The misconception in life is we’re alive just to do the right things
Yeah right 
Purple hazy like a pipe dream
Ya’ll can preach about striving to be perfect
But I won’t because it ain’t really worth it 
To live these days out walking on that straight line 
The only thing you out of is ya damn mind 
Thinking it’s just about what you got right 
But not mistakes that you made or how you survived 
Got me thinking out loud 
As I’m looking back now
Steady as I move
Breaking mounds as I make my rounds
Battle tested
Battle bound 
No regrets will be taken with me 
When I die and lay this crown 

I just want to live 
I just want to live and be me
I just want to live 
Can I fucking live?

I just want to live 
I just want to live and be free
I just want to live 
Can I fucking live?

I just want to live 
I just want to live and be me
I just want to live 
Can I fucking live?

I just want to live 
I just want to live and be free
I just want to live 
Can I fucking live?

Just want to get by
Just want to be me 
Living free 
Standing solid, steady feet
Speaking unforgivably
Speak exactly what I mean
Everything I’ve gone through
Moments meant to be seen 
Be brave enough to know what’s best 
Even when you don’t agree
It really doesn’t bother me
You’re not my mother nor my father, B
You get no motherfucking apologies
Just a wave goodbye when I abolish thee
If you’d open up your eyes 
It’s so plain to see 
If you let go of hypocrisy 
You can be refreshingly a living being 
Forcing separation from the crowd
Orchestrating motion 
Feet, please don’t fail me now

De la Mente EP

One Thing I Know

I step into that orange glow
Step into that orange glow
I step into that orange glow
Step into that orange glow

I step into that orange glow to disconnect for just a second
Take a look around
I’m reminded to count my blessings
Instead of complaining so much 
Often forgetting
Time is limited when I’m wrestling my stresses 
It’s the best when in this moment I’m invested
A calm amongst the fog
I’m good
No longer fretting 
The past is in the past
But the future is unwritten 
The spectacle of colors makes me flutter
When I step into that orange glow

Step into that orange glow 
I step into that orange glow
Step into orange glow 

I step into that orange glow at times when I need to be
Refocusing my thoughts 
And realigning all my energy
Recalibrating focus when it isn’t where it needs to be
Feeling like the weight of my world is bearing down on me
I’m lost in the view
Carressed by the breeze 
Arms to the sides
Extension of my wings
Lengthening the spine
Refreshment of the mind
It’s a different kind of vibe that I’m feeling
When I step into that orange glow

Step into that orange glow
I step into that orange glow
Step into that orange glow 

I step into that orange glow to take some time to think 
Have a moment for myself 
While I’m soaking up the scene
Putting time on pause
I pray the universe is hearing me  
Speaking from the mind
My intentions streaming fluidly
In this moment I’m alive off the energy 
Smiling at my life
Living right
Free of enemies 
Slow it down a bit
With the chaos that’s surrounding me 
Time is not of relevance 
Reflections nothing new to me

Orange Glow

This is dedicated to the circumstance of change 
An uneasy feeling that causes us to rearrange
Every aspect of our lives and routines of every day
A mislabeled sign that makes us want to stray
To say that we’re afraid is only human
It’s ok
To feel like we’re alone when our loved ones go away
In the center of the heart is the memories will stay
Until we meet again
I’ll be waiting for that day
It’s difficult to cope when the answers are unclear
While we’re shaking in our skin 
And being taunted by the fear 
The fear of not knowing 
Who will be the next to go
But that’s not the question to ask
So we’ll never ever know

To question my faith means to question my place
As am I standing here with confusion on my face 
Another chapter gone but it’s time to turn the page 
On the grudges I’ve held 
The wrongs I forgave 
This is dedicated to everyone that I’ve lost
I thank you for the happiness
It really means a lot
Even though you’re gone 
You’re forever in my thoughts
To see your face again I’d give my life on the spot
And Even though you can’t be with me at this given time
I know you got my back
And will always provide some light
Be my guiding star
Shining down on me so bright
I was once afraid
But now I welcome the night

Shining

Easy Liquor (Interlude - Ft. Samuel N. Torres)

It’s all in the jazz
It’s all in the jazz

I wish I didn’t have to dream about having wishes
I could live my life being the mister with his misses
Falling into place from the start to the finish
We could all push forward with a clear state of vision
I guess you can say that I’m looking for that equal
That common solid ground between my self and my people
Having each others backs in this world full of evil
Standing side by side with a bond so unspeakable 
Is that unfeasible?
Well I think not
Because it starts with myself and works it’s way around the block
Positive mental attitude is all that we’ve got
And if it hasn’t once before then it’s never going to stop
That’s just how it is and there’s no need to ask
How I know for sure because it’s all in the jazz
Letting ears adhere so the body can relax 
To the flowing rhythmic waves
And the bass lines they contract 

It’s all in the jazz 
It’s all in the jazz
It’s all in the jazz

With the beat still thumping
My thoughts still humming
As the music plays nervousness starts running
Away from my brain
And it’s a quick dash
Feeling right at home when I’m hearing that jazz
Deja vu feeling that I can’t pass
Plugging in to disconnect 
Waving my hands
Sipping on a fine wine
Filling up my glass
Needle to the groove
Leave it all on the track
Say you want change
But afraid to face pain
Say you want some flowers
But don’t want to dance in the rain
Can’t stay together and can’t maintain 
The steady flow of letting go
So now I change pace
Drifting into melody 
Transformative haste
Utilizing of this time
Otherwise it’s a waste
To sing the same old song 
And get left in the same old place

Jupiter Jazz

Let it breathe

When it comes to doubt 
Stay fucking ruthless
Laying all my cards on the table
I can do this
Don’t got to prove shit 
To anyone assuming
They’re always right
So that makes me wrong
I won’t waste time on you
I push on
Stay strong
I stay calm 
This ain’t a game to play 
I press pause 
Taken enough smoke
Now I got to cough
Spitting the shit you give 
I let it drop
Onto the ground with the rest of the flaws 
You’re so despicable
Had your lost shot
Don’t show your face again 
You caused your last block 
Stole your last thought
Battle well fought
Now I reclaim the fame
So back off
Who am I through adversity
I’m me
Blinded in both eyes but now I can see 
Death to your bullshit
I know what I need
Impersonation typical
But now I’m free
Feeling so lyrical
Let my words bleed
They’re all that I’ve got
So I got to let them speak 
 
Can’t keep them in
Let me try again 
Reshifting my focus 
Bad thoughts are now dead
This is the end 
Hunger been fed
Waited so long
Former self now shed
By craft I am lead
My thoughts I defend
I answer to no one
No need to pretend
Like I care what you say
Images portrayed
It is what it is
Turning onto the next page

Let it breathe
Got to let it breathe 
Let it breathe 

New found voice 
Redefining the rules
Not to be constrained
By opinions of a fool
Said you had it down 
Now I’m laughing at you
Said I couldn’t do it
Because that’s what I choose
Learn to let go
With a new view
Only very few
I bid you adieu
A loss is a loss
Now I walk without crew
Used to feel alone
Now I’m breaking right through
Used to do for others
But now I refuse
I will not be used
I’m kicking it true
Ticking like a time bomb
End of the fuse 
Leaving no clues
No longer confused
Once time is up 
There is none I can do 
I’m one of a kind
And that’s all that I know
Keep this thing running
When you try to make me slow
Keep my set gunning
So it can’t be overthrown
Say I’m the realest 
All I’ve ever shown 
Moral of it all
Reasons why I fall
Placing the blame on the next name I call
Instead of realizing that life is a ball
Keep that shit rolling
Never at a stall 
Back to my roots 
The person I recall
With middle fingers up saying fuck y’all

Off the Top

There’s so many things that affect the way I’m feeling
They stay bottled up until the words start spilling 
I’m reminded many times like a record steady skipping
To do what I feel and maintain how I’m living 
My evils are given but taken all as lessons
It’s either sink or swim in these waters to be tested 
As I make my descension 
It’s time for confession
I try to let it go but it’s becoming my obsession
The simplest thought that even I can maintain
The friction on my nerves and never worry again
Or I can just pretend like it was all for show
Like nothing ever happened so nobody seems to know
Truth everlasting or why it doesn’t grow
Or how it came to be so I guess I got to go
Back to where I’m at because I got to my hold own 
At the end of each act with nothing left to show

And it’s crazy to think
That each and every blink 
Is another second gone and can never be retrieved
So who should I blame?
Or why should I believe?
You wouldn’t take it all from me you motherfucking thief
Now every moment passed for sure I’ll miss
With their chronic state of calm and everything that they project
It seems like some greed got mixed in with some bliss 
That caused a break in mind and resulted in a shift
That leaves me on my own as I begin to steady drift 
Deep into the haze as my head slowly lifts
But I’ll live 
I know I will because I always do
It was just another obstacle to navigate through
It’s also clear to see what every piece all amounts to 
Just enough to change it up with a brighter out view
And help me realize one thing at a time
One thing at a time
I’m better off without you

Pale Muses

Plug Me In (Intro)

T.E.K.

Speaking shit into existence since ‘88
De La Mente EP [07.09.2020]

Ant Dos