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[kite]
faded in black dissappear out of sight
left it all behind it makes the day too bright 
u were the last u were the first 
made it all worst this is the life i chose
no one can make it right
can someone put me out my life
i cannot even make a scene
i cannot even see thru this screen

just like that im in my head
i-i
just like that im in my head

sticky in my veins
everything turned horrible
4 no reason u took me for the worse
blood just drips 
ion wanna hear
ill never change i took it for a steer

感情なんてどこにもないの

in my head ft. tropes (prod. 6houl x guami)

shout out @k4rson my twizzy

lyric:
[arid]
yea you always see me down not on the surface
always pushing me down always making me so worthless
don't know when my turn is i just wanna take it off
i know everything wasn't worth at all
don't know what to do i don't feel myself
yea never by my side need nobody else
you left your feelings at the door
ive bottled up theres so much more

[karson]
and you tell me that you love me but you don't 
and i know but i guess that things can't change 
and my ex still in my brain 
i guess i can't ever escape 
she call me insane
cuz i don't wanna play games
i swear she made my heart break
I know i can never change 
from the person i became 
you and me are not the same

surface w/ karson (karson)

@k4rson
@prod_dxvi
@012207

[arid]
i dont wanna love u
yea its way too hard
i dont want us to go right back to the start
im too far
u know it breaks my heart
figured out my life now dont know how to change
yea thats my life now stuck inside my brain
yea i dont know how it works
everyday feels way much worse
i wont stay

[karson]
and I won’t stay
Think we need some time away 
I know that I made mistakes 
It just seems like nothing ever goes my way 
It just seems like you don’t care if I’m okay 
In the mean time I’m just trying to find my place 
And it seems like all you do is push me away 
I say I’m fine even if I’m not okay

my heart w/ karson [dxvi + baz]

@mental
@7ripp0
@deadat18

[arid]
yea i dont even know how long im taking
always said that it was fine i never faked it
yea i never understand what u say in ur tone
i cant even see right makin it home
i dont even feel right when im alone
u know what it feels like nothing to hold
just put my heart to rest
i alr know that u wont

[mental]
put my heart to rest
tell me that im dead already
and u never said
anything that makes me feel like i should go forget
put a stake into my heart
its not even in my chest
i dont really wanna go
not outside
im too scared dont know how to be alive
wake me up when im someone u can like
cause ill wait for u til the day i die
with u by my side

rest w/ mental [rippo + deadat18]

drowning w/ veezuh [baz + neohn]

@prodsoma

put all my thoughts in a cauldron
idk whos arm youll be holding now
u said its right
its all been wrong
its been this way
for far too long
all wrapped up in my head
dont think you understand
everything left unsaid
dont think that ill forget
forget me now
yea u wont hear a sound
took everything even though im not allowed
pull all the strings till u see me turn around
only found a fear of u now
only wanna take it back
ik ur used to that
ik i feel so bad
oh
dont think that ill try again to tie these ends anymore
i cant even call u a friend my love has nowhere to pour

forget (soma)

lyrics:

Not a issue if you don't miss me...
That spin back baby its too risky!
Sippin that wok out my Stanley
These low ass levels they can't stand me,
The cellar, told her that I felt her!
I got em duckin no shelter,
I get it poppin like seltzer!

auxina:

Pedal on the floor and I show no pity
Brand new racks in a brand new city 
Brand new watch and brand new fendi 
Who like me I can’t say many 
So far gone Sippin on wok 
So long 
Can’t chalk it up  
Take no loss
Blood in a vile 
If that’s the cost
Feelin so free like eve  
Anti social 
Like peep hole 
Never been one w people
On my own like ten toes 
Residents be so evil
I walk with a weapon that’s lethal 
Through my eyes it’s so digital
I wonder can u be physical

mental:

Got a broken heart, put chrome up on my sleeve
Oh they mad at me, but they cant be like me
You not friend or foe, no we could not compete
I wake up in the night and fall asleep
Oh thats my bad
My bad, my bad
I swear I cant get attached
They mad at me for what? No I dont know
Thats my bad
Didn’t mean to fuck you over but I did
Oh thats my bad
My bad, my bad
I swear that thats my bad

Not a issue if you don't miss me...
That spin back baby its too risky!
Sippin that wok out my Stanley
These low ass levels they can't stand me,
The cellar, told her that I felt her!
I got em duckin no shelter,
I get it poppin like seltzer!

2risky + mental (ZIVO)

soundcloud.com/xternalz / soundcloud.com/staywithmenow

i'm reaching out to you, the furthest star in our sky

Again [xternalz]

soundcloud.com/akasukii x soundcloud.com/clay0127
soundcloud.com/xternalz

meant

@winter

no one see's me the way u do
u can see thru the pain its true
i been living everyday like a loop
i jus wanted 2 b close to u
it got so much colder without u
carrying weight like a boulder its sinking through
told u i would neva fold up its me&u
dont kno how long i can hold up i'll give it all2 u

i jus wana feel feel something new
do u kno how it feels to be cut through
can u tell me whats the deal whats been up w u
u kno we in that field i do it all 4 u
said im too far gone no one saving me
u said i been gone i been moving crazily
take a peek into my heart tell me what u see
take a look up at the stars that's where ima be
bro jus hit my phone lol get back to me
i aint touched a soul thats gone come right after me
i been so alone like who's gna come after me?
i cant give a fuck!! i been moving tactically
ya my pockets full got me saggin on my jeans
not the same one that u knew omg what happened 2 me!??!?!
i cant even see it through its been happening all week
only one that see's me is u now im somewhere underneath..

something new

something new (winter)

@tosleep @c9u

i been on my own
i cant fw that lil boy i kno dat boy a clone
i cant fw that lil ho i told her leave me lone
i jus smoke dat za and now i cannot feel my bones
yea i protect my heart protect my soul
walk around designer kicks i got expensive soles
i just wana kno when will i be whole
i been moving slow if u want me let me kno

all i do is real i cannot fake it
know they bout to fake it for that placement
wit my bro we lifting like a spaceship
try to follow me but u cant trace it
walking from the mud i feel dead now
i cant even feel its my head now
i just wana see how this could pan out
i been walking around im like the man now

im jus tryna stay away from hatred
everyday it feels like they jus fake it
boy yo swag not real that shit is make shift
yea this silver on me this shit stainless
everyday i wake up i feel painless
swerving thru the street while the rain drip
metal on my wrist i let my veins rip
can u tell me its ok and that i'll make it? (ahhhhhhh)

it will b ok

it will b ok (nemui + cure)

@winter

the words i say feels its never enough
i cant tell if its really true love
know im off one i been going dumb
if u want me know im pulling up
yea this life its sucks i been saying this from the jump
crawling from the mud feel my limbs they giving up
reaching for the stars i cant help but looking up
feels like nothings here for me i thought bout giving up

think im giving up bitch im outta luck
fumes inside my lungs i cant help but run
sit inside the sun like a flower from the mud
u would never get it yea that really sucks
searching for the answer and its u
if i lose my one im getting two im in that mood
running everyday yea these feelings brand new
u said that im crazy, okay cool
i been feeling hazy, im on that juice
im ready to lose i dont got shit to prove
take a walk in my shoes u wont make it through
i been thinking bout u i know its overdue

Never Enough

Never Enough (winter)

@winter

i cant help its useless
not the one u knew this
cant help but chase blue strips
les get 2 it
had to hop inside my bag bitch im fluent
hop inside dat lil coupe bitch we flew it
kno im chosen i neva had to prove it
u never dealt w losing i can teach u my student
played u like dat u so stupid
gotta keep moving
she keep on hitting my phone now im jus snoozing

its been so hard 2 breathe feels like i lost something apart of me
get that bag obviously all u ever do is bother me
look at the sky u look down on me
im w my dogs brought the pound w me
oh thats ya bitch y she follow me..
look back on my shadow its calling me
im not the one its not hard 2 see
bby come ball me w me
its been so hard to reach u
cant fold its all on me
i didnt think i would need u
i might pop out jus to see u
keep looking around its all see through
losing urself bby me too

i could try 2 explain but u just wouldnt get it
u always try so hard just to fit in
i might pop out like good riddance
she all on me cause im winning
i like dese pants they good denims
pain hit me i start grinning
me n my bro walk in twinning
i dont understand how u work
u need to go sit back n learn
i threw it all away watch it burn
u think im the worse
i jus think that i am cursed
u jus gotta wait on ur turn
ima get what i deserve

Losing

Losing (winter)

w/ @whyhaze & @gaugemountedthisone
prod me
mix by me, haze, gauge
cover by Graham Curtis

staring at the sky + whyhaze + gauge

@angelicxmei

prod me & @xternalz

lyrics:

me!

you know that it feels right
with you laying by my side
let my tears drop to the ground
let them all out its alright
yeah we'll be fine

yeah my heart is going cold
you dont want me
i gave you my sweater yeah
it was all for nothing
always do my best
just so i can make it right
you don't even love me
u know it was all a lie

i really start to wonder
should i even bother
yeah you broke my heart
and now its in the gutter
you saved me from all of my fears
im dreaming to thoughts of you being here

@angelicxmei

i want u so please just look in my eyes
i told u we both stood under the sky
i wanna laugh with u i wanna find the truth
i wanna make a move dont make my feelings blue

my heart is getting colder,  so come a little closer
i want u by my shoulder dont make me feel like its over!

cold w/ angelicxmei (prod. me + xternalz)

soundcloud.com/xternalz x soundcloud.com/mental

cover art also by me

[soundcloud.com/clay0127]
i dont want it taking over
lately its been getting hard to stay sober
got nobody who can hold me any closer
i fear youll see me ending up on a poster

ive been running after shadows of a dream i had
the silhouette fading doesnt make me feel less bad
i put my faith in somebody who aint had my back
bleeding in the rain, wont even face the past

waited on this for ages and it wasnt that
the future i was so patient for, it didnt last
ive spent some time away from you and im regretting that
it hurts when i open my eyes see you aint at my pad

three thousand miles away from my only one

my words cant do it justice
these pictures aint enough
i really think youll love it
if you stay here a month

[soundcloud.com/mental]
life keeps changing but my feelings never did
i've tripped over shit
i've cried like a bitch
i've dreamt of meeting with a kiss
i keep making these mistakes im just a kid
you know how to twist
my heart into bits
and pieces of love that i still miss
things have changed a lot
last year i was afraid of us
not quite your touch but the state of love
nothing like touching and making up
nothing like running away from stuff
nothing like holding your hand and face til
we saw the sun and the moon switch their places
holes in my heart and you're the explanation
i lost my mind trying to fill up the spaces

Three Thousand Miles w/ Mental [xternalz]

featuring @clay0127
prod. @xternalz x @ihateukidu

@akasukii 
i dont wanna let go
i just want someone to hold
u dont say it but i know its true
that you're halfway gone, and im losing u
but if i fall i’d rather fall slow
cause i dont want to let go
i dont want to let go even if it hurts
even if i drown in the weight of ur words
i’d rather feel the pain than the emptiness below
cause baby i dont want to let go

@clay0127
let go
feel forever in my throat
cause i cant break the mold
all you needed was a moment
to be left on your own
and all i wanted was some closure
before i let you go

all your regret, its haunting me
when i remember all our endeavors
i cannot breathe

i dont wanna let go 
i just want u to hold
 
i cant lie baby i miss you
and everydays an issue
without you in my arms
im just wishing i could kiss you
but now its been official
that i cant be there with you
i know its beneficial
whats a poet without issues?
i cant lie, my heart
its bleeding babe and no amount of tissues
are ever gonna fix it
got no one i can vent to
instead im gonna scream it
and make you feel that shit too
you really dont deserve it
all these feelings that i misuse

@akasukii 
i cant lie my heart
its breaking falling apart
without u here my baby 
i need u here so badly 

u dont say it but i know its true
that you're halfway gone, and im losing u
but if i fall i’d rather fall slow
cause i dont want to let go
i dont want to let go even if it hurts
even if i drown in the weight of ur words
i’d rather feel the pain than the emptiness below
cause baby i dont want to let go

i dont want to let go w/clay [xternalz x kidu]

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