So many unreleased gems. My god Ethel is so freaking incredible 🥹

Lately I have been romanticizing shit, and I guess that you could say that I'm getting sick of it

where do y’all even find unreleased stuff like this omg this is phenomal

I live in a way where I hurt as few people as I can but choose to refuse to care about anyone’s opinion on anything, especially one that involves me.  If I garner attention it’s bc I’m magnetic and it’s not my fault.  Consider why it others you and you want to control me.

and all this time that i felt sorry for myself. wishing i could be anybody else.

Maybe you were right when you said I love to play the victim

jugular lifting

Embarrassing — Ethel Cain (Ellis Cover)

Ethel Cain - Untitled Tumblr Upload 2

Mourning After

Crying During Sex - Ethel Cain

ripped this straight off of youtube because it was driving me crazy that i couldn't listen to it on sc. will take it down if somebody asks.

ethel cain - child of cain

dust bowl (demo) by ethel cain

waco, texas- ethel cain (demo)

This is an older one, either white silas era or early ethel era

Ethel Cain - Varnish

Ethel Cain - Dog Days (Alt ver.)

ethel cain - death rattle

ethel cain - casey

i keep the angel - Ethel Cain unreleased

one of her best that’s for sure

Sunday morning and I’m wasted
Had too much to drink again
Preacher’s saying God will save me
If God is real, He’s a fucking bitch

Tell my baby that I love her
But, right now, mama’s gotta go
I didn’t ask to be this crazy
But since we’re here, I’ll give them a show

Always run from the best of them
But I’ll fall for a piece of shit
Half-cocked ’cause he’s not a big boy
And I don’t wanna know that half of him

If you try to hurt me, I won’t stop you
But there’s something you should know
It’s that my daddy’s fucking crazy
And always ready to blow

The first boy I ever loved
Was a brother I never had
I thought, with him, maybe I’d make it
Maybe it’d be half as bad

Spеnt my nights under the covers
Just wishing hе was there
Draw his portrait in my diary
Just to hold when I got scared

Now I’m fucked up and I’m nasty
But they say I make it look good
I don’t do what my mama told me
I just do what my mama would

I don’t starve ’cause I hate my body
I just starve ’cause I’m fucking broke
And on my mama, I hate this country
America is a fucking joke

What’s gonna scare me when I’ve seen it all?
Been too sick to walk, so I had to crawl
When you leave, turn off the light
I leave my door open at night
To be strung out and still be stone cold
To reach the end, but never close to old
I don’t feel good, but I don’t wanna cry
If I can’t live, can I just fucking die?

half-cocked - Ethel Cain

last night I blew you a kiss, I hope that you got it
underneath you I told you a lie, I hope that you bought it
strangers touch me in my dreams if I go to bed sober
when the edge of the curtains turn while I'll know that it's over

and you see things for what they are
and I see what they'll never be
and god can make mistakes like he made an example of me
and who could really love someone who's that fucking ugly

leaving his cum in the upholstery, always picking it out like a bad memory
they all say that it's fine 'cause they don't know the cycle like I do
you don't know what it's like tryna love while you heal and you don't get to preach if you don't know how it feels to have every last inch of your body invaded like I do
woke up a saint, fell asleep a martyr
would you do the same things to your own daughter?
still I tried saying "I love you" through a mouthful of dirt
keep parts of dead things in the freezer outside wondering if they suffered when they were alive
does god make delicate things just to watch them get hurt?

and you see things for what they are
and I see what they'll never be
god can make mistakes like he made an example of me
and who could really love someone who's that fucking ugly

that gold cross swings only for me
in jesus's name it kills me slowly
that gold cross swings only for me
in jesus's name it kills me slowly

gold cross | ethel cain

Daydream

you'll never love anyone like you hate yourself

If you only you knew how different things could be

Embarrassing — Ethel Cain (Ellis Cover)

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