tell me that i aint shit tell me that im nothing😔

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

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Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

Lyrics: 
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

wipe my tears cause I gotta get the cash now
no more fears but I feel it when the lights out 
world so cold it’s like I’m living in the arctic
so unknown sometimes I feel like I’m arson
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions 
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

all the shit I done and all the things I seen
made me build a wall to block my memories
yeah, these drugs they got me falling like some leaves
need some novocaine but it ain’t for my teeth
I been fighting all these demons in my sleep
yeah, I’m faded yeah, I’m faded off the lean
don't give a fuck if I don't wake up from this dream
pass me a rope so I can leave reality

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

The Pain That Never Ends

✦ VIDEO OUT NOW

@lilkuudere

lyrics:
i hear my phone ringing 
but i know i shouldn't answer it
this negative energy's
so fucking cancerous
i swear i need to cut you off
before you grow on me
and i loose everything to you
up in the bed sheets

don't you worry
i'll be fine
tryna get you off my mind
atleast i hope so over time
you never know tho
with all these photos
in my camera roll
every time i look at them
i'm sucked into a black hole
you cut me deep 
and watched me bleed out 
morbidly
now i have no choice 
but to adjust my life accordingly
hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me

go ahead and hate me for wanting to die
i just want to be alone tonight
curl up in my bed and cry
let out all the things i hide

go ahead and hate me for wanting to die
i just want to be alone tonight
curl up in my bed and cry
let out all the things i hide

don't you worry
i'll be fine
tryna get you off my mind
atleast i hope so over time
you never know tho
with all these photos
in my camera roll
every time i look at them
i'm sucked into a black hole
you cut me deep 
and watched me bleed out 
morbidly
now i have no choice 
but to adjust my life accordingly
hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me


(hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me) X3

don't worry, i'll be fine (prod. lil kuudere)

art - @riley-rand
feat - @lilhappylilsad
prod - canis major

lyrics <3

I fear what's in the dark, 
who I am at heart
Light it up, i spark
But theres no point to start

An when Im all alone
Girl pick up the phone
show me where to go
Gonna need some methadone

Its so hard to be alive
Its so hard to fucking try
Sometimes i jus wanna die
You cannot see it through my eye

Ill be laughing on the day im in a coffin
Find me smiling when im fallin into nothing

All I can do now is hope that it don’t come back
I am fadin around, and I hope she knows that
But I saved a picture of her on my kodak
Had a key to happiness, but let her hold that

yeah 

I cannot lie, nothin left inside
Whys it always gotta be the one I love that makes me cry

you can decide, if we survive
But i just cannot stick around and listen to you tonight    

these thoughts will be the death of me
Sometimes I feel it's destiny
never meant me, no left of me
riding to my death, Kennedy

You change my mind
Only happy when I'm high
feel less dark beside my side
but you break me baby why

I fear what's in the dark, 
who I am at heart
Light it up, i spark
But theres no point to start

An when Im all alone
Girl pick up the phone
show me where to go
Gonna need some methadone

i burn money like its nothing
smoke it for the mind but lately i feel like i lost it
feel like i should stop it
but something made me roll another one so now im off it
off the dope like i always been
i feel happy for a while but then my head spin
I'd do everything for anything
so if i want it u can bet im going all in
that's why my friends call me no chill
cause i can try but i can never fucking sit still
unless I'm off that Mary j
but i gotta stop if i want my girl to stay

cause i can't deal w emotions
need to regulate my smoking
feel too good when im toking
see me laugh when I'm choking

smoke a 50 bag a day
& tbh I'm okay
i just need a little break
so ill get higher when i blaze

twitter

nothing left - ft. lil happy lil sad (prod. canis major)

[produced by kenny x ninetyseven]

always love studio days with @gyzalofi , go show him love!! i'm hoping to put this on spotify very soon.

spotify

up for days (feat. ninetyseven)

love u guys.

Lyrics:
VERSE
I dont know what i found, but i lost that
I get tatted on my back, cuz im like that
Lately ive been on the grind, beats consuming my time
And ive been makin all my songs on the nighttime

I wont act, treat you like any other guy
Im in fear, cuz i promised that i wouldnt lie
cry it out, find another one i know you tried
but i know you wouldnt text me back if i replied

PRECHORUS
I cant stand seeing you at all

HOOK
If you wont work it out
I will find myself in doubt
ill be right ahead, ive been seeing red

All my feelin's turned to ice
Fucked me up and shut me out
Baby i dont wanna change, i dont wanna change
cause of you

BREAK

My love was not enough
dont have to act so tough
i didnt shed a tear

cuz i have given up
these feelings are unheard of
cause of this emptyness i fear


PRECHORUS

I cant stand seeing you at all

HOOK

If you wont work it out
I will find myself in doubt
ill be right ahead, ive been seeing red

All my feelin's turned to ice
Fucked me up and shut me out
Baby i dont wanna change, i dont wanna change
cause of you



"purple moon" ep on its way

i dont wanna change

https://open.spotify.com/track/0kGEfTojej9LDTVW5dp7Nv?si=bBa1OLOVQUmclPaZsWp8Iw

prod. 4evr

cold (feat. thebreathingbackwards, yesterday, & stairwell)

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

Links:

Spotify

https://open.spotify.com/artist/7j8XINhxkD7WS4efrPxbhm

Soundcloud

 https://soundcloud.com/lilxtraatl

Merch

https://lilxtraofficialmerch.bigcartel.com/

Insta

https://www.instagram.com/lilxtraatl/

Twitter

https://twitter.com/LilXtraATL

Youtube

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYqEuND_ZtclJ6RQzzsPtcA/videos

Facebook

https://www.facebook.com/LilXtraAtl/


Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

(Prod. LghtSkinBoi)

Late night, Im tired/
I feel your high desires/
I know you, you fire/
And you only gonna hurt me/

Come along and spend time with me/
Feel her like that Imma die with ease/
Taking our lives just to live it to the most/
Shit Im so fly you can see it from below ey/

Come along and get high with me/
Feel me like that you would die with ease/
Promise I’ll be loyal til the day I dont exist/
Baby take a chance you dont know what you could’ve missed/

Running running running got me feeling that low/
And Im tired be haunted I dont want it no more/
You be there, you be gone, I just feel all alone
turn you on , what you want is a question I dont know ey/

Dont you want it to be better/
Blowing off the weather/
Wanna borrow another sweater/
I love you like/

Give you what you want/
You dont give it back/
Cause I, want you to be strong/
Baby thats a fact cause

I would never tell you lies/
Listen to your mind you’ll hear that I was right/
Can your hear it now, can you hear it now/

Late night, Im tired/
I feel your high desires/
I know you, you fire/
And you only gonna hurt me/

Come along and spend time with me/
Feel her like that Imma die with ease/
Taking our lives just to live it to the most/
Shit Im so fly you can see it from below ey/

Come along and get high with me/
Feel me like that you would die with ease/
Promise I’ll be loyal til the day I dont exist/
Baby take a chance you dont know what you could’ve missed/

Come along and spend time with me/
Feel her like that Imma die with ease/
Taking our lives just to live it to the most/
Shit Im so fly you can see it from below ey/

The Pain That Never Ends

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