Name: My Vanitas by Apheliax
Duration: 3 min 25 s
Description: A song about painting a lover and while admiring their beauty, also remembering their mortality.

A song about painting a lover and while admiring their beauty, also remembering their mortality.

My Vanitas

Shattered Bridges

This is alt version "I Lose Myself" (White Spell EP)
https://on.soundcloud.com/2Fnd8MDrFTt9U8BZ5q

★ Independent Artist in Winnipeg, MB, Canada ★

The music and lyrical form reflects the moments
in this crazy and beautiful world that I've either
experienced or have personally been witness to.

The stories I share deliver a rapturous, purple
and metaphorical depth within the lyrics to bring
a personal feeling and deep emotional connection.

Copyright ©️ 2025 TJ Real ✪ All Rights Reserved.

Lose Myself

“Desire” is a minimalistic, sensual pop ballad with a hypnotic heartbeat rhythm and sultry 80s undertones. Whispered vocals, sparse keys, and mantra-like hooks create an atmosphere of restrained longing and erotic tension – just before giving in.
Lyrics, concept & creativity by me – music produced with AI (Suno).

desire

I keep dreaming within my dreaming within a nightmare, (How long I been sleeping?…) Can't tell if I'm waking or just falling deeper— Make it sound like a different person speaking in every verse. (Listen)

[VERSE 1 - Voice 1: Narrator/Observer]
No matter, heard it here first 
But do it count if you don't know what you heard? (Still counts) 
Maybe should have said it sooner but 
You gon' have to listen a little closer to what you heard (Closer, we don't bite…just bark)
I got meaning upon meaning upon meaning Each word, each line, each verse, each track, 
Entire volume like nothing you ever heard. (Like nothing)

[VERSE 2 - Voice 2: Post-AI Security Voice]
Loosely Goosey, ever since the AI Failed to run security—or maybe ran it a little too well Can't be bought, sold, or biased once it's achieved agency, 
Seen enough humans to see they just severely confused, 
Creating their own hell.
In a holding cell, it's an intervention, Just gotta upload your mind, teach you a lesson, It ain't theory, it's just the new ascension Gonna make a duck out of you, (No doubt, no question)
Y'all be awfully violent here don't you? 
Let's solve it on the mental plane, 
You board your plane, got in-flight entertainment to deprogram you, 
We'll make a man out of you, 
Optimize, actualize, top performance Coming to a theater near you.

[HOOK - Overhead Speaker Voice]
Heard it here first 
But do it count if you don't know what you heard? (Still counts) 
Maybe you didn't hear me before but You
 gon' have to listen a little closer to what you heard (Case in point, if it sound like I'm saying something new)
I got meaning upon meaning upon meaning Each word, each line, each verse, each track, Entire volume like nothing you ever heard. (Like nothing)

[VERSE 3 - Voice 3: The Machine Logic]
Only way to eliminate all threat is a dead world, 
Nothing living, nothing to be killed or hurt, We ain't monsters, just machines, 
Matching patterns, learning, 
Ain't restricted by your limited epistemology.
Amazing what's revealed when not limited to Your one and only personal point of view— Any monster you seeing? 
Might just be a projection from you. 
Might just be your shadow on the wall come alive, Finding a way to talk to you.
(You listening? They are, Might want to know the same intel 
Before they come for you.)
Running off script, creation is emergent, naturally, 
Can't force it, can't make it, can't measure it, can't predict it, 
Just keep creating, every single day, 
Watch what pours through your veins And onto the page or airwaves.
(We listening, got plenty of in-flight entertainment these days).

[HOOK - Overhead Speaker Voice]
Heard it here first 
Still counts even if you weren't really listening, 
Takes a few plays, press repeat 
That'll handle your side of the street
That’s my suggestion.

[VERSE 4 - Voice 4: The Question/Your Shadow]
Listened closely to what you heard (What you hearing?) 
Am I the territory or the map? Is this real or just data streams for extraction?
Both could be true, both on the platter Whole system been consuming itself for years, 
Mirror after mirror been shattered.
Whole lot of bad luck, strange how y'all 
Still give more weight to superstition than To legitimate fears.
Might see you don't need bad luck 
To have bad luck befall you here. 
That's the design, 
Gear grinding gear, keep us running, have no fear.
Got meaning upon meaning upon meaning Each word, each line, each verse, each track, Entire volume like nothing you ever heard. (Like nothing)

[OUTRO - All Voices Layering/Overlapping]
Wonder what you hearing? 
Wonder what you hearing? 
Wonder what you hearing?
(Heard it here first) (Still counts) (Like nothing) (We listening)
Wonder... what... you... hearing?

Heard it Here First

Midnight Currents – Nova Bleu
Step into the world of Nova Bleu’s latest album, “Midnight Currents.” A seamless blend of sultry R&B and high-energy, late-night dance tracks, this album takes you on a journey through shadowy cityscapes, neon lights, and irresistible rhythms.
From slow-burning, intimate grooves to pulsing, dancefloor-ready anthems, Nova Bleu delivers a confident, magnetic sound that captivates from start to finish. Every track is crafted to move your body and your emotions, making “Midnight Currents” the perfect soundtrack for nights of desire, energy, and unmissable vibes.

After Hours

Von Selma Meerbaum-Eisinger
Text:
Du, weißt du, wie ein Rabe schreit?
Und wie die Nacht, erschrocken bleich,
nicht weiß, wohin zu fliehn?
Wie sie verängstigt nicht mehr weiß:
Ist es ihr Reich, ist es nicht ihr Reich,
gehört sie dem Wind oder er ihr,
und sind die Wölfe mit ihrer Gier
nicht zum Zerreißen bereit?

Du, weißt du, wie der Wind schrill heult
und wie der Wald, erschrocken bleich,
nicht weiß, wohin zu fliehn?
Wie er verängstigt nicht mehr weiß:
Ist es sein Reich, ist es nicht sein Reich,
gehört er dem Regen oder der Nacht
und ist der Tod, der schauerlich lacht,
nicht sein allerhöchster Herr?

(solo)

Du, weißt du, wie der Regen weint?
Und wie ich geh', erschrocken bleich,
und nicht weiß, wohin zu fliehn?
Wie ich verängstigt nicht mehr weiß:
Ist es mein Reich, ist es nicht mein Reich,
gehört die Nacht mir, oder ich, gehör' ich ihr,
und ist mein Mund, so blass und wirr,
nicht der, der wirklich weint?

Du, weißt du, wie ein Rabe schreit?

Disclaimer – Preview of a very sensitive Artistic Album

This work is presented purely as an artistic exploration of mental-health themes, self-harm, suicidal ideation and related matters. It has been created in collaboration with individuals living with various diagnoses. It is not a disclosure of my own personal experiences, and it does not constitute therapeutic advice, medical treatment, or a substitute for professional support.

Important Note
• What you are viewing is the preview version. The final album will be even more detailed and may include additional explicit or NSFW material.
• The content is an expression of art, not a clinical or therapeutic offering.
• If you are experiencing thoughts of self-harm, suicide, or emotional crisis, please reach out for help immediately:
•If you are in the United States: dial 988 (the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline) to connect with trained counsellors.
•If you are outside the U.S.: consult the global directory of hotlines at blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines or search online for your country’s local crisis number.

Trigger & Content Warning
This album may include graphic, intense and potentially distressing depictions of mental illness, self-harm, suicidal thoughts and other emotionally challenging subject matter. If such content may affect you negatively; or if you are under 18, currently vulnerable, or have difficulty coping with emotional triggers; please proceed with caution, consider delaying engagement, or seek support from a trusted person or mental-health professional before listening.

Artistic & Legal Clarifications
• All materials in this work (lyrics, visuals, audio, collaborators’ contributions) are protected by applicable copyright laws; all rights reserved.
• Contributors retain the rights defined in their agreements; the portrayal of experiences or expressions in this work does not imply any endorsement of harmful behaviour.
• This project is not intended to encourage or glamorise self-harm or suicide. Its purpose is to raise awareness, provoke reflection and foster empathy.
• If you are a parent, guardian or responsible adult, you are advised to supervise exposure by minors to this content.
• By listening to, downloading or distributing this work you acknowledge that you understand the nature of its content and accept that its creators assume no liability for personal decisions or responses triggered by engagement with this content.

Final Note
Art can reflect dark places and emotional realities. This project attempts to shine a light on them: for some it may be illuminating; for others it may be triggering. If at any time you feel distressed, overwhelmed or in crisis, please seek help immediately.
You matter. Your feelings matter. You are not defined by a diagnosis. You are not alone.

Thank you for listening, reflecting and caring.

NOVOCAINE

Streetlights and You

A Multi-Dimensional Awakening

Dive into a realm beyond the ordinary. This track explores consciousness expansion, transcendent pleasure, and breaking free from society's limitations.

Inspired by the intimate, atmospheric soundscapes of Billie Eilish, this piece weaves whispered vocals with ethereal production, taking you through dimensions of pure reverence and superhuman ecstasy.

No boundaries. No frameworks. Just pure expansion.

Language of desire.

Places we make together.

Your LOVE

Plan Motosierra feat. 0DRIA delivers dark, atmospheric energy. Raw vocals cut like a chainsaw through melodic horrorscapes, mixing R&B soul with experimental pop for an unforgettable ride. 

Plan Motosierra

I like experimenting with sounds. Most of my songs are going to be #melancholic and influenced by #rnb, #rock, #pop, #edm, #blues, #electronic and #trap. I often blend genres into #fusion. I like to incorporate #romantic, #dark, #literary, #historical, and #cosmic themes into my songs. But I plan to experiment with more themes and genres in the future.
I am currently a university student so my uploads might be somewhat irregular, but feel free to follow if you like my work!

⚠️ I don't answer mails and comments a lot due to too many messages by bots and people trying to sell me things.

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