lyrics:

I'm trying to seem complete
I wish you would stay with me
All of this emptiness eating me
Away, at all my skin
I never meant to be this way
I guess this is the end of me

I'm trying to seem complete
I wish you would stay with me
All of this emptiness eating me
Away, at all my skin

skin

lyrics:
All these bones in my closet
Fuel the sickness in my head
You're the one that I wanted
Until I got me some sense
It was something you said to me
That made me lose my train of thought
I wish it wasn't all worth it
But it's only just begun

I wish it was all worth it
But it's only just begun

i wish it was all worth it.

i wish it was all worth it

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lyrics:
I took what you said to me, to the chin
I feel your presence right in my skin
Trapped inside this forage, now the blood is on your hands
Maybe I could breathe again
Maybe I could breathe again
I couldn't live without you, but I like to play pretend
Wish I could get you right out my head
But since you been gone, I really just been a mess
I miss your lips, pressed on my skin
I'm scared to be alone, man I'm scared to be alone
I'm scared to be at home, trapped inside foam
Never really felt like I was known
I tried to make it out, I should've known
If I wasn't clear, I couldn't make it out that hole
I was trying, trying, trying, backpedal, all the way back, no
It doesn't count
I guess the end is near, I'm in my drought
Lost in translation, there's no doubt
I'm feeling like myself, is that okay
Lost consciousness, blood dripping down my face
I just want to love you, confidently out of shape
Haven't felt like myself, back since I made Outta State
It's a shame
I miss the way I lived, and felt so great
Want to swallow my pride, I feel like choking every gulp I take
Now I got no more energy, I've sealed my fate
I would let you in, I'm scared I'd be screwing up my own haste

lost in translation

grass in the field of flowers (interlude)

drums by me
prod by @psiloci

lyrics:
It's getting hard to breathe
Hardly finding peace
Letting all my inner thoughts, start taking over me
For you, I'd run away
Told myself everyday
I'll fuck all up my days just to see your smile fade away
It's getting hard to breathe
Hardly finding peace
Letting all my inner thoughts, start taking over me
For you, I'd run away
Told myself everyday
I'll fuck all up my days just to see your smile fade away

Help me, I cant escape
The thought of everyday
Listening to myself, ponder all of my mistakes
I don't wanna go, people always in the way
I been going through all these emotions, I feel so estranged
Now I'm up, up and away
All these nightmares seem to stay
I don't want to talk to you, get the fuck out my face
My emotions made of clay, all these teardrops fall in the rain
Just another fucking day, 'till I decide to fade away, fade away, fade away

It's getting hard to breathe
Hardly finding peace
Letting all my inner thoughts, start taking over me
For you, I'd run away
Told myself everyday
I'll fuck all up my days just to see your smile fade away
It's getting hard to breathe
Hardly finding peace
Letting all my inner thoughts, start taking over me
For you, I'd run away
Told myself everyday
I'll fuck all up my days just to see your smile fade away
It's getting hard to breathe
Hardly finding peace
Letting all my inner thoughts, start taking over me
For you, I'd run away
Told myself everyday
I'll fuck all up my days just to see your smile fade away
It's getting hard to breathe
Hardly finding peace
Letting all my inner thoughts, start taking over me
For you, I'd run away
Told myself everyday
I'll fuck all up my days just to see your smile fade away

even if i could tell you about it, you wouldn't care

this ones for u.

lyrics:
Now I'm alone once again
Tried to rekidle the end
But, missing all the pieces in the end
I couldn't live without you, but I like to play pretend
I, walk along this lonely road, the days they seem to pass me by
Knew you were my favorite, 'till you upped and left, and now I'm shy
Mention all my worst mistakes, I caught you off just by surprise
Wish we could've made amends
I swear
I swear to you that this'll be the end
I swear that I won't reach for you again
But, you could've stopped along, right by
Feelings upped, and they're all tied
I knew I couldn't live this lie
I swear
I swear to you that this'll be the end
I swear that I won't reach for you again
But, you could've stopped along, right by
Feelings upped, and they're all tied
I knew I couldn't live this lie
I swear

i swear

track 1 of journal entries.

You made it clear to me, that I was just a phase
The perfect image of the one you want, but I was in the way
Contradicted all the things you said, but I'm tryna save face
Now I'm sitting in my room, alone, with no one else to save
You made it clear to me, that I was just a phase
The perfect image of the one you want, but I was in the way
Contradicted all the things you said, but I'm tryna save face
Now I'm sitting in my room, alone, with no one else to save

I keep all of these memories of us locked away
A broken record player with the perfect tape
I let the air breathe a bit there's nothing left to say
Dont keep me guessing
Don't keep me guessing, it's okay
The writing on the wall was less mysterious than your face
Limbo, I'm trapped in while I watch you run away
I'm screaming, pleading, and now my voice just starts to fade
Don't keep me guessing
Don't keep me guessing, it's okay

You made it clear to me, that I was just a phase
The perfect image of the one you want, but I was in the way
Contradicted all the things you said, but I'm tryna save face
Now I'm sitting in my room, alone, with no one else to save
You made it clear to me, that I was just a phase
The perfect image of the one you want, but I was in the way
Contradicted all the things you said, but I'm tryna save face
Now I'm sitting in my room, alone, with no one else to save

phase

track 2 of journal entries.

When you caught my eyes, I knew you'd be the end of me
Here I go again, in purgatory, helplessly
I just know, no question, that you hate the thought of me
I thought things were normal, oh how very wrong of me
You took my trust, you spat it out
My dried up blood, I'll wash it out
My bodies cold, what's this about
Oh god, oh god, please help me out
My visions bleak, my lungs give out
Drop to my knees, I'm worried now
I can't believe, It's over now
I can never get back, the time we dealt

i know you hate me

You asked if I was good
I ain’t known since like a kid
This trauma building up
I don’t have that much more to give
My body’s feeling numb
These pills, I’m loving it
I can’t be asked again
To give somebody all I’d give

I told you that I loved you
You couldn’t comprehend
Said we’re better off as friends
You let me know you called it’s quits
I cried in my moms arms
My brother came right in
You left when I was down
Who would've thought it'd get to this

You asked if I was good
I ain’t known since like a kid
This trauma building up
I don’t have that much more to give
My body’s feeling numb
These pills, I’m loving it
I can’t be asked again
To give somebody all I’d give
You asked if I was good
I ain’t known since like a kid
This trauma building up
I don’t have that much more to give
My body’s feeling numb
These pills, I’m loving it
I can’t be asked again
To give somebody all I’d give

the air smells like rain, and you started to forget about me

#Trim

[Chorus]
Could've been me, but I see you going
Up, down, left right, I'm knowing
I don't wanna be seen with you, lil bitch, let's keep this shit on the low end
Been too turnt up for far to long, I barely know where I'm going
I be too locked in, been losing my mind, tryna see how far I'll go in
Could've been me, but I see you going
Up, down, left right, I'm knowing
I don't wanna be seen with you, lil bitch, let's keep this shit on the low end
Been too turnt up for far to long, I barely know where I'm going
I be too locked in, been losing my mind, tryna see how far I'll go in 

[Verse]
Stand tall on my own feet
Tryna be me, but it ain't so sweet
This shit ain't easy, baby, you talk to much, got to give me a week
I be locked up with my brothers, our minds race, all we know is eat
I'm tryna make history, baby, you can't distract me when you in heat
Running round town, I been up for weeks
Got to move tact, when you walking with me
Tried to make sense of all this shit going on, my mind been going bleak
Had to sip up on this medicine, just to put my mind to peace
Dropped to much to look like this again, shit cost me 4 a piece
Shit ain't sweet 

[Chorus]
Could've been me, but I see you going
Up, down, left right, I'm knowing
I don't wanna be seen with you, lil bitch, let's keep this shit on the low end
Been too turnt up for far to long, I barely know where I'm going
I be too locked in, been losing my mind, tryna see how far I'll go in
Could've been me, but I see you going
Up, down, left right, I'm knowing
I don't wanna be seen with you, lil bitch, let's keep this shit on the low end
Been too turnt up for far to long, I barely know where I'm going
I be too locked in, been losing my mind, tryna see how far I'll go in

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