The first track from my debut E.P "Umbra." out May 14th ⭑*•̩̩͙⊱••••✩••••̩̩͙⊰•*⭑

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LYRICS

Take off my bra 'cause this body
Hasn’t been mine for a minute
Take of mascara that I--
put on for you
To dance for you
In a dark room
I’d be a doll
Bend for you
(Bend for you)

Cheerleading practice
Got no manners
Always landed
Head first
Down and dirty
Too flirty
Fell in love
Feet first

And If I make it through
And If I make it through

Take off this purse cuz its been too
heavy for a minute
This weight that I put on for you
I held for you
In a crowded room
I'd be a (uhuh) undress for you!


Swimming practice
going backwards—
Do I sink or swim
Always trying
Not surviving
Do I learn to forgive?

And If I make it through
And if I make it through
And if I make it through


credits
released May 1, 2021
produced, written, mixed and performed by MIIV
Vocals Mixed by Jevan and MIIV
Additional writing help with Ntu
Mastered by Akari
Photo by: Dallas Thompson

Umbra

In The Dark A Rose Bloomed For You (demo)

Lyrics 

Foolish In my love and ways of loving you 
Foolish in my heart and what I wanted too 
Foolish in thinkin' that you'd be gentle 
Foolish in thinkin' that you'd be careful 
Foolish in my love and ways of loving you 
Foolish in the dreams that I had of us two
Foolish! 
I was so foolish 
I was so foolish 
I was foolish!

Foolish! (demo)

Collecting Keys (demo)

pretending like I'm not sad and in a rut 
[photo from tumblr - ill add @ when i find again]

I Bought Too Much From Ssense

Crush #68 (demo)

I’m gonna learn to give up 
I’m gonna learn to give u-uh-up 
when I’ve had enough 
head pushed to the brim 
and bow my pride 
under water 
wa wa wa water

too young and bright 
to keep trying 
I’ve tied all my hope in you 
and my love keeps drawing 
circles 
circles 
sa sa circles 
i can’t get out or through 

31 ghosts will haunt me now 
cuz I dared to look you in the eye 

31 ghosts will haunt me now 
cuz I expected you to be better

31 ghosts will haunt me now 
cuz I was the fool for your love 

31 ghosts will haunt me now
cuz I wanted to make sense of all the 
pa pa pa pa pa pain 

somethings got to change!
somethings got to change! 

and and and and and and 
and and and and and and 
and and and and and and  

I’ve gotta hold my hand too 
I’ve gotta hold my hand too
I’ve gotta hold my hand too 
I’ve gotta hold my hand too

31 Circles (demo)

les paroles 

I'm craving chaos tonight 
gonna look you in the eye and say what's on my mind
I'm craving chaos tonight 
gonna look you in the eye and say what's on my mind
that wasn't a conversation 
we're both too drunk to explain shit 
heated in the moment 
I owe this to myself 

I don't got that type of hypervisibility inside of me 
break me down for everything I got 
everything I owe 
I don't got that type of hypervisibility inside of me 
break me down for everything I got
everything I owe 
It's all a front 
It's all a front 
front 
front 
front 
front

AX* (demo)

LYRICS

Angel of my light 
where do I belong? 
Angel of my light 
where do I belong? 

Hope is a frail thing, 
and I've got to move on! 
Take it for granted, 
the moments I am strong 

:||

I know somewhere, 
you're not hurting! 
I know somewhere, 
it's all worth it! 
Give it up to the water! 
When you're breaking
lay it on the air 
when you can't make it!

Gospel Song #5

what do I know? I'm just the intern. 
feel the weight of the world,
beneath my tongue

The Intern (Instrumental)

lyrics?  

neva 2 be known 
neva 2 be known 

it's a gift, to be swallowed 
to be to be known

neva 2 be known 

I ache for the day you say 
I ache for the day you say 
I ache for the day you say 
I ache for the day you say 

I see you 
but I like you 
so I can't get to close to you

written, performed, and produced by  Deuén
Mixed by Tom O Donell

Somewhere on 1301 Crossing Place, The Dust Made Me Reconsider Time

working on a longer track, this is the B part of a more fun a part. 

lyrics....

u wrap my heart in shame 
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[photo by colin saverpool from shame 2023 collection, Not Everyone Manages To Fail on office mag]

Shame!

L'ETRANGER (A NEW SCENT)

The Trying That Broke 

Composed by me [Deuén] in my childhood home after playing in the snow. I had just traveled back from Texas, after SXSW, where I was playing bass in my friends band. 

At the keyboard--late--1am, pounding, clumsily, body cold from the snow. 

Performed by Vedantini Lakshminarayanan, I add a hand in at the end when there is not enough for 2. 

Thank you so much to Veda for your insight, talent, and ideas, in elevating this score. Like any piece I make there is an element of improv, an element of personality, soul.  It would not be the same without you.

The Trying That Broke

voice memo recording from band practice before my set at Heaven Can Wait back in September. Impromptu, had no idea where were going. 

Shame—_loophole [trio band rehearsal] 8-28

Track leak 💧:P of a song from my album Forged in Fire. I had the chance to record strings during my residency with Mexican Summer x Gary Studio Electric -- unmixed, unpolished, 2 share with you-- as it's become one of my favorites. 

Written, Produced, Performed by Me 
Bass - 13th Law
Viola - Cindy Lan 

LYRICS: 

CHORUS 

Some words are better left 
at the shoreline, where I left my heart 
i’m not gonna tell you what’s on my mind, 
what’s on my mind :||

VERSE 1 

sky parts into a sea of rain 
1000, sorrys, 1000 ways 
my heart did break  
in hindsight, how could I know if it all– 

and i push yah, i push yah just to break 
so that i can, i can justify my pain 
the words on my heart are heavy–heav-y 
fat teardrops to salt the ground 

CHORUS x just once x should be twice 

VERSE 2
 
sky parts selves that I couldn’t change 
1000 cuts from a searing gaze 
in your eyes
i saw your resentment, reflection 
What “us” is there left to save?

and yah push me, and yah push me
for your peace 
and the unhappiness it builds in me 
a ticking kindness—you never cared to—

INSTRUMENTAL BREAK 

OUTRO 
(underneath: some words are better left, on the shoreline) 
I think I need to hide away today 
I think i want to tell you what I think 
I think I need another drink 
I think I need to hide away today 
I think i want to tell you what I think 
I think I’m gonna make a big mistake 
i think i’m gonna say a big mistake 


Shoreline: Unpolished

i gotta stop checking find my friends 

lyrics: 

this is 4 tha girls that never call 
this is 4 tha drinks i shoulda bought 
this is 4 the times i had it all 
i dunno what to say to you 

this is 4 the boys that never call
this is 4 the shoes i shoulda bought 
this is 4 the times i've given up 
i dunno what to say to you

this is 4 tha [*****]

I made this in college when I was sad all my friends were studying abroad 😭

Berlin

finished watching Katsuhiro Otomo's Akira (1988) been obsessed with the movie and the score. Made a track inspired by the world and what I think Kaneda and his boys might bike too.

Akira

Take off my bra cause this body
Hasn’t been mine for a minute
Take of mascara that
I put on for you
To dance for you
In a dark room
I’d be a doll
Bend for you

Cheerleading practice
Got no manners
Always landed
Head first
Down and dirty
Too flirty
Fell in love
Feet first

And If I make it through
And If I make it through

Take off this bag 'cause its been to
heavy for a minute
This weight that I put on for you
I held for you
In a crowded room
I'd be a (UHH) undress for you!

Swimming practice
going backwards—
Do I sink or swim
Always trying
Not surviving
Do I learn to forgive?

And If I make it through
And if I make it through
And if I make it through

And If I make it through
And if I make it through
ahhhh
And If I make it through

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Deuén

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