VERSE 1 
I’ve found myself in a rut,
I can’t shake.
Keep on making mistakes,
need to pump down my breaks.
I try to change,
but it feels all too strange.
Don’t wanna rearrange,
what has been in my brain.

(Instrumental)

VERSE 2
Displease, unease,
on a Sunday morning.
Tryna chill, smoke a J,
it’s my sweet remedy.

It’s how I cope,
you say stop with the dope.
I won’t stop with the dope,
I rather choke!

CHORUS 
You say I’m insane,
but I say it’s the pain.
Can’t help what’s been ingrained,
I’m saying that I have been chained!
You say I’m insane,
but I say it’s the strain.
Can’t help what’s been ingrained,
I’m saying that I have been chained!

VERSE 3
Can’t help myself,
don’t need anyone else.
Leave me to my own self,
don’t need anyone’s help.

My soul’s already lost…
Just hang me on a cross…
So I go out like a boss…
I say hang me on a cross!

CHORUS
You say I’m insane,
but I say it’s the pain.
Can’t help what’s been ingrained,
I’m saying that I have been chained!
You say I’m insane,
but I say it’s the strain.
Can’t help what’s been ingrained,
I’m saying that I have been chained!

BRIDGE
Just please leave me,
leave me alone to bleed.
Will not stop til I’m free,
and it’s all just a dream.

Don’t knock,
nobodies home.
Don’t call,
I won’t pick up the phone.
Just stop,
please leave me all alone.
Don’t knock man,
nobodies home!

CHORUS
You say I’m insane,
but I say it’s the pain.
Can’t help what’s been ingrained,
I’m saying that I have been chained!
You say I’m insane,
but I say it’s the strain.
Can’t help what’s been ingrained…

INSANE!

Lyrics:

Takin’ these pills outta salvation, uh
Keeping my mind off the basement, fuck
I hit em, I get em, I got em yuh
Overwatch the death of society, stuck at the bottom, yuck 
Pay homage to the sacrifice of a chosen one so watch what you’re calling luck hah

Over it all, my ears are deaf, I will not watch mainstream
Consume madness where all demons loom, I’m boutta take em down
New lies everyday, this x rated circus show just makes me rage 

Out of the dark wit the darkest of lyrics, it’s steep, I feel it deep in my spirit 
Foresold the jezebel Jesuit agenda energy leering bitch fuck your clearance 
If I gotta fight the good fight for peace of mind then I’ll pack a flak jacket
Tell me which act are you casting cause I’m boutta put that shit in the casket
Ready to play, the score I’m betting to settle it uh yuh
Instead he afraid, stalking my page, talking without any evidence uh
My pain made me go celibate, my dame is not even relevant uh
Heavy enraged, the Vatican jokers gon surely feel all of it, wha

Takin’ these pills outta salvation, uh
Keeping my mind off the basement, fuck
I hit em, I get em, I got em yuh
Overwatch the death of society, stuck at the bottom, yuck 
Pay homage to the sacrifice of a chosen one so watch what you’re calling luck hah

Over it all, my ears are deaf, I will not watch mainstream
Consume madness where all demons loom, I’m boutta take em down
New lies everyday, this x rated circus show just makes me rage 

Fighting, I’m luffy give a quick punchline one piece 
Barking at the wrong tree feeling like loose leaf so bitch calm it we in a movie 
Wouldn’t date porno coochie surely it’ll take a lot just to Mary moody 
Writing and drew in my diary but I’m not playing the role of Julie 
In the middle of a manic episode, it wouldn’t matter if you push me off the edge
I’m starting to lose my head, pausing at climax would change the climate won’t matter
I’ll still come inside of this riot 
I flow like liquid, stay solid spiritually and spit this gas while I keep one eye to the past 

Takin’ these pills outta salvation, uh
Keeping my mind off the basement, fuck
I hit em, I get em, I got em yuh
Overwatch the death of society, stuck at the bottom, yuck 
Pay homage to the sacrifice of a chosen one so watch what you’re calling luck hah

Over it all, my ears are deaf, I will not watch mainstream
Consume madness where all demons loom, I’m boutta take em down
New lies everyday, this x rated circus show just makes me wanna rage

Red Pill Rage (Prod. BadSoul)

Phonk Djent Also Known As Phent

Because it is that love-filled time of the year (and Laufey just won a grammy!!!) I thought I would share one of my songs from last year’s Christmas stream: Lovesick, by Laufey ✨

I’ve gotten into the habit of sharing a short message with the songs I select— why they are part of my repertoire, what they mean to me. I believe context is crucial for the enjoyment of anything, especially music. 

For pacing purposes, it was too long for me to include in my music video, but I am including the transcript here for those interested.

Happy Valentines everyone!

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“So this [next song] is called Lovesick. I think it captures a particular mood, a kind of warm feeling in your heart [that] captures you and captivates you— I think this is exactly what I felt this year especially, [that] when I [first] heard this song from Laufey, [I thought] “yeah. That’s exactly how I feel.” 

Let me quote this particular line actually:

‘Getting twisted in my head,
Dreams are nightmares in my bed,
Since the last night I spent with you.’

Ewan ko kung anong meron sa pag-ibig, pero minsan, there is a particular intoxicating factor that comes with it, and [I really felt that] this year.”

Lovesick - Christmas Stream 2023

New song for y'all, it's been a couple months, show February 17th Reading P.A. 440 north 3rd street 19602, pull up to hear this song live

lyrics:

I feel so lonely
I feel so messed up
you think you. know me
but I've been fucked up

how many times will we keep on doing this
I'm getting fed up with this repetitive bullshit

remember when I threw up in your room
man I was so fucked new years came too soon 
January 2022 you make me so blue but I still love you

do you hate me
would you still date me
or move on with some other guy 
fucking forget me

beaten badly
my hearts been beating badly
tried to move on with myself 
but I miss you sadly

what is it that I can do to make you happy
what is it that I can do to make you stay
I'd live a lifetime with you so gladly 
I'll pray to have that I'll pray

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