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hopeless summer w/ scøøb (+irby + jolst)

i know better than anyone never trust anyone

better than anything

Art : https://www.pinterest.nz/pin/814236807634537370/

Beat : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bu78boW6xLE

Lyrics :

You
I don't wanna fall in love with you
I don't wanna open up to you
Girl that's the last type of love that I'd wanna pursue
But I cannot refuse
I said now you
Just can't seem to get away from you
I've been spending all my days with you
Girl I don't wanna waste time so we better go soon
But I'm waiting on you
But I'm waiting on you
I don't wanna fall in love with you
I don't wanna open up to you
Girl that's the last type of love that I'd wanna pursue
But I cannot refuse
I said now

Hold on just a minute see the stars they're all aligned
Da Vinci couldn't paint a better picture if he tried
If I did send a message to your phone would you reply
These the kind of things that hold me back from ever trying
Said I'm sorry for the text I ain't write back
Said I'm sorry for the way that I might act
I've been really distant lately could you please forgive me baby
If I pull up late night would you like that
I'm waiting on

You
I don't wanna fall in love with you
I don't wanna open up to you
Girl that's the last type of love that I'd wanna pursue
But I cannot refuse
I said now you
Just can't seem to get away from you
I've been spending all my days with you
Girl I don't wanna waste time so we better go soon
But I'm waiting on you
But I'm waiting on

you (Prod. by Brassard)

Beat : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHNGYXxQF5I

Lyrics :

I feel so anxious I vanish in sadness it happens a ton
By now my canvas is brandished with damage sustained from your love
And when my baggage is captured on camera I can't help but run
Somehow I manage to banish my manners until I feel numb

I'm broken
I left my heart in the open
Can't keep on speaking I'm choking
My feelings freeze in the cold when
I'm hurting
Lately I've been feeling like a burden
I been making my mind up with bourbon
But I been waking up feeling uncertain
I'm honest
I ain't really one to break a promise
Don't wanna hurt you so I look for other options
But every answer has me feeling kinda nauseous
I'm praying
For the days where I'm no longer waiting
And my mind is no longer degrading
Got a long way to go so I'm patient

After all those times
I pulled through
Those sleepless nights
That I spent with you

I feel so anxious I vanish in sadness it happens a ton
By now my canvas is brandished with damage sustained from your love
And when my baggage is captured on camera I can't help but run
Somehow I manage to banish my manners until I feel numb

anxious (Prod. by xmichaelwarren)

*Reuploaded* was falsely copyrighted

Beat :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-eVCkBrvMuQ

Lyrics :

I've been popping tabs and smoking grass then catching taxis home
When I'm feeling sad I drop a grand on Gucci branded clothes
Been with college grads and blowing cash on shit I can't afford
Check your pictures on my phone
Whenever I feel alone
Said you've been falling out love
You need a change stop playing games
For you I never was enough
So many things I rearranged
So I've been popping tabs and smoking grass then catching taxis home
Check our pictures on my phone
Whenever I feel alone

I take the ache and the pain and push it to the back of my brain
My heart been full of disdain with all the broken parts it contains
I pray for better days no
You wanted better say so
I'd gone insane trying to change but it was way too late tho
Been smoking one too many cigarettes
And you're the one who lost interest
And my whole life has been a mess
Who would've guessed it would end like this
It's still a lot to process
To me it don't make no sense
It feels like I'm drowning way out in the ocean

No I
Can't accept the fact
You survived
Without a scratch
And my life has been a wreck
Say I'm fine
If you ever ask

I've been popping tabs and smoking grass then catching taxis home
When I'm feeling sad I drop a grand on Gucci branded clothes
Been with college grads and blowing cash on shit I can't afford
Check your pictures on my phone
Whenever I feel alone
Said you've been falling out love
You need a change stop playing games
For you I never was enough
So many things I rearranged
So I've been popping tabs and smoking grass then catching taxis home
Check our pictures on my phone
Whenever I feel alone

alone (Prod. by siemspark x ayoleybeats)

alone. [ft. floret][+irby]

Beat : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-Es0uMP9rU

Art : https://twitter.com/ImagesAlbum/status/1577415750007955457/photo/1

// Lyrics //

(I stopped believing)
(It's just-)
(Everyday I think I)
(Believe a little less and a little less and a little less)
(And that sucks)

I'm living I'd rather be dead
I'm spinning inside of my head
I'm keeping my demons on read
Repeating all that I had said
I struggle to get out of bed
I swear that these antidepressants that add to the pressure are keeping me fed
I know that you're never impressed
Would you follow?
Highway to hell in a beaten Monte Carlo
Hard to confess run on empty I'm hollow
Hope for the best keep repressed hit the bottle

I'm counting my losses
Collect all my thoughts and put em in boxes
Run out of options
Eyes water like faucets I'm feeling nauseous
Could we just pause this?
I don't wanna force it maybe I'll forfeit
I am too cautious
How could we have lost this?
A lot here to process
No I can't
Open myself up again
To all of the trauma that got me depressed
I'm still tryna let it go
I gotta move past
All of the bullshit that you had to push on me but I still wish you the best
When I die God rest my soul
Never had a minute where I wasn't motivated
Highly medicated and I got a little bit of patience
Little but of liquor in my liver and I'm wasted
Little bit of lace in my lungs and I'm faded
I'm jaded
How could this get so complicated
I couldn't locate where the pain is
It can't be my heart cos it's vacant

I'm living I'd rather be dead
I'm spinning inside of my head
I'm keeping my demons on read
Repeating all that I had said
I struggle to get out of bed
I swear that these antidepressants that add to the pressure are keeping me fed
I know that you're never impressed
Would you follow?

Highway to hell in a beaten Monte Carlo
Hard to confess run on empty I'm hollow
Hope for the best keep repressed hit the bottle

I'm living I'd rather be dead
I'm spinning inside of my head
I'm keeping my demons on read
Repeating all that I had said
I struggle to get out of bed
I swear that these antidepressants that add to the pressure are keeping me fed
I know that you're never impressed
Would you follow?

hit the bottle (Prod. by Jolst)

hope u like it !! <33
prod - @johnnyfriend & me <3
mix - me ^^

im scared u'll hate me
does that make me crazy?
yeah, is there something wrong with u?
what are u going through?
and i still stay up late
wondering what to say

pulling pedals off of roses
telling me i'm hopeless
u think that i don't notice?
i'd rather use a lotus, oh

where do i go from here?
i'm missing u my dear
i fear that the end is near
but it's okay
in no way
will it hurt me
leaves keep falling down
and i don't know this town

memories lurk, always in the dirt
i'll tell ur man that he's the worst
and seeing u two always hurts
and now i'm fighting them all
i have nobody to call
and i'm pushed up a wall
how do i stay calm?

what could i do?
i, i never had a clue
but i'll fight this one for u
(oooh)

im scared u'll hate me
does that make me crazy?
yeah, is there something wrong with u?
what are u going through?
and i still stay up late
wondering what to say

and i'm trying to make sense
but i'm brainless
yeah, when ypu're giving me a kiss
it isn't painless
yeah, and everything you did
it was so shameless
woah, and i'm pretty sure u
get the fucking premise
i can't reminisce, no

im new here // prod. johnnyfriend & ctr1s

Produced, written and recorded by Lex "HeyLee" Alexander
Artwork by https://twitter.com/annalyceart

Lyrics:

My ex boyfriend was a dick
I hope that when he thinks of me he crashes his car into a bridge
The pandemic made me sick
not just from the virus, but also from social isolation

Last year my parents split, 
and she wants half of everything, and he’s got so much shit to deal with
But I don’t know, I’m just their kid, 
there’s nothing I can really do, except for alcoholic liquids
By the way, I’m 26, 
my mental health has kept me from bringing anything to fruition
Yeah, I don’t know, it’s my last ditch, 
I should get another job and try to hide the scars upon my wrists

Don’t tell me everything will be okay, 
I’ve seen the possibilities, the odds aren’t looking in my favour
Don’t tell me, everything is in my head, 
I cannot act like an adult, I’ll take a nap and then I’ll come back later

I told you I’m fine, as fine I could, 
given the current circumstance 
I'm born be bored, forced to survive,
I’ll never have a song on Idleglance
I’m glued to my phone, reception is fading
All five of my IG followers waiting
For me to slip up, and post my address
They wanna lace my water with devils breath

Don’t tell me everything will be okay,
I’ve seen the possibilities, the odds aren’t looking in my favour
Don’t tell me, everything is in my head, 
I cannot act like an adult, I’ll take a nap and then I’ll come back later

Head underwater, 
nobody’s daughter, 
I close my eyes, 
my head pounds like a mortar 
Head underwater, 
led to the slaughter, 
pick up my guitar and then I'll cry in the corner

Don’t tell me everything will be okay, 
I’ve seen the possibilities, the odds aren’t looking in my favour
Don’t tell me, everything is in my head,
I cannot act like an adult, I’ll take a nap and then I’ll come back later

Act Like An Adult

you know you dont care, SO DONT LIE TO ME. (nxmadic)

[verse]
in time, honestly
you looked at me
with swollen eyes and puffed up cheeks
you’re telling me that you’re not crying
but it’s fine cause i fucked up
it slipped through my fingers you had enough
you went and ran away
but i guess that i’m the one to blame

[chorus]
shut your eyes and tell me how you feel
woke up to this, i can’t believe it’s real
if it’s honesty, you’re never getting mine
rather bite my tongue and keep everything fine

[verse]
i’m fucking hurting
i’m fucking bleeding
i’m fucking coping
with shit that you ain’t seeing
don’t hit me on my phone line
don’t hit me on my dms
i pray that you’re still happy
cause i’m here dying

the water where we rest (prod. SwuM x idealism)

// 23 //
having audio/recording issues, will be MIA for a little while

anxious (Prod. by xmichaelwarren)

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