AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
#AXAXC
#Derealization #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #WeedAddiction #MalePressure
#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

Blind

These tasteless fights that filled our nights

Eddyverse

Party in My Head

Tragedy

Eternal light

The Storming
Pages In Clouds 2025

The wind has stilled, the sky won’t breathe,
The light retreats behind the trees.
I see the black tide start to swell—
It whispers like a funeral bell.

No prayer will stop what’s on its way…
So I kneel and let it take my name.

The darkness is coming!
The darkness is coming!
Brace your soul — feel it drum!
Suffer the storming! Bleed til it’s done!
THE DARKNESS IS COMING!
And I won't run!

Clouds like knives and thunder’s grin,
Tearing peace from bone and skin.
I don’t beg, I don’t believe—
I bare my chest and grit my teeth.

Let the winds split open my frame…
Let the rain erase my name…
Let the sky scream straight through me…
I was born for this agony.

The darkness is coming!
The darkness is coming!
Let it crash — let it break!
Let it drown all I fake!
The darkness is coming…
The storming will take…
EVERYTHING.

The sky has opened.
I feel no fear.
I close my eyes…
And let it tear.

Pb2025


A Morbid Mask

The Storming - played on BBC Radio 1  Introducing Rock with Alyx Holcombe

Wash me in shadow
Pages in Clouds 2025


The night is wide and cold and deep,
A hollow place where secrets sleep.
I called for help, I begged the sky…
But only silence passed me by.


There’s no reply… no mercy near you.
You can scream in the darkness… no one will hear you.



You can scream in the darkness!
No one will hear you!
Tear your throat raw — it won't come near you!
Scream in the dark!
No one will hear you!
This void is your god now — let it steer you!


Alone with nothing, not even pain,
Just echo's bones and blacker rain.
No walls, no ground, no end, no birth—
Just floating rot beneath the earth.


You can scream — but it fades.
You can beg — but it betrays.
You can bleed — but no one sees.
The dark forgets… everything.


You can scream in the darkness!
No one will hear you!
No one. Will hear. You.
SCREAM IN THE DARK!
NO ONE WILL—
NO ONE WILL—
NO ONE—WILL—HEAR—YOU!


I whispered once…
I screamed for years…
And all I found
Was silence near.
You can scream in the darkness…
But no one will hear you.

pb2025

A Morbi Mask

Wash me in shadow

💿 AXAXC – Grateful

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.

This album is warfare. A cinematic deathcore/nu-metal epic that rips from raw confession to cyberpunk prophecy, built on sludge-heavy chugs, melodic chaos, and truths you weren’t supposed to hear.

From the unflinching defiance of “Praise” and “MaZe”, through the cheeky venom of “Beloved Beast”, the core of this extended play burns brightest in the Losing Trilogy — Losing My Soul, Losing My Home, Losing My Code — a three-act battle for self, sanctuary, and identity in a world built to break you.

It doesn’t end there. “Mirror” and “The Mirror Lies” twist the blade deeper, while Requiem Aeternal editions reforge the heaviest moments into even darker shapes. It all collapses into the final transmission — “Wake Up, Neo.”. 

This your last chance to see the system for what it is. Wake Up. You have No Excuses.

This album is for the ones who’ve been misunderstood, marginalised, and underestimated.
It’s for the people who rage in private, who keep fighting even when no one’s watching.
If you’ve ever felt like the walls were closing in, this is your Album.

For fans of: #SleepToken, #BringMeTheHorizon, #LornaShore, #LinkinPark, #SlaughterToPrevail, #Architects.

Tracklist:

- Praise
- MaZe
- Tongues of Sin (Remastered)
- Beloved Beast
- Losing My Soul
- Losing My Home
- Losing My Code
- Mirror
- The Mirror Lies
- MaZe [Requiem Aeternal]
- Nail in the Coffin (Remastered x3)
- Losing My Soul [Requiem Aeternal]
- Losing My Home [Requiem Aeternal]
- Beloved Beast [Requiem Aeternal]
- Wake Up, Neo.

#Deathcore #NuMetal #Metalcore #AXAXC #LosingMySoul #CyberpunkMetal #Sludgecore #PostRockMetal #RequiemAeternal #HeavyMusic #Screamo #GothicMetal #IndustrialMetal #CinematicMetal #MetalBand #MetalVocals #AXAXCFamily

Tragedy

DJ $A.T.M$

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