This is a little playlist I made for my birthday. I turned 23 today which is crazy to think about. The first song is more of a scream rap and heavy song. The 2nd song is more of a dark ambient track that sounds like it belongs in an indie horror game. Both are very emotional and to be honest I think I cooked with these. I hope you enjoy these songs as much as I did making them. Love you all.

TEMPORARY RELIEF

all credit for the beat goes to @SKOTSKR
Lyrics:

You didn't notice in the end
It is too late to play pretend
I can't talk to my own friends 
Can I even make amends?
Im heating metal till it bends 
Gotta get out of my head 
Like a maze I'm trapped in
I'm picking up shattered glass
Of my mental that's a fact
Smoking weed until it's ash
I think I'm lost in the fog
Can't see shit, feel like a cog
I don't want to feel this way
But this is all I know now
So can I really escape?
Or will I always feel down?
With my sound drownin out
Until I cannot feel none
I don't wanna feel
Like a fucking piece of shit bum
(a fuckin piece of shit bum)
(I'm so tired of it)
Trippin out!
Like the fuck did you know I wasn't now!?
Like bitch nigga I'm screamin out my mouth
Like you don't know me bitch
(like you don't know me bitch)
You didn't notice in the end
It's too late to play pretend
I can't talk to my own friends
Why the fuck am I even here if I cannot do that?
Why the fuck am I even here if I can't even...
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Mental Glass

coverart done by lilithqueen19 on discord
all credit for the beat goes to @akira3k
Lyrics:

I'm goin in, I'm goin up

I can't give a fuck about the things you say to me

I ain't got time to be in my head

I don't wanna be stuck there forever man

Like why even try when I am just trippin

I'm so tired of the pain I feel like fallin

And everyday I try to say the same thing

But it never change anything, I'm insane

I said I'm insane

(Said I'm insane)

Can't get out my head

Too trapped in, too stuck in

I just want you by my side

You're the only

One I can even think about

Why are we still trippin now?

I just want you in my bed

And I don't want you anywhere else

Everytime I'm so fearful now

I don't want you to lose interest and leave me now

That shit would fuck me up too much

But I gotta keep movin up

So I'm not gonna stop for none

(I'm so fucked up)



falling roses

Lyrics:

I'm tired of this flesh

It's a fight everytime I wake up

And all I want is rest

I think my heart is starting to rust

But I cannot give in

I know that I have to keep movin

The sound of battle in my head 

Clashing metal till I'm dead

I feel like an animal

Im growin claws and gnashin teeth

Could it truly be possible?

That I could actually be free

From this torment inside of me

I cannot tell where I'm going

And when everything turns to red

There won't be anything left

My rage will burn it all down to ash

Like a flaming wind

You can't escape, there is no where to run

Think I give a shit

About it now, those things are in the past

Now it's time to fight

All this pain inside my mind

Sometimes I just wanna die

For anybody saying I'm a mess

Ya you're fucking right

I grew up always feeling like a pest 

Like some damn termite

I never cared about being the best

Man that shit is lame

And fuck the top, that isn't what I want 

This is all a game

But not to me

Music ain't a damn hobby

This shit serious 

It was either this or rot away

I know that I can't complain 

Punch a demon in the face

There's no human that I hate

Every chain I'm bouta break

But I can't do it alone

I know that I need some faith 

Smoke again now I need space 

What the hell is wrong with me


(Hook) ×2

Getting up 

Getting down 

Feel like I fell out the clouds

Never fit in with the crowd

Always lookin for a out


Wanted to be by myself 

Didn't want to ask for help

I would never want to be

A burden to someone else

Put that shit back on the shelf

Think I'll open that up later

I know that I still got time

Hurry before you're a failure

Don't you worry bout the paper

Broken bones and bloody fists

I have had enough of it

But I know I cannot stop

I think I'm about to pop

Mental battle in the brain

Lost potential is a shame

Something I can never be

I refuse to be a leech

Some things are just beyond reach

Gotta reach out with your hand

All you've got is this one chance

Don't you waste it



SOUND OF BATTLE

Lyrics:

Being in love doesn't really make you happy

I said one word, now I feel like I'm drowning

I don't really care if any of you doubt me

All I wanted was for her to be around me

But It don't matter now

I'll just make sounds

Bursting out my brain

All the pain that I felt

It's too bad you weren't there 

Feel my head starting to melt

Want to rip out my hair

But I guess I'm not enough for you

I should've picked up on the clue

You don't even respect me

No you can't even text me

I know you're goin through things

Guess I'm not a priority

But that's okay

To be honest it's my fault

I don't think you ever gave me your all 

Now the bottle's tippin

And I'm starting to fall

Skin feels like it is drippin

Like water on the walls

When it rains, I feel like I'ma hit the ground 

At top speed, like a comet, I won't be found

You can see me glowin

I feel my heart pulsin

Her hand I dreamed of holdin

But now we're both so distant

(Chorus)

I don't even know

Why you talkin to me

Fuck this I just wanna go

I can't get out my own brain

When we talk I can't even go to you

I'm so fuckin confused 

You don't even wanna know

Why I'm even here with you

Get out my head in time, I dislike it

Fuck this shit, I don't wanna die here

I just want to be someone you care about×2

Fuck this, long distance is some bullshit

I don't who to trust

???

What the fuck am I even saying anymore?

What the fuck is love?

I don't think I know anymore

(Chorus)

I don't even know

Why you talkin to me

Fuck this I just wanna go

I can't get out my own brain



love doesn't equal happiness

Dark Atmosphere

Open Your Eyes

am I the only one here?


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