For my Lover, who makes my life wonderful every day

Partner

This song has been written with a certain amount of sadness and resentment that you feel when the person you love rejects you. In french I would say that « j’avais le méga seum ». Ow yeah, I had it.

While the lyrics may sound full of reproaches turned against that girl (and there are some, not many, but it’s not the point), I also have my part of responsibilities in the story. At some point, I said to her that if she became my girlfriend, it would motivate me to do the things I’d never done and help me get stronger to finally become the man I’ve always wanted to be.

That was a big mistake.

Because It meant I gave her the responsibility to make me evolve, but man, you’re alone in this shit, you have to do it only for yourself and not count on someone else!

So above all, it must be an electroshock to wake up from this apathy I’ve been in for too long, and to work my way to the life I want and finally meet this better version of myself, which exists but is asleep inside of me.

I deleted a third verse that was about this and about the « be brave and keep going on » state of mind you need to have in this situation, and I believe it’s an important meaning the song lost.

P.S.: the song is called « Heartbeat » and I’ve just learnt, while writing this text, that « heartbeat » can mean « driving force ». Well that’s lucky, because it’s exactly what the song is about. What I mean is that yes, my heart beat for her amazing beauty and personality mixed together in a wonderful girl, she would surely have been a great motivation and the perfect addition to my life.
But fact is my heart is beating for me first, and its rhythm should be the one to make me keep on going and want more, for me only.


Lyrics:
One time you said you'd like to be with me
That we may build something together
That maybe we could love each other
But at the last minute you changed your mind
Well I think I know why
And it made me so sad
So here is a song I wrote about the love that died
'Cause we never tried

There's a place in my mind
That was made for you
That is just for you

It's no secret now
It's been empty for a while
Oh I'd like you to be there now

'Cause it's only for you
That my heart is beatin'
I just can't stop believin'
You'll be by my side

It's only for you
That my heart is beatin'
Can't you hear it racin'
Oh it's only for you girl

It's only for you
It's only for you girl
It's only for you
It's only for you girl

But you can't live forever with a doubt in your eyes
We could have been lovers but in another time
No I can't wait forever with your face on my mind
We could be together but we ran outta time

There's an empty space in my life
And you just went through
It's like I always knew
'Bout you and I

Now it's only a matter of time
Before I slip off of your mind
It's only for you
That I keep on believin'
My heart is still beatin'
But I feel dead inside

It's only for you
That my heart is beatin'
I'm so afraid to be forgotten
To be pushed aside

It's easy for you
It's easy for you girl
It's easy for you
To say goodbye

You will live forever with a doubt in your eyes
I could have been your lover but you don't want to be mine
No I can't wait forever for a love that is a lie
We could have each other but we ran outta time

I need someone to love
I need someone to love
I need someone to share my love with
I
I need someone to love
I need someone to love
I need someone to share my love with
I

Love

Heartbeat

Piano version
+1 Semitone

Lyrics:
One time you said you'd like to be with me
That we may build something together
That maybe we could love each other
But at the last minute you changed your mind
Well I think I know why
And it made me so sad
So here is a song I wrote about the love that died
'Cause we never tried

There's a place in my mind
That was made for you
That is just for you

It's no secret now
It's been empty for a while
Oh I'd like you to be there now

'Cause it's only for you
That my heart is beatin'
I just can't stop believin'
You'll be by my side

It's only for you
That my heart is beatin'
Can't you hear it racin'
Oh it's only for you girl
It's only for you

You can't live forever with a doubt in your eyes
We could have been lovers but in another time
But I can't wait forever with your face on my mind
We could be together but we ran outta time

There's an empty space in my life
And you just went through
It's like I always knew
'Bout you and I

Now it's only a matter of time
Before I slip off of your mind
But it's only for you
That I keep on believin'
My heart is still beatin'
But I feel dead inside

It's only for you
That my heart is beatin'
I'm so afraid to be forgotten
To be pushed aside

It's easy for you
It's easy for you girl
It's easy for you
To say goodbye

You will live forever with a doubt in your eyes
I could have been your lover but you don't want to be mine
No I can't wait forever for a love that is a lie
We could have each other but we ran outta time

I need someone to love
I need someone to love
I need someone to share my love with
I
I need someone to love
I need someone to love
I need someone to share my love with
I

Arthur Gorden

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