wrestling in dirt pits - ethel cain

doe hunting (demo) – ethel cain

lyrics:

No one told me the right way, the right way to go about this
So I'll figure it out for myself
'Cause how much is too much to give you?
Well, I may never know, so I'll just give until there's nothing else
Yeah, I'll give, give, give
Until there's nothing else
Give my all
Until it all runs out
Give, give
And I'll have no regrets
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give
No one told me how bad I'd need you (need you)
But I somehow arrived at that conclusion all by myself (all by myself)
And I want all you have to offer (to offer)
So I'll offer myself and I'll just give until there's nothing else
I'll give, give, give
Until there's nothing else
Give my all
Until it all runs out
Give, give
And I'll have no regrets
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give, give, give
Until there's nothing else
Give my all
Until it all runs out
Give, give
And I'll have no regrets
I'll give until there's nothing left

give until theres nothing left - ethel cain

ethel cain - great wide nowhere

lyrics:

I've been sleeping in the dead body
Of a dead deer out by I-40
I dragged it there as a bed
And consummated my love
In a purple stitch
Like a scratched out itch
I am ugly, I fear
I believe what I hear
And now the push has come to shove 

I wanna waste myself
And go take a drive
Take too sharp a corner
And probably take a life

In the end of it all
When you can hardly move
And they say you’ve still got the world to go
Stay strong
It’s a long, unfortunate while til curtain call, call

I’ve been poking at the dead body
Of the man that I oncе loved in my garden
He was good to mе and I went and I soiled his love
I will not see heaven
Surrendered to the fauna
Am I a bad person
For not knowing what I wanted

I couldn’t face myself
So I avert my eyes
Take two shots in warning
And then take the dive
And I dive

Into the end of it all
When you can hardly move
And they say you’ve still got the world to go
Stay strong
It’s a long, unfortunate while til curtain call, call
So I call
Dreading the one
That one good morning
Will destroy me
When you’re gone
We’ve been young
Immortal, even
But now we turn and wait for kingdom come

You can leave the windows open
Here in our forever home
Bite down on your shoulder
And if you bleed, then I’ll know

a long, unfortunate while - ethel cain

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ethel cain - good boy

Boarding School

Boarding school by Lana Del Rey

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

A Knit Of My Own Fibers

ethel cain - 78fahrenheit (demo)

A Knit Of My Own Fibers

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