some of that sad shit

DARKROOM

Far Away

(remixed track: Message To Bears - At a Glance)

Didn't expect this track to blow up like this..

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don't worry about me

"Pool" music video: https://youtu.be/uvdovQbwo5w

@thesmokersclub premiere: http://bit.ly/2oGg8dw

"Pool" prod. by @DerekPopeMusic

Earmilk premiere: http://bit.ly/2grEZ15

'The Introverted Socialite' out now!

Art by Chip Haggerty

Excerpt from Earmilk premiere:

"Pool" is about the idea of believing in something before it happens and taking a leap of faith.  Myself, and the team around me, had to believe in the vision of our success before it happened, like jumping into a swimming pool with no water. You can see the pool full of water in your mind, but until everyone else can see it, they will never understand why you jumped.

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Pool (MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION) prod. Derek Pope

Elevators (Prod. Lucid Soundz)

prod. @plurbs

Lyrics:

(Chorus)
Said I don't fuck with no bitch,
Ain't got the time for it show love from the distance,
Come from the sticks,
Rolled blunts then I quit,
Now it's fuck everything make songs when I think I can't handle much of this shit,
Write it up for the ones who da struggled to fit in,
Don't be the victim,
You could break free fuck everything they say pains gone in an instant,
Swear that loves been a trip,
Can't trust a motha fucka with your heart they gone rip it,
Stomp on it split it,
Give it right back while you crying just to say they so sorry they did it,
And I don't fuck with this shit,
Maybe I just wasn't made for the world that we live in,
King of the misfits,
Fuck it if you feel this then yal motha fuckas get the struggle I'm living ay

(Verse)
Pissed annoyed,
But nobody really gets the point,
I'm so tired fuckin listen once in your life,
Cut ties fuck a friendship voices gone fight in my mind just to fill the void,
Oh my your lies thinking I can't tell,
To my surprise realizing how much I don't mean a thing,
I won't keep the ring,
And don't speak fuckin leave me be

Everywhere I go I can't seem to get you out my head,
Wishin I could but this time I can't,
Make me think it's better if I end up dead,
Swear that sometimes that this lifes not fair

(Chorus)
Said I don't fuck with no bitch,
Ain't got the time for it show love from the distance,
Come from the sticks,
Rolled blunts then I quit,
Now it's fuck everything make songs when I think I can't handle much of this shit,
Write it up for the ones who da struggled to fit in,
Don't be the victim,
You could break free fuck everything they say pains gone in an instant,
Swear that loves been a trip,
Can't trust a motha fucka with your heart they gone rip it,
Stomp on it split it,
Give it right back while you crying just to say they so sorry they did it,
And I don't fuck with this shit,
Maybe I just wasn't made for the world that we live in,
King of the misfits,
Fuck it if you feel this then yal motha fuckas get the struggle I'm living ay

Everywhere I go I can't seem to get you out my head,
Wishin I could but this time I can't,
Make me think it's better if I end up dead,
Swear that sometimes that this lifes not fair

heart broken (prod. PLURBS)

Vanete & Pink Cig - Girls On Mars (Prod.Tundra)

IVYS LULLABY (Prod. SAMASHI)

Come Over When You're Sober, Pt. 2

Hate Me

Take My Hand

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LISTEN ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/album/3G10DE5MnN2aDizJjn7zj2

VIDEO CLIP: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hHziDxt0Ig&t=6s
Produced by me
More shit coming soon Thank you all

This is what my life is,
I've been thinking about that suicide 
(oh yes please)
I don't know how to do it 
pop the pills or blow my head open 
these days I've been thinking about
that shit way often.
Every day I wake up
still on the same shit
depression on my mind 
I think am fucking losing
this life
fuck life
no life
the drug life
Y'all asking me
if am good
AM NOT!
Young Sober walking through
the late night
All alone I don't need 
no hoes, light a cig
then I fly away
Thanks to all my friends
Thanks to my family
ain't never giving up on me


RECORDED WITH 3 € MIC

SUICIDE ON MY MIND

SPOTIFY

SOBER - SUICIDE ON MY MIND

LYRICS:

YOU EVER LOVE A NIGGA THEN HE GONE?

I HAVE I HAVE 
I PUT THAT THOUGHT INSIDE OF MANY SONGS
DRINKING BY MYSELF AGAIN

DRINK UNTIL THE HENNY’S GONE
IS WHAT THEY TELL YOU
IF YOU PASSED IT RIP OUT ANY BONG
ADVICE TO KEEP YOUR HEALTH A 10

IM TIRED ALL THESE NIGGAS WRONG
TIRED OF LISTENING TO NIGGAS THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS SHIT
ISAIAH AINT MY FRIEND OVER A WORD
BUT A MAN WITH THE SAME NAME FUCKING WITH ME THAT’S OBSURD 
I PUT MY HEART AND SOUL IN THIS SHIT HOE 
YOU MUST NOT HAVE HEARD

HOW COULD YOU NOT BITCH I BEEN YELLING MORE THAN EVEN
GETTING OFF POT HOP OFF THE TOP LIGHT AS A FEATHER
LETTING THE COP SLIP ON THE CUFFS AND IF HE DOING IT TOO ROUGH
I LOOK AT MOMMA LIKE WHATEVER

MAKE HER CRY ONE TOO MANY A TIME
SHE SEE ME GROW COLDER AS IM GETTING OLDER 
I TOLD HER IT’S FINE

I HOLD HER SHE BLIND FROM THE TEARS IN HER EYES
SHE WANT ME TO FIND MY LIFE IN THESE 

RHYMES IN MY HEAD IN A LINE
MY PAIN AND MY STRIFE
EVERY MOMENT MY LIFE
CLOSING IN ON ME

WHY

DO I FEEL THE NEED TO DO MORE THAN THESE OTHERS
CUZ IN THIS LIFE IVE LOST SOME BROTHERS, THAT’S RIGHT

NIGGAS CANT TELL IF THEY LOVE ME FOR REAL OR
THEY JUST WANNA STEAL MY ATTENTION

I MENTION A NIGGA ONE TIME AND HE FREAK 
I BE BREAKING THEY HEARTS AND THEN MAKING THEY WEEKS

IT’S A BLESSING TO KNOW THAT MY STRESSING BOUT ART 
IS IMPRESSING TO NIGGAS THAT LESSEN THEY VALUE 
AS WELL AS YOU NIGGAS THAT LOVE THE IMPROVEMENT
I JUST LOVE TO HOP ON THE MIC AND THEN LOSE IT

SO FUCK ALL YOU PEOPLE 
I DO WHAT I WANT
I DONT WANT NO ONE CALLING MY SHOTS
FOR ME 
TORE ME APART

FUCK THE TOBACCO IT KILLING OUR HEARTS
AND FUCK ALL THE OPIATES I WONT EVEN START

SOME OF US WANT IT 
AND SOME OF US DONT
JUST LEAVE THE SUCCEEDING TO NIGGAS THAT WONT

GIVE UP AND THROW THEY SHOT AWAY
LIVE UP TO WHAT MY APPA SAY

I’LL RUN IT
FOR ALL YOU NIGGAS HATING ON MY STYLE
AND ALL YOU NIGGAS TOWING PISTOLS TALKING WILD
THIS MY THERAPY

DONT GET IT CONFUSED…
I DO THIS SHIT SO I WILL NOT GO BLOW A FUSE 
AND A HURT A HUMAN ANY HUE
HOE WOULD YOU BUG IF I WAS BLUE?
IF I LOOKED MORE LIKE YOU?
IF I DID WHAT YOU EXPECTED
IN A WAY YOU THOUGHT WAS COOL?
BITCH IM TRYNA DISECT IT

HOW I GET THROUGH
TO PEOPLE THAT DONT WANNA LISTEN
THEY VERY COMFORTABLE HATING, 
DEBATING SHIT THAT AINT CHANGING
CUZ THERE AINT ENOUGH AT STAKE AND
NOBODY OWNING THET FATE
OR THE FOOD ON THEY PLATE
OR THE THOUGHTS IN THEY HEAD
I DONT NEED THOTS IN MY BED
I NEED A LOT TO MY NAME
I NEED A PLOT FOR MY GRAVE THAT
WILL EVENTUALLY NOT BE
THERE IS NO POINT TO BE COCKY
OR TRY TO BE ASAP ROCKY 
NIGGAS WANNA FREE ASAP ROCKY MORE THAN
NIGGAS WANNA FREE THEYSELVES 
BITCH ARE YOU WELL PLEASE LET YOURSELF OUT THE CELL

I WANNA LET THESE NIGGAS KNOW THAT I AM DOING FINE
I WANNA LET YOU NIGGAS KNOW THAT GOT THROUGH IT FINE
AND I DONT WANT YOU NIGGAS DYING OVER ME OR MINE
AND I DONT WANT YOU PEOPLE CRYING 

never let another human tell you what you can do
cuz what man do is inside of your mind

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THERAPY (PROD. WENDIGO)

Prod. LongLost
@longlostzim
Mixed by DeltaBerkowitz
@deltaberkowitz
Cover Art by BrunoBamma
@brunobamma 

Lyrics:
Ship i wreckeddd and im open nowww
Never knew howww deeppp ill drown ill wait.
The hurt it pulls me down. *vocoder*

Shook i wept on the open shores when
Arms of yours just like open doors immm in.
The best ive ever felt.

And i fearrr myyy ship is crashin in
*fear my ship is crashin innn*
And my tearsss are pushin closer in
*tears are pushin closer innn*
And im gratefulll for your hospitality
*grateful for your hospitalityyy*
Youre not hereee but youre my mentality
*not here but youre my mentalityyy*

*ooohhh in background*
Im the calmmm before the storm rains down on you.
Fade to sanddd when my isssues they found you.

Sought out care as i roamed about
Alleviate me just heal me im all in.
Im hurtinggg someone else.

On demand show myyy best side
But demons lurkin in the depths all night.
Lookin to cause you hell.

And i fearrr myyy ship is crashin in
*fear my ship is crashin innn*
And my tearsss are pushin closer in
*tears are pushin closer innn*
And im gratefulll for your hospitality
*grateful for your hospitalityyy*
Youre not hereee but youre my mentality
*not here but youre my mentalityyy*

*monologue*
Lifes all about perspective, there more than a million ways to view just one thing... one story... one tortured soul...

Background Lyrics by Nova Amor
Took the breath from my open mouth
Never known how it broke me down
I went in circles somewhere else
Shook the best when your love was home
Storing up on your summer glow
you went in search of someone else
And I hear your ship is comin' in
Your tears a sea for me to swim
And I hear a storm is comin' in
My dear is it all we've ever been?
Caught the air in your woven mouth
Leave it all I'll be heaving how you went
In search of someone else
Taught the hand that taut the bride
Both our eyes lock to the tide
We went in circles somewhere else
And I hear your ship is comin' in
Your tears a sea for me to swim
And I hear a storm is comin' in
My dear is it all we've ever been?

Shipwreck

half the niggas i name in this song would go on to diss me for no reason but fuck em

LYRICS:

BITCH I JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR 
AND IT’S SO HOT IN THIS APARTMENT
WHAT THE FUCK A DARKIE GOTTA DO TO START SHIT
FLYING OUT TO UTAH THEN I TRANSFER OER TO CHAROLETTE 
NIGGAS DROVE FOR 7 HOURS JUST TO HOP INSIDE OF OUR PIT

SPIDER ON MY ARM MY NIGGA WIELDING A GUITAR PICK
PATRICK IN THE VAN WITH FLVCO EDDY IN THE STAR WHIP
DRIVE TO CINCINNATI KNOW IM SICK MAKING A FAR TRIP
JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR AND IM ALREADY SEEING HARDSHIP

JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR
AND THERE’S SOME BUGS INSIDE MY BED FRAME
I CANT EVEN SLEEP OR GET SOME REST INSIDE MY HEAD MANE
I JUST WANNA BLOW UP THROW MY MATTRESS IN A RED FLAME
I’M YELLING IN COLUMBUS MOTHER FUCKER GOT A DEAD BRAIN

MAD WHILE IM PERFORMING CUZ YOU HURT BY WHAT I SAID, PAIN,
SO MANY MILES I WILL NOT BE BULLIED BY YOU INSANE
PERFORMING ON THE STREET IN DETROIT AINT A FUCKING FED CAME
SPIDER GANG THE NIGGAS VANDALIZING BLACK AND RED PAINT

JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR AND THERES SOME MOLD IN MY REFRIGERATOR
SUMMER IN LA WITH NO AC LIKE AN INCINERATOR
I MET UP WITH EVAN THE RED HEADED HE’S AN INNOVATOR 
RILEY IS A SAVAGE HE’S A VIDEO PROLIFERATOR 

JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR I GOT NO FOOD AND NO CLEAN WATER SOURCE
DIRTY BUTT AND MAZI APOLLO NAHEEM KAKA OF COURSE
SUICIDE AND I PERFORM TOGETHER AND WE SLAUGHTER YOURS
PLEASE COME GET YOUR BABY GIRL THE CREW CAN MAKE YOUR DAUGHTERS WHORES

HEY WHY YOU SAY DARKIE? PEOPLE COMING UP AFTER THE SHOW
BECAUSE THAT IS MY NAME AND IT IS BEAUTIFUL TO ME YOU KNOW
DILLINGER SAYS I AM BLACK BUT I DO NOT BELIEVE HIM THO 
I AM NOT A COLOR IM THE RAINBOW AND THE FUCKING GOLD 

BITCH THERE AINT A SINGLE PERSON YOU CAN GO COMPARE ME TO
I AM NOT AN INDIAN I’M SCARY BRAVE AND HAIRY NUDE
I BEEN OFF THE LEAN A LITTLE MOLLY IN A SAIYAN MOOD
NIGGAS WANT THE HATE TO LEAVE BUT THEY TOO SCARED TO SAY IT DUDE

JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR AND IM DEPRESSED LIKE ALL THE REST OF US
I MIGHT SMOKE SOME WEED AFTER IM BETTER CUZ MY CHEST IS PUSS
IMMA PLAY THE TEACHER AND ILL SEE JUST WHAT MY LESSON DOES 
SHOUT ALEX LUNA GRANT AND JESS KNOW THEY AINT PRESSING US

I DONT PERFORM AT FESTIVALS YET BUT JUST WAIT AND OBSERVE 
IM OBSURD?
YOU’RE THE HUMAN BEING CONTROLLED BY A WORD
IM TRYING TO LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND US MAKE A DIFFERENCE
PEOPLE EVERY COLOR IN MY AUDIENCE, DELIVERANCE

DIVIDENDS
QUAALUDES IN OUR LIVERS FEEL LIKE BIGGER MEN
RASCAL OFF THE LIQUOR WIT A PERC INSIDE HIS SPHINCTER END
CHILLING WITH MY NIGGAS AND WE LIT UP LIKE A WICKER MAN
VILLAIN SPILLING MILLER LIGHT I GUESS THE VENUE SLICKER THEN

JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR PUT A MODELO IN MY FACE AGAIN
I GOTTA SUCCEED MY PATTI GOT SOME BAD ARTHRITIS 
AND IT MIGHT AS WELL BE ME IM IN A FIELD CRYING ON WENDIGO
SCREAMING UP AT HEAVEN MOTHER FUCKER TELL ME WHEN TO GO

JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR DONT TELL ME THIS IS NOT THE GUTTER
NIGGA YOU DONT KNOW WHERE I BEEN NIGGA YOU IS NOT MY BROTHER
IM WITH SPIDER GANG WE MAKING ART LIKE NOBODY NO OTHER
THIS THE FUTURE BITCH I JUST GOT HOME FROM TOUR THE EARTH IS MOTHER, UH

TOUR (PROD. WENDIGO)

Original by Yunggoth
"TARZAN TABORDA IV" is out on Spotify!

die with u baby (prod. Homage) (yunggoth)

AMV Upload and Lyrics over at the Youtube channel:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxhBFPSssRg

@vanetee
@blackheartsinn

Vanete & Sinister - Vintage

From the Whatever Makes You Feel Better EP

Lyrics:
Take my soul away don't think im okay
I don't wanna wait standing in the rain
not much eases my pain rearranged thoughts in my brain
fuck all this cash I've made I can't take it to the grave
dirt all on my name know they wanna see me down
you and I are not the same ima make it out this town
home feels so far on these roads late night driving on my own
take me back to the simpler times back before I had this simple of mind
I see my past behind, in the dust underneath the sky
things I do I don't know why
read that text but won't reply
tell me what ur thinking, I wanna know
truth comes out when ur drinking, maybe I should go
almost gone insane might just grab that blade
pick up all the remains someday ill see u again
take my soul away don't think im okay
I don't wanna wait standing in the rain
not much eases my pain rearranged thoughts in my brain
fuck all this cash I've made I cant take it to the grave

The Grave (prod. sketchmyname)

Song title - Reflection
Production & Vocals by Lund.

Lyrics: 
I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

(X2)

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

I couldn't help myself 
you smiled and I was lost
in a lovesick world endorphins 
they can be toxic 
you played me for a fool
cause love was never an option

I want to wake up 
and feel like 
this life is a blessing 
instead I'm drinking whiskey 
loading bullets in my F-N
leave everything I own
to my family and best friends
and I know it aint your fault
I just can't keep on pretending 
that I love my life and 
everything is fine around me 
while I feel like I'm drowning 
demons they surround me 
talking very loudly
all inside my head
I know its all inside my head
cause

I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

Reflection

lyrics
--------
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

record a bunch of nonsense when i'm feelin' nauseous 
gotta play it cautious if she tryna hang
mirror mirror on this wall inside my heart
does falling out of love make a human go insane
i've tried three times, back it up & rewind
look into your green eyes, tell me if i change
baby you a goddess, you so fuckin' flawless
imma fuck him up if he speaks your name in vain

why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x3)

redemption of a lost mess speedin' up the process
by the time that august comes you'll know my name
g-u-a-r guardin yeah i beg your pardon
right to all involvement writing through the day
got my castle in the yard it's kinda fuckin' hard
to stand like i'm on guard when the clouds are seeing rain
so my bedrooms more appealing, suffer through the feeling
cause i know you're leaving gotta act like i'm okay 
 
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

stupid

I’ll be fine, if you give me some time
To clear my mind, so much tension between us
To decide, I resent all the signs, committed every crime
But, I’ll be fine
Yeah, I’ll be fine

Just give it time
I’ll be fine

Grow to be better, but feel like we’re worse
Stuck in the past, but no way to reverse
Scars of the moments that leave us a curse
Can’t lose our focus as bad as it hurts

Glimpse of the moments that never will change
Searching our way through the end of a maze
Give anything, I swear I won’t cling, but there’s no way to know what it may bring

I will never know what you don’t show
Want to be here, but you’re so cold
Sat here ‘fore, of that I’m sure
Out the door and you ignore

Sticking my back out in the sun
Never too sure when it begun
I will never be the one
I will never be the one

I’ll be fine, if you give me some time
To clear my mind, so much tension between us
To decide, I resent all the signs, committed every crime
But, I’ll be fine
Yeah, I’ll be fine

some of that sad shit

Andrew Aguilar