it was me too but im still 14, anyways im happy that was me because now im way more wise and i know how exactly to defeat these things online and in my mind

…I know how you feel, my curiosity got the best of me at 11…

gahh.. reminds me of horrors i saved in a photo album and still there

The internet traumatized me, but also saved me

The internet ALSO gave me hypersexuality-

Not my best moments from 12 Year old self

MS. MEDIOCRE

I wish I was good enough (x4)

Stop complaining, shut your mouth
Push aside all of your doubts
because they're tearing you apart

Take your time it'll be okay
Even if you're not that great
you've got the fire in your heart

So just...

Do it
To hell with it - screw it
I'm so tired of you making excuses

Do it 
If you want to then prove it
Halting progress on yourself is just stupid - but

I wish I was good enough (x4)

Get up on your feet, time's running out
Your plan to stall won't save you now
You wasted nights just hating on yourself
and drilling in those silly doubts 

Every time you try to make a change
Your hopes and dreams get rearranged
You're far too gone - just throw it all away
There are no replays

That little voice in your head's taking over

Might wanna head on upstairs just to choke her

I wish I was good enough (x4)

Why would I continue being me
When better people are all I see?
There's nothing changed - doesn't matter if I'm here
This time I might just disappear

Now it's time for you to play your part
Your shoddy show's about to start
Put on your mask and get up on your way
They love you anyway

I wish I was good enough

GOOD ENOUGH! (Full Vocal Version)

one day a storm came by and said "you die" to my wifi
it's been four hours since it died and honestly, i don't feel right

maybe if i take a little time
to calm myself with silly little rhymes

maybe if i take a little time
to have some fun tonight

yeah!

one day a storm came by and said "you die" to my wifi
it's been five hours since it died and honestly, i don't feel right

one day a storm came by and said "you die" to my wifi
it's been six hours since it died and honestly, i feel alright

one day a storm came by and said "you die" to my wifi
been seven hours since it died and honestly, i feel alright

one day a storm came by and said "you die" to my wifi
a part of me kinda hopes it stays off for the whole night

cause i feel alright

storm

bird feeder

pour it out of me

sleepover

i look away for a second and a year's gone by
and i realize how long i've been alive

back in the day, as a kid, i couldn't fathom how i'd
live a life before i killed the lights

but now im here

you'd think that i'd be over it by now but my
problems keep mutating
it's getting frustrating

reaching my goals was a mere mirage and
now im stuck here self-sabotaging
even though i'm where i thought i wouldn't be

you're so young, you're so grand
i'm not old, but i'm bland
if i could, i'd get a second chance and go back in time
i'd finally make a change
take away all my pain
and that way, i could at least be half as good as you today

it doesn't make any sense to be irrational with how i see
the gap between you & me

'cause some are born with a gift to be a natural but that doesn't mean
that we won't get there eventually

where would i be without these thoughts inside me?
wings spread in the limelight
flying toward some new heights but-
feels too heavy, but they're too light to kill me
even so, i'm where i thought i wouldn't be

you're so young, you're so grand
i'm not old, but i'm bland
if i could, i'd get a second chance and go back in time
i'd finally make a change
take away all my pain
and that way, i could at least be half as good as you today

PAST MY PRIME TIME

don't feel like stoppin', feel like droppin' now, cause i'm on a roll
won't take it slow, no hesitation, baby, i'll lose control
i'm running purely on creative juices deep in my soul
no need to worry like i always do 'cause I'M ON FIRE

anticipation for creating, never felt so alive
i gotta love the things i do or else i couldn't survive
this burning in my hands is where the productivity thrives
i've got no time for breaks, make no mistakes 'cause I'M ON FIRE

i'm finally getting some work done, i don't wanna stop
i need to get it all out before i drop but 
temperature is rising,
expectations getting higher
and i'm peeling off my skin before
i realize that I'M ON FIRE

put me out, put me out before i burn out
how could this be the way that things would turn out
what a sick, twisted way for me to learn what ash is (ashes)
before i burn out

ashes, ashes
before i burn out

ashes, ashes
before i burn out

UP TO SNUFF! (I'm On Fire)

the year is 2009
and i'm unsupervised 
on the internet
nothing could go wrong, i bet!

i often spent my time
watching vids online
and i don't know this yet...
...it might be something i regret

'cause how was i supposed to know
the things i clicked on long ago
were actually material for
someone else's weird-ass fetish? 

oh, why did it have to be me?
i can't believe what i'm seeing but now it seems appealing
NO! my brain is playing tricks on me!
how could the image on the screen bring these unexpected feelings?!

catalyzed and compromised,
i turn back time to shield my eyes

but no - i guess it had to be me
why did it have to be me?
oh no...

the years go flying by
and now i spend my time
looking into it
'cause i guess i'm a degenerate

i forget sometimes
that there are kids online
and i think back to it
i wonder if it's happened yet

the internet's a funny place
but it can mess you up in ways
i wish i knew before the days
i spent time meddling in adult spaces

oh, do you relate to me?
or is this song problematic - am i being dramatic?
oh, my innocence and purity
reduced to nothing so early, at this point there's surely
no more point to close your eyes
be careful where you socialize
but it might be too late

sexy times and violent crimes
the things they do to growing minds
i wish i knew before the time
where it had to be me
why did it have to be me?
oh no

ONLINE OVERSIGHT

i wish i was good enough for santa clause is comin
and i haven't been lovin myself 
this year has been a little rough i will say
and i just wanna feel the best i can on christmas day

i've been a fucking bitch to myself this year
i think it's finally time to spread some christmas cheer
i feel inspired
my heart and soul on fire
i'll try my best before i rest cause santa clause is drawing near

miss mediocre, sit on my lap
tell me all that you want so my elves can get your gift wrapped
miss mediocre, whisper in my ear
and tell me what you want this year

well, santa, i'll be real, i think i'm done with this bit
i'm 21 and counting, but i'm still a sucker for christmas shit
if your list was still relevant, bitch i'd be naughty
i've been a huge prick to myself and my body is weak
it's mental wellness i seek

oh, i miss all my friends that are back in my hometown
miss all the days when the snow would just fall down
big puffy jackets and freezing cold air
presents and gifts from the people that care but i'll
make the most of what's here today
quit longing the past cause i'll be okay

i'll be okay

i wish i was good enough for santa clause is comin
and i haven't been lovin myself 
this year has been a little rough i will say
and i just wanna feel the best i can on new year's day

i've been a fucking bitch to myself this year
i think it's finally time to spread that holiday cheer
i feel inspired
my heart and soul on fire
i'll try my best before i rest cause friends and family are here

GOOD ENOUGH FOR SANTA!

we went our separate ways some time ago
and i don't know if you remember me and

i don't think there's any way that i could know
with all the people that we've had to meet

now i'm thinking about you
wonderin' what you got going on cause
we spent time with eachother
but it's weird to think after all that - you're gone

it feels like something's missing
but clearly i'm not missing you

it's odd that you're existing
beyond the time when we once knew

but when i'm up at night
hoping you're alright
i'm not tryna go back in time

it feels like something's missing
but clearly i'm not missing you

the little things you gave me long ago
they make me wonder if you think of me and
all the hugs you gave when i was feeling low
it's something that i miss so easily but

now you're living your own life
you're very own rollercoaster ride
the time we spent is so fleeting
i'm just a portion of your whole timeline

oh

y'know

i kinda wish i didn't have to go

because the present keeps reminding me
the past is where i want to be
but no regrets is what i need
to keep the future bright
no matter where you are in life
i hope you're sleeping well at night
because there's no way of me knowing
if you're even still alive or if you
have some things to say

it feels like something's missing
but clearly i'm just missing you

it's sad that you're existing 
beyond the time when we once knew

and when i'm up at night
hoping you're alright
i'm just tryna go back in time

it feels like something's missing
but clearly i'm just missing you

ONLINE OVERSIGHT

atsuover

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