało było szansy na szczęście)
(To co mogło być przeminęło, nie będzie)
(Nie będę stał i ruszę się wreszcie)

a never-ending cycle

a never-ending cycle era

Posłuchaj na platformach streamingowych (Spotify, Apple Music, etc.):
[listen on streaming platforms]
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"THE WORST OF ALL MISTAKES"
Music: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Lyrics: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Mix/Mastering: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Music Video: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)
Cover art: Olivier Michalczuk (anakin)

Lyrics:
I kept on calling
But can't let you waste all my time   
Then I started all again
That I just won't text you back
Said all the time that I'm so sad
I looked for attention all that time
Begging you to stay and saying all these things
That just weren't true, I was lying then
About reasons why I'm the way I am
Please forget everything I have said
I made mistake
A big mista-a-ake
 
I made the worst of all mistakes
Make sure you'll never text me back
And maybe I just tried too hard
You should've cared a little more
And all these things you've said, I know
You shouldn't stay here with me 
I hate that x4

Twelve years old and I don't know 
Why were you so mean? What have I fucked up?
I'm not even that strong to defend myself
But I made that, maybe made that up
If I just stayed at home, then it would've been fine
You said it would be fine if I "fucking blow my head"
That's what they said
Maybe they were right
Now I'm just wasting time

And if I listened to that advice
I wouldn't wait for your text back
And if I listened to that advice
I failed that, I failed that

I made the worst of all mistakes
Make sure you'll never text me back
And maybe I just tried too hard
You should've cared a little more
And all these things you've said, I know
You shouldn't stay here with me 
I hate that x4

Trying, I'm trying
But I'm still falling down
And, like, I know that I should
Forget 'bout all these things, and I'm-
I'm trying, I'm trying
But I'm still falling down
And, like, I know that I should
Forget 'bout all these things, I'm-

I'm trying, I'm trying
But I'm still falling down
And, like, I know that I should
Forget 'bout all these things, I-

I made the worst of all mistakes
Make sure you'll never text me back
And maybe I just tried too hard
You should've cared a little more
And all these things you've said, I know
You shouldn't stay here with me 
I hate that x4

THE WORST OF ALL MISTAKES

thank you my good friend glaive for producing this song

very all over the place because i made this in 20 mins

sample for both parts of the song : www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvBsYiv_qZM

lyrics:
baby pardon me
used to wanna kill myself
i killed that part of me
my bro aim for headshots
but he would take the arteries
baby pardon me
u dont want no part of me

cause sometimes i get stuck inside my head
and i could give a fuck bout what u said
cause sometimes i get stuck inside my head
and i could give a fuck bout what u said

and sometimes i think
i dont even like her
and shoutout to my ex
know ima *****

why the fuck he been talking shit online
we see him irl we putting his ass in the sky
we see him in real life we putting his ass in the sky
told him meet up
bro lets fucking die

pardon me prod glaive

said this is never releasing. played on twitch 3/21/24

i just realized that you never cared (16)

anakin

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