New Relief

Redemption is a hard way to live, its easier dead
you can see the green grow from the ground, in summertime instead
we can listen to cotton jones all alone, beachside thrills
I heard you come and see me, it's time again I'll show you in

No matter how far you are

Lands Bejeweled, forgiveness to my ears
It's a lot easier to know you are near
I'm a baptized boy, I'm a liar, thief and a toy
Get me to the nearest giving tree, I'm higher than hell

It's getting too dark to see

It's so sweet, I can feel your heartbeat
Even when it'd cold and you see the woman be, mysteriously
Looking at the pictures when we lived carelessly
I need to figure out how I'm going to live, stoned and free

No matter far I am












Redemption

I've lost you and now I'm going
away from the sea breeze
with your touch I'll remember 
how it's gone forever
Your green eyes illuminate
My mistakes have broken fate
my knees shake with sorrow
maybe it'll be gone tomorrow

I wish I were capable
to keep you smiling when you feel blue
I'll give my blood, my soul away
just to see you again

maybe time is on my side
keep good faith in my right eye
I'm a ghost, I'm always cold
I need the warmth from your broken soul

Beeehter

Things are weird right now
Battling one of my only fears
Being alone will soon be friendly
And I won't need a damn thing

Inside a shell is my home
Gave me a reason to show I've grown
Gloomy days will be my sunshine
And the past will be gone

It fell apart the minute I fell
Leaning back up against the stone
Getting harder and I'm feeling free

I can't describe what I've found
Giving up things like I'm leaving town
But I'm staying and I don't have a 
problem with you around

You call me a heavy heart
proving to you I ain't that far
Giving up things to keep my safety
and my self-confidence

I'm living a vivid dream
Saying goodbye what a beautiful scene
Carry me home, carry me home to the sun

Words written on my way home in Los Angeles traffic

Fugitive

Charlie felt there was deception
He always knew that smell would end him

But if that sun had risen
But if that sun had shined
And if that sun had shined would she be alive

Charlie felt the darkness in his veins
He'd cut right through and spilt it on his face

Shouting to Death and the Devil
"Why can't I be free?"
I had killed the woman who I love

Charlie dragged her body to the room
He played Zevon and started dancing with her broom
He felt the fire moving up his toes
He felt an arm pulling him into the cold floor

Relish

I felt fragile, tried to love her
Took a step backwards, resentful and cured
Love ain't easy, livin' it clearly
See me from the gun, kiss it gently
See it in sequence, suppose it's different
Don't you fall apart, it's me who needs it
Now jump that train with me, tell me it's crazy
I won't keep you, lets live it free

I know that you've been crying holding in your dreams
It's time that you recover, your heart was mine it seemed
You coulda lived different
You coulda been dead
You coulda kept your head up
But your soul lost grip

Well Rested and Sorry

Easy

I could be the one to hold you near, my love
I will write you everyday when you are gone
I could be the one to lift you up when you fall down
I will tell you that I love you when its cold and dark
I will swing my arms around you, tell you pretty things just 
to keep you here with me, but I'm not the only one you want and
I'm not the one you need.

Could it be that time has frozen still, my love
I'll keep it moving, leaving us in knots
I will steal that moment we once had, my love
You won't believe me but I'll try and try
And I will give you all the time and give you heart
shaped bones just to keep you here with me, but I'm not
the one you want and I'm not the one you need.

I'm afraid and you're so brave in heart, my love
I'm so guilty, you're so pure in awe
It's a desert having you away from me, my love
You've kept it moving, you've kept it pumping for us
And I will push away my habits make you understand just
to keep you here with me, but I'm not the one you want and 
I'm not the one you need

Written for Sonya
2007




Forgiveness Song

She caught me dancing on the bible last week
Yelling out the devils out for you
I turned around and I can't be saved
I cheated the devil twice before

Go away if your too scared to live it
or your blood will run dry tonight
I see compensations, detract me
You'll be buried with the niggers and thieves

Send me to his sitting chair
the chances of him being their
Make me feel vulnerable
I can't, I can't be alone

Dancing With the Devil

It took some time to see it
How I was living life
I stole, I cheated, I even died but
my vanity was keeping me alive

It almost had a fictional story
Seeing how I couldn't be right
I tried for better, again and again
But fighting it was leaving me untied

I waited for a reason
But it never came
I've lost the sense of emotion
Given that I haven't been the same

I shared my time with Salinger
I gave my time to Manson
I shared my life with Lennon
Zimmerman took me in

ANTIGUA