and anytime you like, you can stop this fight
turn placid in your mirror vain
a room of windows burns
it's all the same
nothing else remains
an eyelid armature of pain
all cold twisted in the grain
pharmaceutical chains
karma points and all, I'd like to taste you
have you seen my baseball?
at all?
I recall, that you saw...
maybe once or twice...
maybe once or twice...
maybe once or twice I caressed the thought of you soaking in moonlight
I saw a puzzle there
and then it comes alive
I felt under my skin trembling with excitement I cannot compare
You slide into my mind
I'd like to touch the soft and perfect gentle gliding inside, you hide...
keeping pages torn, invisible reality of nowhere and no one
and I divide the wet fruit pure
inside, I glide
it's right, so tight
inside, I glide
it's right, so tight
inside, inside, inside, inside, inside, inside...

Maybe Once Or Twice

All Of This

Do you feel this waking the burning through each day
Used to be so far away, there's not much left to say
Why, you're sitting empty, decaying as you cry
Emptiness, a lonely kiss beneath a weary sigh
Don't ask me why, no reply
Still, I sit with my head against this broken fence of arrogance and scream
No one hears me, empty
Awake in a dream
Flippin in the afternoon, I overshoot an often-traveled route
Falling down, I reassume, A loon I am without a parachute
What is this you're saying?
I cannot understand you
These words you say, well anyway
Whatever it may make you
Why are you laughing?
I still can't comprehend you
These games you play, well anyway
I guess you'll have a nice day
I shouldn't stay
Not this way
Well, I guess we'll get through this mess, but I must confess
I'm feeling blessed
I scream
No one hears me
Empty
Awake in a dream
Turn my head, I smell perfume
It looks as though I will be leaving soon
Someone else enters the room
I'm convinced by now he is a baboon
What is this we're making?
Of this life we're given
Born to die and taught to try and somehow learned to lie
Why is this world breaking?
Chaos that we live in
All we understand is that we'll never comprehend
Don't ask me why
I'll only lie
Still, I sit with my eyes against this broken frame of existence and Dream
No one hears me
Empty
A blank empty dream, I dream
No one hears me
I scream
A blank empty dream

Aurora

No One Hears Me

another version of All of This with a different lead guitar (clean) and an added Wurlitzer

All For You

If I may say, I am only human, and my weakness is my taste for your blood
Each day I live in a lucid vision and with each step I take you follow,
So, fall so                                                                                                                     
Far away that there's no way for me                                                        
To ever see you
As gone as gone can be you flew from me
What now?
I need you
How long will I have to walk these blood trails licking on my wounds you're calling upon me
When I wake up in the absence of you, I remember ink, body and blood in love
Ink, body and blood 
You have my heart, my soul, my love
Through thick and thin we'll meet again
My soul, my love
Ink, body and blood 
You have my heart, my soul, my love
Through thick and thin we'll meet again
My soul, my love

some other else one thing

Ink, Body And Blood

A breath of patience it's all that I can do to realize 
that every day I get to open up my eyes and close them tight
Breaking all of me
Washed upon the waves into the light
Reach into my pocket
Sand sifting through my hands

And when I close my eyes
A little blue inside

I try to understand why the nature of my head was cramped
Instead of freeing me, every single thought became a theme
Now when I'm completely comfortable with me and not society
I walk out on the beach and cover myself with sand

And when I close my eyes
A cloverleaf I find
A little blue inside
I found a dream in time

And when I close my eyes
A cloverleaf I find
A little blue inside
I found it just in time

A Little Blue Inside

Ugly

I feel the brain break away
Peel back the skin
Now do you feel okay?
Is that just a warning I feel? 
Apparently not even I can reveal
Up ahead I see the nothingness of everyday just wasting away
I tried to find a comfort in this, but nothing fits it just goes back to the way it is
I bleed until my heart stops beating 
and turn to me I see it's all so ugly
If anything, I'd say I could be happy if only one day they could reach me
Through all of this there's nothing I miss more than ignorance and tasting your lips
So be it, I cannot cry as I wash my hands of all of your strife
I don't have to close my eyes because just like me you're ugly as is life


I feel the pain fade away
Feeling again 
Now everything's okay
Awake in the morning I feel 
Realize nothing around me is real
Up ahead I see a fucking mess 
The better we get we learn to say less
I finally found a comfort in this one thing fits it jumps up out of the craziness 
My heart is just a beating dummy
I turn to you I see it's not all ugly
If anything, I'd say I could be happy if only one day you could see me
Though all of this is fucking madness 
For a little bit of tasting your hips
So be it, I will not lie 
Try understanding why are we alive?
I'm opening all my eyes, now I see how beautiful is life

Ugly

I
I just
I adjust
I just want this
I just want this peace
I just want this piece of ass
I want this piece of ass to last
to be the last
procrastinate
wait
just wait
just wait till I get my hands all over your skin
tight
I might just be right
is that alright?
if I take all night in your delightful sight
if given time
this time 
is it time?
right on time
and I don't care if it's a crime
to explore your skin
I'm sure that I won't write another rhyme
about that bitch before anymore
I touch
can I touch on one more thing
I won't even sing 
this isn't anywhere I've ever been before, 
but I think it's fine
you're fine, I think
it's a sign of some grand design
all opened up 
your taste divine just might become mine 
if you come, come with me 
and be willing to bleed in vulnerability
while we shine 
and realign

Realign

I've observed her in her natural habitat
Seen her feed upon her prey
Seen her 
she lived with me 
kill 
just passing through
I slept next to her 
next to her 
next to her everday 
everyday, everyday 
everyday
I've seen her get her way 
seen her go astray
I've seen her manipulate to entertain
Seen her ask to take and then throw away
and then throw away
I've seen her go insane
seen her go insane
breathing fire 
dancing naked in the rain
breathing fire 
dancing naked in the rain

I've seen her turn into an eight headed monster
monster
monster
and devour the souls of the innocent
and still she goes 
I dare you try to stop her 
try to stop her
dare you try to stop her
empowering the hole of innocence

I've seen her decide she was more important
I've seen her having fun because I didn't understand
I've seen her with bloody needles scattered all around her
I've seen her eating my heart out of my own hand

I've seen her turn into an eight headed monster
and devour the souls of the innocent
and still, she goes 
I dare you 
try to stop her 
empowering the hole of innocence

the hole

I decided to cover/remix White Rabbit by Grace Slick (Jefferson Airplane)
just for shits and giggles

it was fun

White Rabbit

my pleasure

"the thrill of getting high,
it's one of those things 
i struggled with a lot
that i struggled with alot
i struggled with alot 
you know 
like stupid shit
you know
the thrill of getting high
then i stopped 
and shit got way better
waaay better
like almost immediately
almost immediately"

I never would 
have expected 
all that happened
but so, it did
and here I am
so far from home
I fold my hands
and walk alone

and so I live
and so do you
I picture you
smiling skies blue
remember this
I will find you
the sweetest kiss 
smiling skies blue

"like almost immediately
dopamine rush
almost immediately 
dopamine 
dopamine rush
dopamine 
dopamine rush"

the crystal ball 
inside my head
i swat her falls
and she plays dead
twice mercury
so musical
my purity
so beautiful

the wind and trees 
sunrise and you
like ocean breeze
smiling skies blue
mountains and waves
and walks on the moon
like golden rays 
smiling skies blue

not at this moment in time
you don't have to answer why 
but now i feel like 
where am i
am i where
am i where
am i
where am i?

Smiling

i dont want to clip your wings 
so ill let you fly
i dont want to break these strings
if it makes you cry
ill just close my eyes
i just know we're magical
makers of the sky
it may not be practical
god only knows why

ooh baby it's alright
someday we'll see the light
ooh baby it's alright

it's only life
we might as well 
live it till we die
don't you know 
life isn't hell
unless you just don't try
don't try don't try 
don't try
do you comprehehnd my words 
hear me in your sleep
i feel ive been knocked down 
head first
sinking shoulder deep
will you finally quench your thirst?
is that a fantazy
i don't think that i know what's worse
so fuck it
ill just be 
me

ooh baby it's okay
sunlight upon my face
somehow i'm okay

okay

wckd

All that time I was enjoying existing together 
you were looking for something better
There I was, thinking we'd found eachother
While you were just keeping appearances covered 
Setting your traps, so you have ammunition
To maintain control of every condition
But, your control is all in your head
I conceded to let you win, instead

I mean, it really doesn't matter to me
and, it seemed to make you so happy
and somehow, now that makes you mad
I mean, it really doesn't matter to me
and letting you have your way 
seemed to make you so happy
and somehow, now that makes you mad
and letting you have your way is bad

You destroyed me with your 
Emotional violence
Discarded heartbeat 
Ghost in silence
Ghost in silence

I'm sure you're still a fucking chaotic explosion 
of everything that's ever been imagined 
instead of stuck here in my head
it's all i can fathom 
you broke the sentiment 
of who I thought I was 
by not being who you said you weren't 

instead, still stuck
still stuck
still stuck the fuck in my head
instead 
stuck, stuck, stuck
stuck the fuck in my head
instead
still stuck, stuck
still stuck the fuck in my head
your emotional violence
instead
still stuck 
still stuck the fuck in my head

Ghost In Silence

video at https://youtu.be/hB602HZHG00

get out of my fucking head
i need 
to throw up
my chest aches
did it even 
hurt you at all?
did you 
ever care?
you don't know 
how to deal 
so you 
shut down
steal some energy
from another 
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
everytime 
I close my eyes
you are
always there
you are
always there
you are
always there
you are
always there
you are
always there
and I 
can't rest 
because you're never here
you equated me 
to garbage
discarded me 
with all that you refuse 
to face about yourself 
because I made you see
you really fucked up
you really fucked up
you really fucked up
 my whole being
I can feel 
my heart 
in my head 
and my head 
wants to die
they love you
thank you for this 
black magic 
fuckery
they love you 
thank you
I miss 
every second of you
maybe I'm a fool
I wonder
I wonder
I wonder 
if you'll ever not be selfish
I am the fool 
you literally shut me out 
then told me it shouldn't bother me
I know it's not about me
I know you're finding yourself
you dipped out
good call
like I can just stop loving you 
the fact that you knew all of this 
and did it anyway
blows my mind
like I can just stop loving you 
stabs me in the heart
fuck that
fuck that
fuck that
so full of chaos
fuck that
fuck that
fuck that
fuck that
that's just the way it is now
another day still insane 
I guess that's okay 
it's only pain 
still insane
it's only pain
I guess that's okay
it's only pain

Only Pain

Fuck you for not giving me a reason to be mean
Fuck you for not being a drama queen
Fuck you for not being sketch, acting mysteriously
Fuck you, to you
Fuck you, from me
And just generally
Fuck you
You wicked witch, did your brain glitch erase your memory?
Fuck you for never saying no and always loving me freely

Fuck you for being everything I wanted you to be
Fuck you for being such a bitch to everyone but me
Fuck you because I can't fuck you
Spontaneously
You're my beautiful fantasy

Beautiful beautiful fantasy 
I'll never be completely free or vulnerable again
Fuck you 
Engraved into my mind 
Fuck you
Written onto your skin
Beautiful memories
no matter what I do, everything reminds me of you
everywhere I go, years of memories follow

I can't go outside without being reminded 
what the fuck
you act like we don't know eachother
your eyes are daggers 
stabbing into my chest 
and bleed into eternity
daggers bleed into eternity
i just want to stop talking about you
I forced myself to stop saying your name 

it's the definition of insane
i'm torturing myself 
fuck 
i need help
you fucking bitch 
i love you 
go fuck yourself

your eyes are daggers
stabbing into my chest
and bleed into eternity

I just want to stop talking about you
I forced myself to stop saying your name
it's the definition of insane
I'm torturing myself 
fuck
I need help
you fucking bitch
I love you 
go fuck yourself
in joy

Shh! (A Book of Quiet Poems)

I Love You

It's Yourself (Come Let Me In)

...so, my earliest memory or maybe it was a dream
I don't quite remember anyway, what was I saying?
anyway, I woke up one day and saw myself see myself within 
I felt against myself by myself I was being held against myself
hiding in between being comfortable uncomfortably 
unsure of who I was of who I was supposed to be?
why was everyone around me as far as I could see 
I see them do exactly the same thing
serve themselves another dose of look at me 
look at me all shiny 
look at me 

look at me forfeiting every opportunity to be a better human 
to be a better human being
living this chaotic synthetic reality obliviously 
dreaming of nothing but staring at your fucking screen
addicted to the program systematic brainwashing senseless addict systematic 
addicted to the programs the programs programs in control of everyone and everything
in control of everyone and everything 

me and you and i should try and help darkness shrouded cover open your eyes
if you can hear this, pay attention please, listen carefully to me, you are free, you are free
you are not a made of physicality, you do not die, you do not die, you do not die 
you are made of the original thought 
you are infinite in perpetuity 

you are everything, every being, every feeling that is happening
entirely of unity, eternally completely 
infinity must always be you and me and unity
is there anybody out there out of their mind?
who thinks about these things all of the time?
you don't want to sound crazy so, you keep it all inside
but there's no fucking way nobody else sees through the lies
sees through the lies, sees through the lies

you are everything, every being, every feeling that is happening
entirely of unity, eternally completely, infinity must always be you and me and unity
is there anybody out there out of their mind?
who thinks about these things all of the time?
all of the time
you don't want to sound crazy so you keep it all inside
crazy, crazy
but there's no fucking way nobody else sees through the lies
what were you doing in my mind? 
what were you doing in my mind?

hey, I'm here, come let me in 
where the fuck have you been? 
please don't turn me into a ghost again
hey, I'm here, come let me in 
where the fuck have you been? 
please please don't turn into a ghost again
please please don't turn into a ghost again
please please don't turn me into a ghost again

It's Yourself (Come Let Me In)

maybe somewhere safe 
time just floats away
the glass is always full 
and nothing's cynical
that's just great, I made this choice
the only chance to hear you voice
piece to piece that I have kept
but now I realize nothing's left

may i rest in peace 
or must i die before i sleep
may i ease this pain 
or must i die before i wake

can you hold me down?
can you hold me now?
can you hold me down?
can you hold me now?
all these questions pushing me
but they really mean nothing
still your sting keeps on burning
even though it's memories

you can't hold me down
so I rize up off the ground
high above this dream 
I ask can you just hold me?

can you hold me down?
can you hold me now?
can you hold me down?
can you hold me now?

you can't hold me down
so I rise above the ground 
and high above this dream
I ask can you just hold me?

Hold (You Can, Can't You?)

Beneath the Skin

I feel the light upon me 
another day beginning 
these same four walls surround me 
somehow after all you found me
as it begins to drag on 
where could have all the time gone?
but, anyway 
I keep on waiting for someone to respond
and so I've come a long way
so many dues left to pay
so many habits left to break
before I slip away

again, I'm giving in 
you have to play the game to win
and everyday it starts again

and does your life control you?
you listen when you're told to?
sit back and watch them hold you
act as though they've always owned you
or do you open your eyes?
ENJOY YOUR LIFE 'TIL YOU DIE
and be yourself, even though
everyone's living a lie
I saw you whisking away 
regardless of what you say
still, you don't recognize me 
will I live to see the day?

again, it's sinking in
your eyes reveal concealed within
serene divine origin

I feel the night upon me
another day behind me
and I have tried to reach the 
peace and harmony inside me
out of the blue I faded
too many laws created
I didn't realize that
freedom was so complicated
and with time I awaken
all of my words mistaken
my insignificant beliefs
can you see beneath the skin?
can you see beneath the skin?
do you see beneath the skin?

-aramisroman

Beneath The Skin

Once upon a time
I could understand my life
Nothing left behind
Looking forward to the sky
Now it seems I try
So much harder to get by

Wait right here 
I'll be back
Way before
You start to crack
Borderline out of time
Meet some new friends of mine

Can't get through to you
Searching for the words to say
Nothing left to do
While I'm sitting here all day
Once upon a dream
A dream I cast away

Dancing eyes
Hold me down
Hypnotized anyhow
Not how it used to be
Falling apart of me

I speak, of course
It is my choice 
To use my voice 
With all its force
Spend my time
Within the lines 
That are this rhyme
Inside my mind

Listening to me
You're just looking at my face
Life's a mystery
When you're staring blankly into space
Lying through your teeth
I don't believe anything you say
Bow your head and weep
Because tomorrow is a brand new day

Lift your head off the ground
Turn around what you found
Everyone has begun
Pick up your bags and run

Why waste your breath 
On what was left 
And kept behind
An endless depth
Spend some time 
Inside your mind
Open and let your true light shine

Dancing Eyes

official lyric video here 
https://youtu.be/OJ61-oCP8IE

I smoke too much
speeding, your touch
but, somehow I will break out of this nervous clutch
then, free at last, my darkness past
I'll open up myself into this world so vast
ah ah 
ah ah ah ah 
ah ah ah ah 

now looking back upon the tracks
I'm lucky to be here alive, I realize that
so, here I stand, my life in hand
I forgot who I was, that wasn't what I planned
ah ah 
ah ah ah ah 
ah ah ah ah 

you make me push and shove
so, it seems from above
as my dreams washed in love
you make me, you make me
high

but, once again, I'm still your friend
I hope you will receive the letters that I send
now, standing tall, I will not fall
I'm hoping that this world will listen to my call
ah ah 
ah ah ah ah 
ah ah ah ah 

I think too much, a mental crutch
a broken down receiver that has lost it's touch
now I believe all I perceive is what my life becomes
and all that I achieve
ah ah 
ah ah ah ah 
ah ah ah ah 

you make me push and shove
so it seems from above
as my dreams washed in love
you make me, you make me
high

you make me break the wall
ashes, dreams, waterfalls
hear my screams down the hall
you make me, you make me
high

You Make Me High

video link here - https://youtu.be/s42n2f8zjxo

everything I said was true
all that I said I would do
look what we'd already been through
NEVER would I have left you
everything you said was lies
you didn't even fucking try
I realize it was your pride
too ashamed to compromise

you say that you fell out of love with me
I'm so confused, how the fuck could that be?
PLEASE hear me out, I'll give you anything
every day of my life I want you to be happy
the fact that you cannot be happy with me
is what HURTS most of all, holy shit, does that sting!
now, I can't breathe, I am suffocating
how do I wake up from this fucking dream?

the reason that I was the cause of your grief
is 'cause you couldn't lie to yourself around me
so, you decided to abandon me
and call ME a liar, said your love wasn't free
uoy evol I tub, neverending
that is forever, okmd loves beans
uoy evol I tub, infinitely
that is forever 
so, mote it be

Uoy Evol I, Tub

video here ↙
https://youtu.be/6mxOVJZkKC4

Prying open carefully, caught up by the stone canyons deep ingrown
A miniscule distraction please, there's nowhere to jump off
You started the clock, saturating bones
Flying tattered wings, a million trivial nothings
A fairytale of flame and magical insane
Combustible reality, when everything can suddenly explode
Radioactive glow

Guess I am the patient, tied neat in disarray
Falling down the dangers I've unlocked the vault of pain
May I be abrasive?
A needle in the vein

Like kerosene emotions, a fire in the eye
A stumbling block of mine
Living somewhere comfortably
There's no such thing as home
Anonymous, unknown
Call me crazy, maybe so
I guess we'll never know if I can be set free from all the chains prohibiting me
Can we be dead?
Maybe we really can be... maybe we really can be dead

Guess I must be patient, inventing up a ghost
While hanging on the mountainside of what scares you the most
Suddenly it's hard to breathe...
I'm gasping now for air...
This may take a while, but I'll handle with care
Guess I was too patient, inventing up a ghost
While falling off the mountainside of what scares me the most
You make it so hard to breathe...
I'm gasping out for air...
You hurt me then smile
Yet I handled with care

So Mote It Be

Volatile 2 (You Make It So Hard To Breathe)

I reached my upload limit on here a few months ago and as a result I have been and will probably continue to be absent from this platform. I don't want to delete songs that people have liked, eventhough they're almost all available on Spotify, YouTube, Apple, etc. 
Anyhow, I am most active on my youtube channel. The link is below
 Everything you hear on these tracks was me. Aramis.
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