Really felt the emotion in this one. Beauiful vocals, honest lyrics , keep moving with this energy!

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Til The End (Still got you)

pickupgame (feat. Sxort) prod Sxort

The song balances humor with genuine frustration - it's funny but also honest about how exhausting and emotionally draining dysfunctional family gatherings can be.
 
"Home for the Holidays (God Help Me)"

[Verse 1]
Packing up my car on Christmas Eve
Got my fake smile ready and my armor underneath
Three hundred miles to childhood's door
Where love and resentment settle the score

Mom's already texting about my weight
Dad wants to know why I'm still not married yet
Sister's bringing her perfect kids to show
Uncle Jerry's drunk before the turkey's done, I know

[Pre-Chorus]
The tree is up, the lights are bright
Everything looks picture perfect from the outside
But I know what's waiting there for me
Another holly jolly catastrophe

[Chorus]
I'm home for the holidays, God help me
Where passive aggression flows so free
Between the eggnog and the family tree
I'm home for the holidays, God help me
Silent night turns into World War Three
This is why I moved across the country

[Verse 2]
Grandma's asking why I'm still alone
While my cousin's on his third wife and second home
Brother's bragging about his Christmas bonus
Sister-in-law keeps posting lies about us

Politics come up before dessert
Someone's feelings are about to get hurt
Mom's in the kitchen having a meltdown
Dad's in the garage trying not to hear the sound

[Pre-Chorus]
The stockings hung with so much care
Can't hide the tension floating in the air
Every year I tell myself I'm done
But here I am, the prodigal son

[Chorus]
I'm home for the holidays, God help me
Where passive aggression flows so free
Between the eggnog and the family tree
I'm home for the holidays, God help me
Silent night turns into World War Three
This is why I moved across the country

[Bridge]
Maybe next year I'll stay away
Book a flight to somewhere far, escape the fray
But guilt's a gift that keeps on giving
And family means pretending we're all living

The dream we sold ourselves so long ago
Before we knew that love could feel like obligation
Before the cracks began to show
In this picture-perfect situation

[Breakdown]
Jingle bells, someone yells
Aunt Karen's had too much wine
Peace on Earth, goodwill to men
Unless you're family of mine

Deck the halls with boughs of awkward
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
'Tis the season to be martyred
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

[Final Chorus]
I'm home for the holidays, God help me
Where dysfunction's wrapped so carefully
Beneath the ribbons and the Christmas tree
I'm home for the holidays, God help me
Counting down till I can leave
This is my yuletide tragedy

I'm home for the holidays, God help me
Smiling through my misery
One more year of this insanity
I'm home for the holidays, God help me
At least there's wine and therapy
Merry Christmas to my family

[Outro]
Three more days till I can go
Back to the life that they don't know
Home for the holidays, God help me
Home for the holidays, God help me
Next year I'm spending Christmas alone

Home for the holidays

He told me he would ‘love me always’ but that was a lie! This song is about freedom. About walking away when things don’t feel right. 

I have thought about this song for such a long time. I wanted to write something that wasn’t just another song, but something that gave you hope.
This is the song you play when you suddenly doubt yourself. It’s the song you play for courage to walk away from something or someone. 
It’s the song you play at night when you are alone with your thoughts, and the voice in your head casts doubt on your most difficult decision. 
Karma!

L.Y.A (Love you always) (Liar) SNIPPET

I am Free

Black and Blue

[Verse 1]
I've been waking up in places I don't recognize anymore
Staring at the ceiling while the sunlight finds the floor
There's a stranger in the mirror with my father's weary eyes
And I wonder when exactly I stopped trying to disguise

The truth about the battle that I'm losing day by day
The promises I made myself that slowly slipped away
Like water through my fingers, like sand against the tide
I'm disappearing into something I can't hide

[Verse 2]
There was a time when people used to call me by my name
Before I traded everything for shelter from the shame
Before the phone stopped ringing and the letters went unopened
Before I found myself alone with all these words unspoken

My sister left a message that I haven't yet returned
My mother's voice is fading from the lessons that I learned
The doctor keeps on talking but I'm not listening anymore
Just counting down the minutes till I'm walking out that door

[Chorus]
And I'm black and blue from fighting with myself
Black and blue from crying out for help
From the weight of all these years of holding on
To something that was killing me all along
I'm black and blue

[Verse 3]
I've been driving through the city with the windows rolling down
Past the apartment where I used to live, past my old side of town
And I'm thinking about the person that I was before the fall
Before I built these walls around me, before I lost it all

There's a photograph I carry from a birthday long ago
When my eyes were clear and bright with things I thought I'd know
About who I'd be and where I'd go and how I'd make it through
Before the world turned dark and left me black and blue

[Bridge]
But somewhere underneath the bruises and the scars
Somewhere past the shame and the regret
There's a voice that's barely whispering but won't give up yet
Saying maybe there's a way back from how far I've fallen down
Maybe there's a road that leads me out of this town
Maybe I'm not lost forever in this haze
Maybe I can find my way back to better days

And I know it won't be easy, know the road is long
Know that getting clean won't heal everything that's wrong
But I'm tired of being broken, tired of being afraid
Tired of all the promises I've broken and betrayed

[Chorus]
Yeah, I'm black and blue from fighting with myself
Black and blue from crying out for help
From the weight of all these years of holding on
To something that was killing me all along
But I'm done being black and blue

[Verse 4]
So I'm standing in this hallway with my hands against the wall
Reading all the faces of the people down the hall
Who've been exactly where I'm standing, who know exactly how it feels
To be broken down to nothing and learning how to heal

One day at a time they tell me, one moment, one breath, one choice
One step toward the morning, one chance to find my voice
One day I'll stop counting, one day I'll be free
From the person I've become and find the one I used to be

[Final Chorus]
I've been black and blue from fighting with myself
Black and blue from crying out for help
From the weight of all these years of holding on
To something that was killing me all along

But I'm standing here tonight and I'm asking for a chance
To trade these bruises for a new and better circumstance
I'm black and blue but I'm not giving in
This is where the healing begins
Still black and blue
But I'm fighting through

[Outro]
The morning comes with questions that I don't know how to answer yet
About the road ahead and all the days that I've got left
But I'm learning how to live with all the damage that I've done
And maybe that's enough for now, maybe that's how it's won
One day at a time, still black and blue
But I'm coming back to life, I'm coming back through

Black And Blue

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Meet Andrew Lear—a fictional artist whose voice exists only in the digital realm, yet whose stories feel deeply human. This innovative music project combines human songwriting with AI-generated vocals to create a persona that transcends traditional boundaries. Much like how sampling and synthesizers once expanded musical possibilities, Andrew Lear uses artificial intelligence as a creative tool to bring an imagined character to life. Through melodic country, alternative rock, and hard rock, this digital persona explores authentic stories of life, love, and experience—proving that genuine emotion can emerge from the most unexpected collaborations.

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