Heyyy! I'm back with a song that I wrote and recorded last year (yes, it's been a while). I never posted it anywhere because the instrumental is from YouTube and I was afraid it would be taken down because of the copyright system of Soundcloud but I don't care anymore haha. 

As I said in the caption, this song is about my fear of forgetting my younger self. I'm growing up and becoming an adult. It is exciting but also very scary. Simple things become complicated. Memories fade away. Anxiety kicks in... I don't remember how I used to view the world, but when I reflect on the past, it makes me want to go back there.
There is something heartwarming and reassuring about childhood memories. I picture this past as a little girl walking with me, but as the road becomes more dangerous, I have to let go of her hand and continue alone. Keep on walking is scary. I lose sight of her and the beautiful landscapes I used to see disappear. 

In this very slow and melancholic song, I focused on the transition from a child to an adult. And in an upcoming song, I would like to expand this storyline and focus on the beautiful scenery that may appear when I'll reach the top of the mountain.


LYRICS
______________________
My memories fade away
I wish I could tell you the day
when I started acting this way
I used to
Be all careless and free
Only care about me
Where is that girl I used to be?

I forgot the smell of the sea 
The sound it makes when a wave suddenly breaks
Now the feeling that fills me
Is nostalgia of my childhood memories

CHORUS
All this time I've been running
All this time I've been hiding
Hard to face it but the old me is fading away
Now I'm all alone in the rain
Now I'm all alone in the pain
I don't know how I'm supposed to know the way without you
Time's so cruel
How come as time goes by, I get more afraid to live without you?
Yes it's true
You're getting further away
And I feel it day by day

I wonder how I would have reacted
If my old self was intact and 
I had the same mind as back then
What am I supposed to do?
Now I realize your value
But you're already half erased...

The lights slowly turn off
And I find myself alone in the darkness
It is never enough
The colors fade and all I hear is silence

CHORUS
All this time I've been running
All this time I've been hiding
Hard to face it but the old me is fading away
Now I'm all alone in the rain
Now I'm all alone in the pain
I don't know how I'm supposed to know the way without you
Time's so cruel
How come as time goes by, I get more afraid to live without you?
Yes it's true
You're getting further away
And I feel it day by day

Oh oh oh oh oh oh~ 

childhood memories

I wrote this song in January, after I got my ukulele. It's just a simple love song that I tried to create with the pop inspiration of the masterpiece 'Byulharang' (by Chungha).

Lyrics:

3, 2, 1, go!
1, 2, 3 days have gone by
You're always on my mind
I'm fine
As long as I see you in my dreams at night
I'm scared of the unknown
But now, if I get lost I will know
That I can do it all to have the caring heart of yours
Take me to sceneries I've never seen before
With you I'm not lost anymore

CHORUS
I would forget my biggest fears
Would lose it all and shed tears
To get closer to you, closer to you
And I know
I'd cross deserts and ice floes 
I'd walk under suns and shadows
To get closer to you, closer to you

When you smile at me I feel like my entire world lights up 
When you're unhappy my priority is to cheer you up 
I guess I fell in love first but I can wait for years 
Til you realize you're the reason why I always get up 
Before I found you I saw the world in shades of blue and grey 
But then you came in and put so many colors on my way 
I guess it's easy to say
I miss you everyday 
But missing you is a pleasure, I don't want it to fade away

And now, I hear your voice like a sweet melody
And in the night, you're the only one I need yeah 

CHORUS 
Oooh oooh oooh oooh 
Oooh oooh oooh oooh

If you're lost 
I'll be your light just follow the sweet sound of my voice
I'll make you realize that I am someone you can trust 
I will do it all to be your first 
Until the flower of our love grows 

CHORUS
Oooh oooh oooh oooh 
Oooh oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh oooh oooh

Closer To You

With 'Let Go', I tried to create an empowering song to listen to no matter what your mood is. A song that has the power to prevent you from being a hostage of your feelings. Take control of your life, don't let the shadow swallow you whole and dance instead of crying ❤

Lyrics:
Stop. 
You know you can't change what happened in the past
One day happiness will finally last 
If you keep on overthinking you will crash
You won't live in the dark! 

Worries piling up make your days even longer 
Building walls around you, lock you in a tower
You can share your fears and your pains, happiness is yours to claim
Looking in the mirror you see nothing but flaws
You wish you could change everything from head to toes 
Follow me into the light and see how you shine 

CHORUS
Let go, let go
On the dance floor, dance floor
I promise
One day you will find a beautiful place 
For now enjoy what you have 
Don't let time go to waste 
Hey
Let go, let go 
Don't stop to hope, to hope
It is the driving force guiding you through the day
When you're down, sing out loud
And dance the night away 
Hey 

Voice in your head keep getting louder 
You run out of breath but you push harder
The finish line isn't getting closer
Shhhhh
But you'll never surrender
In your dreams your imagination
Paint a picture where you reach your destination 
When you wake up every morning you wish it was real
Don't stand still, it's finally time to spread your wings, tell me 

Who cares if you're heading to a different line
If your reason is under a different sky 
You should only live for yourself, not for trophies on a shelf
Live as if everyday is a gift from above
Not always colorful but filled with joy and love
Come and listen to the beat vibrate in your feet 

CHORUS
Let go, let go
On the dance floor, dance floor
I promise
One day you will find a beautiful place 
For now enjoy what you have 
Don't let time go to waste 
Hey
Let go, let go 
Don't stop to hope, to hope
It is the driving force guiding you through the day
When you're down, sing out loud
And dance the night away 
Hey 

Come and
Listen
To the
Music
Feel the 
Rhythm
Down to
Your feet
Be proud
Of all
The things
You do
I know one
Day your
Dreams will
Be true X2 

When we all feel like our lives are about to crash, we stop the time and dance 'till our bodies collapse. Hey! 

Ooooh ooooh ooooh
Ooooh ooooh ooooh
Ooooh ooooh ooooh 

Fun little music video: https://youtu.be/F8Ti57CN5HE

Let Go

'Bridge' is a song that I wrote in Frebruary after watching a video of BTS interviewing each other. When I'm making a song, I always choose a theme, create a melody and then, write the lyrics. But for this song I decided to do like Namjoon and I wrote the lyrics before creating the melody. With the key word "bridge", I started to write the story of a woman who has been standing in front of a bridge for years. A powerful light prevents her from seeing what it looks like on the other side. She loses herself because of the blinding light. 
And as the river gets more and more agitated, she faces the dilemma of crossing the bridge, losing her true self but live her dream or back down, live a regretful life in the dark but as her true self.

I tried to imagine a representation of what people with big dreams face. Especially people who want to become singers and share their creations but who know that it's a rotten industry full of lies and corruption. 

Yeah it's very specific... 🙂

To me, this period of an artist's life is decisive because the road to stardom is completely different from the "normal" road. It can totally change a life, a person, for the better or the worse. That's why I really liked the idea of writing about a bridge. Because it is also the name given to the part of a song, usually between the second and third chorus, that differs from the rest of it and makes it more original. Just like the moment when you cross the bridge and add a bit of spice to your life.

Lyrics:
I'm afraid
That If I could be someone else I would
The dream that I had
I'd turn it into nightmare if I could 

In the night I see a gap between here and there
Two planets with unique atmospheres but
One is dark and the other is so bright
In the night everyone is looking for the light
Where flowers bloom and stars never stop to shine
And so am I 

I am looking at this bridge from far away 
Too scared to leave but twice as scared to stay
Cause if one day I cross the bridge
I won't be free
So I stay where I don't want to be
At least I know it's a reality
Where I can be me
At least I am free
As long as I don't cross this bridge 

When I bend down
I see my reflection on the water below
But as time goes
I lose myself absorbed by the speed of the water flow
I can't go back anymore 

I'm crossing the bridge to see the light of day
But it is too bright for me to see the way
And if one day I can go back
It'll be too dark
But I'll stop walking without seeing
That nothing in this world is actually real
Where can I be me?
Happy and free?
Right across this bridge? 

Tell me where to be
I am young and filled with dreams
Too careless to show cowardice
But I'm standing there three steps away
The wind blowing is way too strong
Like it's telling me that I don't belong
Is this the right way?
(Stay, please stay
Don't go that way
Sway, you sway
You'll be okay) 

Where can I be me?
Happy and free?
I can only see this bridge
But on the other side
There's no one in sight

b r i d g e

Heyyy! I'm back with a new original song. After a party that kind of went wrong, I decided to write a song about parties where I meet people I'm never going to see again. I watch them get drunk to forget how sad and lonely they are or just to feel cool, to feel like they fit into the mold.
Honestly the song is pretty straightforward so I'll stop explaining everything here. I didn't spend weeks on the writing process, I just wrote down what came to mind as I was getting bored at a party or at home. I still hope you'll like it 😊


L Y R I C S 

Get me out of here I'm suffocating
Stuck in a loop of déjà vu
I should have found an excuse for not coming
I'd rather be alone than be with you 

I'm tired to be the one standing there, aside
Nobody wanna talk to me
I could die and nobody would see 

I tried to be one of these shadows in the crowd
But I'm not drunk enough to fit in
Why am I even trying?


----CHORUS----
Please make it stop
I'm sick of small talks
Of fake smiling to strangers who won't remember me
Stop, get drunk won't make you hot
You'll forget for the night but when the morning comes you'll break down
Oooh
Aren't you tired?
Ohhhh

1, 2, 3 shots, drink till you can't even stand
It's the only way to blend in
4, 5, 6 bottles, turning strangers into "friends"
But it's only play pretend 

I'm not trying to be rude but you drank more than you said you would now
You say things you don't mean
It's finally getting interesting


----CHORUS----
Please make it stop
I'm sick of small talks
Of fake smiling to strangers who won't remember me
Stop, get drunk won't make you hot
You'll forget for the night but when the morning comes you'll break down
Oooh
Aren't you tired?
Ohhhh 

This magical potion is your plea for serenity
Don't get fooled 'cause
The potion never heals it simply hides the wound
And it certainly won't make you cool
So I'll empty your drinks until you 

----CHORUS----
🌌Stop🌌
And get real for once
You can have fun and be you
Sounds crazy but it's true
No, you think that you know them
That you're a social butterfly
But they won't be there when you'll cry
Oooooh
You don't have to lie
Oooooh
Oooooh


Cheers!

I turned 21 at the beginning of September and I decided that, starting from this year, I would write a song about my feelings and my life on my birthdays. I hope that in the future, I'll be able to listen to this song and say "woow... I just had to trust the process". 


LYRICS

I'm 21 and I'm still alone in my bed
Isn't there anyone to tell me that I'll be okay
Sometimes I feel empty inside but I can't even cry
Sad for no reason
And nothing to numb the pain
Seasons come and go but my sky is always gray
And I spend my days wondering when my life will finally change
I want to find you
And I'll keep on running until I finally do find you
Wow 

- c h o r u s -
Everyday is the same
The hellos and goodbyes come out of an empty mind
I walk just to stay sane
But each step I take make me wanna run to escape 
Until I'm whole again
I want to feel something
And fly away
I want to know who I am 
Mmh 

I'm 21
And I don't know what I should do
Isn't there anyone to tell me that I'll make it through
Sometimes I just pause and look at the sky wondering if somehow it is all meant to be 

Should I listen to me or should I let it be
Do I have the power to let my heart choose my own destiny
Can somebody tell me
If I am the reader or the author of my own story
Tell me... 

Monday, Tuesday, Sunday, I say 

- c h o r u s -
Everyday is the same
The hellos and goodbyes come out of an empty mind
I walk just to stay sane
But each step I take make me want to run to escape 
Until I'm whole again
I want to feel something
And fly away
I want to know who I am 

Wanna run away from here
Wanna go and face my fears
If I don't do it now then I don't know when I'll find me
The one hiding in the dark
Wishing on a shooting star
One day I won't be scared of showing who I really am 

Wanna run away from here
Wanna go and face my fears
If I don't do it now then I don't know when I'll find me
The one hiding in the dark
Wishing on a shooting star
One day I won't be scared of showing who I really am



💌

I tried to portray the complexity but also the beauty of love in this song with the story of a woman who broke up with the man she loves. Though their first attempt failed, she wants to try to get in a relationship with him again even if it means getting hurt. She isn't scared to get vulnerable and risk it all because love is worth the pain 


Lyrics:

These clouds
Remind me of the first snow of December
When we held hands and promised to stay together
No doubts
When we both said I love you for the first time
Never thought that it would be the last time 

I still feel the cold air on my cheeks
The snowflakes falling down as I blink
Will you follow my steps as you did on that day?
Would you go through winter again if I ask you to stay?
Would you accept a sour dinner hoping for the better? 


CHORUS

I know I'm asking for too much
The truth is, I don't understand my feelings
But I can't escape the fact that I miss your touch
I really wanna rewrite the ending
We may fly too close to the sun again
Fall down and drown in the ocean
Break what's already damaged
Walk on a fragile edge
But I want to try
No matter what it takes
No matter what it breaks
I want to try
I want to try 

These waves
Break on the rocks like our hearts in the winter
Once warm and full but the next day empty and cold yeah
When the round us becomes linear I
When the blind trust gets broken by lies
When the smooth skin is covered with scars
Even then, I still want you in my arms 


CHORUS

I know I'm asking for too much
The truth is, I don't understand my feelings
But I can't escape the fact that I miss your touch
I really wanna rewrite the ending
We may fly too close to the sun again
Fall down and drown in the ocean
Break what's already damaged
Walk on a fragile edge
But I want to try
No matter what it takes
No matter what it breaks
I want to try
I want to try
I want to try 

I know we might end up even more broken
I know that if it fails, I'll never be forgiven
But love is never about walking on a straight road
We have to get lost to love each other even more 


CHORUS

I know I'm asking for too much
I'm trying to understand my feelings
Our goodbyes were a little rough
I really wanna rewrite the ending
We may fly too close to the sun again
Fall down and drown in the ocean
Break what's already damaged
Walk on a fragile edge
But I want to try
No matter what it takes
No matter what it breaks
I want to try
I want to try
Because you're worth the fall


Try (because you're worth the fall)

Ça fait très longtemps que j'ai cette idée de paroles en tête. J'adore les papillons et je leur attribue une signification particulière. J'ai l'impression d'être un papillon moi aussi, dans le sens où, si je me rapproche des gens en général, ils découvrent petit à petit ma vraie nature, ma vraie personnalité. Mais j'ai constamment cette peur qu'ils ne m'aiment pas, qu'ils soient déçus, que je ne sois pas assez bien, trop différente de ce qu'ils pensaient, trop banale... Alors j'ai pris ma guitare, j'ai commencé à fredonner une mélodie et j'ai pris un stylo. Cette fois la musique est en français. J'y pensais constamment, en me demandant comment parler de ma plus grande peur, la peur que celui que j'aime se lasse de ma compagnie, soit déçu de moi. J'écrivais même en travaillant au supermarché du coin, quand il n'y avait personne en caisse 😅 

Pourquoi "papillon"? Parce que les papillons sont très beaux, ils volent d'une manière si élégante, et on ne les voit que quand il fait beau. Mais ils sont aussi très fragiles. Ils doivent éviter l'eau et un simple contact humain peut les mettre en danger. Alors quand on essaye de s'approcher ils fuient. Beaucoup de personnes pensent aussi qu'un papillon est beau, mais seulement de loin. Plus on se rapproche, plus on se rend compte que c'est un insecte, au même titre que les moustiques, les termites, les arraignées etc. 

La qualité sonore de cette musique est horrible. J'ai du mal à enchaîner 4 accords de guitare sans pincer la corde qu'il ne fallait pas toucher. Niveau mixage c'est vraiment pas une fierté. Mais je voulais quand même partager cette musique parce qu'elle compte pour moi. J'aimerais tellement pouvoir entendre une version officielle de cette musique, avec un bon son de guitare, un bon micro, de vrais violons, une voix avec plus d'émotion... peut être un jour :')) Surtout que je me suis lâchée sur les violoncelles, comme si c'était une version live avec un orchestre.


~ Lyrics ~

Pars
Pars loin de moi
Car plus tu te rapproches plus tu remarques mes faux-pas
Cours
Ne t'arrête pas
Je préfère te voir partir avant que tu ne regrettes tes choix

Je m'éloigne quand tu t'approches
Pourtant mes sentiments sont bien réels
Je me dédouane de toute reproche
En te laissant croire que je suis juste cruelle
Alors que je t'aime.

Pourquoi
M'infliger ça
Je veux connaître l'amour sans jamais montrer mes émois
Même si
Même si je ne pleure pas devant toi
T'inquiète pas mon cœur, lui, vole en éclats

Je m'approche quand tu t'éloignes
À la recherche d'une distance confortable
On échange notre idéal
Contre des moments de magie appréciables
Plaisir coupable


Tu m'admire mais tu ne peux me toucher
Ton amour peut aussi me casser
Je ne veux pas prendre le risque
de te voir t'en aller
Quand j'ai trop peur je m'envole là-haut
À la recherche d'un monde plus beau
Ou je n'ai pas peur de me montrer tel que je suis...

Pars 
Pars loin de moi
Car plus tu te rapproches plus petit à petit tu me vois
Cours 
Ne t'arrête pas
Si tu pars car je suis froide la chaleur ne me manquera pas


Papillon

Heyyyy !! I am back with a song that I made a long time ago. I had a clear idea of the type of song I wanted so I finished it very quickly. As for the lyrics, I tend to think that the songs that are not ballads can be about literally anything. With that in mind, I started to write about a situation I never experienced, a break-up. Unlike my other song "Try", this break-up has several phases. The state of missing your ex and idealizing the time spent with him. The realization that it didn't work because of him and not because of you. And then a state of frustration because you think that he should be the one who is broken hearted, not you.

With that said, I'll let you enjoy the song :)

LYRICS:
I just want to break it
I just want to break it
I just want to break it

You win, I forfeit
You told me you had all the aces from the start
But I thought I could win this time
Now I'm defeated
I said that I would get over you in no time
The truth is I wish you were mine and

I'm forced to try
To spend my nights
Without reminiscing the time when you were mine
Time goes by
I fantasize

I'm losing my mind every day, every night
I am falling apart when you're flying so high
Your smell on the sheets and the places we kissed, everything still seems to real 
Oooh

And when I open my eyes
I already miss the night 
Oh Why?

I thought you loved me
You used to write my name on every empty page
I can't believe how you changed
Does it make you happy?
When you hear that I'm still alone and miserable, waiting all day for your call 
"It's me, now call me back"

I'm forced to try 
To live my life
Though I know the past two years with you were a lie
We said goodbye 
You didn't cry

I wish I could write a break-up song
Singing loud, saying I hated you all along
the hatred I feel it is there, it is real
But I did love you back then
Why?

I see no pain in your heart 
It is so full and so warm, I want to break it all





Break It

I've been thinking about the best "method" to create a song for more than a year now. I watched interviews of famous songwriters, tried the different ways I heard of, but the question "should I write the lyrics before the melody or the melody before the lyrics?" remained unanswered. I found my answer: who cares? You can't be wrong. Art should not be about finding the best way but finding a way true to yourself. My thoughts are always all over the place so my way of creating also is, but I've realized that it's okay. 

Before going to sleep I often create little scenarios in my mind (I bet we all do that). These scenarios inspire me to write songs like this one. The title is straight forward, the lyrics also are, it's very simple because I wanted this song to be fresh and easy.


Lyrics:
If I see beauty in the rain in the darkness of the sky
It's because the sun has done nothing else but passing by
At least the cold settles in and freezes my heart
When I build a fire it warms me up then dies out 

Maybe it's in your eyes 
lighting up when you smile
They write down in capital letters, 
scream out loud the word "forever"
Maybe when you hold me tight 
and whisper "you are mine"
I finally feel like I am alive 

Let's run away while we're young and in love
I never had the guts to do so
But this time I know that I'm not alone
It will be fine even when we're lost
Cause wherever we are you'll always be my home 

We'll sit by the window and we'll look at the local store
Watching people come and go, guessing their names and then we'd laugh
Cause everything is fun from the distance
We know it all too well
Far from the bruises under the sweater and from the pills inside the purse 

But reality is far away by now
We're heading to the kingdom of dreams and the republic of imagination 
I'm singing John Mayor and you play the guitar
And we fall asleep with a smile our faces 

My fears and my scars won't stop me from shining bright
I have been climbing all the mountains, thinking I should get used to it
Now I found a shelter
Happiness getting closer
But I'm so scared that you'll fade away
Leave me stranded on an island yet you stay
You stay (stay by my side)
You stay
You stay
You stay (just you and I) 

If I see beauty in the rain, in the darkness of the sky
It's because the sun has done nothing else but passing by
At least you, you always stay
In my head and my heart
So I'll love you forever...

Young and in love

Hiiiii ! I'm back with a new song I entirely created, getting my inspiration from the songs of Red Velvet (mainly Bad Boy, WildSide, Pickaboo etc) and Twice (Cry For Me). 

Lyrics: 

Lalalalalalalalalalala shhh
You thought I would be there
Walking away like I don't care
Your heart is safe with me
Now, give me the key
Share it with me
I'll take care of you boy
Give me the key
I'll keep it for me
One step, all eyes on you
But you look straight ahead and
Walk past them baby 
If you could just give me a clue
Tell me what you want 
I'll be someone new for you
I can be so cool watch me come in and I'll
Rule your world 

Sounds like a song you can't forget
Let's see how far we'll get
One day you'll know that I'm the one 

One look you're addicted
I give you my love you take it saying you've always thought that I would be so
Cold cold
I made you a promise to keep you warm like a furnace and now you're wondering
how did we become so
Close close
Cold ah ah ah
Cold ah ah ah
I'm not what you expected could you keep it a secret?
I'm doing better when they think that I am cold 

Behind the eyes
I realize
I don't need, I don't need to compromise
If you just open your heart I will
Dive
Thrive
Shine
It's between you and me, not these b*tches tryna hit you up
Lipstick, sunglass, hairstyle
Airport fashion, insta
You're so cool from head to toe but so cold on the outside
It's a match you and I
We kill'em with our eyes
But they will never know we give so much love we could die 

Sounds like a song that's on repeat
Without it you're not complete
If you get to know me you'll see 

One look you're addicted
I give you my love you take it saying you've always thought that I would be so
Cold cold
I made you a promise to keep you warm like a furnace and now you're wondering
how did we become so
Close close
Cold ah ah ah
Cold ah ah ah
I'm not what you expected could you keep it a secret?
I'm doing better when they think that I am cold 

I won't beg, I won't cry cause we are meant to be
One more day, one more night
Meeting you is my destiny
It's obvious baby
We hide in our hearts all the pain all the trust that we lost
Looks like you don't want it to show 
And I am just like you you know 

Break 

La la la la la la la la la 

Keep it a secret. 

Secret

I wrote this song in 2022 during my stay in Korea. I'm super excited to share it with you while I'm back in Korea, almost 1 year later 🥰

Les lumières de la ville se reflètent sur mes lunettes
La guitare accompagne nos promesses secrètes
L'air frais n'érige plus des montagnes sur ma peau
Loin de la maison, j'accueille ces sentiments nouveaux
À l'heure où la foule se couche, nos cœurs se réveillent
La journée fut fatigante mais je n'ai pas sommeil
Ta voix m'évoque des souvenirs de moments jamais vécus
Des feuilles de papier maintenant blanches mais bientôt revêtues 

REFRAIN
Je me sens exister
Je me sens respirer
Mes poumons se gonflent, puis relâchent l'air prisonnier
Tes mains chaudes transforment l'hiver en été
Je me sens exister
Je me sens aimée
Si seulement ce moment pouvait s'éterniser
Ou si, comme dans un film je pouvais l'arrêter 

Pourquoi moi? Est-ce que je le mérite vraiment? 
Est-ce que je peux éprouver ce sentiment?
Est-ce qu'un jour il se propagera jusqu'à mon cœur?
Et sur les ruines du passé fera pousser des fleurs?
Car quand tu tombes je trouve la force
De te porter jusqu'au bonheur
Je fais fleurir des rires précoces
Là ou régnait la douleur
Et ce pouvoir me rend quelqu'un
J'ai l'impression d'être importante
Quand chaque soir et chaque matin
Je me réjouis de ton attente 

REFRAIN
Je me sens exister
Je me sens respirer
Mes poumons se gonflent, puis relâchent l'air prisonnier
Tes mains chaudes transforment l'hiver en été
Je me sens exister
Je me sens aimée
Si seulement ce moment pouvait s'éterniser
Ou si, comme dans un film je pouvais l'arrêter 

Depuis mon plus jeune âge
Je créé un long métrage dans ma tête
Je créé la clé de mon destin
Avec qui je ne fais qu'un, même dans la tempête
J'ai idéalisé tellement de choses et mis de côté des choses si essentielles
Je ne veux plus de câlins, plus de roses, j'veux juste t'entendre dire "je t'aime"
Et je ferai de même
Comme une phrase secrète, que tout le monde se répète mais qui veut dire tellement de choses 

REFRAIN 

Exister

Record of my 22dn birthday. 

Fun fact that is not that fun: I named the project of this song "Mikrokosmos pt. 2" because, as I was writing the chorus, I noticed that the theme was basically what BTS sang in Mikrokosmos. 

With this song I want to express the fact that I am lacking in many ways and I feel like I can be more than who I am. But in reality, I am more than enough. I might not be the ideal that I have in mind but I am doing just fine and I am just as important as anybody else. 

My favorite part of the lyrics is the part that is very similar to Mikrokosmos, when I say that as long as I turn on the lights every night, it means that I keep going in life, so I am doing great. And when the sun sets, the lights of all these people living there lives, creates a beautiful scenery that make people dream and have hope. Just like me, when I was on a night walk in a park and I felt mesmerized by this ocean of lights in Seoul.


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Lyrics:

It hit me when I went to that park on the hill
I used to think I could have it all
but that day I suddenly felt small
I could see a hotel, the rooms the beds and ceilings
Could almost hear the steps, the TV show
Just by looking at all these windows

I'm running miles again 
thinking that there is a finishing line, an end
where all the words like "thank you", "I'm sorry", "I love you" aren't hard to say
I am a daughter, a friend
but sometimes I feel like I should be more to them
I wanna be a firework, a flower field, a painting and if I'm not that's fine
As long as I turn on the lights 
every night

It hit me at 10 pm after scrolling for hours
Do I feel better about myself
when I see the pain of someone else?
Cause all this traveling and crying has taught me that I can change my feelings about things that aren't in my control
If I wanna laugh at my own funeral, I can

I'm running miles again 
thinking that there is a finishing line, an end
where all the words like "thank you", "I'm sorry", "I love you" aren't hard to say
I am a daughter, a friend
but sometimes I feel like I should be more to them
I wanna be a firework, a flower field, a painting and if I'm not that's fine
As long as I turn on the lights 
every night

I'm not one in a million
But I can live an illusion
Where I am the brightest window
with loud music and tinkles
I can choose the lens to my movie
I'll take a random bus and go
to places that I don't know
I might not be unique or special, no matter where I go
But once the sun finally sets 

We all shine
Look at those beautiful city lights
We make people dream
Just by existing

I am a French, half black, young girl. But no matter my nationality, skin color, gender Identity, I have the duty to speak up about inequality, racism or any type of discriminations. In the United States, people start to realize that black lives aren't treated the same way white lives are treated. However, this issue isn't just American, it's a global problem that needs to be handled because we're all beautiful lights that deserve to shine. We're all equal and we shouldn't let anyone tell us otherwise.

Lyrics:
Fire
I see a fire
Getting bigger every minute
Crowd
There is a crowd
With hundreds of hearts beating
They were the sister of my next foor neigbor
The husband of my brother's teacher
All precious lights
That faded too fast
And I'm staring at their family picture
Just like everyone their lives mattered
Still they died

And you
You tell us we are wrong
But we are here, headstrong
fighting for rights
when it shouldn't even be a fight
I'm tired
Of adding names to the list
Of seeing that black fist in the news every day

I Don't want to cry
But I'm so scared to die
And no matter the country you live in
Or the color of your skin
You should not be afraid to live
But all I do is cry

Tears
I feel the tears
Rolling down my cheeks with fear
Why
Do we live in a world
Where your fate changes according to your color

I keep on thinking but I Don't know
Why you determine the Worth of people
Whether they're black or white
Their light shines just as bright
You keep on repeating mistakes of the past
But we both know that these scènes won't last
We can't take it anymore

And you
You tell us we are wrong
But we are here, headstrong
fighting for rights
when it shouldn't even be a fight
I'm tired
Of adding names to the list
Of seeing that black fist in the news every day

I Don't want to cry
But I'm so scared to die
And no matter the country you live in
Or the color of your skin
You should not be afraid to live
But all I do is cry

How are we supposed to live
When you want us to forgive
All these people who shut down
So many beautiful lights
I Don't want to Believe
That the message we're trying to give
To so many people
Is Something so natural

I Don't want to cry
But I'm so scared to die
And no matter the country you live in
Or the color of your skin
You should not be afraid to live
But all I do is cry

Fading Lights (#BlackLivesMatter)

I wrote this song to tell myself to start loving me, because I'm the only one I can rely on. Having insecurities is normal, but we should all stop to focus on what's wrong and start enjoying our qualities. The lyrics are a message from my subconscious to my conscious self. It could also be a message from one person to another.

Lyrics:
Tell me why you keep on lying to me
Saying that you're fine as if I can't see
That whenever you come home you're crying
Tell me what is the point in denying
Don't you see that I am trustworthy
You can tell me anything
All the faults and mistakes you can't admit
All of those little secrets that you hid
yeah

You know, I can see right through (you)
Just be honest and I'll be (true)
We both know communication is key
But you locked the door now I can't come in
You have locked yourself in this (house)
And now you can't see the sun (rise)
24/7 in the dark
But I can be your star

Why are you so impatient?
Tryna be in a relation
You can't even love yourself
But all you think of is giving your love to somebody else
You don't pay attention
To this lack of self affection
You're always wondering around
Stop wasting your time and start looking at your own reflection

You compare yourself to others
But in life you'll always find someone better
So stop telling yourself that you're lacking
You can't see it but you are amazing
Don't wait for someone else to say it
You don't need words cause you can feel it
You are looking for validation
But you know it won't bring you closer to the sun

Be unapologetic (yeah)
Your persona makes you sick (sick)
Drop the mask you were wearing for so long
You don't need fake friends you can go solo
Be yourself will set you free (free)
If you want to be happy (please)
You need to stay true to yourself
yeah

Why are you so impatient?
Tryna be in a relation
You can't even love yourself
But all you think of is giving your love to somebody else
You don't pay attention
To this lack of self affection
You're always wondering around
Stop wasting your time and start looking at your own reflection

Putting it on
Putting it off
You keep on playing with yourself
Making this mask up to pretend to be someone else
Sometimes you know
Sometimes you don't
But it won't take you anywhere
Yeah yeah

Why are you so impatient?
Tryna be in a relation
You can't even love yourself
But all you think of is giving your love to somebody else
You don't pay attention
To this lack of self affection
You're always wondering around
Stop wasting your time and start looking at your own reflection

La la la la la la la
You know and I know it
La la la la la la la
But why can't you face it?
La la la la la la la
You know and I know it
La la la la la la la
But why can't you face it?

Impatient

I produced, wrote and recorded this song in one day. I originally wanted to make an rnb song that makes people want to do body rolls but as I produced the instrumental I quickly undestood it wouldn't be that type of song…
The lyrics are about me not understanding how the world works, if there is a recurrent pattern or if everything happens randomly. If actions happen because it was supposed to or because of different factors. Anyway, this song is just me wondering what the hell is happening in my life.

Lyrics:
Hello, again
I'm coming here to see you
'Cause I still don't understand you
I've been trying to learn
See how different shapes and edges
Still manage to fit perfectly
I work so hard every day
But I don't know which way to take
Why is everything so unfair?
With ups and downs I always stay
But I end up being betrayed 
I wish I could say I don't care…

And I'm falling again 
Cause I always have to deal with the same problems
And I'm holding it in
I wish I was living in a dream
Tell me why is it so hard to live
Should I blame, should I forgive
I wanna understand
What to think and where to stand
Tell me
Should I hide or should I riot
Should I scream or just stay quiet
Tell me tell me world
I just I just want to learn

So many questions 
Remain in my mind, unanswered
It feels like I'm walking backwards
And I know that even if I get better
I still won't understand your unpredictable behavior

Tomorrow I might find the one
But the next day he will be gone
Cause people come and go
But when and who, we never know
And even small actions matter
So I always try to do better
But it's never enough

And I'm falling again 
Cause I always have to deal with the same problems
And I'm holding it in
I wish I was living in a dream
Tell me why is it so hard to live
Should I blame, should I forgive
I wanna understand
What to think and where to stand
Tell me
Should I hide or should I riot
Should I scream or just stay quiet
Tell me tell me world
I just I just want to learn

(Chorus)
Tell me where to go
I just I just wanna know
Tell me who to be
To make to make me happy

Hello World

Heyyy today I'm publishing this summer-ish pop song, I hope you'll like it :))
The melody was inspired  by the 'Red' type of songs of the kpop group Red Velvet (the songs such as Umpah Umpah, which I absolutely love btw). Of cours it's very similar but I started this song with the goal of making something similar to this type of music!

Lyrics:
I think you need to know
It's time for you to know

Cold, I was so cold
Now I behold in front of this summer view
Dark, it was so dark
But I saw a spark in your eyes

Am I on the beach, am I in the forest?
Are you a verse or are you a chorus?
I don't know why I'm feeling this way
But when I'm with you it's a mystery
I never know where I am going but it's fine
I enjoy the ride

Take me where you please this feeling
I don't want to stop it no I don't want to stop it
Cause wherever I am
When I look at you

It feels like I'm watching a summer view~ah
You get me smiling and dancing and dreaming
Like a summer view~ah
Everyday singing and dancing and loving
Make me see the world
Feel the hot wind blow
It's all I'm asking for
Summer View, me and you
When I look at you
It's like I'm somewhere new
IT's crazy but it's true
Summer view, me and you

I waited for so long without knowing
That you would come when I would stop searching
And now I see palm trees growing in my life please
never stop to shine on me, I am begging
Tasty, pleasing to see
All around me there is beauty
All I have to do is look into your eyes

Am I in Bali
Am I in Paris?
It's not clear to see but I love seeing this
I know... that when you're with me
It doesn't matter
Don't mind the weather
There is nothing better
Because when I am with you
It's always somewhere new 

Take me where you please this feeling
I don't want to stop it no I don't want to stop it
Cause wherever I am
When I look at you

It feels like I'm watching a summer view~ah
You get me smiling and dancing and dreaming
Like a summer view~ah
Everyday singing and dancing and loving
Make me see the world
Feel the hot wind blow
It's all I'm asking for
Summer View, me and you
When I look at you
It's like I'm somewhere new
IT's crazy but it's true
Summer view, me and you

I never say it 
But I do love you, I'll always do
Loving you feels like flying high in the sky
Oh I know that it's all in my head
I should cry, but I'm loving it instead

It feels like I'm watching a summer view~ah
You get me smiling and dancing and dreaming
Like a summer view~ah
Everyday singing and dancing and loving
Make me see the world
Feel the hot wind blow
It's all I'm asking for
Summer View, me and you
When I look at you
It's like I'm somewhere new
IT's crazy but it's true
Summer view, me and you

Summer View

Heyyy I'm finally back with a song that I made a month ago. I wrote it for all the people out there who are struggling. All the people in the night, who lost their way... Please know that you're important, you matter to yourself and to a lot of other people so never give up. Though it sounds cheesy, it's important to always look back and see how far we've come, the long way we've walked and congratulate ourselves instead of focusing on the failures.

Lyrics:
Please, look at me
I'm an angel in the night
I'll be your light
In all your darkest times

I heard you cry the other day
I could hear the sound of the rain
All night long I heard you pray
The demons in your head
Want you dead
I promised I'd never let you down
So you'll never fall apart,
no I swear you'll never drown
SO I'll try my best to save you
from this storm

Please don't look down and wish you were brave enough
You're living a life particularly tough
Admit it
But you'll go through it

I heard you scream the other day
With the loud sound of a thunder
You want it to get better
The voices you here at night
Want you sad
And I swear I'll never give it up
I swear I'll stay until your pain stops
I will save your soul
From this storm

Look at the night sky for once
Don't cry yourself to sleep and
Look at the brightness above
You're one of these stars
And even though you're so so far
I'll get close enough
To show you how much you shine

Lullaby On A Rainy Night

Lyrics/ paroles:

"You keep running. Whenever you're happy, scared, unsure... you run. But now, it's time to fly."

I got lost in the night
Got trapped in a nightmare
I screamed for help to fight
But no one was there

I'm not very brave
I don't really crave for love
What is it anyway?
Isn't love something vain?
I have growing wings
I've got many things to learn
Now when things get hard
I don't have to run
Now I gotta

Fly fly fly fly
High high high high 
I don't know who to be, I don't know where to go
But fly is gonna be all I know so
Fly fly fly fly
High high high high
No matter what they say, no matter what they do
I'll always fly to the top for you

I'm ready to let go
I'm ready to unfold
Untangle all these thoughts
Cut off these broken parts
Tonigh, I will fly
I'm way too young to care
To give in to despair
So trust me when I say
That I've evolved today
So now, I can fly...

Stop, thinking there is a wall
Peventing you from moving
Stop thinking you will fall
Whenever things are changing ooh

I have seen it all now my heart is gold you know
Come for my heart once more
You'll see it's unbreakable
Now that 
Now that I'm not the same
I'm not scared of the night
And when the sun sets 
I know that it's alright
As the sun always has to rise
Now I'm gonna 

Fly fly fly fly
High high high high 
I don't know who to be, I don't know where to go
But fly is gonna be all I know so
Fly fly fly fly
High high high high
No matter what they say, no matter what they do
I'll always fly to the top for you

I'm ready to let go
I'm ready to unfold
Untangle all these thoughts
Cut off these broken parts
Tonight, I will fly
I'm way too young to care
To give in to despair
So trust me when I say
That I've evolved today
So now, I can fly...

I have seen it all now my heart is gold you know
Come for my heart once more
You'll see it's unbreakable
I have growing wings
I've got many things to learn
Now when things get hard
I don't have to run
Now I gotta

Fly fly fly fly
High high high high 
I don't know who to be, I don't know where to go
But fly is gonna be all I know so
Fly fly fly fly
High high high high
No matter what they say, no matter what they do
I'll always fly to the top for you

I'm ready to let go
I'm ready to unfold
Untangle all these thoughts
Cut off these broken parts
Tonight, I will fly
I'm way too young to care
To give in to despair
So trust me when I say
That I've evolved today
So now, I can fly...

fly high

Heyyy here is a new song. It's the first song I wrote after getting my ukulele last Christmas. I wanted to talk about a positive impact of COVID on my life: my ever growing passion for music. I hope that you all found a positive impact that this terrible situation had on your life ❤

If I was to release an album this summer (I'm not lol), this song would definitely be the intro.

Lyrics:
After winter it all stopped
The whole world was on hold and
We didn't know where we were going 
My entire life went blurry
Tears fell down in the night 
Not knowing if we'd find a way out 

But then I rediscovered 
passions and wonders
It's like a new world opened up to me
And little by little 
Songs replaced cries
rhymes replaced lies
A flower in the snow, who died to be born again 

Bloom
Bloom
When the time will start again 
When I'll hear the birds sing in the morning
Only then, I'll show you my petals
When I'll hear people laugh on the street
When I'll see lovers finally meeting 
Only then, you'll see that I'm special oh

After winter it all stopped 
The whole world was on hold and
We didn't know where we were going 

Bloom

I'm just a 23 year-old girl who loves music. On this platform, I want to share my thoughts and my creations. I'm not a professional but I hope that my messages can reach as many people as possible.

Anne-Maeva

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