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prod. me
mastered by @/griggs._ (insta)

cell towers
green august
cut hands with the pink nail polish
no flowers
no prom dress
no chance i could say what i wanted

no pictures
theyre all torn apart
i set them all on fire let it burn in the yard
i tried to run away
but i cant escape now
the flames have spread too far

you said it's alright
you told a story it was all lies
you always try to pick me up to watch me fall back down
watch it all die
i cant hold you now
you try to stay strong
but nobody told you how

i know youll never see me the way i see you
i thought i hid how i was feeling it was see-through
need you, but i need you
you made me the gloves that i would bleed through
falling like the leaves do

black berry thorns youre still there
just like the old clothes i still wear
so our plan didnt pan out
dont know where ill land now
just know i cant stay where i am now
ran out
used to be your man but i cant now
hands out 
i keep waiting on you while you stand your ground
i just really hope you know i still care
in the hills with the trees i dont feel bare

i said its alright
stay on call with you for all night
you always try to pick me up to watch me fall back down
watch it all die
i cant hold you now
you try to stay strong
but nobody told you how

you dont see what i lost
what it really cost me
pull of in a vacant lot
just to make it all green in my eyes
no shot
i cant shake em off me
its like just when i forgot
saw the leaves falling im

alright
you told a story it was all lies
you always try to pick me up to watch me fall back down
watch it all die
i cant hold you now
you try to stay strong
but nobody told you how

i know youll never see me the way i see you
i thought i hid how i was feeling it was see-through
need you, but i need you
you made me the gloves that i would bleed through
falling like the leaves do

green august

prod me

and if we fall out of touch
i'll be thinking bout if our call was too much
[?i'll mend it] silently i'll crawl to ur gun
you lied to me but its my fault that i fell for it, i folded up

the toll is up
you shouldered up, i felt that
i sold my lungs
petroleum will fill them
its all too much
you start to rush, i feel bad
put on a leash cause i just cant reel back

and now im breathing in my blood left on the pavement
i saw my face up on the tv its amazing
i finally found what im looking for
so good that i cant ignore
just let me lie on the floor in estrangement

and if we fall out of touch
i'll be thinking bout if our call was too much
[?i'll mend it] silently i'll crawl to ur gun
you lied to me but its my fault that i fell for it, i folded up

now every night
i do nothing but lie on my floor
just sitting and waiting (for, for, for, for)
can she give me a sign
when she looks in my eyes 
she'll trade her face for a dime
just cant replace being high

and if we fall out of touch
i'll be thinking bout if our call was too much
[?i'll mend it] silently i'll crawl to ur gun
you lied to me but its my fault that i fell for it, i folded up

crawl to your gun

lyrics :

at first glance i heard you on radio
you made it but you're not someone i used to know
only left out with the stones of your body
with the fame that it can make you be happy
but you still want more to keep you alive

it's deadly
it's deadly when you call it back
i know what it's like to get addicted
the consequences always come first yeah
but if that's what you like
let that be deep down your mind
i won't forget or forgive anything to you

any day anyway
it's time for me to get going
and thank you for listening
it's fast since i went missing
there's way too many eyes i can't handle
but i'm glad i didn't get blinded by the lights
i'll keep exploring through the night
see something new that i can find
walk alone don't fear if i get lost in tunnels of disguise
red carpet spirit soul gon' die
in hell this ain't a paradise
it's when i get terrified
afraid i'll be buried alive

i'm afraid i'll be buried alive

no forgiveness for you until you're buried alive

lyrics :

i've been so far away from my own home
and all my past tell me they'll never go
i'll be searching for a new road to start
i left so you won't notice
a new road to start

gone unnoticed
all i can do it's to move on
for you to get over me soon
it's hard to let go what i've seen what i've done
my hands are covered in blood
still feel like i'm not enough
still cannot find any love
myself i can't even trust
my head is covered in lust
i keep on tryna stop it
i did it for father forgive me i'm off it
they lost me i lost them

tryna find a reason
i buried underneath them
all i can do is hide from everybody else's vision
i wanna see the light but other half is seeking deep end
a new way of my life with all the problems every season

but i was still waiting up
the sun is closer
this is the closure your life is over
and i been sober since all of that's all gone i'll be free

tryna find a reason
i buried underneath them
all i can do is hide from everybody else's vision
i wanna see the light but other half is seeking deep end
a new way of my life with all the problems every season

yeah problems i don't see them

aftermath relapse

lyrics :

[ dialogue ]
you have made it
how are you feeling
clear your mind
i will guide you through this journey
everything will be fine
as long as you stay calm and follow my path
embrace the unknown
follow the right steps
open your eyes through soft spoken past tense to the hall of egress
farewell

[arys vance]
she said she will find me
she will guide me
cuz i'm naive to my emotions
is she lying?
am i just overthinking that i won't survive
she will find me
she will guide me
she will find me a tree to sit next by
on my own

keep a distance
i know that you've been listening
and it's a last time that you hear my voice
knowing that i been going missing from the world
but i cannot win your love so i'ma do my own thing
cuz i find comfort in my own circle
i know it's lonely all of that it's just an external

can i trust you?
with angel wings cuz i see through
inside your eyes what can i do
to get out of fire and leave too soon
before i die the strings are too loose
you lost my heart and it's falling in loop
missing piece and i can't renew
for second life and i see the value

but i can't go out no more
these feelings that i can't ignore
i shut up lie down on the floor
i've never felt like this before
it hurts to see myself in doors
i walk until my legs get sore
it struck right down into my core
this final piece inside a lore
and i go

she pull out my heart and let me see
what is hiding inside i left the things i couldn't fix it to be
she does what i couldn't do

she said she will find me
she will guide me
cuz i'm naive to my emotions
is she lying?
am i just overthinking that i won't survive
she will find me
she will guide me
she will find me a tree to sit next by
on my own

clear your mind

snapdragon

foxtail w/ riensu

lyrics :

as far as i go into the sunset
i'm always alone
you got nobody else to talk to
that's what i've been told
as far as i go
i need you the most
angel

i don't need none of that medicine
dopamine hitting my head again
i can see it through out different lens
the journey that i want it all to end
i'm not the same like i was back then
no need to wonder where i have been
all of the things that have happened
it taught me a valuable lesson

i know the world will never change
and our lives will never be the same
we don't go anywhere from here
oh i know

i will keep on moving on
until i faded disappear and gone
it's all i need
i wish i never born to see the world

nobody else will find a way to break inside
my grave i rest in tonight
enough is enough and i left it all behind
i don't wanna keep trying to reach you back

too bad
i'll reach the top
i'll go away forever
i don't exist in this world anyway
cuz my gravestone will be forever alone for so long

i will keep on moving on
until i faded disappear and gone
it's all i need
i wish i never born to see the world

gravestone

helper - agony

video out now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fnzyutj7XJ4

back like i never left x

__

set your mind right
i dont really care but
i just wanna know when the times right
and i know you got no friends but
i just wanna know where ur minds at
took a prozac
faded
left my third eye on a mindmap
fuck unconscious hating
you dont wanna know where my minds at

and i know you hate the sight but
i dont wanna leave when youre blinded
shed some tears in amsterdam cause
i dont wanna hear when we're fighting

wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses

i dont wanna hear when we're--
/wont cut away, cut away with your losses/
i dont wanna hear when we're fighting
/wont cut away, cut away with your losses/
i dont wanna hear when we're

-

produced by neverforever

tears

@voyageloveblank

사랑은 펜타닐 같지 않아
그렇게 해롭지 않단 말야
먹고 싶어, 하고 싶어
Oh, if you (Feel the same)
사랑은 망가지게 하지않아
수많은 씨발놈 중에 너와 나
난 너만을 넌 나만을 할퀴어 줘

너가 죽으려고 한다면
난 너를 위해서 약국들을 털어올게
너가 울으려고 한다면
난 너를 위해서 잠시 나가있을게

넌 용돈의 절반을 도루코에 써
그리고 남은 절반은 쿠로미에 써
내가 그 칼이었다면
너무 좋을텐데말 
야 네손목안으로

들어가고 싶어 대동맥을파헤치고
들어있던 적 혈구랑 인사를 하곤
너의 살에 배인 냄새를 맡어
너의 살에 베인 상처를 덮어

네 손목에 나쁜것들이 많아
38선 밑에는 씨발것들이 많아
넌 어딘가 고장난 엉망진창
근데 어케 내게 보일 용기가 나 so

Are you mad? You look sad
But that's okay, we have each other
뭉게뭉게 번개탄으로 잿가루 내며
여길 떠나자

좆 같은 서울
그런건 이제 안녕
좆 같은 년
그래 그런건 이제 안녕

사랑은 펜타닐 같지 않아
그렇게 해롭지 않단 말야
먹고 싶어, 하고 싶어
Oh, if you (Feel the same)
사랑은 망가지게 하지않아
수많은 씨발놈 중에 너와 나
난 너만을 넌 나만을 할퀴어 줘

사랑은 펜타닐 같지 않아

arys, 20 year old college student

music producer, 3d low poly artist/animator

gravestone

arys vance

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