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50g of spiro in the morning
fuck sleep, fuck t, i've been hoarding
all of the toxins inside my body have been soaring
how could i be so boring

it's like i'm a caricature of femininity
of something i can't see
don't let the terfs get to me
oh no
i wanna feel the intimacy
of something in between

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Spiro

saoirse dream - upset (angel jelly edit)

(jelly)

you had me sit down with you to explain everything
so i said that i still love you, but i bought her a ring
now i'm wrapped around her finger like she's messing with string
how'd this happen to me?
how'd this happen to me?

(like she's messing with string)
(like she's messing with string)

i don't wanna talk too much about it
this feeling is so crowded
everywhere i go, can't go without it
it's making me so sore

everything i wanted
all thrown out and rotted
i can't be restored
i'm so self absorbed

(like she's messing with string)
(like she's messing with string)

you had me sit down with you to explain everything
so i said that i still love you, but i bought her a ring
now i'm wrapped around her finger like she's messing with string
how'd this happen to me?
how'd this happen to me?

all those texts i won't erase
she's someone i can't replace
but i just wanna be with you tonight
it's a suffocating space
tears are rolling down her face
is there a way without air to breathe alright?

(like she's messing with string)
(like she's messing with string)

you had me sit down with you to explain everything
so i said that i still love you, but i bought her a ring
now i'm wrapped around her finger like she's messing with string
how'd this happen to me?
how'd this happen to me?

i put my arms around her, said it's gonna be okay
cause our love is like the sand, it's never washing away
even if you need space, i'll come back another day
it'll all be okay

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like she's messing with string

with @fidont and @americalovesme
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wouldn't it just be so perfect
if we could turn back time?
sitting in the back seat of my hatchback
wishing that you were mine
let's spend some time in my bed
let me see what's going on in your head
i might be thinking that you're worth it
maybe that's too much but i can't help it

baby you're my kind
blossoms blooming in my mind
i think that it's fine
you spin around i fall under
i've been around since september
i might just go to december
i hope i'm one that you remember, ooh

been in turmoil since august
i have to open all of my options
i can't work with all of this tension
open up the gates let the rest in
put your palm up to my face
i start to sweat and feel your embrace
it's like a warmth and a glow
but i can't let anyone know
i would do anything that you ask me to
even choke, lose it all, i'd collapse into
the sense of trust i thought i had with you
i would put all of my past in view

maybe it's all just whatever
loving me you'd probably never
lucky i could get whoever
so i'll just move on to another endeavor

wouldn't it just be so perfect
if we could turn back time?
sitting in the back seat of my hatchback
wishing that you were mine
let's spend some time in my bed
let me see what's going on in your head
i might be thinking that you're worth it
maybe that's too much but i can't-

every day i will wait by your side
just to feel your palm slow
on my face, it's your grace, i'm a waste
i'm in love with you so
i'm selfish
i can't taste it, i'm just honest
i could be your goddess
as long as i'm holding you baby
what you got going on lately?
always knew she was my lady
just hoping that she's not too shady
all in my head she's amazing
running in circles i'm lazy
gave her my number said maybe,
give me a call i'll go crazy

wouldn't it just be so perfect
if we could turn back time?
sitting in the back seat of my hatchback
wishing that you were mine
let's spend some time in my bed
let me see what's going on in your head
i might be thinking that you're worth it
maybe that's too much but i can't-

don't wanna waste all my time
thinking about you but i can't help it

it's way too precious when we talk,
when you're with me i know you felt it

didn't see you coming back, i'm a no show
wonder how the pain flows
on the pen imma take another hit
besides, it's a lie
would've died if you cried
by my side, cause it hurts so-

when you talked to me thought i might die
now i'm wasting all of my time
wanna spend it with you, i tried
when you make me smile, hurts my pride
and would you give it all up just for me?
i could grow my hair out to my knees
if you thought that i'd look pretty
i'd be better than you let me
and we could be
perfect

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perfect (w/ america loves me + evanie)

ft. @saoirsedream

it's like we never died
cause i can look into your eyes
a secret gemini
when im asleep you're in my mind
it's no surprise that i

i want to
i want to
i want to get to know you
your message
aggressive
i can be so submissive

and when i see you it's like a dream
your soft hands wrapping around me
you grip so tightly that i cant breathe
we're lighting matches to feel the heat

you got me so distracted
id make a move but im out of practice
we almost kissed and i know you liked it
pin me down baby i wont fight it
i melt everytime you touch me
daydreaming wishing youd just f*ck me
this game gets so addictive
i can be so submissive

sub (w saoirse dream)

art by https://twitter.com/kickfliptommy
kesha your love is my drug against the wall wow

againstthewall

with america loves me 
@americalovesme
https://twitter.com/americaluvsme
https://www.instagram.com/americalovesme.wav/

got bars, but the only one I go to is oscar's
got hits, but you know I'm not a boxer
got her creaming, and I'm not talking soft serve
just pulled all your bitches, yeah I'm sorry that you lost yours
took e and my skin got softer
do it myself, no I don't need a doctor
no tracks out but my team still prospers
now I'll pass to Q cause he's done slinging lobster

reigns all on my neck
check the scoreboard
took your girl to dinner
lobster tails and for the encore
driving round the city
getting busy in the porsche
turning beats into the hits
yeah they're gonna call me tom ford
i think you should back off
this ain't what you're made for
looking like some angels
but we'll give it to you hardcore
nice, check the ice
then you'll know what I am made for
next time time you fuck with us
we're gonna leave you all sore

call me the no fly list
the way the furry girls make me leak
i got bands and I got paper
and I got drugs that'll make you tweak
i'm the best popstar in philly
people know my name like meek
i just pulled your bitch last night
and we found out that she's a freak
you feel my heat like a sauna
i blew you like marijuana
i'm not the one that you wanted
just say it bluntly like trauma
yeah I'm a popstar, madonna
i'll cut you up like katana
i put in work like rihanna
and I drop bombs like obama

wait
i know you've grown so agitated
yeah you've contemplated
all my roles, but wait for me to tell you

how could you think that you're better than me?
got two phones bitch I'm like baby keem
got gems on my face and a fit you can't beat
quit sucking up my energy

lobster (w america loves me)

w my hot girls @biichftt and @spheremerchants

art by kickfliptommy
https://twitter.com/kickfliptommy

hotgirlbeat ! (w biichftt and sphere merchants)

pirate song (w rocco bunko)

:D we love music!

w @americalovesme and @intrpnct

you’re topping me like a mattress
we can break out the strap 
its enormous like hagrid
you’re using your magic 
to turn me to a faggot
and then when we’re done
i can be your new habit

if i get a pussy it'll look just like cloyster
its girldick on top, i'm the biggest enjoyer
i’m getting you off just like i was your lawyer
leave ur excess inside me just like i’m a foyer

pain so deep i’m a martyr
horns with the teeth
yeah i come for the slaughter
blood on my face blessed just like
holy water
been giving her knots
cause she knows that i’m hotter

yeah, j jackson got control
and we leave ‘em wanting more
but you know we gotta tour now
and we got ‘em going deep
and your secrets safe to keep
as long as you’re with me

knives out cut me with precision
love me and i’ll be your new religion
trust me like im taking you to church
but you know we make it work

play with my heart cause i’ll let you be careless
you know i’ll still follow you just like polaris
i gave you all of myself
but i had to go ghost it was bad for my health

guestlist for every show
bus from philly to soho
blessed with everyone i know
take a shot and then we rock with it
on the decks i’m dropping it
track IDs they’re spotting it
dog in me like romulus

and i don’t mean to be careless
i spoke with my mirror
she said i’m the fairest 
i’m crying in public
but never embarrassed 
in the end we’re all pretty
there’s no need to compare it

pussy 2.0 (w america loves me and interpunct)

do u ever feel like ur being watched?
a song about fear

butterfly knife

i see your self destruction
i bet i could give it back!
it’s how we compensate 
for all the qualities we lack
and i know
that you think i ripped your heart in two
but that’s okay
cause there was never any me and you 

i could tell you one thing
it’s been a long time coming
yeah you ditched me in december
brushed it off like it was nothing

and i said i wasn’t hurt
it turned out that i was bluffing
played the cards, all in
and i ended up running

one thing abt me 
is i’m not about regression
said some things you regret
and it left a bad impression

in the end, both hurt 
had to go a new direction
yeah, i fucked it up again
and i never learn my lesson

i see the way you hurt yourself
and say it’s cause of me
but the point of your destruction 
was never within my reach

this act of pointing fingers 
was your way of getting out
and you say it’s for the distance
we all know what it’s about

self destruction

with @americalovesme <3

i saw your mind
and you're such a liar
wasted all my time
thrown into the fire

i saw the smoke spell out your name
i felt the spark i made the flame
i played with fire like a game
and when im burned i feel no pain

its just the way it is 
when youre used to heat
and i feel it on my tongue 
and it tastes so sweet
you spend time with your girl 
just to feel complete
but you're wasting every second 
wishing it was me

i've seen hell
i came back
i struggled to convey that
i have new
endeavors
unbound by earthly tethers
engulfed by flames in modesty
a self fulfilling prophecy
we danced in perfect harmony

into the fire (w america loves me)

entry five of six

i’ve never met somebody
who wanted every part of me
just crave my touch until we cease 
as cold as february
i touch your skin and feel no heat
must be the way you looked at me
and said 

no one will want you
no one will want you
no one will want you
no one will want you

i can’t stand looking at my face
i’ll turn to dust, disintegrate 
my stagnant soul was left to take
a thousand years, i couldn’t wait

heavenly bodies in mind
i wanted our souls intertwined
the last time i felt this
i couldn’t quite handle it
destinies weren’t aligned
if i could have just been more kind
then maybe this could have been mine
i’m falling apart now 
so all i can ask is you
pick up the pieces you find

no one will want you

entry four of six

live bass in intro by @americalovesme

you ate me alive—
devoured each inch 
like you thought i was yours
i thought that you said 
that you’d treat me like an angel 
but angels all fall
and it’s always so painful

you cried when i didn’t taste just how you wanted
you craved it like fruit
but i guess it was rotten
a pig at the trough 
but the trough was a coffin

take what
you can get
to avoid to be alone
feel regret
and now i look in the mirror
and i want to turn to dust
how does anyone do this
and not feel disgust

i never wanted it to be this way
i belong to myself 
and that’s how it should stay 
you can cremate my body
no one can have it anymore
i don’t want it to exist
cause i don’t want it to be yours

coffin

sewn together by a thousand threads
a project by angel jelly

1. didn't mean				(june 2022)
2. enemy					(august 2022)
3. too deep				(december 2022)
4. coffin					(october 2023)
5. no one will want you		(february 2023)
6. still love my baby		(june 2023)

"too deep" features additional vocals from donttrustlando
"coffin" features live bass performed by america loves me
cover arts and photography by america loves me

12.31.23

still love my baby

too deep (w donttrustlando)

enemy

didn't mean

art by @larvabun on twitter

bitch im blond like kesha 
stacking my green like matcha
rolling that shit like gacha 
hope my competition can catch up 
it was gettin real boring in the front
accusations true, i’m a cunt
but i’m wearing all the fits
that you know that you want

i just wanna be beside you
i don’t mean to push i know that you tried to
you could have the world
see it all from my view

bitch, you've been working all day
my ass called out but i still got paid
all these bitches in heat and they need to get spayed
if you fuck with my clique you'll regret what you say

gacha

just give me consistency,
thats all i want
need it to be assured to me,
thats all i want

(i need you to be close when your hand’s on mine)
(i want to know the thoughts that you keep inside)
(it’s all i want from you)
(i need to be as sure as the moon in the sky)
(i want to feel your pull like the waves in the tide)

i'm tired of being treated like i'm 
some kind of game
i'm not something that you can play
i yearn more with each passing day
i need it to be real
i want confidence in the things i feel
my heart is in a cage that’s made of steel
they said “she’d never let it out”
but i know that she will

did you forget yourself again?
(i know i need to get my priorities straight)
did you forget yourself again?
(when i lost my key
and i'm standing at the gate)
did you forget yourself?
did you forget yourself?
did you forget yourself again?
(i don’t really mean to do this…)

i’ll be gone in the wind again
always running against the current
i always can feel it
but can never endure it
you’ll look everywhere for me
i’m not something you can find
you could never fix me
no matter how hard you tried 

just give me consistency,
that’s all i want
need it to be assured to me,
that’s all i want

consistency

strings performed by margaux watkins @americalovesme

i wish i could be young forever
to lie under the stars with them
i never want to leave the city
i never want these days to end
we might get old and leave together
or grow and never talk again
i know that we can’t stay the same
but through it all, i love my friends 

i love my friends

i know maybe i can’t get better
but still i want to try for them
another year is moving quickly
i'm counting all the days we left
an hourglass, the sand is falling
i never want to have regrets
i want them all to stay beside me
their love will get me through again

i love my friends

i love my friends

did it mean anything to you baby?
i guess i just feel stupid if it meant more to me
i just want my heart intact

our love was trapped in the screen
you couldn't say your words
but i would wonder what they mean
maybe it'd be better if you knew how to scream
i couldn't hear you

this time i don't wanna play a game
i wanna hear you speak your thoughts
i wanna hear you speak my name
i guess it's always been this way
it's always been the same

like why did you say that?
pieces of days that we fade past
and i feel its a shame that
all those actions that you'd never take back

better to ask for forgiveness than ask for permission
hair on my neck standing up i can sense it
picking the splinters stuck in my palm
eye of the storm and then you were gone

and i burned the good luck charm you left for me
i don’t need your luck, i'm standing on my own two feet
moon shine like a light house and now i can barely sleep
don't need the story intact
when i feel your nails like a knife in my back

intact [cause + effect] (w donttrustlando)

i hope you come home with stories to tell
like where did you go? are you still doing well?

i'm not turning back with that gun in my hand
i don't wanna talk because it's not what i planned

i held that flower, and i kept it alive
but i clutched it too tight, and i watched it die

now they're all gone, and i wish they'd come back
i wanna hold it again, but it doesn't work like that

the flower i'm looking for has gone extinct

musical venting

art by http://hasya226.tumblr.com/

inadeepsleep, pt.1

little tune thing

i hope u enjoy <3

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Goat-Footed

i don't have time to fill the space
i don't have time to recreate
through countless hours trudging through
i'll still find time to get to you

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