The power is in me

TRAUMA- Josh A

(Hook)

They think it's cool to get messed up; man I'm really messed up
People never understand, now all I am is fed up
I wish that I could let it out, wish it wasn't fake love
Wish that I could make it out, all of it is made up
All of you, are in a box that you can't seem to escape
But now you're sayin' "damnit, that must've been a mistake"
And now you've got these issues that you can't fake
"I'm insecure and so sad, so let's drown it with the hate"

(Verse)

They think that love is so, hard to show, feelings written in the stone
Heart had turn to liquid gold- now I'm broke, who'd have known? 
Feelin' like the only thing you ever did was hit 'n go, on roll, pick up the phone
I just hope to god you understand how I feel
Had me contemplatin', "was this thing really real?"
Never called like you said you would, what is the deal yeah (yeah)
I really wanna know if you're down to come and chill...

(Hook)

They think it's cool to get messed up; man I'm really messed up
People never understand, now all I am is fed up
I wish that I could let it out, wish it wasn't fake love
Wish that I could make it out, all of it is made up
All of you, are in a box that you can't seem to escape
But now you're sayin' "damnit, that must've been a mistake"
And now you've got these issues that you can't fake
"I'm insecure and so sad, so let's drown it with the hate"

(Verse 2)

Man you're just messin' with it
You say you love me, aye that's crazy, cause you never give it
I don't know how this could've happened, need to take a second
I seem to wish that I could be the one that you would mention, 
but now I'm sittin' distant
And all I ever wanted was for you to (miss me)
I was busy patient, now you've got me contradicting
And after all the facts, I pursued my wishful thinking
Hoping I was it, but I wasn't, now I'm empty-

(Hook)

They think it's cool to get messed up; man I'm really messed up
People never understand, now all I am is fed up
I wish that I could let it out, wish it wasn't fake love
Wish that I could make it out, all of it is made up
All of you, are in a box that you can't seem to escape
But now you're sayin' "damnit, that must've been a mistake"
And now you've got these issues that you can't fake
"I'm insecure and so sad, so let's drown it with the hate"

Fake People Make Me Anxious (4lexf)

Featuring @itsyungvan
Produced by @taurs & @prod5head
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
You can't relive the past tense and it's not fair
Stuck into my old ways like I'm still there
I'm try'na move past this
Grown cold from your absence
But I won't cry I'll just be glad that it happened

No I won't lie you really hurt me
Wounded my pride
Am I deserving
Of all this pain
I long for better days
'Cause I don't wanna feel this way

(yung van)
We weren't perfect
But you got me
And I thought we were steady as a
Steady as a heartbeat
Oh now you've turned into a nightmare
And I can't let you go until I've held you
But you're not here

I miss how things were better than
You didn't need acetaminophen
I know I talk to fast without my ADHD medicine
Some sounds still trigger memories
Like that loud train on Elmer's street
That woke you up at night
After you had fallen fast asleep

Listen on Spotify!

Past Tense w/ yung van (Prod. Taurs & 5head)

my lifes so fucking shitty - rough

fancy strut (prod. jabarionthebeat x david morse)

Artist on the song : Cavasoul
Song was produced by: Jovi & Xsus
All Rights Reserved // Distrokid 2022
lxtinsheep

thoughts of losing you

thoughts of losing you w/ cavasoul

RUN ALONG (feat. fowsha)

no hearts </3

Growing up was all I wanted, wasn't it?
Freedom felt so good for a minute 
Now, I feel like my childhood slipped through my hands 
And I'm not even a full adult yet

I'm way over my head (x2) 

Dear young me, can you really tell me what I'm doing? (what I'm doing)
Cause lately, I feel like I'm losing all my sense of reality
Is it my emotions fogging up my glasses (I don't know)
Or is it my constant need for acceptance almost 

Dear younger me (x5)

Why does it matter so much now, but then I couldn't care less? 
All I knew was, "I want to play pretend" 
(now I do it for the wrong reasons)

Dear young me, can you really tell me what I'm doing? (what I'm doing)
Cause lately, I feel like I'm losing all my sense of reality 
Is it my emotions fogging up my glasses (I don't know)
Or is it my constant need for acceptance almost

Dear younger me (x5) 
Dear younger me, what are you thinking? 

Dear young me, can you really tell me what I'm doing? (what I'm doing)
Cause lately, I feel like I'm losing all my sense of reality 
Is it my emotions fogging up my glasses (I don't know)
Or is it my constant need for acceptance almost

Dear younger me

Younger Me (Prod. Matthew May)

cant change us

cant change us (prod. hollowprpl)

Track For the "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun" LP

Warning Shots

Paper Chase

Its Inversity

Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

Homicide (feat. Eminem)

The Search

Change

Archon (Prod. Noxygen)

Hello my name is Julian I am 23 and I make music and other stuff I also play video games and pretty much a nerd as you as me

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