ChadTech

She Hates Me

featuring @luvwillow

i know that you never really liked me
it's okay i only wanted your body
there's no way i'm gonna make it now
'cause i'm too burnt out and feel too let down
i hate myself and the way i think
somebody like you could ever be in sync
with my fucked up thoughts and bad ideas
for the first time i can see things clear

an acquired taste
so out of place
i could never look you in the face
maybe that's why you went mia
never knew the right words to say
thinking about you is pretty sad
how can i miss something i never had?
give me a chance and i'd run right back
i already know it's too late for that

i'm such a big loser
i can't find my words anymore
haven't been happy since age four
i'm lonely stuck here being poor
it's not my fault that you just suck
kill myself i'm a bastard who lost his luck
if i could take your pain away
i think i'd do it another day

even now i'm still hoping
at this point i'm just coping
never gonna get far
complaining with my guitar

an acquired taste ft. luvwillow

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

i let go of what made me whole
and dug myself a deeper hole
i fucking hate being alone
but it's all i've ever known
there's nobody left to care
so why the fuck am i still scared?
i don't think there's any coming back from this

i can't find any bliss

can't take living in this skin
did my life ever really begin?
sink into my cold sheets
don't wanna wake up this week

i'd ask you to stay
but you're too far away
i don't know if i can take another day
i wanna find a way
to not be so afraid
maybe then i could fix this mess i've made

i'm the worst of lovers
we'll never find each other
i'm a jerk, i'll suffer
and you'll just find another

Bliss

im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked 

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

BRAINSOUP!

you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

split my head in two
i like you more than i want to
fallen victim to human error
think i'd be better off dead
make my body glitch
maybe that's 'cause you're a bitch
all these questions never answered
running rampant in my head

i hate everything about you
why are you still on my mind?
i think about you all the time
day and night
i can't lie

you feel closer than you are
i see your face up in the stars
where i watch my mind go
i'm losing all of my hope
it feels so good to die though
i love to lie though
i'm dying inside
oh no
i should just tell you how i feel
but i can't explain
it's so surreal
don't want you to think any less of me
it's kinda sad really
i'm getting mad at myself

you've become an obsession
fuelling depression
i know you're no good for me
but i love to bleed
i want you out of my head
like someone better instead
i'm losing it
i'm going sped
didn't choose this shit
fill me with lead

i like you more than i want to

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getting fucked up every day
brains in a state of decay
tried to change my ways but i said fuck that
been alive for way too long
i dont think anybody will care when im dead and gone

never getting better
ill be fucked forever
got no friends dont leave my home 
i guess that i am dying alone

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

crashed my car into a wall
no one really cares at all
life has got me by the balls i really fucked up
wake up every fucking day
dont know why its all the same 
i dont like living this way

i really fucked myself
now im stuck in hell
i fucking hate everyone
so i dont care about anything anymore

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

FOR THE HELL OF IT (ft. DethTech)

i should have killed myself that day
the girl I like is afraid of me.
i should have killed myself that day
My past haunts me every day.

And now I'm alone again,
watching my life go by,
I close my eyes and feel the pain.
There is no hope, I'm a living dead.

(X2)

i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day

I SHOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF THAT DAY

Pop-Phlodge x Chadpilled

Lyrics:
It's been a bummer for a while
I hardly ever smile
why does living feel so vile
cold heart like a reptile
and I got this dry ass phone
no text, no one, no hoes
wish I'd crash out on the road
and rot and die alone

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

you keep blowing up my phone
with pics of you giving dome
so I'll take the benz out to the road
crash into the lake
and drown there cold
as the water feels my lungs
I'll feel the bliss of a 1000 suns
just how the schizos speak in tongues
cause ill know my shitty life is done

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

I'm killing myself tonight I'll be dead by morning
and all of this fucking time I was shouting out warnings
I was crying for help from you guys and you fucking ignored me
so I'm killing myself tonight that's the end of the story

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

Oh God Why (Feat. Cameron Phlodge & Chadpilled)

cover art by @ramunebear on instagram!!

happy v-day

b4iphone

1965

DECIDE

Im so afraid to speak, im scared of everything
everyones watching me, they know that im a freak
im staring at the floor, what am i living for?
i want to be normal, why cant i be normal?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

im staying home again, i dont have any friends
afraid of what they'll think, i shrivel up and shrink
they know im low iq, they know i failed at school
i am a fucking joke, why am i such a joke?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

Too Neurotic

i lay awake at night
'cause i don't feel alright
i'm not gonna get any better
not now, not fucking ever
so i curl up into a ball
try to forget who i am at all
then i'll just stare at my bedroom wall

3 am and i'm sad again
i just want this pain to come to an end

tears start to fill my eyes
no one is here to see me cry
oh why do i deserve this?
i feel so fucking worthless
nobody lies by my side
can't see the hell i try to hide
as i sleep inside my cell i dream of suicide

3 am

i really hated how you said goodbye
you fucking left me and without a reason why
you cut all contact and abandoned me
when all i wanted was some female company

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i dont want you anymore

i lie awake at night cuz i cant sleep
i think of you and i cant help but feel weak
its so sadistic how you showed your love
i wanted you but you didnt want me

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i hate you go fuck yourself

Worthless

be nice to yourself

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FOR THE HELL OF IT (ft. DethTech)

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