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Internalized_Rage

She Hates Me

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked 

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

BRAINSOUP!

follow https://soundcloud.com/dethtech

getting fucked up every day
brains in a state of decay
tried to change my ways but i said fuck that
been alive for way too long
i dont think anybody will care when im dead and gone

never getting better
ill be fucked forever
got no friends dont leave my home 
i guess that i am dying alone

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

crashed my car into a wall
no one really cares at all
life has got me by the balls i really fucked up
wake up every fucking day
dont know why its all the same 
i dont like living this way

i really fucked myself
now im stuck in hell
i fucking hate everyone
so i dont care about anything anymore

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

FOR THE HELL OF IT (ft. DethTech)

Crustsox - FPS (unreleased cover demo?)

Self Defense Situation (ft. Invader)

Scabzone cover https://soundcloud.com/scabzone

Hi-Point

out for blood (heart attack man cover)

Pop-Phlodge x Chadpilled

Lyrics:
It's been a bummer for a while
I hardly ever smile
why does living feel so vile
cold heart like a reptile
and I got this dry ass phone
no text, no one, no hoes
wish I'd crash out on the road
and rot and die alone

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

you keep blowing up my phone
with pics of you giving dome
so I'll take the benz out to the road
crash into the lake
and drown there cold
as the water feels my lungs
I'll feel the bliss of a 1000 suns
just how the schizos speak in tongues
cause ill know my shitty life is done

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

I'm killing myself tonight I'll be dead by morning
and all of this fucking time I was shouting out warnings
I was crying for help from you guys and you fucking ignored me
so I'm killing myself tonight that's the end of the story

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

Oh God Why (Feat. Cameron Phlodge & Chadpilled)

Well I walk downtown and hate the world
There's not a lot I can afford
I don't have any cash to spend
So I take my gun and make amends
Im a sick shooter
A dirty looter, just low life scum that needs some funds
Im a sick sucker
Like the others so lock me up and send me away
Call 911 I'm nowhere close to done
I'm going postal this has just begun
It won't be long for I pop a pill
And leave this world with a final kill
Im a sick shooter
A dirty looter, just low life scum that needs some funds
Im a sick sucker
Like the others so lock me up and send me away
I'm a life taker
Heart breaker
Got no reasons left to live 
I'm a big loser
Just a user 
And this is where I'll take my stand

Sick Shooter

song with @edgemaster42
we've been married seven times
in my head
just wait till i get the courage
to picture you in my bed
love or not its plain to see
youre just not the girl for me
my true match is a loaded gun
pointed straight at my head
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you 
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you

Why did i fall for your atupud grace
You clearly have no horse in this dumb race
Theres no continuity in emotional promiscuity
I can guarantee that

when
i realize 
im not an object
you
fall apart
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
you fuckin hate my 
fuckin hate my guts

h8te my guts (with edgemaster42)

Pls follow crustsox

https://open.spotify.com/track/0K2UPQGWWtQZEsjjE0UGt0?si=sQblAa44QCiowGz26nsyLw&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A5dnR9W8p9J29W2l7
YWilvG

Lyrics:
Twenty years, but I feel like I'm hundred
Every year the weight of it just crushes
Like my age is actually in dog years
Hopefully I won't wake in the morning


Forced to speak but don't know what say now
Can't be arsed, I think I might just lay down
Everything just makes it hard to keep calm
Old yeller, put me down on the farm


I told you once before
This life's not worth a shot
I'm like a rabid dog
Please blow my head off
My head off


Keep the grind, to buy the clothes and dumb shit
You don't need but it feels good to own it
Worry dolls to listen to my secrets
Threw them all away, yeah they can keep 'em


Further north, the nature gets more common
All the fields look beautiful in the sun
Hopped the fence, and saw it all from the peak
But everything I thought about was so bleak


I don't know where you've been
And you sentence me again
To a circle I don't want to stay in


I told you once before
This life's not worth a shot
I'm like a rabid dog
Please blow my head off

Crustsox-YELLER

Lyrics 

Engine growl, low bass rumble
Ignite the night — no turning back
Wheels scream like demons in attack


Midnight metal on the blacktop road
Throttle wide, my blood runs cold
Tires burn through fear and pride
I’ve got hell sitting at my side

Bass drops like a loaded gun
I’m the shadow you can’t outrun
Chrome veins and circuits wired
Push the pedal — feed the fire


Burn this ride — let the smoke rise high
Fuel the storm that tears the sky
Crush the night — feel the fury inside
No more rules, just drive or die


Skull lights glowing, teeth in chrome
Every street I claim as home
Riffs collide in shattered gears
I’m the echo in your ears

Concrete jungle howls my name
I bring chaos wrapped in flame
This machine’s a beast I tame
Flashing red, I never brake


Burn this ride — let the smoke rise high
Fuel the storm that tears the sky
Crush the night — feel the fury inside
No more rules, just drive or die


Fangs on the wheel, leather grip tight
Eyes like fire in the dead of night
Break the line, no faith, no fate
Bass hits hard like a steel gate


Burn this ride — let the smoke rise high
Engines scream, we kiss goodbye
Crush the night — feel the fury inside
Final breath — we ride, we fly


Burn This Ride - REMASTERED - HD

Im so afraid to speak, im scared of everything
everyones watching me, they know that im a freak
im staring at the floor, what am i living for?
i want to be normal, why cant i be normal?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

im staying home again, i dont have any friends
afraid of what they'll think, i shrivel up and shrink
they know im low iq, they know i failed at school
i am a fucking joke, why am i such a joke?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

Too Neurotic

im so sick of it all
got no friends who care to call
and i am working all the time
its taking a toll on my mind

wake up go to work
come home late is it even worth it
up and repeat the very next day
i am wasting my life away

im so sick of it all
my life is hitting a brick wall
i feel so alone
got no place in this world to call my home

the day will come when im fed up 
and i decide to make the jump
and end it all and as i fall
ill think of my friends who didnt call
to see if im okay
they probably wouldnt care anyway
so lets just get it over with
cuz nobody cares about me shit

im so sick of it all
my life is hitting a brick wall
i feel so alone
got no place in this world to call my home

sick of it

i really hated how you said goodbye
you fucking left me and without a reason why
you cut all contact and abandoned me
when all i wanted was some female company

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i dont want you anymore

i lie awake at night cuz i cant sleep
i think of you and i cant help but feel weak
its so sadistic how you showed your love
i wanted you but you didnt want me

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i hate you go fuck yourself

Worthless

be nice to yourself

https://soundcloud.com/targetedindividuals

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