is it possible for you to put this on spotify anytime?

Please put the song on Spotify 🙏🏼♥️🖤

@flossboss112212-side I'll try put it up tomorrow 🖤sorry for the late response 

hay hay please carry on your music sounds very good take care hopefully you will get your deserved attention🤝🏼♥️🙏🏼 

Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

Mad cause i never had my shit straight 
I been feelin this way since the sixth grade 
I'm tellin you I'm a mistake 
Lost I dont know where to go
Age 9 got me thinking constant suicide
I was just a kid wanting to die
I'm not sure where I wanna go
Just know that i want you there
Please I feel so insecure
It's hard with these demons on your back yeah
Tell me it doesn't help when I yell well perhaps yeah

Tell me that you need me
I'll stay by your side
Please don't make me choose 
I can not decide 
Show me to your safe space
Show me where you hide(2)

There's so much on my mind
I dont know what i would do
Tired of moving on through
I let you see my underside
I'm vulnerable just to you
Stop thinkin I could love anyone else but you
Without you I would not know what i would do
Without you there's nobody that i would choose
You're the only one i can not stand to lose
So give me your hand
Give me your hand
No regrets in my head 
Just the time
I dont mind
So lets go
Away
From
Here


Tell me that you need me
I'll stay by your side
Please don't make me choose 
I can not decide 
Show me to your safe space
Show me where you hide(2)

Tell Me That Im Yours

@lilxtraatl <3

[chorus]
ripped black jeans and Snow White hair it’s like no one sees or no one cares,
its like all I crave is her
but I’m not what she deserves 

[verse]
she fucks with my head on daily
she fucked me like she really hate me
she love when I sing her to sleep
I love her so much I can’t breathe when she speak I see stars in my dreams

every girl I talk to hates me
I feel like I can’t even cry I wouldn’t date me
and if you told me that you loved me you were faking
I make the most of all the hearts I end up breaking so,

I don’t even cry no more
but, lately I been cryin on the floor, like
I don’t even want this life
why, does it have to so bright

I, know
i, know
i, know

you're not alone
[chorus]
ripped black jeans and Snow White hair it’s like no one sees or no one cares,
its like all I crave is her
but I’m not what she deserves

[verse]
yeah i know i'm not alone but it sure does feel like
everyone hates me i just don't feel right
and you said, you're not alone, but when i show up there's no one home

its not easy believe me, when i'm standin' right here and you still can't see me i'm, in your ear but you still can't hear me i'm, speaking truth and you still don't believe me

i've been broken before and i'm broken again
i guess i'm being punished for my sins
lately my nightmares feel like my friends cause
only they understand me in the end

you're not alone

not alone w/ lil xtra (prod. boyfifty)

prod. @oceanonthebeat

i been tryin' hard, you've been layin' low
i've been movin' mountains pushin' through the snow
i can't feel my fingers, i can't feel my toes
love won't be my savior. i should let it go

shes got these eyes, jaded she's a gem
i might fall in love, i might break my heart again
love it when she laughs fuck i love it when she breaths
i get dizzy when she speaks cause she's exactly what i need

and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine
and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine

i think it might be best for me to let you go
but if you ever love me you should let me know
i know you really want him guess i'm fine with that
be careful with your heart cause i'm not good at that

picking up the pieces, 
does he hold you while you're sleepin?
heard he loves you does he mean it?
does he care about your dreams and
all your goals and how you'll meet em
does he call you ever evening
is he making sure you're eating
do you love him how he loves you is it even fucking even

i won't wait around for him to break your heart
i can't mend your soul i don't know where i'd start
i don't wanna fight again i know it gets hard
i don't wanna fight again i know it gets hard

i been tryin' hard, you've been layin' low
i've been movin' mountains pushin' through the snow
i can't feel my fingers, i can't feel my toes
love won't be my savior, i should let it go

shes got these eyes, jaded she's a gem
i might fall in love, i might break my heart again
love it when she laughs fuck i love it when she breaths
i get dizzy when she speaks cause she's exactly what i need

and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine
and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine

jaded (prod. ocean)

this song hurts a lot for me, but i hope you guys can find something beautiful in it.

up everywhere now

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well I've got a ghost
running through my head
that used to be a girl
laying in my bed

don't want the ones that want me
and the ones I want 
leave my heart a mess

so I'm all alone
feeling cold as hell
asking why oh why
I do this to myself

I just wan feel something
but if feels like I don't have much left

I've got a mind full of bad things
but good intentions like an angel with some bat wings

and I'm fine if you ask me
but I'm still running from my problems like a track meet

and I don't know why
I don't want you
or why I want her 
when she don't want me to

and they say love hurts
I guess that much true
cause now we both choked up
lips are turning blue

tell me what is coming next
I can't handle all this stress
got me always second guess - in

what's been running through your head
all I know is your upset
from the tension when we texting

I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in, I can never rest in
x2

spotify

r.i.p

sadeyes - mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (slowed)

lost myself to all these drugs
looking in the mirror cant remember who i was 
picking up daily i'm just tryna get a dub 
and i'm doing all of this just so i could be numb

i know that i lied i did this to myself 
i said i didn't need it but i need some fucking help
not concerned about my health
i'm not concerned about the 12
i don't wanna have to say goodbye to you as well

they say that love never dies
it happened right before my eyes 
i've never been afraid of heights 
but ill spread my broken wings to fly

waste me or face me i can't feel a damn thing 
i'm living off morphine 
could you just end me

cause i'm insane i'm torn now 
got slits on my wrist wow
its over, you're gone now
and i'm high as fuck in the clouds 

why do i do this to myself 
if you need me catch me down in hell

why do i do this to myself 
if you need me catch me down in hell

hell is when you're gone

@qawikamri
@guardinmusic

FIRST SONG OF "A Diary Of You"

a song that i'll play on a rainy day (feat. guardin)

They call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it...
(This is the last single before I begin to release work from "Past the Stars")
Written by: @itsyungvan x @sinxi
Mix/Master: @sinxi
Production: @prime
art by: @scottysplash

Lyrics-

yung van-
I'd be lying if I said you didn't cross my mind
I'd be lying if I said you didn't cross my mind
you pop up when I'm in class looking at the time
tell me that I'm crazy reminiscing
I forgot everything we were missing

You only love me because you used to
I'd tell you I love you but that is old news
when we split up, I thought I told you
I fell in love, but with the old you X2

Sinxi-
and I fell in love but with the old you
oh I catch your perfume as you pass-through
oh I think of the times that'll pass soon
oh I gave you my heart? I didn't mean to
I've been playing it over a couple  hundred times
yeah, the things I could say and ways to stay dry
yeah, to get you to see that I'm okay this time
but would it be a crime to try again one night

yung van-
You only love me because you used to
I'd tell you I love you but that is old news
when we split up, I thought I told you
I fell in love, but with the old you X2

they call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it

they call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it

i fell in love, but with the old you

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I fell in love, but with the old you ft. Sinxi (Prod. SteezyPrime)

OCTAVIO - Nineteen (Sad For No Reason)

Stream/Buy "Nineteen (Sad For No Reason)" here!:fanlink.to/Nineteen_OCTAVIO

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Lyrics:
Lately i've been feeling sad for no reason
So i go get high for the evening
You told me you would stay now you’re leaving
I don’t give a fuck i'm still dreaming

Baby i just need some space
I don’t even wanna taste
And every time i see your face
I know that you can’t be replaced cuz 
You know what to say tho
When i’m not okay no
Used to say you promise
Didn’t know you’d break those
Telling me excuses
We left each other bruises
I roll up when i wake up
You put on too much make up

Saying i love you 
I can’t even touch you
Can’t do this again
So now i'm sayin fuck you
Once is enough girl i don’t need a sequel
There’s good and there’s bad but with you its just evil
Our love is a gun one mistake could be lethal
My life is a movie post up at the regal

Lately i've been feeling sad for no reason
So i go get high for the evening
You told me you would stay now you’re leaving
I don’t give a fuck i'm still dreaming

Lately i've been feeling sad for no reason
So i go get high for the evening
You told me you would stay now you’re leaving
I don’t give a fuck i'm still dreaming

Scary
I'm so afraid
Of a world 
That's painted in gray
Scary 
I'm so afraid

Lately i've been feeling sad for no reason
So i go get high for the evening
You told me you would stay now you’re leaving
I don’t give a fuck i'm still dreaming

Nineteen (Sad For No Reason)

Prod Kado

Art by mattiswithdrawn

I feel that man,  good luck! I’m sure you’ll come with something great
❤
1
Wed 3:57 PM
Backwoods on the front lawn say I’m alright but it’s all wrong 
No I’m not fine
Shaking like a fault line
All my fault right? 
Only happy when I’m recognized online
I’ve gotta quit wasting my time gotta quit chasing your light 
Getting high all night 
Can’t stay high for my whole life 
But I will try 

Everybody knows that it’s my fault 
That I fell asleep on the sidewalk 
No sleepwalking too fucked up for talking 
Pretty soon be an outline made of chalk 
I’m gonna die soon
And when I do 
I hope that you know it’s not about you 
Turns out I didn’t know enough about you 
Turns out the world don’t revolve around you 
But in my head, everything’s bad 
Everything’s wrong, everything’s sad 
Been way to long I feel like that 
Pandemic vibes, miss mom and dad
And the little lost pleasures I once had 
Is the measure of my life really my stacks
Whether or not you’re better off in my bed
I want to Love what I treasure and clear my head
So get the fuck away from me if 
This isn’t where you want to be then
Just Go abead, you can leave and when 
It’s all over you can be free 
I don’t really understand my thoughts 
That it’s all my fault 
When it’s clearly not 
Every time we talk 
I test my luck 
Then I fuck this up, who would’ve thought yeah 

Backwoods on the front lawn say I’m alright but it’s all wrong 
No I’m not fine
Shaking like a fault line
All my fault right? 
Only happy when I’m recognized online
I’ve gotta quit wasting my time gotta quit chasing your light 
Getting high all night 
Can’t stay high for my whole life 
But I will try

Where You Want To Be

apollumi: to perish, lost, ruined, destroyed

hell is when you're gone

apollumi

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