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tears trickle from my view
im sick of being used
im not sick of you
im just sick of the abuse
i woke up and you left
but youre still here in my head
and all i got left is my wits and my sanity
i cant trust anybody, you ripped it out of me
and now i dont know how to be-
i dont know how to behave am i too lost to be saved
im thinking so much so i know what its like to feel like youre going insane
when youre so alone with no reference to work with going outside just to figure out how its all working
raising myself since a jit had no respect for these kids have no respect for these bitches

i dont wanna dance with you
baby your body makes me forget
ohhhh make me forget
(x2)

(huh?)

i cant decide between heaven or hell
whats better whats worse i never can tell
where is the exit im losing myself
i get fucked up til i melt
fuck that bitch dont know her well
i feel less the more i try
to fill the whole inside my chest
i miss the bliss being used by someone that id really choose
i guess i dont gotta trust you to love you tonight

amnesia
i need ya
to make me
forget
amnesia
amnesia
make me forget

i dont wanna dance with you
baby your body makes me forget
ohhhh make me forget
(x2)

Amnesia (fantom)

New song off the soon coming album! Thank you for listening!

Where'd They Go?

Dont Call Me

Bloody Mary

guitar, production, mixing, mastering - fats'e

lyrics:

woke up in a cold sweat
i'm full of regret
self-destructive
self-destructive and arrogant 

i'm coping unhealthily
i just did not care enough
was unaware of too much
it's too late now

we made a mistake
but it's for the best and i-
i'm full of it
i'm full of it
i'm full of it

like a punch in the gut
i'm validated
i knew i wasn't good enough

i stay at home 
i get so much done now
swear i can only get buzzed off the wax now
when karma collects i repent and i dip out
i stay at home but my DM's are flipped out
gotta stay curving i'm not tryna cuff now
can't stay the night i don't think this will work out
i turn my back and i sit in my cold house
i stay alone i get so much done now

coping unhealthily

BAD @ LUV (prod.Nightwave)

it's gonna be a cold christmas.... prod by cøzy

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a cold christmas

I can't breathe so I suffocate,
numb the pain like Novocain,
hear me out for the last time,
look to the stars its the same between you and I,

I haven't been the best friend, haven't been the best kid-
but I swear I changed.

Kids Forever ft. Strgurrl (prod. switch)

Toxxxic

happy 3rd birthday decks & 19th to me B)
new summer ending pop punk with @ejcarrmusic & @evancarus
prod. polar & iof :)
hope u enjoyyy <333

lyrics:
(evan carus)
home again
feels like i’m right back where i started
i’ve walked down this road before, but it’s like my path is still uncharted

ways parted, bridges burned
heart guarded, lesson learned
worst nightmares, reaffirmed
past the point of no return

(decks)
im scared and reliant
im forced into place
their acts are defiant,
why have we all been replaced

(evan carus & decks)
grains of sand slipping away
we walk in darkness, lose the path
hand in hand we’re lead astray
time falls from our hourglass

i’ve been losing everyone
fell asleep and summer’s gone now
im lost and time is slipping away

(evan carr)
can we take a second to slow it down
before we burn this to the ground
these grains of sands are falling out and it’s over
this happens every time it’s just such a fatal flaw
can’t focus on one thing when i can feel it coming up
same thing new year
i’m stuck in fear
there’s nothing here

(evan carus & decks)
grains of sand slipping away
we walk in darkness, lose the path
hand in hand we’re lead astray
time falls from our hourglass

i’ve been losing everyone
fell asleep and summer’s gone now
im lost and time is slipping away

(all)
just tell me when you go (tell me when you go)
or promise me you’ll stay (promise me you’ll stay)
i’ve been losing everyone
(just tell me when you go)
fell asleep and summer’s gone but
(or promise me you’ll…)
no matter what i promise to stayyy

(evan carus & decks)
grains of sand slipping away
we walk in darkness, lose the path
hand in hand we’re lead astray
time falls from our hourglass

i’ve been losing everyone
fell asleep and summer’s gone now
im lost and time is slipping away

hourglass (feat. evan carr & evan carus) [polar x iof]

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this is not a love song [Ft. Ilyjaimie]

mirror (Ft. Sypski)

[+] do you love me, do you hate me? I can't tell
* produced by @thersx *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFN_OlKU7m8

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu
LYRICS:

do you love me do you hate me I can't tell
I been tryna find your face lately im in hell
baby I need help yea

do you love me do you hate me I can't tell
I been tryna find your face lately im in hell
baby I need help yea

every time I see your eyes wanna die a little less
im still tripping off the shit last week that you said
was it something that I said damn
you know you hurt me think I might need surgery
you on a burglary might just let you murder me
ok
cuz I don't wanna live that much
and I just wanna feel like im loved

yea used to pop them pills just for fun
now im two months sober this shit dumb
I just miss the feeling when im numb
I just miss the feeling of your love

(repeat)

love me, hate me

+ music video

love me, hate me (+ music video)

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/cypression

what went wrong w/cypression (prod bennykaay)

Uppbeat make u happy

lyrics:

i won't cry
you cut me off already 
one summer night
when i was running away from problems
that i can't define
thinking of a way that i could clear my mind
maybe read the signs

and you say
"i can't seem to feel okay"
because you bury it beneath you
with the waves
then you come here with that sad look on your face
but it's fake
you decide
that you won't be here in my life
now i can't pull the veil over my eyes
when you leave me here alone at the waterside
all my life

(chorus)

The Upload

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