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Note To Self

why're you reading this?
LYRICS:
(sample)
(hate this stupid head of mine, cause it makes no sense,
can stand all these thoughts that're running through my [head])

gimme just a second now
i gotta gather myself
figure it all out
but i can't figure out myself

gimme just a second now
i gotta gather myself
gimme just a second now
man i think i lost myself

running through this mind of mine
and it makes no sense
fists up to the sky
let the world rain into my open hands

rain into my open hands

i hate this stupid head of mine,
 cause it makes no sense
can't stand all these thoughts
that're running through my head

{CHORUS}
now i dont know why
sometimes i try
to convince myself
that i'm alright

but that's all a lie,
it's in my mind
it don't show
'cause it's all inside

it's a battle in my mind
there's truth behind my lies
looking down and out
to hide pain behind my eyes

it's a battle in my mind
it happens all the time
it's not as easy as it seems
when you're trapped inside your mind
{CHORUS END}

it's not as easy as it seems when you're trapped inside your mind
it's not as easy as it seems when you're trapped inside your mind
gotta look like you're alright
to hide the pain behind your eyes
just know that it don't show,
cause it's all inside

[QUEL LOFT]
i say i wont die at the hands of another man
whether it be family or hate to a fan
i'm looking down this barrel cause i found a loophole
i still got burnt, from the loophole

when people read this, they'll be shocked
because of how happy i was when i talked
well, people said i could be an actor,
but none of that skill will ever matter

my heart is telling me, please don't do it,
but my brain says i'm not worth two shit
i'm here battling two opposing forces,
while i'm trying my hardest to floor it

look at myself in a broken mirror
caught myself with a broken reflection
wish my brain was a little clearer
needing an army to battle depression

lying to myself i say i'm getting better
but i'm still here, writing this letter
blocking out everyone who says they care,
look into my eyes and all that stares,

is a hollow shell, of a nice guy
who just sits in his room, and he cries
i wish i didn't have to fucking lie,
i'm sorry, but i've finally lost the fight

(hate this stupid head of mine, cause it makes no sense,
can stand all these thoughts that're running through my
hate this
hate this stupid head of mine, cause it makes no sense,
can stand all these thoughts that're running through my my)

{CHORUS}
now i dont know why
sometimes i try
to convince myself
that i'm alright

but that's all a lie,
it's in my mind
it don't show
'cause it's all inside

it's a battle in my mind
there's truth behind my lies
looking down and out
to hide pain behind my eyes

it's a battle in my mind
it happens all the time
it's not as easy as it seems
when you're trapped inside your mind
{CHORUS END}

it's not as easy as it seems when you're trapped inside your mind
it's not as easy as it seems when you're trapped inside your mind
gotta look like you're alright
to hide the pain behind your eyes
just know that it don't show,
cause it's all inside

Battle In My Mind Ft. Quel Loft

rest in peace, my brother, you will be missed, Gustav. Lil Peep will be part of history.


this will be appearing in my album in remembrance, so it does not go unnoticed.

gone.

AntiClimactic