I'm not strong enough to tell the truth
still haunted by the fear, that I killed the one in me
when he called for help I did it again
pushing him away saying, let me be... farewell!

after I crossed the invisible line
which had split us to you and I
after I made the final win
I have lost you with my sin

it was easier than fight
so no one needs to lose
believe the words others say
try it and become my friend

the destruction of all happened
faster than anything
feelings have become very strange
I want him back, the one I buried

I'm not strong enough to do it again
I'm not strong enough to tell him farewell

after I crossed the invisible line
which had split us to you and I
after I made the final win
I have lost you with my sin

Buried

I see the sun and I feel joy again
tell me where does this heavenly peace come from?
it's the only chance to rid my soul of pain
to control my life, to let it be done

I can't remember when I was happy last time
before all my life went down
and I know it won't last long
this state of mind

I'm saying goodbye to you but it's so hard
I'm greeting the end, awaiting there
six feet under cold windowpane

outer calm, pain within
chosen as victim of an everlasting torment

it's too late to say, this farewell
is too fast, but my act will tell
I'm whispering one last prayer on the sill
the moment of truth beyond free will

no, I'm losing control
forsaken by limbs (I'm) falling back inward
the circle of fate controlling all hard

(I've) tried so many times to escape the curse
reality shattering in bizarre curves

outer calm, pain within
chosen as victim of never-ending torment

Outer Calm, Pain Within

he no longer hears my words, (I'm) leaving without a noise
how could he ever understand the uncertainty of my choice?
house of ghosts in which we lived will remain a memory
I'd rather take the scars with me than to die in agony

my tears are falling down as I sit wasted, so close, so far
I can see her face, but I can't reach it anymore
and the world has changed that day, the whispering of past will claim
something that I'm not...

the thorns of rose won't sting no more one last piece of my aching core
writings in the sands of times veiled by moments of our lies
I've never bent my head to fate, but this step is my ultimate

nothing ever on the mend
you won't ever comprehend
we are only barren minds

running forever, falling whenever our past scratches the door
sitting there wasted, once I have tasted sorrow of her silent soul

forever...

Forever Falling

sorrow is called my today's friend
coming from the place like no one else
holding his hand and letting him lead me
going somewhere, he's taking me

I will show you what you've missed
things you only see in your dreams
your silence shall be forever dismissed
now tell me the answer on your knees!

sorrow is gone, he was a dream
but the things he showed me were too real
words he said are carved in me
as inscription of the memorial
why does my past return to me
when it cannot be changed by some dream?

asking me why with plea in your eyes
I remember I knew the answer
quiet words remain unsaid
but forever sounding in my head

forgotten the words
I'll remember forever
lost the moments
of my endless hesitation

dreams, they fell to shards
(I'm) walking forward on these sharps
scars remind the unhealed wounds
made to man by his mistakes

one was the chance
that I've missed a million times
now I can't get rid of
those words in my mind

devil's smile, while you explained your lies
I remember I had a question
quiet words remain unsaid
but forever sounding in my head

every day I see the same situation
every day I’m trying to change my answer
'cause real for you is what you hear
and it doesn't matter what I feel

imagination is my enemy
attempting to stick the shards
confusing me

Shards

sometimes I feel like deserted planet
there is nobody near and I'm disappearing
like steps in the sand I tried to made
everything's gone, sadness remained

in the darkness, where my being ends
sometimes I need to speak with myself
I'm trying to ignore the lies
forcing me to close my eyes

everything seems to be covered by snow
memories of past are frozen to stone
helpless body belongs to his head
who's the commander and who carries the pain

waiting so long for the sun to come
I need its light to save my soul
all the other stars that I've seen before
I left behind in my hope...

why we must get hurt in our lives to understand
that we all have feelings?
why we must get hurt from our lives to understand
that we are all equal?

sometimes I feel like deserted planet
that was burned between the walls of labyrinth
leaded by fate shortens the way
but it takes too long to get away

Waiting For The Sun

sorrow - no hope to escape
crashing - disintegrating brain
making false odds, why am I so brave?
sideway motion - deforming shape
time stopped by the collision
metalic smell reach my nose
my ears are hit by sudden noise
trying to focus my blured vision

liquid warmth of my blood on my skin
painful punch from the airbag on my chin
thoughtless, foolish decision is my sin
unable to say goodbye to the beloved and to the hated

stepping out from the vehicle
confused by the happening
any movement seems like a miracle
people are approaching

the world 'round falls apart
screams resonate in the far
witnesses not watching me
staring closely to my car

liquid warmth of my blood on my skin
painful punch from the airbag on my chin
thoughtless, foolish decision is my sin
unable to say goodbye to the beloved and to the hated

I turn back to where they gaze
spot my own lifeless face
realize there I lie
I know the reason why...

In A Hurry

I was right there when the sun came down
the silence went black and the earth started to crack
changes seem to charge immensely through the city
built upon the clouds, upon minds grounded to pity

step by step, I see this world crumbling, deforming into
something fierce, I wonder how I've gotten here
my sight went black...

this is my creation
I don't have to obey
this is my shell made of
positive energy!

opening my eyes, quickly realized
I don't need to fear those beasts in my own mind

lights streamed down from skies
I'm greeting the sunrise
silence is denied
and the ground healed to its might

Positive Energy

grey clouds are nailed to the sky
winter's weird-coloured delight
despair springs from its misty hands
little mind in distant lands

shades of the world fused into one
pure confusion, damage done
always wondered how it feels
now the feeling becomes too real

(you've) filled this room with memories
of (your) long forgotten former life
then the door has locked itself
and you've stayed here as prisoner of your mind

kneeling down in your prison cell
trembling as a child with fear
sworn to hide - you've had the taste
of what it's like to be someone's faded memory

Faded Memory

Pass Away

Forever Falling (Instrumental Version)

Atmospheric Metal band from Dunajská Streda, Slovakia
Contact us at: info.aprilweeps@gmail.com

The early years of the band April Weeps can be traced back to the year 2004 to a town called Dunajská Streda, where a group of friends got together to show the appreciation for metal music not only by listening to it, but also playing it. After a long reflecting on the band’s name, APRIL WEEDS was born. The band derived its inspiration from names like MY DYING BRIDE, HEAVENWOOD, TRISTANIA, IN FLAMES, DIMMU BORGIR, THEATRE OF TRAGEDY, a genre that was not typical for the vicinity of Dunajská Streda, especially with a great use of keyboards. Their music was not easy to categorize, they included the best from each of the sources of inspiration, but they had one thing in common: a melody. After a year of rehearsing and a few gigs played, April Weeds recorded their first demo in a home studio. Unfortunately, the next 5 years after the recording were very hard on the young musicians. The constant line-up changes, loss of rehearsing place and bad luck forced the band to meet its fate and get separated. But the willpower and love for metal of several past members have led to revival and after new members recruiting in 2010, April Weeps was formed. 3/4 of a year later another demo is being recorded and another crisis strikes. The band gets separated again, mostly because of personal conflicts and differences in opinions related to the band. Nevertheless thanks to the persistence of core members in December 2011 the circle was sealed and the final line-up was established. In September 2012, April Weeps recorded their debut album Outer calm, Pain within in 999th studio, which is released later, in February 2013 and consists of 11 songs. The band is currently working on its first single/official promo video.