deadweight

deadweight w/ 1fern & traxee (yasuo! + expulsing)

Things were so simple before I met you
Now I can't forget you
The beast took my head but I'm still in debt to you
Drown in the moments
The watcherwoman rolls in
I'm damned I already know it
So weak
I wanna thank you
For changin me
I know you're so fucked up
And it always ends in misery
You just had all I needed
And guarded my Eden
I guess that were even this time

I wanna go back to fillory
I know it ends in misery
Even if it means the death of me
I'll wear the guilt on me
Back to fillory
I know it's a little fucked up
But I don't wanna change it
A piece of me lives there
And I can't explain it
It's lost in my head
But not lost in translation

I was your healer
Your number one believer
I played the cards you dealt me
Even though you cheated
It's time to make it right to you
I'm writing this to right you
I can't be the only one that's left
That gets let right through
Reputation damage murder
Looks bad to the observer
I know you're so difference with all the weight
That you burden
Magic so true
That you'd be
The only thing
That matters
To me
To me

I wanna go back to fillory
I know it ends in misery
Even if it means the death of me
I'll wear the guilt on me
Back to fillory
I know it's a little fucked up
But I don't wanna change it
A piece of me lives there
And I can't explain it
It's lost in my head
But not lost in translation

Back To Fillory (prod. summerS9)

@heyimmanic
@SupraVir
@ghostsocial

(heyimmanic)
Keep me out of your head ‘cause your out of mine
You see that I have bled you thought now was your time
Let go from your grasp on me
Choking me out till I become yours
I swear this is the last time
No reason to doubt I’m leaving you behind

(GREAVES)
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me

(heyimmanic)
I don’t wanna see your face again
Why were you trying to win this race again?
Took to many drugs to the face again
I told you they’re my only friend
Now I’m getting drunk there ain’t nobody to stop me
I’m pouring it up ‘til this shit runs empty
I don’t even care about the relapse
I’m walkin right on the edge
Might take a couple pills perhaps
Oh you think you had me there
No, I’m still sober
Wrote these lyrics last time we were over
Really should’ve let my heart be colder
Now I might finally have my closure

(GREAVES)
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me

(Supra Vir)
Retching screaming fighting
My tanks empty
I gotta stop all of this crying
Go ahead and try to tempt me
I gave you it all except get down on one knee
Always speaking in tongues
Now we’re constantly bashing skulls
Kill me already break my lungs
It’s over already, I have no one

(ghostsocial)
How you stab me in the back, then tell me I'm fine?
Swear to god you been on my mind
Feel like I'm wasting time, every time I tell you lies?
So I backtrack
Another day another time that I can't get back again
Then I lose track, one track mind I've been finding time to mend

(Supra Vir)
Run!

(GREAVES & heyimmanic)
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free (I can’t break free)
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy
I got stab wounds (Stab wounds)
Come and save me
Imma try my best to die before you erase me (You erase me)
Know you trapped me
I can’t break free (I can’t break free)
You’re the devil but you’re calling me crazy (You’re calling me crazy)
I got stab wounds (Stab wounds)
Come and save me (Save me)
Imma try my best to die before you erase me (Die before you erase me)

spotify :)

stab wounds! w/ heyimmanic, ghostsocial, & Supra Vir (SHADE08)

prod. @TVLEN & @alkylartist
#thehouseisdrowning

the house is drowning

aftermath

aftermath (feat. alkyl)

*Reuploaded* was falsely copyrighted

Beat :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-eVCkBrvMuQ

Lyrics :

I've been popping tabs and smoking grass then catching taxis home
When I'm feeling sad I drop a grand on Gucci branded clothes
Been with college grads and blowing cash on shit I can't afford
Check your pictures on my phone
Whenever I feel alone
Said you've been falling out love
You need a change stop playing games
For you I never was enough
So many things I rearranged
So I've been popping tabs and smoking grass then catching taxis home
Check our pictures on my phone
Whenever I feel alone

I take the ache and the pain and push it to the back of my brain
My heart been full of disdain with all the broken parts it contains
I pray for better days no
You wanted better say so
I'd gone insane trying to change but it was way too late tho
Been smoking one too many cigarettes
And you're the one who lost interest
And my whole life has been a mess
Who would've guessed it would end like this
It's still a lot to process
To me it don't make no sense
It feels like I'm drowning way out in the ocean

No I
Can't accept the fact
You survived
Without a scratch
And my life has been a wreck
Say I'm fine
If you ever ask

I've been popping tabs and smoking grass then catching taxis home
When I'm feeling sad I drop a grand on Gucci branded clothes
Been with college grads and blowing cash on shit I can't afford
Check your pictures on my phone
Whenever I feel alone
Said you've been falling out love
You need a change stop playing games
For you I never was enough
So many things I rearranged
So I've been popping tabs and smoking grass then catching taxis home
Check our pictures on my phone
Whenever I feel alone

alone (Prod. by siemspark x ayoleybeats)

Produced by ME

Lyrics 

(Towards the end of the road oh)
Now your walking towards the end of the road
Because your on your last straw the end of the rope
Lost inside lost all your hope 
Thought the feeling would thaw 
But they melted and broke
They bro-o-o-oke

And things haven’t been the same 
Since the last time I saw you 
Feelings were rearranged 
So now I feel like I’m supposed to 
Be the one to say sorry 
When I know it your fault your not for me
This back and forth for me is getting boring 
Because I’m tired 
Of being left out in the sidelines
In the side dirt and I know my worth

But is it my fault 
Should I have done more 
Just to help you out and get you assured 
But I don’t know how you would have takin’ It
If I came back into you life 
And ripped it into bits
Like you did mine 
Now i don’t know if can continue or just resign
Cause I 

Now your walking towards the end of the road
Because your on your last straw the end of the rope
Lost inside lost all your hope 
Thought the feeling would thaw 
But they melted and broke
They bro-o-o-oke

And things haven’t been the same 
Since the last time I saw you 
Feelings were rearranged 
So now I feel like I’m supposed to 
Be the one to say sorry 
When I know it your fault your not for me
This back and forth for me is getting boring 
Because I’m tired 
Of being left out in the sidelines
In the side dirt and I know my worth

End Of The Road

Beat : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-Es0uMP9rU

Art : https://twitter.com/ImagesAlbum/status/1577415750007955457/photo/1

// Lyrics //

(I stopped believing)
(It's just-)
(Everyday I think I)
(Believe a little less and a little less and a little less)
(And that sucks)

I'm living I'd rather be dead
I'm spinning inside of my head
I'm keeping my demons on read
Repeating all that I had said
I struggle to get out of bed
I swear that these antidepressants that add to the pressure are keeping me fed
I know that you're never impressed
Would you follow?
Highway to hell in a beaten Monte Carlo
Hard to confess run on empty I'm hollow
Hope for the best keep repressed hit the bottle

I'm counting my losses
Collect all my thoughts and put em in boxes
Run out of options
Eyes water like faucets I'm feeling nauseous
Could we just pause this?
I don't wanna force it maybe I'll forfeit
I am too cautious
How could we have lost this?
A lot here to process
No I can't
Open myself up again
To all of the trauma that got me depressed
I'm still tryna let it go
I gotta move past
All of the bullshit that you had to push on me but I still wish you the best
When I die God rest my soul
Never had a minute where I wasn't motivated
Highly medicated and I got a little bit of patience
Little but of liquor in my liver and I'm wasted
Little bit of lace in my lungs and I'm faded
I'm jaded
How could this get so complicated
I couldn't locate where the pain is
It can't be my heart cos it's vacant

I'm living I'd rather be dead
I'm spinning inside of my head
I'm keeping my demons on read
Repeating all that I had said
I struggle to get out of bed
I swear that these antidepressants that add to the pressure are keeping me fed
I know that you're never impressed
Would you follow?

Highway to hell in a beaten Monte Carlo
Hard to confess run on empty I'm hollow
Hope for the best keep repressed hit the bottle

I'm living I'd rather be dead
I'm spinning inside of my head
I'm keeping my demons on read
Repeating all that I had said
I struggle to get out of bed
I swear that these antidepressants that add to the pressure are keeping me fed
I know that you're never impressed
Would you follow?

hit the bottle (Prod. by Jolst)

thx @777evil & @nokerbforever <3

Life is alway changing, youll find a new perspective
Im sorry that i did this, but that shits not respected
fucked up once we let it go, you fuck up twice and then it shows
That you never changed, and you never will
in me builds the rage, to the point where i could kill
put a bullet in your chest, watch the blood pour out and spill
I trusted you, you gave me nothing, i shouldve known, you were up to something
A second chance, we deserve it all, but people like you, put us all at fault
And theres nothing i could say, you didnt learn your lesson
Forgave you the first time, but i cant do a second

Choices fall, into a sick shape
Reminisce the times we fixate
On our broken souls
Swear i let it go
Every fucking second
But your failure it shows

evilmiku:
i can’t keep up with every single change
you try to make everything bad a game
all of these thoughts you planted in my brain
but i won’t go down from anything you say

NOKERB:
you would always pressure me to get shit done
lately i been wondering if this is all worth it
wasted my time on you, thought it was perfect
it was not, you was treating me so worthless
i wonder how long it all will last.. 
the choices fell!
you was treating me like trash
im on the edge of falling down
baby im about to jump

choices fall ft. evilmiku & NOKERB [prod. saint mike]

got the whole gangy on dis song <33

dudley got his first cover art awwww

holy shit that girl hurt me but hey it results in good music :P

lil message to the homies in this (scroll down 4 lyrics):
had such a fun new year's weekend with u all, and i rly enjoyed the time we spent tg. take a sec to read the lil letters i wrote u :) luv u guys

@kryst3n holy shit i alr known u for literal YEARS thats insane. it's hard to believe we were like 14 when we first played brawlhalla and now we literally linked twice and got super close. had so much fun chillin wit u and makin this song. our voices together is such a beautiful thing and i wanna make sm more with u. thanks for bein a rly good friend despite how shitty i cld be sometimes. ly bro, cheers to more memories <333 cheesy OUT.

@claudesdiary no clue where to even start with u. i. always. looked. up. to. you. best cousin ever to say the least. i always felt like that annoying lil brother to you, but i hope you see through that. i know im out of control a lot and say sum rly out of pocket stuff, but the fact u love me for being myself and keeping me company means the absolute world. words cannot describe how much of an impact u had on my life, would not be makin music if it wasn't for u cuzzo, and tbh i feel a lot less alone when we hang at family gatherings. so thankful for every moment we spend together fr, u been my boy since day 0 jay ilysm < 3

@assperrr I FUCKIN LUV U SWOOZ. i cant make this shit up bro, some of the things u say got me laughin for so long i gotta mute my mic on calls, n when we linked i was DEAD. never change, u got a rly good vibe and can positively affect the ppl around u. hope we can continue to get closer cuz u honestly one of my closest homies in the community. keep doin yo thing, lets make more music soon and link again much luv dawg

if u aint swooz jesse or jay WHY DID U READ THIS SHIT OMG

lyrics:

all my bones are so dismantled
all these feelings i can’t handle
make these plans you always cancel
just my soul; it’s all i gambled

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

break my bones and ur pulling away
i could hardly hold on to anything
you say now
so pull me close
and say were not done
ive been tryna write songs but its hard
when the cats got ur tongue
hit my head on the wall 
till im banged up and bruised
make a song cuz its easier
than talking to you (about it)

you’re stabbing my back when i never would
it’s easy to say that i never could
lead you on, lead you on
theres nothing left
you can’t prove me wrong

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

all plats

lead u on w/ kryst3n [prod. king theta x claude x asperr]

prod by pablo worldwide + jolst
mix & master by @silentcxbin

###LYRICS###
life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

you a lame get up out my face 
Worried bout my payment 
I just hit the bank 
I leveled up like everyday since
hell rain down, pussy boy 
I’m already aimed in 
1v1 when I’m alone 
I’ll leave ya brain dead,

I fuck it up 
could come in clutch 
if you need me
I’m tryna fly down to LA 
for da weekend 
we know he soft 
he not hard 
he act like cement,

He DOA 
I leave his body 
on the pavement 

new AIM 
just to walk up 
an then spray it 
woke up with a vendetta
on my note list 
I hate going out in public 
cause they’ll notice 
why am I so fucking anxious 
can’t hold it

a thermal scope 
on a SIG
Ima hunt for gold
I catch you walking 
in the road
you getting domed
you all alone
bitch I treat that laser 
like my arm
you ain't making it home
you MIA all along

life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

la vie suit son court

life goes on (pablo worldwide + jolst)

ap in a bnb

// 23 //
having audio/recording issues, will be MIA for a little while

alone (Prod. by siemspark x ayoleybeats)

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