Patiently waiting for these five days to pass so I see you two.
Always feels like forever I miss you finding it hard to fill my days with things To do and take my mind off knowing I'm not with you.
Being separated in a family is the hardest thing anyone has to go through, there's many others like me so I'll make it work undoubtedly. 
To My kids I miss. I wish it never had to come to this. It's the way it is cuz of the way it was and that wasn't fair on any of us. The pain the struggle the loud mouths from the struggling couple it wasnt fair on you two. So leaving was the hardest but the only thing I could do. tried to make it work but the harder I tried the more it was torn.
I love you don't ever forget it I'd give my life to give you a second. You two my angels sent from heaven my girls my highest possession I would give anything for you and would do anything to see it through. Your loving daddy sending love from afar know you're in my heart no matter where you are think and remember to look up were underneath the same stars. Love from daddy.i miss you.

love daddy

You and Me

wakening up (intro)

have my soul babe

thanks for reminding me

One foot Infront of the other

Baby.Boy.Blue

I have to write I just have to

lifes a journey

depressive charm

I WISH YOU WERE HERE

#2 Fading Star, I Wish You Were Here 'S.G'

#1 Scottish Girl

End Of The World..

Digital God

oh you got me

The Man On The Moon

Psst testing testing... Is this thing on

Look Stan this is dad

Media will be the death of me

to Hold Both Hands

shatter the ties

[Verse]
First line lit me like a fire in the dark
A big bright spark that carved its way deep in my heart
Each breath since feels like I'm just chasing a ghost, I'm just chasing a ghost. 
Hold on tight it's off we go
Hold on tight, it's off we go,
yeah it's off we go.

[Chorus]
I'm just Chasing the high, through the night, can't ever catch it and im
Trading my dreams in the flickering light
no other line hits the same
No other line, takes me as high. 
Chasing tail in a losing game, one set up that I just cant win. No I cant ever win. 

[Verse 2]
I ride the edge where the comedowns fade
Searching for the thrill, that next high 
Every peak feels like a lie that i always believe, 
I can't recreate the first time, I could fly

[Chorus]
I'm just Chasing the high, through the night, can't ever catch it and im
Trading my dreams in the flickering light
no other line hits me the same
No other lines takes me as high. 
Chasing tail in a losing game
Just chasing a ghost 

[Bridge]
The clock spins fast but my heart stays slow
I follow the trail but it won't let me go
The first line whispered
"This is all you'll need"
Now I’m chasing its ghost
Forever it leads
Down the rabbit hole, deeper and deeper we go, down the rabbit hole.

[Chorus]
Chasing the high into the night till the
Comedown hits my eyes start to close, 
What goes up,  ohh it must come down

Wishing it was that first line again 

But no other line hits the way it does 
When it's very first buzz
What goes up, must come down
Chasing ghosts 
Yeah I'm just chasing ghosts 



Chasing Ghosts

Echoes of the Universe

You i, everyone in Between

Vibe n dine

Tonight We Fly

The Man On The Moon (Remastered x2)

Black is the setting, vacant is the plume vast open spaces are the scenes that best describe our heart. 

Going round in a whirlwind, no guess of the course we've been forsaken towards. 

We have emotional block's, hidden mysteries accompanied with guesswork, dark parts,  shouldn't have to pick apart or wonder. We shouldn't have to coward in the morning or loose sleep after dark. 
 are you doubtful about what you want. 

Fade to black and pick apart my heart some more ohhhh

do you do you do youu wanna know what youuu mean to me or want to hear how I really fucking feeeeel listen to please try try to hear mehhh 

i'm Lost.with
- No call back. Just 
-Cold nights. 
- Forced to watch our flashbacks 
Stuck in loop again and again 

-We break.
- No sound.
- Too late.
- Shut down.


Fade to black, can't rewind this scene,
-Ghosts in the room where the light once beamed.
-Voices gone, just the echo remains,
-Try to feel, but it's lost in the pain...



> Midnight’s breath on a window pane,
> Still trace your name in the frost and rain.
> Burned that bridge just to feel the heat,
> Now I walk through the ash on broken feet.
>
> Smoke in my chest, got nothin’ to say,
> Ran out of light at the end of the day.
> This ain’t a story where the hero wins,
> Just closed doors and original sins.


> You dipped like dusk, no warning sound,
> Just a cold breeze when I turn around.
> Heart on lock, no key, no spark,
> Walkin' through life like it’s always dark.
>
> Said we’d be fine — we lied on loop,
> Fell too far, couldn’t climb that roof. No guid no ropes 
Babe there ain't no fucking hopes. 
> Now the pain got a permanent placement in my chest, my head's screams forget it but heart can't help but sit heavy and regret it. 
> No rewind — just

> Lost.with
> No call back. Just 
> Cold nights. 
> Filled with flashbacks 

> We break.
> No sound.
> Too late.
> Shut down.

Going round in a whirlwind, no guess of the course we've been forsaken towards. 

We have emotional block's, hidden mysteries accompanied with guesswork, dark parts,  shouldn't have to pick apart or wonder. We shouldn't have to coward in the morning or loose sleep after dark. 
 are you doubtful about what you want. 

Fade to black and pick apart my heart some more... Ahhh 




Black is The Setting

Can I ask for the same thing

This is just game-boy
Feel Asif Im free falling through space and time-boy
Wish I wore a parachute before I jumped from the plane boy.

Feeling like I'm in free fall I could compare myself to the size of an aunt so small in the sky-insane boy. 

So fucking strange that my moods can play tricks on me. Like last week I was high, now I can't breathe am I about to die? 
 

Why? (You lie)
Why? (You did) 
WHY? (YES YOU FUCKING DID) 

I try, I do my bit, I play my part, I LIKE TO MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY SINGLE SECOND. I try to make the best impac-ting play, every time I get to enjoy warmth under 5 year olds play outside it's the sandpit today. Under 5 years old, yet so smart, they could buy and sell me truth be told. I'm tryna give 'em love, keep them sheltered from the dark. 


It can be ah simple thing from you, to fill me full of doubt, make me second guess myself wondering if I can fly out-ah-here way up in the fucking strat-os-phere miles away from you and the point you puke. 
 oh can make me, yeah baby, yeah,  you make me want to die... Sometimes. Ohhh you make me want to die sometimes 

Hahah what a joke, you think I'm for real? Hell girl you have another thing coming if you think I'll let you  my head and to mess around my mind from the inside. 
I know what to expect from you, I know what is coming from you, when you open your mouth it's nothing but hate nouns. 

Step away step inside your cave I've had enough of your hate speech for one day, let me be leave me in peace to enjoy my time with my two under 5 year olds. 

WOAWW WOAWW WOAWW

I try, I do my bit, I play my part, I LIKE TO MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY SINGLE SECOND. I try to make the best impac-ting play, every time I get to enjoy warmth under 5 year olds play outside it's the sandpit today. Under 5 years old, yet so smart, they could buy and sell me truth be told. I'm tryna give 'em love, keep them sheltered from the dark. 


It can be ah simple thing from you, to fill me full of doubt, make me second guess myself wondering if I can fly out-ah-here way up in the fucking strat-os-phere miles away from you and the point you puke. 
 oh can make me, yeah baby, yeah,  you make me want to die... Sometimes. Ohhh you make me want to die sometimes 

Hahah what a joke, you think I'm for real? Hell girl you have another thing coming if you think I'll let you  my head and to mess around my mind from the inside. 
I know what to expect from you, I know what is coming from you, when you open your mouth it's nothing but hate nouns. 

This is just game-boy (Hate Nouns)

Fight or Flight





*Verse 1]*
It’s one thing to say mean things to me,
But it's another when you aim all that emotional hate at me.
It’s one thing to threaten — pfft, whatever —
But outta nowhere, like a switch, you flipped — now you’re colder than ever.

Quick to turn vicious, actin' out of anger,
Like an animal trapped, back cornered in danger.
Throwin' everything outta proportion,
Went lower than low — against what we believed, distortion.

I asked a question — just calmly, just real
"Possible pregnancy… can I prove it’s mine can we test the DNA?"d you cried for abortion with 
No hesitation. Damn thats sick. 

*La la la... you're fucking lying,*
*Oh la la la, you’re lying — no denying.*
*Oh yes you are — I see it in your face,*
*Truth don't hide well when it’s twisted outta place.*



Verse 2]
Let me tell you this: how does that prove you right?
If anything, it gives more insight to a lie...
A lie hidden deep behind your blackened dark eyes,
A secret of what? Damn — I’ll never know, will I? 

Not me, never — nah, I’ll never know with you,
You’d take it to the grave just to keep from showin' the truth. 
To stop from revealin’ you were fake, a low belly animal guess what it is. It's got a forked tongue now legs and no arms it's skin looks slimy but it's really dry, scales paternized along it's body, well what am I? yep you got it? SNAKE! SNAKE SNAKE FAKE FAKE FAKE 


What a fuckin' time — what a fuckin' feelin’,
My emotions got THE BEST OF ME, NO CHANCE OF PATIENCE. 
I wanted the world too open up
Swallow me whole — eat me like a treat, no salty but sweet chew my in your mouth til there's nothing left but my teeth! There's no light in this hell whole, it's calm and deflated. 

La la la... you're lying,*
*Oh la la la, you're still denying,*
*You proved the grey into fact without trying,*
*"Very reassuring," while your soul was crying out, 


You're overwhelmed what you could never let out! 
Why did I let it get to me? Why did i let you in? 
You crawled in my head, now I’m drowning from your sin. 

It really fuckin’ upset me,  I saw the lies hidden within you, 
The way you looked away when I looked in your eyes, 
So quick to anger — no cause, no provacation, unknowingly 
You proved the grey areas into white. 

Instead of stayin' calm...
*“Very reassuring.”*
Yeah — real calm. Real mature. Real pure.
Sure.
 *La la la... you're lying,*
*Oh la la la, you kept denying,*
*A question of truth, and you called for abortin',*
Now I'm just haunted by all your internal distortion.
*La la la... yeah, you're lying,*

SNAKE

Distortion

the multiple persons argumentive in my head

Lazer beam'z

STATIC
Buzz buzz fucking buzz 
Eyes are killing me but won't shut
STATIC



 stuck with the eye strain from a half-lit screen,
thoughts thrown in the shredder, mind pried apart, then begins unraveling.
Sleep skips, when the sky turns black,
I just sit in the buzz while my spine goes slack. (Fuck my back) 

weight in the chest, can’t lift, can’t scream,
 frame my soul in a jittering dream.
The cursor blinks like it’s taunting me, knowing that I can't think, can't sleep,  I freeze in place like I’m part of the messed up game. 

STATIC BUZZ

Moths dance in the cold lamp mistakenly for a flame. 
While silence expands my mind won't shut up. Can't make sense of anything, 
The picture won’t form, but the signals hazy, 
There’s something alive in the static, panoramic views. 



I’m just static, like winter morning window dew,
No sound left in this frozen room. Just the buzz buzz buzz
Heartbeat rhythms low like a signal skewed,
Buried in noise but I’m bleeding through.

I ain’t gone, I’m a seed in the frozen ground 
Something sitting static still hoping to wake
Paused in the frame, still mute, still crude 
But I swear there’s a bloom in this static root waiting waiting for you.


I’ve been ghosting my own ambition for days,
Running from mirrors and sidestepping praise.
Inbox full but my soul on mute,
Said “I’ll try tomorrow” now the weeks reboot.

Can’t tell if it’s fear or perfection’s grip,
Or just rust in the gears of this sinking ship.
But somewhere deep in the quiet rot,
Is a flicker I never forgot.

I don’t move, trust tho I haven’t let go,
Like a song half-written in a patch of snow.
It melts slow but under the skin,
Something soft and defiant begins.



I’m just static, like winter morning window dew,
No sound left in this frozen room. Just buzz buzz buzz 
Heartbeat rhythms low like a signal skewed,
Buried in noise but I’m bleeding through.

I ain’t gone, I’m a seed in the frozen ground 
Something sitting static. Oh sitting static. still as it's waiting waiting waiting waiting for you. 

Temporarily Paused in the frame, still mute, still crude
But I swear there’s a bloom in this static root just wait for you to wake up too.



Not broken. No
Just buffering. Just just buffering 
And maybe… yeah.   Just maybe 
that’s the beginning. The start of something new 



I’m just static, like winter morning window dew,
But there's breath in the cracks and something new.
Heartbeats rhythm low like a signal skewed,
But it hums with truth that’s bleeding through. Buzz buzz 

I ain’t gone, I’m a seed in the frozen ground 
Something sitting static waiting to wake to you.
Temporarily Paused in the frame, still mute, still crud
But I swear there’s a bloom in this static root.

STATIC BUZZ

Winter Window Dew

Blood in the wire

Hip Hop Hap-py Ending

Blacklight Collision

The Breakaways

like ecstasy that left too fast.

Stepping out the Frame


storybook or movie scene of you
it's what we were always meant to do

the way we go hand in hand on a smooth river's flow
pickin up speed as we hit the corners
grittin our teeth
don’t speak a word
just hold on tighter and tighter
each corner we take
more sharp than the one before

you
you tilt your head
and I know you’re battlin somethin
so I shift my weight
like I can carry it with you
not fix
not mend
just sit beside you
like we’re two sides of the same damn rip tide

we navigate the twists and bends
with pure grit and communication
shoutin out obstacles as we see
like we do as a team
goin through the real-life shit
yano the other mad reality relationship shit

two of us
workin in the same mindset
same logic
same line hits both our minds
at the same time
each and every
fuckin time

don’t let it fool ya
cuz you know that river wants to pull ya
down down down
till you drown drown drown
body never found found found

slow like a stream
strong like a flood
we flow through the quiet
we crash in the blood
don’t need a name
don’t need a sound
we love like a river
pullin all else down

but the current ain't calm forever
nah, it tests us
tries to wreck us
pulls us under
makes us question if we’re even strong enough to tether

you screamed
I roared
we both threw fire
but stayed on board
we don’t jump ship
we break and grip
we fight to feel
we bleed to heal
we ain't perfect
but we real

so we let it shake
let it storm
we ride it out
'cause that chaos
it’s part of our form

slow like a stream
strong like a flood
we flow through the quiet
we crash in the blood
don’t need a name
don’t need a sound
we love like a river
pullin all else down


We Love Like A River

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 🤘💀hell bais, can't speak for yous but I'm feeling a bit like a tweek or two? it was about time I change my ways changed a sentence and punctuation too. 
gotta understand I focus, days I don't and they haunt us, low energy levels I'm feeling unstable, but guess what and we still get it done yeah yeah we get it done oh we got it done. 
beginning of I wanna put across my many many manny a thanks to everyone who has took time to give one of my tracks a play🤘🙏 phase one in education 

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